I have been posting recently about a girl who I met as an escort two Saturdays ago and who I have since then taken on two "dates". I posted then about what happened when she visited me this Friday and Saturday.
I feel like the purpose of my original posting has finished but if anyone is interested to know what took place since this weekend I'll post here.
Again I do not know if it's worth me continuing to tell about Marina and I. I respect /r9k/ and have visited here for a long time. If people feel I am "bragging" or that I no longer should post here (for obvious reasons) I will not do so.
>be me
>on Sunday I tell Marina that I am going to bed
>she messages me good night
>I post my thread here which takes longer than I thought it would
>Monday (yesterday) I have to work a half day (I volunteered to do so some weeks ago)
>I wake up early and strangely I don't feel tired
>I shower and use the towel Marina used (maybe strange, but it still smelled so amazing)
>in the bathroom I see the mirror and begin to smile
>as though the person in the reflection is a more confident version of me who said "I said so!"
>I move the breakfast table (small wooden table with wooden flaps underneath to extend it) to the balcony doors
>cut up two bananas (that were spotted black on the outside but I didn't mind), two apples, the blueberries of my flatmate / landlord and soya milk
>never do I usually eat breakfast
>it's a warm day, which I don't really care for, but I feel ok
>travel to work feeling so nice
>it's early so I think not to text her
>in work the office has maybe 5 people in total (one leaves soon after arriving but obviously won't return)
>I sit with nobody around me listening to music with headphones
>when I was very young and my parents were together my father would buy my mother LPs
>I would sometimes sit on one of the two red leather sofas and they would sometimes dance in front of me
>the music station was in the corner of the room with an Afriqan woman shaped lamp lighting the room but only dimly
>one of the LPs my parents had was by the music group "Bread"
>in my teen years, after the age of maybe 13, I had very few friends
>eventually I had nobody I could call a friend
>every weekend I would close my bedroom door and listen to old music (doo wop, motown etc)
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go on! been following the past few days
Yes please! I was lurking all day yesterday waiting for you, love your story. Best thing to happen on r9k in a long time, reminds me of years ago when /r9k was mostly greentext stories and not cuck/trap threads.
>sometimes I would dance alone and sometimes I would lay on my back with no lights and imagine enjoying my life
>today in work I listen to "Bread" with my headphones
>begin to feel pressure in my eyes and almost cry
>luckily I have a small fan on my desk which I can blame for this
>when afternoon approaches it is clear that there is barely any work
>another person leaves
>three people around my age (or at least considered "young" members of the staff) make plans to go for a drink
>I hear them doing this and put on my headphones hoping they will not ask me
>I feel a hand on my shoulder soon after
>I flinch hard and my rolling chair makes a loud noise as I shift it into my desk
>I remove my headphones and the music is very loud and embarrasing to hear this way
>a girl I work with (who is not attracted to me and simply tolerates me I know) says "the guys" are going for a quick beer
>I say I'm ok but thanks for asking
>I think of contacting Marina all morning but still I hate being the first to message anybody
>despite our experience together I still feel it is "pathetic" somehow of me to message her first
>I view myself perhaps as someone so easy to reject or dismiss or "move on" from that all I can do is act as if I am ok by myself
>it's difficult with Marina because she knows I have no friends etc but still
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>usually when I feel happy or enthusiastic I try to stop it and remain calm and neutral
>it seems to me that these periods are always followed by periods bleaker than usual
>probably because I realize I had nothing to feel happy about (I know I am healthy etc)
>anyway today I ignore it and message Marina
>"Hey. I forgot to ask, are you busy today? I finish at 1 if you want to do something?"
>re-read it and wonder if two questions marks makes me seem desperate
>I receive a message soon after
>sense that even though nobody is in the office (they go for a long lunch hour and won't return) I am "performing" like a confident, carefree guy
>usually I sit upright in my chair (erect spine) and never allow clutter etc on my desk
>people I know see me as "autistic" (as people have said here) and very sober and boring
>today I sit low in my chair and drink a can of cola from the office refrigerator
>even bounce my knee while sitting this way
>I receive a text from Marina and (as though pretending such a thing is normal) "casually" reach out for my phone
>she has replied "I can't now sorry"
>feel my heart begin to beat very fast
>sit upright and drink from my glass of water
>I wonder does "now" mean "any more"
>pour my cola out into the drain and panic as I think both why she replied this way and how to reply
>feel an intense hatred towards her, which I soon accept is not healthy or in proportion
>put my computer on sleep and accept that she must felt a duty to have sex with me, nothing more
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>>28634920
TIME TO GET COMFY! Orginialllll
>I imagine her writing that quickly without caring how it will effect me
>quickly convince myself she is with a client and thinks our time recently had no meaning to her
>feel so ill and stupid for being so happy that morning
>remind myself of warning myself against feeling happy without reason
>travel home and sit on my laptop
>become bored very quickly
>lay on my bed and sleep for an hour
>wake up and rush to my phone
>convinced there will be a message from her
>nothing
>realize with a shock how boring my life is
>think of my options of what I can do, but it's just going on the internet or reading or walking around alone
>think of the threads on here and how people were saying I was pathetic and stupid for thinking she really liked me
>feel angry again towards her
>I accept that I am sensitive and that I take things very seriously if someone insults me and so on
>but still I feel something I had hopes for has ended so suddenly
>remind myself she is an escort and that really in that role she has done a lot for me (without asking for money)
>drink some of my flatmate / landlord's wine from the bottle but realize I am just acting a part and don't even like wine
>spit it into the drain and rinse my mouth with water which isn't cold
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It's taking on average 3 minutes longer for your posts. I am saddened.
