> feel bored and sad
> want to sleep to escape
> realize it'll be the same tomorrow anyway
> think what can i actually do to escape this
> nothing i've tried has worked
> know i can play vidya or watch tv to distract myself
> realize its just a meaningless distraction
> repeat
who knows this feel? im fucking trapped.
Welcome to enlightenment my son, no going back now.
>>28732125
im too stubborn to believe this is it, forever. i wasn't like this before
>>28732098
I feel ya. And now I also miss my cat. RIP Quasi.
>>28732153
Do you know anyone who has returned from the abyss? I'm not talking about normieshits having a bad hair day and claiming to be in despair either.
>>28732179
no, but i only know 1 other depressed person
you're more close to the truth than you think
go on, anon
embrace it
don't try to escape the black hole, it's impossible
dive right into it, and see the Truth
Speaking of black holes, you'll find something that hides the despair well enough to even leave this board. It may take months or years, but it will creep back and you'll return to r9k. Happened to me many times. You'll realize there is no true escape.
You need a goal to work towards, even if it's a hobby related goal.
What's the thing you care about most of all?
>>28732337
>>28732125
i dont even know what you two are on about
>>28732337
robot-observer here, what is the icon on the right for the final stage? i don't recognize it
>>28732392
i work on my hobby vidya sometimes. but who cares? its just something to pass the time, it doesn't change anything
>>28732369
i pity the ones who chase shadows for the eternity, because they will never see the light itself, the source of all shadows
>>28732409
basically "the spoon scene of matrix 2: simplified edition"
don't try to bend the spoon, there is no spoon
>>28732446
lotus, simbol of life
basically, happiness and bliss
Yup, I know how you feel. Play vidya and volunteer to distract myself. Sit with the old lady down the street and listen to her ramble while we smoke up and do drugs.
Everyone told you life was going to get better. They lied. It won't, it only gets worse, day after day. The same crippling feeling of worthlessness, wretchedness, and that unbearable weight on your shoulders that gets heavier every sunrise. Was told helping people would make me feel better. It doesn't. It only reminds me of my future. coming to the food pantry for scraps handed out by people with false sympathy in their eyes when they hand you a can of beans and some ramen noodles.
Have to wear a catheter when out in public because it freaks me out so fucking badly I literally piss myself. I hate myself, I hate what I've become. I can't find any point in waking up anymore. It's my worst habit by far.
>>28732524
you're full of shit dude
fair enough if you found a sense of superiority in your suffering. some cognitive dissonance to provide "reason" for your suffering, a final reward at the end of the hard long road, but its all horseshit and you're a fucking faggot tbqh
>>28732548
don't worry, your time will come
>>28732098
Always
I know this feel. If I didn't have my laptop I'd be very bored and lonely. It's the only thing that keeps me distracted from my sad reality. It's all I fucking do plus sleep and only leave my room when I need to shit, piss or eat
>>28732548
real as fuck post anon. that catheter sounds rough
>>28732574
> HURR WE'LL BE MONKS N SHIET
fuck off cunt
>>28732574
That's also a familiar line. does it come at the end of a noose or a barrel? Do I have to suck the barrel off until it ejaculates hot lead? What's the goddamn process for this shit.
>>28732560
>>28732609
>>28732623
do you think i care about being superior to an anonymous bastard on an imageboard?
do you really think i care about someone i will never meet in real life face to face or anything else?
you are one among millions constantly bashing their head on the wall like this >>28732548 prick, forcefully devaluing life because they're "sick", they're unable to feel joy anymore for a sick joke of this world, which is the byproduct of a society that spreads the lie that everyone is perfect and everyone will be happy
the truth is, no one will be happy if your meaning of "happiness" is the same one they promote in their propaganda.
look at all these mindless drones, going for their lives, working, having sex, sharing "happiness" with their fellow pals, dying from old age and then with a smug grin thinking on their death bed "i had a good life".
some of them are conditioned to appreciate things and to work to get said stuff, and those who fail\do not make it are doomed to suffer for eternity
people claim their labour is to build a heaven, yet their heaven is populated with horrors
the greatest truth a man can discover is how to master himself and realize the thick lie of the happiness\sadness dichotomy this world has brought to us all
bitterness and despair are the tools of the lost ones, whose eyes can't see the path anymore
focusing your mind on what you can't obtain and looking for earthily pleasures to "distract" yourself is the same as looking away when a bear eats you alive
it doesn't work like that
the black hole of nihilism hits the most unfortunate ones, whose lives and skills aren't "adequate" for this world
they kill themselves, because they see no escape
the truth is, you can't escape
dive in it, embrace the black hole, embrace absurdism, seek the path and become one without form
happiness and sadness are an illusion, as much as hope, ambition, pleasure, pain and anything
>>28732719
> do you think i care about being superior to an anonymous bastard on an imageboard?
uhhh yeah. look at that tryhard post you just wrote..
now fuck off out the thread please
>>28732807
tryhard, useless, pretentious, useless
call my words however you want
there is no reason to be unhappy because your life is different from the one of others
i really hope you will realize it someday
>>28732860
> there is no reason to be unhappy
>>28732952
yes, why?
why are you unhappy because of things you don't have?
craving?
why do you crave?
>>28732952
His idea of 'unhappy' and ours seem to be wildly, vastly different on so many levels it almost makes me want to attempt to laugh.
>>28732972
original comments and senpai tbqhmfamily
>>28732988
> it almost makes me want to attempt to laugh
its ok anon, you don't need to fake laugh here
its exhausting enough in RL
>>28732988
you can argue semantics
you can't argue reality
>>28733039
shiggy la diggity original comments senpai
>>28733087
you can't bring a man to nirvana
you can show him the path, but you can't bring him there
i hope you will be fine
>>28733147
beep boop robot posting original comments boop
>>28732098
Change one habit.
My default state is insensate and emptiness.
I would suggest changing a habit/your current rhythm.
Chasing sensation will remind you that you've got yourself in a self imposed cage.
It'll help tether you to the world, and hopefully spark an idea or point of focus for you.
>>28733147
You're about as deep as a frying pan anon, go try that shit on vampirefreaks so you can snag one of those mystical ghost whales I hear tell of.
>>28733167
i dont even want to get better anymore
i know that doesn't make sense but the only impulses i feel are to destroy and suffer even more
>>28732719
I feel like Buddhism is 2deep4u hippy bullshit but your last line was pretty good.
>>28733281
> thinks this image is worth posting
> thinks a line in that post was "pretty good"
sometimes i forget we share with board with underage b& fags
>>28733281
i never said anything about buddhism, anon
maybe nirvana, but that's just a word i used to describe the awakening
i'm not even a buddhist
Get a fucking job
All you dumbass NEETs need to realize that having a job does the following
A.) Gets you out of the house
B.) Forces you to interact with people, thereby increasing your social skills
C.) Have money for things you want
Sure fucking beats being like OP
>>28733229
Do you experience any desire?
Is destruction and suffering the only way of validating your existence/directly experiencing the impact of your personhood?
I've morphed my need for self destruction into exercise and experiencing mild discomfort.
>>28732098
Its my life for past 6 years. I am feeling wore and worse every year. I feel sick all the time, my sleep is fucked up, i am alcoholic, and i want to kill myself more and more
>>28733414
How about you post something worth reading then? Nut up or shut up
>>28733801
You posted that pic with Buddha no? I find the idea of want interesting to discuss I suppose. Schopenhauer said that we would always just want more. However if you don't want anything would you move? You would just stop no? Do you take an absurd approach to unhappiness and revel all experience? How do you live anon?
