>been lying in bed looking at my ceiling fan all afternoon, lackadaisically refreshing r9k
>dont want to play vidya
>dont want to drink
>dont want to watch anything
>don't want to jack off
i feel so fucked and dont know what to do. there's some really big LACK that i feel, that permeates everything i do and experience. I don't share a connection with any being on this earth
do you talk to people, OP?
>>28780030
nope
not a one
got nobody
all of my thoughts keep ricocheting inside my head, going faster and faster, fragmenting and degenerating, festering to the point where i think about necking myself. i have no outlet.
>>28780004
this has been my existense ever since i couldn't immerse myself into mmos like i used to
my only joy is eating lunch at mommys
and when its a nice day i sit in garden doing absolutely nothing, i put a bird feeder out in the small garden also on the 1 tree that is there and i can lay on the lawn chair and just watch birds visiting it a few feet away from me, even the birds seem not to notice me because of how hollow i am and how everything feels so utterly pointless in this fake holographic 'reality' prison we are in
>>28780090
oh alright, guess I can relate to you then. I was afraid you were some norming saying you had a "lack" and felt alone while going out with your group of friends. But yeah, we're in the same boat. 0. No one. I dont do anything either. just waiting that I hopefully die or something. I keep rationalizing everything like a good beta but at the end of the day its just sad
k going to bed now 4am
but OP maybe its time to commit suicide or make a disease that will kill everyone