>I go into the living room and lay on the sofa to read the book I am reading
>struggle to concentrate and hope that my mind hasn't "altered" because I have had sex or felt as happy as I have
>on the living room floor is what I think is a damp patch on the carpet where I had sex
>go on my knees and pat it but it doesn't feel wet
>smell the carpet with my eyes close but it doesn't smell like anything different
>realize it's just a light shadow and continue reading my book
>read 50 pages or something but realize often that I am not remembering anything
>while sitting on the toilet I hear a low "rumbling" sound
>realize it's my phone and feel suddenly excited
>it stops vibrating
>Marina has not called me before and figure it's my mother or sister, but still allow myself to be convinced it's her
>wash my hands slowly and "tease" myself by picking my teeth etc before rewarding myself with finding who it is
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>>28636090
Sorry, I am trying to type fast
Cont >
>find my phone on my bed in the bedroom
>on the phone I see Marina has called three times
>my hand shakes as I see it is her all three times
>I think of calling her but I dislike my "telephone voice" so message her
>"Hey, my phone was charging. Did you call?"
>receive no reply for around fifteen minutes, think of calling her but again I don't want to seem desperate
>begin to wish I didn't even reply to her, or that I had waited longer
>although I struggle to accept she sees me as just another client as people here have said I feel the evidence suggests this
>this idea disgusts me and I don't care enough about sex or anything like that to be just another client
>she finally messages me back saying "Can I come over?"
>it seems to be to be so rude that I think of just ignoring it
>right after thinking that I fear that this is the moment she is going to "charge" me for our time together
>think of blocking her number but worry that she (or her flatmate, who I don't care for) knows guys who will come to my address
>I say "I thought you were busy?"
>realize this is passive-aggressive and my heart is racing as I try and accept we are now talking this way
>I feel like crying as I encourage myself to adopt a post of not caring and being nasty to her to show I don't care
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These threads are fantastic, please keep writing
>she says "Not any more"
>sends a message straight after saying "So can I"
>not even a question mark and I begin to panic and imagine her beginning to threaten me or something
>feel so stupid for getting into this situation and wish I had remained a virgin
>I finally say "If you want to" which isn't the way I have spoken to before, which I hope she realizes
>find my wallet and remove my bank cards and hide them in the book I was reading and place it among the other books
>I am panicking so hard and begin writing a thread here but realize some people will enjoy mocking my situation
>Marina asks me if I have eaten
>I say yes (lie)
>she asks if I mind that she buys something to eat at my flat
>almost send "If you want to" again but just say "Fine"
>don't go to open the door this time and she messages me saying she is waiting outside
>while walking down the stairs my anger and fear turn to sadness
>I hope that when I see her I will at least be able to act indifferent and insensitive
>decide not to treat the money issue as a problem and just agree as though I have a great deal of money anyway
>in the reception area I see some of her body through the long vertical glass window in the door
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>>28636685
>no new posts
Reeeeeeeee
i hope you ask casually, something like, how was your day? or what you do today? something like that is casual and most normies say that, a good way to know about how people are being cheated.
Awaiting the next post eagerly
That means hurry up, man
>I open the door and she steps back a little and makes a quiet sound like "oh"
>doesn't say hello but hugs me around the waist quickly with one arm
>she is wearing black adidas (or something like this) athletic trousers with white stripes along the side and a jacket of similar material which looks too big
>she has the sleeve of the arm that she puts around my waist over her hand and collected in her fist
>in the other hand she has a white supermarket carrier bag which has things in the bottom
>she walks past me and towards the stairwell and I feel like saying something but I just exhale and think "just get over with it"
>I turn around and she is standing on a small platform where the stairwell turns after three or four steps
>she holds up her bag and shakes her first (the bag doesn't shake) and says "I brought some food if you decide you're hungry"
>I just raise my eyebrows and I am conscious that I making it obvious that I am being hostile or uncaring
>I stand at the bottom of the stairwell looking at the ground with my lips curled inward and my eyebrows raised and she turns and walks two stairs at a time upwards
>at my door she watches me approach and asks if I had a good day
>I say "It was nice thanks" and instinctively ask "How was yours?"
