So tell me what exactly is wrong with you
>>28755653
not much. right now im going through a weird mental patch, but im generally happy. i think im spending way too much time on 4chan. the major issue is i dont have the same passion i used to for what i do. and i think its just cuz im focusing on the wrong projects. when i love em i immerse.
>>28755716
I agree, spend less time on 4chan and the internet in general. It certainly killed my passion. It's amazing how fast it comes back though. It only took me a few days to feel normal again. Glad to hear you're generally happy, anon.
My mind is kind of fucked up.
>>28755653
I'm trans and I can't repress it anymore, sadly
>>28755755
its a recent development. one i think stems back to when i was sick and unable to work i just spent all my time here. that and the instant gratification of the /adv/ board.
you are right though. im gonna go work on my project right now.
thanks for the push anon.
No desire for human intimacy. Not sure if that's a bad thing.
I have no drive or motivation to do anything. I'm nearly incapable of talking to people due to being coddled all my life. Only have one close friend, outside of WoW, and I'm afraid we'll drift apart cause im always so unenthusiastic and energy-less. I want to be a game dev, but lack the motivation to learn stuff independantly, but also lack the motivation to go to university and do work. This overwhelming laziness is crushing; I feel useless.
>>28755819
if it doesn't negatively impact your life, then its not.
but if you find yourself sitting around wondering why you are miserable, then chances are you DO desire human intimacy, you just dont admit it.
I desire girls... in sexually atteacted to girls. But girls are not attracted to me. I have a problem with this...... a major problem.... one that i intend to rectify
........heh heh heh
>>28755789
thats too bad , unless you pass i guess . still your a guy in dress that thinks he's a girl , totally fucked in the head .
I'm insecure for some reason. I kind of hate my life right now. I got into a car accident three years ago. I just go to rehab and post here.
I have a massive fear of intimacy and just trusting women in general on an emotional level and I can't even tell you why, although a proper psychiatrist could probably figure it out, I can only deal with it one day at a time.
>>28755653
I feel overwhelming lonely. The highlight of my week in terms of being social is listening to a 75 year old woman reminisce. My parents won't let me have a pet. I can't get a job.
I'm a worm who should die.
All I do is read pretentious bullocks for no reason other than to be able to come off as smrt. But to who? I have no friends lel, and if I did I would not want to droll on for hours about Dostoevsky or some stupid shit like that.
I'm just not happy and I doubt I ever will be.
I can do a good enough job of faking it but in the end I know I'm not happy. I have everything I need in my life but I still feel nothing for it. I'd have probably killed myself years ago, after my cat died, if I didn't get a girlfriend who got me a new one. They're probably the only things I give a shit about anymore because they need me to live.
You ever look at someone and you just hate them? You don't know why, but you can't fucking stand someone just from a look? That's how I feel when I look in the mirror.
>>28755653
Fucked up past, mostly
Got diagnosed with Asperger when I was really young and spent time in a mental hospital because of it.
People there were kinda abusive and I got ruffed up by enough of those strangers it gave me some huge thrust issues I've never been able to resolve ever since
Live in a constant state of shame because I was convinced very early that I could do something about my Asperger but really the best I can do is hide it so I constantly feel some form form of guilt for not being a normie and merely lying about being one
>>28755942
Similar situation. I look pretty good actually, strong jaw, not bad looks, muscular, good job, got a house, sports car and everything I need but I can't remember the last time I was actually happy. Usually it was only when I was on a lot of drugs and hanging out with friends in my teens and even then, it was very fleeting.
Lot of self loathing while still feeling better than most everyone. I am superficially charming, I can usually get along with almost anyone and most people like me. I just find myself so fucking bored all the time but can't find a hobby I really like. I figure I will off myself when things get extremely boring and start to lose any looks I still have.
