ITT: Post reasons you haven't committed suicide.
Pic related is the best game ever holy shit.
Only reason I haven't given up on life.
I haven't fully accepted that I'll never find someone who truly loves me yet.
>>28682806
You probably won't. Who cares though? Bitches aren't worth your time anon. Just find something you love.
>>28682844
I want to spend time with good people but I have absolutely no one.
I have a lot of literature on my backlog that I still want to read. The same goes for vidya, film and anime.
I want to travel the world a bit before I die, try and see some cool shit.
If I'm dead I wouldn't be able to experience those brief periods of psychedelic elation either.
>>28682765
What do you think of smash 4?
>>28682765
>Post reasons you haven't committed suicide.
because i am pussy and have no idea how to properly kill myself beside slitting wrist
I want to see an opera performed live before I go.
>>28682765
pls play with me
>>28682765
don't wanna sound like a shill but there's a recent smash clone on steam called "rivals of aether". Does a few things differently and has competent online, with ranked coming very soon. If you love melee that much, then it might be worth looking into.
> entranced by the intrinsic holiness of existence, vexed by the opportunity to experience it
I might hate other people, their society, their mazes of stone steel and glass, but I find the clouds, trees, grass, sunshine and water are so much more infinitely valuable than any man made trash, it would be an insult to kill myself
WoW, the Souls series and the internet are the only things keeping me alive. Everything even video game unrelated is boring to me and makes me feel like shit.
anyone wanna play netplay? :^)
>inb4 go to /soc/ fgt
because i still want to play some S.T.A.L.K.E.R before i kill myself
>>28683356
There's a netplay thread on /soc/?
>Can't kill myself because of parents and sister
>Even when parents die can't kill myself because of my sister
Guess the ride will never end
Parents and sister mostly. Also as sad as it may sound, HL3 is a big factor.
>Anime
>Masturbation
>Steam friends
>Still a few VNs I want to play
>Persona 5 and NieR 2
>>28683467
Dude I get such a boner thinking about committing suicide to make my pretty sister cry. I don't why it just gives me a huge throbber to envision it. Inb4 edgelord.
>>28684386
Being an edgelord is awesome familia.
I tried to kill myself last night. I spent all day getting extremely wasted and writing a poem to be my suicide note. I hung myself with a belt and ended up falling out of it after I lost consciousness - twice.
Both times I heard this incredible warping sound like nothing I've ever heard before. I wonder if it was me "breaking through" into the next state of being? It sounded like a LOUD, pulsing, repeating sound that was repeating incredible fast, like in intervals of .01 seconds of each other. It was crazy.
>>28684626
sounds like your heart freaking the fuck out because you nearly just died
>>28682765
Because I love going to tournaments. If you're ever considering killing yourself, try competitive smash.
>>28684646
Probably. Or all of my brain cells fucking dying or something because of lack of oxygen.
I was an extreme pain when I regained consciousness both times. All of my muscles were tight, and I was like, seizing when I was unconscious I think.
When I woke up the first time I was like "welp, got extremely close, better finish the job" and went right back to it. But when I woke after that my body was so weak and in pain, I just dragged myself onto a blanket that was on the floor in my room and just laid there and rested for hours.
I know that I am ready to die. I tried to kill myself with this same method like 6 years ago, this is the first time I've tried since then. I also fell out of the belt that time (but I didn't hear the warping sound when I lost consciousness). So I don't know why I thought it was going to go better this time. But the first time I was all sad about it and broken up when I survived, I was like "wtf is wrong with me". But this time I just continued to be dead inside. I didn't cry or anything.
I've got a single robot friend that would be devastated if I left, as I would be if he left. Maybe we'll make a suicide pact one of these days.
I made a channel on Youtube about Silent Hill and everyone has been so nice to me. Granted most are from here but still. I still haven't gotten a mean comment and everyone seems to appreciate the work I put in. I just finished my playthrough of SH2 today and people are asking what I will be doing next, and even saying they would watch even if I'm not playing a Silent Hill game. It warms my heart, I feel accepted for once.
That and my recent exercise habits have me happy as a hare nowadays.
>>28684626
Get some help, man. Fuck.
committing suicide takes effort
>>28682765
OP I'll netplay you sometime
I still have enough money to live a comfortable life for the time being, I keep myself content with drugs/medication and video games. It would also kill my mother.
Melee is great, I went to a local tournament on LSD recently. Got 9th out of 42 people, had a blast.
>>28682765
hello mew2king
Maybe I can finally fucking kill myself once Araki reveals the main vilain
Shitposting has legit kept me alive.
>>28682765
I'm waiting for VR to advance to the point where I can spend time with a virtual waifu.
Pic somewhat related. Thanks to whichever anon posted about this manga a few months ago.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CcWqo5UsXyg
Next year.