>feel I have already let down the appearance of not caring and she just says "Ok" and watches me place my key in my front door
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>>28637017
yeaaah write more porn for smelly neets to jerk off to
that is what youre doing
hope youre proud
Glad you are back escortbro. There were several threads today asking whether you would come back and give us the comfy feels again.
I dont think you are bragging, I think you are being honest and truthful and it's beautiful.
>>28636836
I did ask this but I felt stupid for doing so.
Cont >
>inside she takes off her shoes by the door and says "Are you ok?" and I say "Yep" and stand there as if to say "ok you're here, now what?"
>she touches my forearm and rubs it then walks into the living room
>I follow
>she is standing in the middle of the room and says "You've redecorated?" (she means the table
>I begin to say "Oh, no I just felt" but then stop
>it feels strange how much distance there is between us considering this is the room where to me such a meaningful thing happened
>there is no light on in the room but it's the time of the day when neither natural light or inside light really seems to "fit" or something
>it's very quiet and although it isn't raining and likely won't outside the sky is just plain light grey all the way into the distance
>she puts her bag onto the table and takes things out one a time
>she has bought pasta, mushrooms, a tub of cream, garlic, butter, olive oil and some cheese in a plastic sachet / packet
>it's strange why she bought things I obviously have (butter etc) but she asks if I'm sure I'm not hungry
>she says this in a sort of patronizing voice I dislike, like a mother asking her child
>I think of asking her in response why she came over but I just say "no thank you"
>she has on short white sports socks (the kind that only reach to your ankle) and they have orange chequerboard squares on the bottom when she walks to the kitchen
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I hope you realise that there is no evidence for thinking what another person is thinking, except via communication
I hoped you communicated.
>>28637252
What's this girl's name? She is cute.
>>28637487
I only know her as Pale Pasta Eating Girl. She is meant to look like Marina, but Marina is more smiley.
>I don't feel angry or anything around her
>turn on a tall lamp in the corner of the room but leave the curtains of the balcony doors open so it doesn't seem like I'm trying to make things cosy or private
>in the kitchen she says "Do you mind if I use a saucepan?" and then says I'll promise to wash everything afterwards
>I open the cupboard door where everything like that is kept without replying
>her eyes look up at me with her face pointing down and then smiles and says "thanks"
>it doesn't feel genuine and I feel like she suspects me of being angry at her and wants to leave on a good note or something
>while bending over to turn on a flame she says without looking at me "I hope I'm not interrupting your plans or anything"
>feel by saying this she is making it clear we have two different and separate lives
>she knows I have no friends and that I can't lie to make it seem that way
>I wonder how she can ask such a thing but I just say "no" quietly
>she begins to unwrap the mushrooms and gets a cutting knife from the drawer without asking where it is
>her clothing is not the usual "cute" type I have seen so far, and although she is very pretty like this I wonder if she has made no effort deliberately
>like "stepping out of character"
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>>28637487
Dont even bother. Shes a normie now.
>>28637550
DOn't care. Just want more pictures of her.
>she focuses on preparing then cooking
>she seems hungry
>I think for a moment she may have been on her way home from an "outcall" (when an escort goes to the home of a client) and wanted to cook here to save time
>I don't think this is true but still, I thought it
>she doesn't say anything while cooking and seems to be content cooking
>she doesn't look happy and not sort of "energetic but formal" like she seemed when I opened the door
>I water my flatmate / landlord's plant pots with the large plastic Buzz Lightyear drinking cup and watch her with the side of my eye
>she looks like a wife or something quietly going about her business and I regret the sudden distance between us
>although her clothes are not "obviously" cute as they have so far looked there is something about how she is dressed which to me is very attractive
>suddenly she turns and asks me in a loud voice if I have any bowls
>the way she says it makes me feel stupid for over-analyzing her movements around the kitchen
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>>28637529
i've had similar experience in the early stages of my only girlfriend (didnt last long and was 10 years ago).
feels fuck you up.
>>28634920
is there an archive of your previous posts? i missed them
>>28637758
op if you want a "normal" relationship with this girl you have to stop acting so paranoid and cold. it's going to eventually drive her away.
I'm not advising for or against a relationship with this girl, I'm just sayin'. whether you want to continue seeing this girl is something you have to decide
>>28637529
I dont understand why you got mad at her
>mfw I seem to have the same thought process as you.