>mfw literally all of these problems are solved with getting off the internet, reading more, going outside more, exercising, and a healthy diet
>>28755653
I've been telling myself too many scary stories and not enough happy ones
The world itself is rife with them and I let it get to me
I wish I had chosen a different kind of life
I don't mean that in the material sense, but in terms of what ideas and beliefs I surround myself with, and what feelings and perspectives I generate
I have no romantic prospects and have lost hope in ever getting in another relationship (only one was in college 2.5 years ago). I started fucking hookers a couple months ago.
I just don't get what's wrong with me and I feel very bitter and jealous towards normies who can easily get laid.
>>28756177
Why are you so focused on getting laid? Don't other things matter more?
>>28755653
According to a guy with beads I'm "closed off."
>>28756339
Maybe.. But it just seems like getting some kind of attention from women is the one thing I can't have. I have friends, a good job etc. But I never find women who are attracted to me, something that seem so trivial to most people.
>>28755653
i think i'm unlucky as hell and experience tends to show me i'm right about that
I'm okay.
Just that I have a shit ton of assignment due next morning but I'm browsing /r9k/
I'm an asshole. I get perverse pleasure from fucking with people who choose to be stupid. Many of my friends are the same way.
>>28755653
Psychologically speaking, I no longer qualify as human. I'm just an empty shell of a cunt living out his final days. The game's over, I lost, and this is my shitty bad ending epilogue.
>>28755653
Want boyfriend. Can't have one.
>>28757494
I'll be your bf
I don't even care about looks anymore. I just want to connect with another human being
I can't stop telling myself what a fucking loser I am when conversing with people, even family, nor can I maintain eye contact for very long.
It's almost impossible to put words together unless I'm looking away from the person I'm talking to.
>>28757770
I care more about either whatever bizarre looks will attract me (which are almost totally unpredictable) or how similar to me someone is (nobody is remotely close). That's basically why one of two reasons I don't have one. The other is that all attractive gay men are sluts.
>>28755653
I'm a mentally ill tranny freak. Stuff sucks.
I don't know what I want out of life. I never have
I don't know and I don't want to know. What i know is everything is horrible.
>>28757861
The only thing that stops my self-criticisms is prozac, and I already feel like I'm building up a resistance to that.
>>28755653
>5'4
>clinically diagnosed with borderline pd and bipolar disorder
>pick at skin/pull hair follicles out on my arms
>ran out of lucky charms
>spilled the last of my ramen noodles all over the floor
I need to trip badly. For medicinal purposes. I am in agony.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uqBGTnUukg
>Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
>Schizotypal Personality Disorder
>Persistent Depression
>Social Anxiety
>19 (closer to 20 now) kv
>severe depression and anxiety meme 'illness'
>AvPD meme illness
>raynaud's disease
>generalized hyperhidrosis
>worsening drug addiction
>stress and porn induced ED
>sometimes I think I might be a pedophile
>>28755653
I don't think there's anything "wrong" with me. an abnormal life isn't necessarily a bad one, it's all about what you do with your circumstances
I'm happy desu and can't imagine living any other way
No doctor willing to prescribe me HRT.
Ordering online is trial and error taking an entire week.
Thought I could just hire an endicringeologist off of 4chan.
Realize how risky that is to them.
>>28758187
What trial and error do you mean? It pretty straight forward, do you just have a problem receiving or not in the US?I see that /thg/ post
>>28758227
Not in the US.
Found a place that (supposedly) ships to anywhere, it's been about a month since I first tried ordering and this is attempt #2.. anyway....if you mean tetrahydrogestrinone then hurrrg no
>>28758187
>>28758285
Does inhouse not work anymore?
They were my go-to back in the day
Never had a problem with them but they're not much of a secret anymore
>>28758285
>i mean it seems like its legit etc, i just realized how i worded that like it sounds im getting ripped off
Anxiety to the point where I can't keep a job, OCD ruins any free time I have, talents that are wasted because of insecurities. Can't do anything outside of laying in my bed all day.
>>28758312
They do not ship to where I live.
Anxiety prevents me from making headway on anything whatsoever, minimum wage job is stressful for little reward, only thing to look forward to is societal changes, nothing in my own life, this makes me feel helpless
