>tfw even alcohol and marijuana don't numb the pain anymore
What do I do now?
opiates my man
;^)
>weed making pain 10x more now
I DIDN'T MEAN TO DISAPPOINT YOU MOMMY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
>>28729853
Just get regular counseling. Had I done that, I wouldn't have recently ruined my life and career with weed
move on to the big boy stuff now
>>28729853
Get jerb?
kill self.
it's the best drug in the world.
>>28729853
>alcohol doesn't numb the pain
You're not trying hard enough.
>>28729853
>tfw I don't drink
>tfw I just sit there in thought about the pain
>>28729877
I don't have a life or career to ruin.
Benzo or opiates would be the next step but prepare to have your life ruined.
t. Benzo addict
>>28729961
Ex benzo addict here, I miss it.
>>28729853
Just stop using them for while it's called tolerance
Dab, stronger alcohol
>>28729853
>>28729993
That works for weed, Doesn't work for alcohol though.
You dont get it fool, escapism is only temporary. The more it takes to escape the more damage is done to you before you finally croak. Running away like a faggot merits your pathetic fate instead of embracing the pain and letting it become you
>>28729900
This
Originalollo6646645
>>28730056
You could have just told him to kill himself instead of tipping your fedora.
>>28729853
Have you ever had a screwdriver anon? Its fucking great. Get buzzed at breakfast
>>28730110
Suicide is for pussies as well.
>>28729853
DXM, that's the only freely available over the counter drug i can think of that has significant effectFOR FUCKS SAKE I AM ALONE AT HOME AND FORGOT TO BUY DXM FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK KILLSELF Y EVEN LIFE MIGHT AS WELL SHOOTSELF INTO HEAD, THESE AINT DRUGS, NIGGA, dats my best friend dats my best friend
>>28729853
HEROIN
fug im not original
>tfw can't get mad enough anymore
reeee
i want to get so fucking mad again that my heart rate gets to like 150 or so just by sitting and getting mad. i fucking tried everything: playling league of legends, going into tons of threads on 4chan and being hostile for no reason and argueing and shit
i just barely get mad. whats the next step? picking fights IRL?
>>28730176
Ch-Chris Farley?
>>28729877
>weed ruining you life
Nigga, are you literally daft?
>>28729984
>>28729961
>becoming dependent on benzos
You done fucked up
Good news! It's time to do some LSD, OP.
You confront your problems and try and to find a resolution instead of trying to self medicate.
>>28730244
Lol fuck off m8
>>28730244
Make me nerd
8
>>28730244
There is no resolution.
>>28730348
Y'all livin in standard def while I'm surfing the wave of FOOOOOUR K
>>28730238
LSD won't solve his issues gay faggot.
Benzos will make the pain go away in exchange for his soul.
DXM/ketamine/PCP YU FUCKING FAGGOTS
how can none of you have tried DXM yet even though it is available over the counter at every pharmacy
>>28730200
Why you want to be mad? Anger is the most useless emotion, clouds your judgement and makes you do rash shit.
>>28729873
this
i discovered it from a vicodin prescription. shit feels so good man. i have no idea when i will come across any opiates again.
>>28730695
>hur dur stop liking what i dont like
>hur dur retarded reasons, listing only the negative stuff
go fuck yourself
Snort 90mg of Adderall Anon, that'll make you motivated to do shit.
That or snort some oxycontin (^:
Both will make you not feel that feel anymore
>>28730730
i wonder if i should go to the doc again and try to get ritalin prescribed or something
i used to take ritalin as kid, would it be enough to go there and say i have all the symptoms again and shit?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3MMNsGr8RJw
Graduate to I.V. league,
I'm steppin' up from pills.
Intentional overdose,
or just for thrills?
Everyone is sayin' that I'm just bones and skin,
but it really is my soul that's 'coming thread bare and thin.
>>28730729
Well can you tell me the positives then?
>>28730793
i just fucking like the feeling. it gives me energy. i mean, i fucking come to 4chan since years solely to get mad. i just fucking like it. i want methamphetamine to get even more mad.
>>28730730
How do i get these?
I mean, I don't know how to get any of these drugs, or LSD or Shrooms or whatever.
i can obviously buy Alcohol in a store and I get weed from a friend.
Don't go for the opiates advice OP, you'll be chemically dependent very fast. Continue smoking your pot and taking your fix, but try to do something else too, distract yourself and the pain will go away.