>>28637795
in the archive. search for "escort"
you can find links the first couple of threads in these
I don't get why you angry on her?
and can you post pics of her?(you can censor the face)
>>28637775
https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28427858/
https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28473632
Ive followed the first couple of threads. I was wondering did OP bone her yet?. I was one of many naysayers in the first thread not gonna lie but she seems into him.
>>28637861
>"I can't now sorry"
>>28637828
She texted back saying "I can't now sorry" which he interpreted as meaning "sorry, I cannot meet up now, and for ever more"
Or which he thought meant "I cant now because im busy screwing some guy because im an escort"
but which probably meant "Sorry I cannot meet up as I'm doing some shopping, but will be available later today"
>I go to the bathroom to waste some time and when I return she says "are you sure you won't have some? I made enough for both of us?"
>it smells really nice and I have not eaten since my breakfast but I say I'm fine
>she carries it across the living room to the table and looks at me with a smirk (smiling by pressing her lips together and narrowing her eyes) while carrying the pasta
>she goes back to get a glass of water and asks if I want one
>I say I do but I'll get it
>she says "have mine" and hands me the glass she has just filled
>earlier when I was feeling angry towards her I had thought about sexual diseases and so on
>although I'm not totally fearful of germs etc (I think of that famous I think comedian guy who shaved his head bald because he felt his hair was unclean) I am very uptight about such things
>my mother I realized she has oral herpes (like something like 90 percent of people I think) because she gets cold sores
>at first I jokingly started not to kiss her or share utensils with her but I realized I really didn't want to get herpes
>I still "kick" open the bathroom door at work because I hate using the metal handle
>when I was thinking of Marina earlier in the day and was feeling upset with her and myself I felt sure I had contracted something from her
>we had kissed with our saliva mixing and I had offered to "go down on her" though luckily she didn't say to do it
>I take the glass she gives me and there isn't any smudges around the edge so I drink it
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Also OP really you shoud see a psychiatrist im 99% sure you are legit autistic and i dont mean that in the 4chan buzzword sense. Your autism and sense of detail actually helps you writing abiliy it seems like, but you should prob get a formal diagnosis
From another Anon in the last thread:
Thread 1: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28427858/
Thread 2: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28473632/
Thread 3: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28563840/
Thread 4: https://desustorage.org/r9k/thread/28588279/
>>28637914
Oh
so OP you need to have a "Corrective Thoughts"
instead of thinking she is fucking a guy say maybe she is busy with Chores and etc
>>28636164
>>wash my hands slowly and "tease" myself by picking my teeth etc before rewarding myself with finding who it is
Jeezus OP, I do that too.
>>28637931
>not only is OP autistic but he is a germophobe like Howie Mandel and has OCD to boot
wew lad
>>28637960
he seems quite good at reading his own emotions, and appears to be able to tell what she is thinking from her appearance, so not autism really, but maybe somewhere in the spectrum - and I'd say certainly some issues - just like most of us reading this.
>>28638022
Yup. The joy in these threads isn't in seeing a fellow robot make it but seeing OP's autism and autistic level of recollection (assuming this isn't made up)
>>28638022
he seems like he's got social anxiety and trust issues, based off the thoughts he's written
>>28636376
>>28636658
yee man keep at it
>she reaches up for another glass and it seems like such a nice gesture I drink the water and go to sit on the other side of the table
>there is a cold wind coming in so I close the balcony doors
>her pasta looks so nice but I know I would rather not eat at all than give in and look needy
>when I was a teenager my mother was for a time "manic depressive"
>it was just her and me and she would often argue with me over very small things
>in response I would refuse to eat for sometimes two or three days (except at school) to show her I didn't need her to cook for me
>we would not talk or even notice each other being there and I would focus on acting as if I didn't need her as she did to me
>Marina came over and then gets up and picks up a cushion from the sofa
>she sits on it and bounces up and down a little and picks up a piece of pasta with a fork
>she says "sure?" and smiles a little before eating it
>I say "so how come you wanted to come over in the end?"
>she shrugs and says "I just wanted to. Is that ok?"
>she says "is that ok?" in a way that seems like a genuine question not like with similar subtle anger as with me
>I feel bad for acting the way I have been and think if I am going to be this way I at least need a clear reason
>I say "What were you doing this morning?"
>she can tell I ask it in an annoyed or accusing voice and looks up at me again with her head still bowed at the bowl
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>>28638094
He definitely has those things.
t. Someone with social anxiety and trust issues
>>28638125
>when I was a teenager my mother was for a time "manic depressive"
>>it was just her and me and she would often argue with me over very small things
I had a crazy mom too. She has 0 friends and is sycho.
