How does one cope with crippling depression and loneliness?
>>28770317
Wait 10 years, your emotions and sex drive will go away.
I wish I was lonely desu so no one would care or try to stop me killing myself (my annoying family)
>>28770353
Not OP but it has already gone away.
I'm living in a constant state of apathy, paranoia and confusion.
I wish I could get off this ride.
Suicide
Kill yourself
Buy a shotgun and paint the barn
>>28770317
Make internet friends, mine helped me go through some shit times in life.
pic unrelat
>>28770423
>tfw nanny state won't let me get a shotgun
>tfw no money for the exit bag
Reeeeeee
>>28770317
You have to realize that you have only two options
>Live
>Die
Choose one and just stick with it
Always glad to see another Inio Asano appreciator.
I have an appointment for a psychiatrist tomorrow, waited two months for it. Let's see what he says. I doubt he'll be able to help me anyway. I don't know how and if someone is able to get out of this fucking swamp of (self)hatred, loneliness, depression and bitterness once you fell into it. Initially I planned to live 10 more years and if nothing until then changed I'd kill myself. But the thought alone of living that long made me kinda sick. Ultimately I said to myself that if nothing changed one year after my 20th birthday, which was on the 15th December I'd do it and it really looks like It'll happen very soon. Hell, we're halfway into 2016 and I'm more miserable than ever. I still have that really unrealistic and foolish thought that someone comes out of nowhere and gives me salvation, but that should subside soon enough.
TL;DR: If you find out let me know
At this point depression has changed to complete apathy for me. I'm on a cocktail of Cymbalta, Lyrica, Xanax and weed most of the time. Otherwise I mostly sleep.
>>28770548
I'm a bit scared of psychiatrists. Something about people trying to pick my brain apart I am uncomfortable with. I've done, think, and seen so many fucked up things and I dont want people to know that.
>>28770548
>>28770420
I typically just always associated depression with being apathetic but either way majority of the time I'm apathetic but sometimes i get really sad.
>>28770930
>but sometimes i get really sad.
This coexists with me being confused.
Is there a name for being in a constant state of confusion?
>>28770317
Just take some acid my man, you'll be good. I'm dead on the inside because I lost the love of my life and she just walked out my door.
Write to yourself, OP. Write really nice things about yourself and write down your feelings and your likes and dislikes. Look at them a year later. Love yourself.
Making online friends from /r9k/ may help you feel less lonely (as you have someone to relate to). Avoid normies and failed normies and you'll be fine.
>>28771027
By confused do you mean like not really understanding people . If so I can relate to that.
>>28771075
I smoke a little weed here and there. I always wanted to try shrooms and I'm a little bit curious about acid. What is acid like?
>>28771092
I made a couple, but majority of /r9k/ is normies. It's hard finding decent people.
>depression
I have convinced myself that I will commit suicide after I graduate from university
>loneliness
realize that all human beings are just as shitty as you are and if you can't make yourself happy, then neither can anyone else
>>28770317
Easy enough, by shitposting on an Anonymous imageboard for virgins and original content.
> Misery enjoys company and quality shitposting
>>28770317
I hate myself and want to die
I hate myself and want to die
I hate myself and want to die
>>28771244
Not him but acid isnt some shit you can just take like nothing, like smoking a joint
Acid can either show you incredible things or it can really fuck you up. It needs to be respected. If you do it, you need to go into it with a good mindset and you need to prepare your environment as to enure the best vibes possible. Keep your mind open. And if it goes bad, you dont fight it. Im sure you know a little of this as you have smoked before, but acid is a serious perceptual change. Dont go into it just expecting some movie visuals and wacky lolsorandom montage.
Im trying to work up the courage to kill myself but im stuck in an awkward position of not having a reason to live but not having one to die so i just float through everything, kind of like a dream, with no meaning
>>28771244
I'm alone as well but I've been told its because I'm boring.
I believe one never grows out of coping. One day tho - it happens. You just lose that little bit of humanity that went along with your sorry ass. It's gone, and in this state of apathy and incoscient loneliness. Days, months and years will flash under your eyes in a moment and once you'll realize it - it will be too late.