>>28682765
>all that games, movies, anime
>little joys of tasty food, good drink
>dont want to break mothers heart
So fucking close m8s
>>28685580
>>28683694
My niggas, just a little bit longer and I can feel that escape again.
death is scary
>>28682765
I actually have a few friends and some family that still really care about me
>inb4 normie
Sure i'm depressed but I'll always get this feeling that maybe it will get better, granted it hasn't still a kv lost both my parents lost my job ect. But i'll never know if it can get better if I an hero, I still have a long life a head of me so i'll just hang on.
Also for more shallow reasons there are things in this life I still enjoy anime, games, music, movies, food alcohol ect.
I stopped caring about losing my virginity and getting a gf so the fact that i'll probably never have one doesn't bother me.
>>28684817
Post your channel
because I'm 2yung2die and my family would be sad
plus I have a ton to look forward to in the future
honestly it would just be so much work. i'd have to write a will to send my belongings to different friends(who don't even give a fuck about me anymore). then i'd have to come up with an effective method so that some poor schmos don't have to clean up my putrid rotting mass because it will be weeks before anyone realizes i'm gone.
I was in a bad traffic accident recently and it looks like i'm going to get a huge settlement so money is pretty exciting. i'm going to visit every country i've dreamed of seeing.
>>28685504
I really enjoyed it, although I didn't care much for the ending.
It used to be my mom but I've started to not care about that anymore. she has better children that'll help her get over it
>>28684852
go to store, buy gun, pull trigger in desolate area so no one "saves" you
To all the people saying "Because of the next vidya game coming out, more anime" etc...
Maybe you are all just younger than me, but there comes a time when the next thing coming out isn't worth it, you know the pleasure and escape of it can only last so long before you sink back into the feeling. It stops mattering. It's just another materialistic thing that ultimately means nothing.
>>28685774Sorry but I'd rather not seem like a shill. I've posted it before so I'd rather not do it again at least for a while. I don't want my post about feels to just be advertising for myself, even if I make no money it feels wrong.
The ability to do drugs/always having the chance to be happy, at least for a little while, has kept me going.
>>28682960
You're literally the same as me. I also live for my backlogs and I want to travel the world a bit too.
May we meet on the other side, fellow anon.
Qt traps.
>>28682765
A couple of things
>fear of missing out on stuff I may like in the future.
>is it just infinite darkness? How does it feel to not perceive things. I know I can't remember what it was like before being born, but the thought still weirds me out.
>not knowing an easy and relatively painless way to do it.
Would do it if I had the stones to.
My older semi-chad bro (competent at lyfe, has had gfs, but is no fuckmachine) has already lost 4 friends to suicide because Finland. He has been nice to me, so I don't really want to hurt him. Would feel bad.
>>28685861
Really happy for you anon
>>28682765
>yfw GOML will be the return of Westballz
>>28682765
Because I want to make my dad proud.
gibe me the fox all I require is my foxy boy right here 20xx
same thing I posted in the other suicide thread.
>I want to live forever through preservation of my body when I am on my deathbed. Then be brought back to full health/immortality when medicine in the future catches up. I know this sounds like normie thing to say but why give up a possible future of constant pleasure and ecstacy. I think all robots should seek immortality to survive the current circumstances, unless you have a mental illness and want to die.
>>28688382
Please explain this pic to me. It makes me laugh and I don't know why
>you will never become part of the norwalk clique
>>28682765
tbqh, I'm just waiting for Berserk to finish up, so I might be here for as while.
>>28689056
Akagi here, so I definitely won't be going any time soon
Because I want to what happens.. If i could kill myself and see how the world would go on in different ways (me being dead,if i never kms) i would most likely do it. I cant because i way to see if something happens.
>>28685504
Name? i can't read Katakana yet.
three reasons:
waiting for new fire pro game (might never come out)
1/2/3/4 on lifts
creating something of worth
>>28683236
Heroin overdose, famalampai
Hope for the future. My dreams of happiness are the only thing keeping me going. And yes, my goals are achievable.
I only started playing SSBM this year despite having tried out the N64, Wii and WiiU Smash Bros, but holy shit Melee is on another level. Good taste OP. I have a semi-LAN party every friday for a good 4-5 hours playing nothing but SSBM.
>>28685504
>>28690511
Nevermind I already found it.
>>28685774
>>28687065
Fuck you, I'm posting it then because your channel is good and I admire a fellow franchise autist.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTD1RlhS6PpYeaQ6lMjdL7Q
because i'm trying to figure things out.
>>28682765
People that say pills are a meme way to kill yourself piss me off, sure most people take 5 sleeping pills and some vodka and post on Instagram
When I did it I took enough pills to kill and elephant, I took like 100 pills because I combined everything I had, sleeping pills, anti depressants, some other shit and my dad's heart t medication.
Doctors could figure out what the fuck I was trying to do, I just wanted to make sure I was gone
>>28682765
I get to play the balalaika.
Such a sweet sound.