>>28638125
op you realize that she's gonna have to fuck some guy for money again at some point.
you're angry at her possibly for doing it but yet you're still texting her and seeing her. you have a right to be angry but at the same time it's kinda unreasonable to think she's going to give up her livelihood for you
you that kinda ppl who cannot for their life shut the fuck up about whatever they have to say, they will let you know with great detail, no matter if you are interested or not
>>28637529
Your anxiety is killing you, man. You're fucking yourself over for no reason
Jesus Christ, I don't want to be mean to OP or anything but everything you're doing is alienating the hell put of the relationship you have with this girl. This is painful to read, you are NOT ready for any relationship or any semblance of one. It's clear you have some anxiety and/or trust issues that you NEED to get worked out before even thinking about pursuing something like this.
>>28638286
What are you even trying to say here?
>she says "Are you sure you're ok?" and sits back in her chair suddenly
>I shrug and look elsewhere
>I know how hungry she is and feel bad for spoiling her meal
>I look towards the balcony doors and see in the side of my vision that she is just staring at her pasta
>she says "Are you annoyed I couldn't come over earlier or something?"
>her voice seems like she genuinely wants to know and is attempting to get me to communicate with her
>I look at her and I feel so pathetic for being "angsty" or something
>I say "I don't expect you to be free all the time, I mean I'm sure you're busy enough"
>she looks at me with what I feel is a mixture of hurt and anger
>her head is sort of leaning to the side and one side of her top lip is sort of raised a little
>one thing I have always been "good" at, which I was once a little proud of, is to be able to say things to hurt a person really badly
>my mother says I have a "vicious tongue" and when we used to argue a lot she would look at me with hatred and say bitterly "oh you know how to hurt people don't you"
>I feel it is partly a defensive strategy from me (or my brain) to identify the weakest part of a person (something that hurts them privately) just in case I need to target it if they attack me
>perhaps I am just being generous here and that really I am sadistic or naturally hurtful, though I would like to think I am not
>she raises her eyebrows as if to say "really?" or just an an unimpressed way
>I begin explaining what I mean because again I want to have a clear reason to act the way I am acting
>she seems to predict what I will say or sees that she is right in thinking I meant what she thinks I did
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>>28638288
>>28638300
OP!!! RELAX for Gods sake.
She wants to be close with you and you push her away like a smug little brat. I know you're hurt by life as I have been.
I know the cray mother absent father all to well.
BUT for the Love of G O D...
>>28638352
ow naw you didn't....
>>28638300
He seems to be working out some of these issues himself. At least he is aware of his hangups, which is more than most people are.
I know I have several hangups and issues and theres only a few that I'm really okay to know about here, talking anonymously . some others I dont know at all, and others I dont want to talk about.
escortbro is being honest and quite self aware, I think, and even heroic in challenging himself and pushing himself. Lets hope todays episode ends positively...
>>28638381
>!!!
>G O D
>...
>ow naw
I know you're excited but stop that.
>>28638422
this girl has more patience than any of us deserve tb q h.
>>28638437
(you)
Happy now?
Tbh im just happy he got laid without paying her
>she pushes her pasta away a tiny bit
>I think this is a little humorous for a brief moment (as if we are in a movie in a restaurant) and gets up
>she gets up and I do and she walks past me with her shoulder hunched and turned away from me
>I go to the living room doorway and she is wiggling her feet into her shoes while leaning her hand between the doorframe and the wall opposite
>I say "Marina" as if to say "come on" but then I "shut down" when she doesn't respond
>she opens the door and then turns around and closes it quietly
>the fact she closes it quietly and softly is such a sad thing to watch and I can tell she is more hurt than angry
>I try and pretend not to care
>it feels however like I am pretending to myself
>like one aspect of my personality which is restrictive and stubborn is pretending to the other which often screams "do it!" or gives me frank and practical advice
>I take my glass and empty it but then refill it with water
>I drink a tiny bit of water and begin to fill a wash basin with hot water
>I stand with my fingers under the water urging myself to focus on the water which is turning hotter
>another part of my brain or my imagination is sort of updating me on where she is likely to be (at the door to the building, walking to the bus stop, etc)
>finally I say "jesus christ" and run to put my shoes on
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>>28638491
op, you're hurting me
Stop sabotaging yourself
the cliff hangers!
>>28638381
this
>>28634920
OP I also have the same thought process as you exaggerate. and need to trust her more.
>>28638352
OP you're being a fucking asshole, man. This girl has been nothing but sweet to you and has gone out of her way to spend time with you and show you physical closeness that you've never experienced before. She doesn't judge your lifestyle or say anything to make you feel bad for it. But you're not even in a relationship with her and you feel like you have the right to act like she's doing something wrong by escorting? Fuck you. She seems like a good person, and you do not.