>>28729853
KRATOM
You can buy it online, it's cheap and feels good tbqh
Oreggie
>>28730814
Not even him but dude fuck you, I wish I could stop being mad all the time. It's one of the few things I feel anymore and it's absolutely massacring my blood pressure.
>>28730858
makes me throw up every time
>smoking only makes you even more depressive but everytime you are sober you think about how awesone it would be to be stoned.
I just dont learn
>>28730867
because you're fucking fat you piece of shit. I am underweight even though i eat 3500 calories a day and never exericsied (YES I FUCKING COUNT AND DOCUMENT THEM). i neeeeeeeeeeeeed dat methamphetamine so that i finally lose my mind compeltely
>tfw sometimes when I was very mad a day then when i go to sleep and close my eyes i see grotesque images "inside my mind" (hard to explain) of violence and distortion
>sometimes the pics are so scary and sudden that i open my eyes because i get startled like from a jumpscare
Everyone of you is a fucking manchild crybabby normie compared to me. PERIOD. the most insane killselffaggot
>>28729853
maybe alcohol and marijuana are the source of your pain, anon? maybe you should turn to the lordor just start doing heroin
>>28730914
You sound like a kid that's gonna go shoot up a school some day.
>>28730766
Yes unless college town
>>28729853
go for a run outside
>>28730938
>trying to be mad
>literally the emotion feminism is based off
>>28730914
5'11 and 150 lbs you fucking faggot. Jesus fucking Christ I can't believe somebody could be so fucking stupid. You complain about that but you want to go back to it? Go fucking fuck yourself you goddamn autist. Holy fucking fuck, you've got to be trying to piss me off and let me tell you, it worked. Fuck off.
>>28730914
Sorry bro but you're not that special, shit happens to me too
>>28730830
get prescribed adderall or just go to the land of onions and have it shipped to you.
ITS EASY.
>>28730938
woah woah woah m8, nah, i aint one of those failed normies. also i am 23 years old wagekek. I'm just your average normie man. this is normal. i have a job so it must be.
>>28730943
what do you mean? like if i go to a doc where alot of collegefags go he will think i want it just to study?
then the question is: What can you get ritalin for anyways???? if my focus is so bad that i need to re-read a sentence like 5 times to not drift off with my mind in the middle then is this a reason to get dat ritalin? or how much does it have to be a problem to me? so it affecting my study performance is not a valid reason no matter to what degree? so what else must it afffect? Muh wageslavery? muh ability to drive??
>>28730975
>you complain about
wtf did i complain about
>>28730977
have yo uever tried DXM??? i sometimes get those "mindpics" really intense while on it. i am currently taking a big break so that my tolerance reduces AND THEN I WILL DO THE ULTIMATE HELL-TRIP WOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
>>28731023
i wish dxm didnt make my heart rate go up
it ruins the trip for me and makes me anxious and panicked. otherwise it's really interesting
>>28731005
Why would I want Adderrall? That's a fucking work drug for people who want to stay up all night or whatever.
I want to get high as fuck and forget how shitty my life is.
>>28729853
Where can I get marijuana RIGHT NOW
I fuckng need some and my usual dealer isn't replying
I took benzos for like 6 months but stopped because they weren't doing shit. Glad I didn't get addicted.
>>28731023
23 years old is still a "Kid" in r9k years.
Your maturity isn't measured by how many times the earth has revolved around the sun, buddy. It's measured by life experiences.
Therefore your average 25 year old on /r9k/ is equivalent to a 17-18 year old normie.
>>28731049
I order marijuana through the mail. It's not policed in Canada and it only takes them 1 day to deliver here.
Not sure if the USA or wherever you're from has any legit mail-order weed though.
>>28731056
ANd let me guess you're like 30
I'm 19 and more mature then you, get fucked old man, close your browser
>>28731039
Which is why I said SNORT 90MG. That shit is better than fucking cocaine, snort 90mg and you will be flying feeling like you're king of the world no shit.
Your body also feels pretty decent and you get one hell of a head high.
If you just want to do work then take 20mg orally.
>>28730938
>>28731023
also I forgot to say that normies are actually one of the few things in life in enjoy. kek no seriously. i think most people here dont like normies or people in general because they have beebn bzullied/have poor social skill and never really interact with them so they think they are all evil. it has been like 7 years or so since i met a really shitty person. the usual normiebanter doesnt get to me. guess this makes me a full normie now too. feells good to be a normie.however i almost explicitely communicate with people at work, i have no friends since 6 years.
