Post the reason you're still alive
i suck at killing myself
Tolerance I guess, my situation isn't shitty enough to warrant suicide.
Fear and mom
At least it's not hope anymore
I don't have a reason to die but then again, I don't have a reason to live.
>>28758682
>>28758760
people ffs you have to create your reason to live Please
I'm beyond the body-mind
>>28758779
reason is always imaginary
>>28758682
Just waiting for a new global conflict or the apocalypse, whatever comes first.
>>28758798
i'm beyond that and more.....
>>28758682
I'm just scraping by now, things may get better, they used to be a lot worse
>>28758682
Gotta get 99 strength first
Life support
>>28758682
There's no reason to suicide even though I've tried death by cop and overdosing and failed. I'm on a ton of medications so this maybe the meds talking but I don't want to suicide anymore. And my parents don't care if I leech off of them until I'm an old man, I'm 28 if they were gonna kick me out they would have done it by now.
I'm beautifulOriginal Reply
I have no reason to live
I have no reason to kill myself
I like a plant. I just exist and will die naturally.
>>28758682
Friendly reminder suicide is a sin and you'll go to hell if you kill yourself :^)
>>28758860
i believe in you...
don't give up
>>28758682
I fucking love wiccaphase man
>Think about killing myself
>remember my immense fear of dying
>>28758931
hahahahahaaha,
very funny
>>28758682
I've started enjoying vidya again since the last time I tried to off myself
>>28758874
details about suicide by cop
>>28758912
You, I like you, you get the point and have good taste in animu.
>>28758682
been suicidal for 11 years now. i figured that i might as well see this through to the end, if nothing else just to see how it goes. basically my life is just one big open world sim where there are no real consequences anymore because i don't have any desire to live any way
>>28758682
I don't have one. I would make one but it's frivolous anyway. I could change my reason next month ffs. There was never any reason to live in the first place, so why should I be bothered by it? That being said it bothers the shit out of me, and I feel like an edgy teenager. I don't care much for other's opinions of me though.
>>28759043
>no real consequences anymore because I don't have a desire to live anyway
This but with adversity. I try to be more stoic and not care about pain as much. The idea of want messed with me though and how to be happy. What do I do if I have a goal and don't reach it? What do I do once I finish it? Find a new one? Just do this forever?
This and hoping there is some genocide or war soon.
>>28759116
thanks for the (You), anon. have you read much stoic literature? i recently read meditations by marcus aurelius and really liked it. seneca is great too
A qt girl in Japan wants me to visit her.
I have friends who I care for and i wanna do a few things before I die.
God.
Also I genuinely hope to live long enough to fight in the robot war with all these firearms I spend thousands of dollars building.
>>28758682
I met a cute girl with the same interests as me literally the day after I failed a hanging attempt.
I know those of you who are in a dark place won't believe it, but it really can get better.
>>28758682
Have yet to try all antidepressant treatments.
My psychiatrist is sending me to some specialist, university-based group out of my city next week. I am hoping they might have some unconventional treatment plans.
heard 7 y/o son outside the door
>>28758682
My parents care about me and it would be devastating to them if anything happened to me. It's literally the only thing that keeps me going. I have never had the ability to feel close to other people so once they are gone it will be interesting to see what happens.
>>28759017
>Be me, suicidal and depressed
> Call police, mom snatches phone from my hand and hangs up before I can tell them that I have a gun
>Wait outside for the cop with a big butcher knife
>Cop asks me to put the knife down. I decline and say I might have to use it
>Mom goes outside and talks to the cop and tell them about my plan to suicide by cop
>I go back inside because I want the cop to come in and shoot me
> Wait and wait, nothing happens. Noone comes in.
> Look outside, cops all outside and their cars lined up down the street
>I get scared and put the knife down and walked outside
> Cop talks me into putting handcuffs on, explains to me im not under arrest
> They take me to and emergency center then I went to the psyche ward for 3 days.
No big deal ;)
>>28758682
My waifu. Not even being ironic.
>>28759292
I have to attest to this also, actually. Not the suicide part, but finding a mate.
I found the most unlikely female in the most unlikely place where I never would have looked. In fact, I sort of knew her for several years before we dated and I had made all of the wrong assumptions about what she was like. Completely wrong. And I'm pretty damn far from normie.
You still have to have your own life and find satisfaction, but there's good qt's out there.
Some days though, shit still absolutely sucks.
If I work hard enough, I'll probably be able to find the success I desire. At the very least, I've deluded myself into believing such a thing.
>>28759341
>Putting a cop in that situation
>Forcing them to have to live with the fact they killed someone for no reason.
lel
>>28758682
I live to shitpost another dayand daydream about my waifu.
>>28758682
I don't even know, and that scares me. I'm living on autopilot.