>>28638491
You have to decide if you're actually okay with her being a prostitute. She likes you because you don't treat her like one, you can't be passive aggressive about it and expect everything to be okay. Honestly it sounds like you're not okay with it, and I don't blame you
>I run out of my flat door and don't lock it
>I sprint down the stairwell so quickly that my knees barely rise
>I don't hear her below or the main building door
>along the stairwell near the platform at the bottom the bottom of my shoe hits the edge of a step
>I fall forward and try to keep my balance like when you trip and try and keep running
>I fall almost all the way over but land on my elbow and shoulder and the side of my face smashes against the wall at the other side of the small platform area
>I stay still for a second or so and first use my tongue to check my teeth are all ok
>when I was around 12 I fell into an empty outdoor swimming pool my front two teeth on top hit the side cracked open
>since then they needed a lot of dentistry and now appear a little grey at the top
>one day on the school bus a girl I thought liked me said "what's wrong with your teeth?" in a friendly but loud way and for a long time I made sure never to open my mouth when smiling
>I get up and I seem ok all over
>my elbow however feels like pins and needles when I start to move again with each step
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>>28638658
this is sounding more and more like a romantic drama movie lol
>>28634920
Bragging? You fucked a hooker. I didn't read but I'm assuming it's nothing ground breaking so I don't think my assumption on the first line is that off
Meanwhile autists are saying They wont date nothing but virgin, you are a hero to all robots op keksimus maximus
>>28638658
>>since then they needed a lot of dentistry and now appear a little grey at the top
Again my front teeth was broken too, other was chipped when I was 8 yrs old.
OP we share a lot of weird things in common.
Weird.
>>28638709
someone post a soundtrack.
>>28638658
Goddammit, OP, your anecdote about the teeth made me laugh. Focus in the important part of your story, you fucking autist.
>>28638782
kek
I just skiped that 3 lines.
>outside I realize I don't know which direction she has gone in
>there is a bus stop nearby which takes her close to the area where she lives
>I run down the small hill that my address is on and run across the road and apologize to a car that slows down when I run across
>along the street I see her walking to the bus stop
>her sleeves are over her hands and she looks like she has a hunchback because her face is turned downwards
>I run after her as a bus arrives but I see it's not hers
>for a moment I fear she is going to board it
>she stands for a moment before following an old woman behind it to where another bus seems to be pulling up
>I think of shouting her name but I don't want her to rush to the bus so I run around the bus shelter and then wait there where some people are in a line to get on
>she is along the curb behind the old woman and sees me
>her eyes go wider and her shoulders rise up like I frighten her
>I hope I don't but she is young after all and has only known me a short while
>the idea she thinks of me as planning to hurt her or shout at her worries me and I stand back so I'm not within reaching distance of her when she passes
>the old woman stands into the bus and Marina looks away from me down into her pocket and gets a small hard purse out
Cont...
Soundtrack https://youtu.be/FcOt6mfjxeA
>>28638766
SOMEBODY ONCE TOLD ME:^)stupid fucking robit
>>28638833
nigga got maced in next ''cont.''
>>28634920
link to old threads?
>>28637967
>>28638879garbanzo beans
>>28638871
like a boss man
>I think my standing back probably makes her think I don't care that much about her staying / not going
>I step forward and say "Marina" again
>she looks at me with the side of her eyes and her mouth pressed closed still
>barely thinking I reach for her arm and hold her wrist
>she is wearing a jacket that is a little too long and the sleeves are over her hands and she is holding the excess material in her fists
>I just hold her fist and hope she reacts
>luckily we're in front of the bus so the people inside don't watch us
>she walks past me but also then past the door of the bus and stands a few steps away from it
>I look inside the open door and the driver views with me suspicion I think and then the doors close
>one door closes quicker than the other one and makes a loud sound and the other then closes slower
>when it moves away I walk towards her and say her name again
>her shoulders are still hunched and since there are other people near (there are two bus shelters for different routes separated by an open space between where she and I are standing)
>I don't touch her or anything because I don't know what she is thinking about me
Cont...
>>28638972
>fucking up THIS badly
Hahahahahaha
>>28638626
>escorting
>good person
topkuk
>>28638972
If all of ya robots would be like this then its no wonder...
Im kv but I guess Im no robot.
>>28637846
me too
we're fucked
I used to be as private and sober as OP, but I managed to break out of this a bit, sadly the thought process doesn't change
>I walk as though in orbit around her so I don't get too close
>like an animal you are trying to tame or to make feel safe (maybe an inappropriate or patronizing comparison)
>I just say "will you come back with me?"
