why am i scared to commit suicide
i wish i could just do it
>>28742539
Get away from your computer and house.
You need to breathe and calm down, you're in an anxiety ridden situation.
Personally I might just go up and get a fast food job so I have something to do other then be around my family that hates me, walking to and from work will get me used to being human again I hope.
I need to get in shape for the military, it's really my best hope since going to school and living at home is a no go due to them pressing me for rent I have to dip into my meager savings to pay.
idk OP, idk.
we fell off the horse and it kept running
why do you wish to do it?
>>28742597
thank you for the support ill probably regret making this thread when i sober up
>>28742600
idk i cant handle the real world
I don't know. Personally I don't want to kill myself in the house, because it would make a mess. Kinda silly, I know.
But I only have a long rifle, so parents would be suspicious where I'm leaving with the long gun bag. But that's just excuses I think.
>>28742539
Because if you kill yourself, you won't have /r9k/ anymore. We value it here.
>>28742539
Throw yourself in front of a train during rush hour
Make people late for work dude lmao
>>28742539
Because your either scared to die or find value in life.
Probably because someone still cares for you, or you have some unfinished business. When that's out of the way, you'll get drunk one night, put the barrel of a gun to your head, and pull the trigger. End of the line.
Can relate. Don't worry, it's best that way. Life will become better if you just do something about it. Go do something you enjoy (other than watching porn and masturbating, obvi...)
Order a gram of heroin off the darknet and rail the whole thing. It would be the best way to die IMO.
>>28742539
>why am i scared to commit suicide
It's because you aren't as sad as you think you are.
I used to be so depressed it physically hurt. I can't imagine what people who have actually killed themselves were going through.
There is always that part of you who think that there is hope and that everything will turn alright.
>>28743313
and that part is what keeps me going. it's weird, you'd expect a negative person like me to give up but I'm extremely persistent.
Exit bag. You're welcome. Goodbye.
>>28743052
how did you stop being depressed?
>>28743052
this. If you hesitate to kill yourself you're not sad enough. If you're afraid of the pain you're not going through enough pain. When you're truly going through hell, you'd take anything to get out in a heartbeat.
>>28742597
>military
A literal cuck.
Both of my only friends have killed themselves this year. Don't do it it's shit.
Because you're an animal who is programmed to survive
>>28745864
Nothing wrong with the military, not that anon but the benefits are worth
Me personally I would hate to be ordered around all day by people who consider themselves superior to me just because they've been in it longer than I have
>>28742539
just do it mang
>>28742539
OP here
i have once tried to hang myself and it felt like my neck was slowly breaking. my legs started to spaz out like a retard. ever since then i think im scared of trying to attempt suicide,at least that way anyway
im not much of a sad person but i am a neet loser
will things ever get better ? i know it can if i try but i cant find the motivation
>>28742539
If you're like me you have a low tolerance for pain and or fear that you screw it up and become a vegetable / disfigured, then you're in a much worse position then you are now
Too bad we don't have assisted suicide places where docs can help you carry it out with no chance of fucking it up
>>28742893
HAHA ABSOLUTE BRILLIANCE !
>>28746633
They can get better. I started changing the way I dressed and got therapy and some meds. I still get bummed. I am now. But not suicidal anymore. Also, go out and get some air. See nature.
>>28745734
hacks
>>28742539
Find something you like OP. I don't think you should kill yourself.
>>28742812
The real world you know isn't real. It's just the way society has turned into. The real world is about surviving.
because you wouldn't want to commit suicide in the first place if you have an ounce of courage.
For you OP
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKq0vvA16Ts
>>28742539
You want things to get better, but your brain is too tired and sad and death seems like a tasty idea. Go for a walk anon.
Or go to adv. it can be a hug box but sometimes that's all you need to feel better