>>28759354
my man you have good taste
>>28759354
>>28759401
I fuck with you guys
Truthfully speaking? Maxing my stupid fucking runescape account. It's the only joy I get after I get home from work. If it weren't for runescape, I wouldn't have any goals.
I don't know what I'll do once I max, good thing I'm taking my time doing it.
>>28759364
That guy again. It was the most unlikely place possible. We met in a hallway waiting to talk with HR, when I noticed she had a Bowie patch, which I mentioned then we just started talking about music for the next five minutes. We got to know each other, then started talking afterwards. But just those few minutes I waited outside and noticed the patch changed everything for me. I used to think that the whole idea there could be that one thing that can make it worthwhile was bullshit, and that the only escape in life was to kill myself, but that proved me wrong.
Fear and vestigial hope that stubbornly remains in spite of the facts being insurmountable and paermsnent as they are.
Intellectually understanding the extent to which you are fucked isn't enough. There's a part of me in my mind that won't budge, but I imagine that's the minds self preservation mechanism.
Music is literally the only thing that keeps me going. Im learning piano and am currently playing debussy after 6 months. Only thing Im really good at.
>>28758682
i don't want to be dead? my life is tolerable enough to warrant continuing
>>28759444
>the nightmare that is 99 construction
I know it's changed a shit ton since I've played, but good luck with that.
>>28759479
Eh, I have the money for it if I wanted to get it. Currently have 150m saved for skills, and have all t90 weapons/power armour. I'm trying to grind out slayer, fishing, and divination right now.
Waiting on beta uprising
But honestly because I'm too persistant to give up on the dream of love
I'm fighting a losing battle but I'll be damned if I give up now
One day I'm going to get love and nobody will be able to take it away from me except Death
>>28759116
Not too much. I've read Meditations. Im gonna read Aristotle for right now. How much did Epictetus write? Can you tell me about Seneca? At the end of the day I think I just need an idea that I can be content with. I need something that makes sense to me. You could just argue nihilism against that I guess.
Blog post incoming
I was driving back home in the coldest day of the year. If I stayed outside too long I could die. On the way my car fills with smoke and I don't know if I'm gonna be able to make it. I was in a rough spot with a friend of mine and I wasn't ready to die like that. I was scared and felt like a bitch. My phone worked though and I had someone pick me up. Later I thought that even if things fell out wth my friend I could at least have been deserving of better despite what would happen. I also thought that as long as I tried to do what I thought was right I could live with that, or die with it.
I think I need an idea like that. Except dealing with finding a will to go on rather than sleep forever
I'm too much of a coward to kill myself
don't know how to dispose of the body without embarrasing myself. yea i know ill be dead but fuck if ill let them find my cum napkins and shit. also when they dispose of the body they might make fun of my triple chin so not risking that
My dad. He's a great person and has always been there for me. Only reason I'm still alive today
>>28759589
I heard of a man who went off in the ocean one night and tied a cement block to his leg and jumped in the water, burned the boat down too. Kept the body underwater (when dead bodies rise to surface) and little to no trace of the boat kept things y'know hidden. Don't actually kill yourself though, post-mortem there would be larger things to worry about than your body being found/
>>28759535
Meant to reply to
>>28759200
Glad you enjoyed the >>(you)
>>28758682
The reason(s) I'm still alive is because I can't leave my mom. My Gma just passed so she's home alone at the moment until I get enough money to go back to her this summer. I'd love to visit/work in Japan before I die because I feel like if I go there I'd be truly happy. Another reason is that I want to see myself succeed and do my dream job(s).
>>28758682
This century is going to see some interesting shit go down between AI and VR and big changes to the economy and advances in science. Why rush the inevitable and miss out on vicariously observing all this cool shit? Life isn't so bad.
>>28759535
aristotle is pretty comfy. i haven't actually read a whole lot of epicetetus, but i'm pretty sure he only has 2 actual books. right now i'm reading maxims by de la rochefoucauld. i know he's not a stoic per-se but a lot of his ideas seem to fit the mold.
i understand wanting an idea or something that makes sense to you; i think that's why i originally got into philosophy. despite this, it seems like the more i get into it, the less i find myself able to 'believe' in anything though.
my tall beautiful skinny indian gf who is asleep beside me in my bed
>>28759732
fuck off this board normalshit
My whole reason for being is to join the army and seeing myself succeed. I am actually surprised that I didn't killed myself
I wait for Evangelion 4.0. If Anno fucks it up i'll kill myself.
>>28758682
What about Adam keeps you alive or is it pic unrelated?
>>28758682
Mom.
GO FUCK YOURSELF ROBOT THIS IS ORIGINAL ENOUGH DAMMIT
My love
>supplant the robot overlord so I'm not muted
>>28760036
Unrelated, his music helps me set my mind straight tho
>>28758682
Dying is such a hassle.