>she says turns around and begins to walk
>I don't know where she is going but I follow her
>feel creepy doing so and think how childish it must appear for me to act this way at my age
>I don't know to decide to walk beside her or a few paces behind her
>decide to walk beside her but not touch her
>she crosses the street but no vehicles are coming and walks up the hill
>at my door she waits for me to open and then walks in when I hold it open
>she walks up the stairs and again waits, not looking at me
>inside she steps on her heels to remove her shoes then walks into the living room
>as before after the cinema when I felt anything I did was just "pushing her" further away or something I feel like this again
>she looks so isolated inside herself and I feel I represent a world which as turned against her
>inside the living room she picks up her pasta bowl and takes it to the kitchen and pushes it into the trash
>I almost say "don't" but I just watch her do it and feel so terrible
>I feel I am incapable of love and fear for a moment that by having sex with her I have therefore discovered that having sex was the only reason my brain distracted me with the idea of loving her
Cont...
>I say when she is in the kitchen "Marina can we talk"
>even saying this I feel like I am ruining something so short-term with my seriousness
>as in, who "talks?" after only a few dates etc
>she begins to wash her bowl in the hot water and puts it to the side to dry
>she puts in the chopping board and turned away from me still I see her wipe under her nose with her sleeve
>I walk into the kitchen and "sorry" right behind her
>saying this I know undermines everything I have felt that day towards her
>I realize that I have basically begged her to be a forgiving person and that I am asking for what feels like a millionth chance but this time asking out loud
>what I mean is that just by my behaviour and lack of normality and ease of company each new meeting with me is another chance granted on her part
>she stands still and her hands are in the water
>she looks down and obviously isn't washing up
>my instincts tell me quietly to go to her and so I wrap my hands around her stomach and rest my lips (but don't kiss) on her shoulder
>I say "I'm sorry, I am" quietly
>she doesn't react but I feel thankful I caught up with her so I can communicate outside of messaging
Cont...
Why am I reading this?
>>28639282
because its comfy
originole
>>28639242
shivers oregenel.
>>28639242
the last part almost made me cry
reminded me so much of me with my ex gf
I also sported this passive-aggressive behaviour too much and also super paranoid and over-interpreting at times.
there's no cure for our autismit's not even autism actually, what the hell is this
>>28639282
Because it's the best thread in this board right know.
>>28639329
>it's not even autism actually, what the hell is this
It's severe anxiety. It makes you paranoid about what people are thinking
>>28639242
your reaction is pretty understandable, she is an escort, and apparently is dating you, you are not just a regular client,at least if you do not pay.
do not feel bad for yourself.
>>28639329
Interpersonal retardation.
>>28639329
:^)
oregganniopliowmwmwmw
OP this girl actually cares about you man. If you like her then stop acting like you don't have feelings. She's not always out there sleeping with other men. Remember that she had a client lined up but lied to them just to see you! You're important to her. You upset her by doing this. Just be honest with her. She didn't say she'd stay an escort. She might leave, for you. Just go for it OP!
>she wriggles her body slowly but not unkindly and I easily let her go
>she walks into the living room and pulls the curtains over the closed balcony doors then picks up her water glass and sits on the sofa
>she sits on the edge of the supporting pillow and leans forward a little with her arms crossed low
>I sit beside her and make a point of keeping my distance
>I say "Can I explain myself to you?"
>she doesn't look at me but nods with her lips pressed together as I did mine when she first entered the building
>I say that I just don't understand how she sees me
>I say considering how I first met her I realize she probably doesn't want to date me
>I wonder (I don't say this) if I am thinking of self-pity but I am not consciously trying to "trick" her into feeling bad for me somehow
>I stop speaking and there is silence but she turns her face towards me
>her lips are not pressed together but she isn't turning her head up to face me but her eyes are
>I say "when I meant busy I just mean that like you said before we live in worlds that are quite different and I don't know all that much about what goes on in yours"
>she says "you didn't ask"
>I say "when?" but it sounds when I say it like it doesn't make sense or I didn't understand what she meant
Cont...
>>28639407
Please don't skip out on the details OP. You make things sound nice and make the story better. I'm appreciative of it.
>tfw no qt escort gf
you gave me feels I didn't know I had them inside of me op
>>28639486
yeah my thoughts exactly, she is so young and fragile, needs our OP to show her real feels intimacy.
OP, your luck is astronomical.