I believe that wanting what you're doing is the best way to avoid this state of mind, even if it means you have to illude yourself a bit.
>>28770436
This image made me really sad
>>28770317
I drink.
Granted, it's not the best way to deal but it numbs shit down, and once in a while I manage a good cry.
>>28771446
Thanks anon, I'll remember that if I ever try acid.
>>28771488
I get that, just sort of going with the flow.
>>28771513
I think people who are all alone are really interesting.
>>28771741
Drink when I can afford to which unfortunately isn't often.
>>28771244
>By confused do you mean like not really understanding people . If so I can relate to that.
No, more like. The world literally doesn't make sense. Everything is weird, foreign, surreal.
Worst part is that my mind is just as bad. I can't understand my own thoughts.
Everything just feels extremely unreal. It stresses me out. It makes me sad. It makes me feel like complete shit.
Kinda like someone hurt you a lot, but it won't go away. mentally.
I wish I could describe it more accurately but I have no idea what's going when I'm "confused".
>>28772056
Image made me laught
>>28770317
Is Depression a Real mental illnes?
>>28770317
What are your views of humanity?
Do you think you're smarter and therefore of better character than everyone?
Do you think people are evil, criminal, selfish, or untrustworthy?
Do you socialize?
Do you care for your hygiene?
Are you pessimistic? Do you complain often? Do you share your negative opinions of things often?
Do you have any hobbies? Do you do anything that makes you feel connected to others? Do you do anything that makes you feel happy?
Of course you feel depressed and lonely, you're not doing anything that happy, connected people do.
>>28770317
Im having the feels today, didnt in a long time.
God please show me Her exists.
At least that.
>>28770317
Alcohol.
> original something something
>>28772056
A follow up because I have more to say.
I also feel intense urges to stab/hurt myself. I haven't done it because accessing tools (screwdrivers, knives) takes too long. Maybe it's for the better.
I just get a lot of impulsive thoughts. I used to spend money on my internet friends to make them happy. It made me happy as well. Sadly they started declining my offers which makes me very sad.
Fortunately I havent felt like this a lot lately. It's mostly apathy now. Which is slightly better, but not a lot.
I'm sure there's more but I can't think of it right now. I'm now thinking of writing everything down so I could get an overview of how I feel. Perhaps it would help me with explaining how I feel towards other people.
>>28772090
Same over here. I'm glad the Image made someone laugh.
>>28772138
>you're not doing anything that happy, connected people do.
except i don't enjoy doing what "happy connected people" do
>>28772212
That's the point asslick, you enjoy being a miserable fuck. You're choosing to do things that healthy people find appalling. You don't want to be happy.
>>28772248
nice assumptions bruv
>>28772199
>I also feel intense urges to stab/hurt myself.
Yeah don't start there, or you never end.
>>28771669
Because you don't have a cat buddy who likes playing card games?
>>28772212
>i don't enjoy doing what "happy connected people" do
>You don't want to be happy
>nice assumptions bruv
>a s s u m p t i o n
lol are delusional people joking or really this out of touch?
why is it so hard to connect with people
I feel like you guys are the only ones who understand, I can't feel anymore I just barely manage to get through the day and I even forgot why I am even still here sometimes
>>28772367
you just had a peek in normie train of thought.
>>28772340
I have cat
but small kid playing alone in room (cat is animal and just lie with card) make me sad
Yeah he is playing with cat and he is happy but this is how I interpret it
>>28772367
you think everybody can walk into a room with people and relax, joke, and enjoy the company?
>>28772367
>force myself to do things happy people do
>don't enjoy them
alri
>>28772199
Don't hurt yourself because It's pointless and people won't start looking for you "he is hurting himself, we need to help him"
>>28770317
I never finished Oyasumi Punpun. Is it good?
>>28772138
>What are your views of humanity?
idk, I just wished everyone was a little nicer and helpful instead of being so competitive and mean.
>Do you think you're smarter and therefore of better character than everyone?
I feel stupid compared to anyone.
