>tfw you'll never have the balls to kill yourself
its a bad feel. i have literally no pain tolerance and no means of acquiring hard drugs or a gun
>>28675704
>the balls to kill yourself
I'm pretty sure you can buy those in a firearm store.
I keep thinking it won't be so bad if I just find a high enough building. Death should be instant.
I mean, I've been holding onto hope for decades and life has not improved. Why should I expect it to change now?
That thought is slowly encouraging me.
>>28675704
>you will never have the kills to ball yourself
>>28675704
Get belligerent drunk
Plastic bag over head before bedtime
>>28675811
>it won't be so bad if I just find a high enough building
It's always a degree of magnitude harder to implement this.
It's not >just find a building.
It's >locate a building, clean yourself, dress properly, not look like a fucking misfit against normal people, remember not to look around like an obviously suicidal person on the terrace, remember not to freeze conspicuously as you gather the courage to run for more than a second or two, in addition to the fucking jump.
Suicide is one of the things farther from being 'just'-doable.
>>28675884
>>28675811
In short, unless you have a significant, physical history of self-harm, you're not going to do it without a gun. Sorry. Really am.