Fear. I'm really afraid of the nothingness.
>>28760023
He already fucked it up with 2.0. 3.0 was even worse and I suspect 4.0 will be worse still. EOE was a satisfactory end, I don't see a need for a remake.
>>28758682
I'm not killing myself until I become a famous musician.
Mommy is the only reason i stay. She would be destroyed beyond repair if i left.
She's the only woman I ever loved...not because I'm a misogynist spike, but because I'm a gay fag.
Dead or alive I don't care maaaaaannnn.
>>28758682
I'm waiting for technology to advance to the point where I can have a second chance. A way to effectively be reborn into another life.
>>28758682
my reasons are that:
A. I haven't found a could place to hang myself
B. I'm too fucking lazy to buy a rope
I'm literally too lazy to even kill myself. it makes me want to kill myself even more
>>28760976
What do you have in mind?
37ufj4hru
Parents
Girlfriend
Extended family
Hope of one day having children
I noticed I'm very family orientated lately, I honestly don't even care what I'm doing twenty or thirty years from now provided we're financially secure and can enjoy spending time with each other
>>28758682
I want to be alive to see all of the people I hate die. Also as of now people are paying for me to live, I don't have it in me to kill myself, and no one will kill me so I guess I have to live. It's whatever though
>>28758682
Unrelenting Spite
The negative karma that comes with suicide may carry a less than ideal re-embodiment.
>>28759444
You should actually fucking kill yourself for not being maxed on rs3 in 2016.
Maybe, someday I'll be brave enough to approach her...
someday...
>>28761075
>Playing rs3
Nigga...
>>28761015
Using VR or conciousness transfer to be reborn to grow up in a vastly different world.
>my memories are erased
>"grow up" in a small town where people aren't assholes
>have a small core group of friends who are loyal to each other through thick and thin
>have some variety of love interest who actually might love me back
>slowly come to care for each other and eventually get married
>the world isn't fucked, so she wouldn't be some braindead roastie looking for the next cock to jump on
>people in that world have their faults to be sure, but are mostly genuinely caring and compassionate
I know it'll never be possible, but I don't want to bank on death providing me with anything other than oblivion, so technology's all I have left to wait on. I don't care if they'd all be AI, anything's better than this world. If it's conciousness transfer, I'd instruct the server or whatever to delete me after we'd grown old and "died". Just that life would be enough.
>>28761093
I don't, but the game's been out for 15 years
>>28761112
this
it feels bad knowing this probably won't ever happen
>>28761112
I feel you. I guess I'd be lying if I said I never considered staying alive because of things like this giving me the possibility of a fresh start.
>>28758682
>waiting to see what my face will look like when im older
>waiting to see what I look like with a full beard
>waiting for robot waifus
Someone with more money than I do financed the majority of it.
>>28758682
i wish to mass produce this device and carry on the will of the supreme gentleman as the ultimate tribute to his legacy
My best friend would kill herself if I killed myself, so lets hope we don't get into a fight
>>28758682
Getting maxillofacial surgery next year
>>28761614
holy fucking shit my sides
this is fucking genius
>>28758707
Are you retarded? Lol its not that hard man come on
>>28758682
I don't want to hurt my mom, and there's a faint sliver of hope that I might one day pull myself out of this mess.
I know ill die someday so im trying to have fun because nothing matters and if I suicide itll be on stage I promise ill be a famous comedian one way or another
>>28761362
>>28761170
It's nice to think I'm not alone in this, but then I'm a bit sad there are other people in similar situations to me.
There's nothing else in this world I want, money, power, eternal youth. I'd throw it all away for that second chance.
this manga
I know that everything is meaningless, we are finite in infinite etc. Ive thought about it for a lot of reasons and emotions. My reasons for not are it would devastate my family and genuine curiosity. I figure good or bad whatever comes is the only time ill ever have being alive, might as well soak as much up while im here because its all gonna be over soon enough
>>28758813
This. Wanna see all the normies dead. Fuck.
>>28758682
Didn't expect to see a picture of wicca phase on /r9k/
>>28758682
I'll die anyway so why kill yourself?
>>28759239
Say goodbye to your gaijin organs
>>28758682
Because it never hurts to do it.
Family.
Hopefully things are gonna get better but I've concluded I can just waste my time here until they're all dead or I can't help dying (age or sickness).
I wish I could find someone to help in the meanwhile because there's no joy in anything for me so what should I spend time on? Helping someone is the only sane answer.
Suicide is too much work and/or too scary
James Bond movies, Zelda games, and yaoi/bara
>>28758682
family really, mainly because I'm the only one they had
If they had another it wouldn't be so bad as there'd only be one fuck up
>>28764716
I'm 1/5 and I have to consider my siblings reactions.
It only gets worse.