>>28682765
Mom
The few friends I haven't burned bridges with
Lack of a fully established legal will under my name
Acceptable-ish 3.3 college GPA
Hope of being successful
Hope of finding a SO that would love me back
Fear of an afterlife
Fear of no afterlife
Pic related, gonna be my office soon
I'm waiting for Ash to win a league.
I made this vow after the Hoenn League.
I was really excited during the Sinnoh League because Ash looked like he was gonna win it, fucking Tobias. But luckily, he looks fucking unstoppable in Kalos. He's about to get his 8th Badge and I bought a gun for the upcoming Kalos League.
>>28691423
why would you be posting on this board Donald?
keep up the good work anyway !
Any Smashers here get the new SSB4 Gamecube controller? I might get one, but I heard the triggers are a bit trash, which sucks because I'm even more into Double Dash than Melee. Can someone attest to the quality?
Love for making music. Before I really started creating (And I'm not great, mind you), I would dwell much more on what I hated about my life. But with music to focus on, things don't get me down as much as before.
Also anime.
Competitive smash IS the r9k activity
A bunch of 17-24 year old nerds playing a child's game and taking it to the extreme.
Don't get me wrong I love smash, but the amount of people that browse r9k that I have met irl that also play comp smsah is astounding
Check it out if you have no friends, and I only live in a town with ~300,000 people in Eastern washington
Awaiting the second coming of hitler
>>28691484
Post links faggot
This comment is endorsed by me, an original poster
>>28689029
>tfw you used to live in norwalk
>tfw you still haven't met mang0
>>28691518
Hahaha I feel like I might be talking it up too much. Stuff's not great, but it's all here: https://soundcloud.com/funkalunk
Writing is just the best, love making originals.
>>28691444
Happy but depressing.
>>28683331
Because I smoke weed and really helps manage my depression.
>>28682765
Because I'm hanging on to ideas that I can make something of myself.
Which is a lie.
I don't want to hurt her...
>>28692125
Additionally, I'm too afraid of failure. I can't go back to the psych ward, guys. It's hell there. I can't bear it.
Please help me.
>Life is plummeting toward the point of no return
>Flunked out of high school
>Parents extremely disappointed
>Parents also divorced
>My sister is infinitely better than me
>Suicidal thoughts are very much a daily thing
But
>have an innocent 10 year old cousin that is really close to me and looks up to me
I just want out
My friends and family would miss me and I dont want to hurt them.
>>28682765
I still can make it, one last chance to change my life
>>28685339
Literally this. As long as Diamond Is Unbreakable is airing and JoJoLion is being serialised I have a reason to live. When it finishes, probably not.
I don't even like JJBA that much, I don't think I'd put it in the 1op 10 manga of all time, definitely not top 5 for sure.
>>28684817
>>28687065
You are based, Lying Figure. BASED.
>>28683555
half life 3? just forget it man, its never happening.
and even if it does, what makes you think it'll live up to the expectations? no studio would ever be able to pull it off.
>>28682765
The thought of being forgotten is too much for me to bear.
Because I was already nothing for billions of years, may as well stay alive.
If I kill myself now, I'm only cheating myself out of all the porn and fast food promotions I could've enjoyed in the future. There'd also be a ton of games I'd never get to play.
>>28687052
It really is that simple.
>>28690904
das a gud voice
I just want the thargoids to come.
>ywn be the first person to discover Raxxla's location
>>28688992
the picture shows all the vocal grunts that fox makes during his time in melee
I'll play with you desu
[email protected]
>>28682765
Can I play with you I posted my email
>>28695570
>>28691444
>and I bought a gun for the upcoming Kalos League.
Haha, I love this guy
>>28684998
That's impressive. I can only get 4th out of that much sober.
I'll bite
>Family actually care about me and I them, so I can't put them through that - they'd be devastated
>So would a friend of mine - everyone else can suck it but she'd be destroyed
>There's this qt guy I've been talking to for years but never actually met (no he ain't a catfish, we Skype) - top of my bucket list is to fugg him
>I have a lot of music to write - I have so much to learn but I'm dedicated to making an album that'll captivate people, even if it's only a dozen.
I don't care about life but I want my work to live on after I die - the only thing that terrifies me is being forgotten without leaving an impact on the world, even if it's just a couple of strangers
>>28682765
>you will never be one of the gods of melee
>>28682765
PPMD is that you
>>28682765
My mother is still alive
my two little cousins. their dad died a couple years ago, and they've grown fairly close to me. pretty sure they'll be devastated if i die, especially the boy. the thought of never seeing those kids again, ever, fills me with anxiety.
my parents.
>>28682765
Procrastinating like a motherfucker, like holy shit what am I doing
Smash brothers is literally the only reason I hevent offed myself.
Got really good at melee where I beat everyone at locals (except the one dude there who is a MIOM top 100 player) so im starting to get into 64