>Do you think people are evil, criminal, selfish, or untrustworthy?
I do think everyone is untrustworthy. When someone gets nice with me I can't shake the thought that they have ulterior motives.
>Do you socialize?
I used to only socialize at college and with online friends. I don't have any clasmates at college anymore that I talk to. And all my online friends hate me because I got falsly accused for manipulating someone.
>Do you care for your hygiene?
I try to. But I have a hard time doing even the simplest things like brushing my teeth.
>Are you pessimistic? Do you complain often? Do you share your negative opinions of things often?
Despite feeling like shit and being paranoid to the point where I don't trust anyone. I'm an optimist and look at things as positive as I can make them.
I rarely complain because I don't feel strongly one way or the other most of the time. Which can piss people off because they see me as indecisive.
I don't hold any negative opinions either. I don't know why. It's something that makes me think that there's something wrong with me. I mean, who doesn't have negative opinions right?
>Do you have any hobbies? Do you do anything that makes you feel connected to others? Do you do anything that makes you feel happy?
I'm a musician. It doesn't make me happy anymore but it keeps me busy. I don't really share it with others because the people I've met are either below my skill level, or have a completely different mindset in what they want to do with their music (usually becoming famous/rich).
I got turned down again,I feel miserable.
>>28772281
>>28772491
I don't have any control over these urges as they come by randomly.
I hope I will never give in to these urges because I'm scared that I'll damage myself to the point where I'll suffer from longlasting problems.
>>28772518
>Despite feeling like shit and being paranoid to the point where I don't trust anyone. I'm an optimist
The first thing is the opposite of the second thing.....
>>28772655
It's weird anon. I don't understand it.
I guess it could be described as no hard feelings towards anyone?
It's an abstract kind of feel I guess.
>>28772655
He probably means that he has manic moments or that he forces himself to remain somewhat positive just so that life doesn't crush him completely.
>>28772607
Try stressball or something you csn squeeze in your hand
>>28770317
Occupy your mind by hurting yourself
It works for me
>>28772508
I think it's pretty good. I also like some of the authors other stuff like Solanin and Umibe no Onnanoko.
>>28772524
At least you tried.
>>28772905
I don't really want to hurt myself and people might notice evidence of self harm. I think I'll drink the pain away.
>tfw drugs wear off
>tfw tolerance so can't redose, or have to dose more
REEEEEEE, I want to be high/drunk forever, fuck boring sober existence
If you can feel loneliness you're not a robut you're a failed normie
>>28772984
>pretends not to care about interacting with people
>spends his time posting with others instead of doing something else
>>28772971
with the right antidepressants it is like you are constantly high.
of course not quite as strong as be real high or drunk, but it can make life ok.
>>28772508
Oyasumi Punpun changed my life, no joke. I should reread it.
>>28772963
I never read Solanin but Umibe no Onnanoko is also really good. It's the same kind of uncomfortable and hard hitting feeling.
>>28772508
It's my favorite of all time and I've read a lot.
goodnight punpun is so reddit-tier now. all kinds of tumblr sluts and attention whoring hipster girls getting punpun tattoos. its a shame really. another decent manga destroyed by normies
>>28773130
Fanbase doesnt matter it just means it got popular. Doesnt ruin it.
>>28772984
I guess that makes you a failed normie too.
>>28773070
Wish there was more anime and manga just like it. It definitely changed my life a bit
>>28773130
>muh secret club!!!
Literally who cares.
>>28770317
i turned it into anger
i don't recommend it
>>28773364
That post deserves a very bitter laugh anon.
>>28770317
Don't kill yourself. You will die fast enough. This is sad, but real.
>>28774697
It takes too long anon.
Image related.
It's how I want to go out. It both scares and comforts me.
>tfw alcohol is starting to make me more depressed and cry when I'm drunk
>tfw weed makes my anxiety worse
>tfw can't get xanax
>>28770317
its ok OP she still loves you
>>28771437
I'll give you a reply just because you seem to need one...
Hello, sad friend :)
>>28774867
You're making someone else a murderer though. That's not cool senpai.