>>28731037
WOAAAAAAAAAAAH, i know that feel. for WHATEVER reason my heart reacts more significant to panic while on it, id ont know why. i get a little panic and the rate goes up. BUT ONTOP OF THAT it also increases blood pressure which probably isnt agood combination.
i once took 24 capsules and had NO psych-effects whatsoevber, not even the slightest. NO dissociatiopn or all. i just felt drunk as Fuark and got panic attacks so i tried to sleep. woke up and got the biggest panic attack ever and then suddenly had sebvere hot/cold flashes. i was glad as FUCK when it was over. the afterglow was nice though.
i think on DXM you really have to "let it happen", because it is so weak. if you dont allow the effects to happen (for example by having panic) then they wont happenb.
also contrary to what alot of ppl say i havebnt noticed that it takes forever for tolerance to fade. i dont know if coincidence but for me its like 2 weeks and tolerance is significantly reduced.
>>28731056
>Therefore your average 25 year old on /r9k/ is equivalent to a 17-18 year old normie.
i believe it and hate it
t. 25y/ofag
>>28729853
Exercise a shitload then use weed.
>>28731109
I'm really not a fan of snorting a drug in my nose, Never done it and don't really want to. Just seems kinda gross
>>28731140
I'm not really a fan of drinking poison. Never done it and don't really want to. Seems like I might throw up and hurt my liver.
Stop being a pussy, just do it faggot you will feel so much better.
That or just buy some oxycodone or xanax and take 20mg and drink some whiskey with it, that'll make you forget everything.
>>28731056
>23 years old is still a "Kid" in r9k years.
no it fucking isnt. most people who post here are younger or are fucking manchildren who have no job and havent gone through "le adult life" or "le becoming adult" phase so what the fuck do you mean "in r9k years"? you think some fucking manchild living in his comfort zone has it harder or something?
>Your maturity isn't measured by how many times the earth has revolved around the sun, buddy. It's measured by life experiences.
WOOW NO REALLY YOU DONT SAY
all i was fucking saying was that i dont even go to school anymore. so i cant be one of those kids. i am done with school. that was the point of my post.
>Therefore your average 25 year old on /r9k/ is equivalent to a 17-18 year old normie.
Your average NEETsmug manchild maybe. i have xperienced the bad shit normies do but none of the good shit. no SEX no life no friends no foreskin no nothing.
>tfw alcohol just makes me sick, anxious and irritable
>even a single drink
What am I doing wrong?
>>28731112
the last time i used it was 6 months ago
i used to use it heavily actually, i did it like 10-15 times in a few months.
always the syrup. the best experience i had was with a bottle and a half, 500mg of dextro. morphing closed eye visuals were absolutely there that changed with whatever music i had on.
thinking about doing it again soon. i've been trying to get fit and lose all my fat though so i've been going light on drinking.
niggamusic is the only thing that makes me feel euphoric and strong nowadays. literally nothing else helps.METROBOOMIN WANT SOME MORE, NIGGA
listen this and report back how you feel OP: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2TOB2McGSVw
>>28731176
You're not taking Xanax with it anon, that's the problem.
>>28731140
Psilocybin Shown to Lessen Pain of Social Rejection
http://psychcentral.com/news/2016/04/23/psilocybin-shown-to-lessen-pain-of-social-rejection/102189.html
Time for me to start doing shrooms also
>>28731204
HOLY SHIT I FEEL WAY BETTER NOW
ROLL THE PURPLE NIGGA HIGH LIKE FUCKEN MARTIANS WOAH
>>28729853
wax/oil, kief, hash, and cocaine are all viable options once the weed and alcohol start to become less effective. Cocaine might even turn you into a normie, or at least a better, more energetic and social person as long as you don't do it stupidly. And you have to ask yourself: what have you got to lose?
It's fucking America. Just get some. Other happy pills or drug. In USA is so fucking easy to get drugs I'm living on Chile now. And the hardest thing we have on this shitty country is cocaine
>>28731309
its onyl easy to get drugs if you're a normalshit.
>>28731326
Couldn't be more agree with you on that.
But the point is that there's hope it you want to get some other drug.... Even homemade lsd.. Or get some prescription with a doctor
>>28731202
>>28731202
did you take it all at once? have you ever tried doing seperated dosages and if so what regimen exactly and what difference in effects did you notice? i am still not sure if taking divided dosages is bvetter or not. i sometimes feel as if i get more body fuckery when i just take it all at once and less acutal effects on the mind/dissociation (and visuals and shti)
