Does anybody else have a real problem with just caring?
I know I should get a gf, friends, a job, etc. I know I would be happier with them, and I want them.
However, I find it really difficult to actually care.
I keep up a basic standard of hygiene and fitness (inb4triggered) and I'm not some enlightened wizard who has ascended beyond the realm of women.
Same.
I havent put in an honest effort into my homework since elementary school and because of that im on my 4th year of community college and basically nothing done.
I will know theres work to do but i just cant do it. I know i should and ill get extremely stressed out knowing i should but i just cant NOT get distracted by 4chan and games that havent been fun in years.
Oh well. Theres always next year right?
>>28678735
I did but it stemmed from low selfesteem.
I've since started compulsively pursuing anything I find remotely interesting and I'm happier for it.
I feel pretty detached but I wouldn't call that not caring. I'd miss a lot of things even if losing them wouldn't cause me to suffer.
>>28678964
Perhaps I should look into detachment and what causes it. I probably have a problem somewhere...
You perceive the cost to be greater than the reward.
I'm the same way, i convince myself the positive steps will make me feel better if i try. So i've cleaned my act up a number of times, got girlfriends and friends, work and education etc. But there's always a point where i cut it all off without any warning and just go back to being unemployed and alone. I feel the same in all situations, nothing feels good and i can't make myself care no matter what i do.
It's a weird feel knowing even when i'm doing everything right, i still want to die. But i don't care enough to kill myself or dwell on it.