OP. I'm not a robot. I've had a girlfriend. Listen to my advice. If you love her, then go for it. Work your magic. Don't listen to the fucking NEETs on here complaining about her. They've never had a girlfriend for a fucking reason. You've got a chance man. Fucking work with it! Tell her you like her. Take her places. Shit just spend time with her. JUST BECAUSE SHE'S BUSY DOESN'T MEAN SHE DOESN'T CARE. Also ffs you little bitch. She's NOT going to charge you for anything. You're not a client anymore. You're basically her boyfriend. Come to terms with that. Fucking hell OP.
>>28639533
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Secondeded. orignal u fuck
>>28639519
he's really lucky beyond words
she's also a real qt both in her looks and personality, you don't meet a girl like her everyday
>she said "today" which reassures me as she seems to understand that my original anger was because of this morning
>I say "your message read like you were busy, and it's obvious what I think that means"
>she brushes her hair away from her forehead in the direction away from me and her head turns that way with it
>I am just being honest with her and although I enjoyed my time with her and like her I really don't want to date someone who has sex with other people
>I also know that I am a pretty jealous and "insecure" person
>my father was too but I don't know how much genetics influences this sort of thing
>when I was around twelve I dated a girl around seventeen times in one school year because every time I saw her talking to somebody I would tell my friend to dump her for me
>sometimes she dumped me too however but we always tended to begin dating again
>we never saw each other outside of school and barely ever talked outside of online messenger and barely even held hands however
>I say to her "I thought you were just coming over today to ask me to pay you for the time you've spent with me"
>I try not to say this like I want self-pity and keep a serious expression (I don't look sad or hurt, but frank)
>she looks suddenly at me when I say this as if it really did shock her
>she says "I don't want you to give me any money"
>she then says "I made sure to buy the fucking food before I got here because I don't want you to think I expect you to pay for everything"
>when she says the word fucking I feel like my heart begin to beat a littler harder and I realize it's because she saddens me
>she raises her hand to point at the table where the food had been when she says this and pokes her head forward when speaking and it really makes me feel guilty and ashamed for my behaviour
Cont...
>>28639533
Yeah, I've never heard of an escort running a "tab" system.
>>28639589
>>she raises her hand to point at the table where the food had been when she says this and pokes her head forward when speaking and it really makes me feel guilty and ashamed for my behaviour
as u should be. but focus on +++ now on
>>28639589
Jesus Christ please tell me there's a happy ending coming. Please.
>>28639589
>it really makes me feel guilty and ashamed for my behaviour
wow you're reall quick
being jealous is just a feeling, going too much by feelings will ruin you
>>28639589
OP, I haven't read this thread yet, but I just wanted to say: I have loved reading your other threads (I think there were four before this one, but I will look for others). I enjoy greatly your writing style and I've searched for your threads specifically.
I hope that things have been going well for you (I'm about to find out) and I hope that you continue to post about your time with Marina, and whatever else.
>>28639589
>>she looks suddenly at me when I say this as if it really did shock her
Of course it did jesus christ, there was no reason to possibly think that of her. I know better than to believe anything posted on here, but on the off chance that this is real, please, stop assuming everything she does is a slight against you and that she thinks of you as a client. She clearly cares about you as a person, not as a client, that shit ended after the very first night with her. It's good that you're actually talking to her about what happened for once, but nothing will get better unless you stop being so paranoid of everything she says and does.
>>28639698
>I haven't read this thread yet
>I hope things are going well for you
Shit son. I feel bad for what you're about to experience
Anyone else suspect that when we least are expecting it it will end with "walk the dinosaur"?
>I really feel like reaching out to her but I worry she thinks I'm trying to make things better by just kissing her and pushing the issue away
>she then tells me that in this morning she had a big argument with her flatmate about the rent
>her flatmate is also an escort and introduced Marina to it (Marina had a colleague at a store where she worked who knew the escort and introduced them)
>I say "what's wrong with your rent?" and
>she says her flatmate knew she had cancelled her appointments all that week (I only knew she cancelled one after we met and pretended she had a flu or a cold)
>I ask how she knew and she tells that one of the people she had cancelled with was a regular client of her flatmate who she was supposed to visit last Friday (I took her to the cinema that night)
>she didn't tell her flatmate she was with me and they argued and she said you can't just cancel whenever you like
>this conversation and explanation was for some time and I only asked small questions however
>the guilt I felt is so sickening that I feel like saying sorry ever time there is a pause
>but I remember how I have felt with Marina before, that my actions (and perhaps with any girl, or anybody) are so much more important than my words
Cont...
>>28639725
>stop assuming everything she does is a slight against you
it ain't that easy because op most likely has avoidant personality disorder so his brain is just programmed this way. but explaining his weird thought process to her is a good way of dealing with it I think
>>28639763
Fuck man, make it fast, can't fucking wait.
>>28639763
So basically, as expected, women are meanest of the pimps and your Marina was used by some whore to make more money.
I think girls so young are easily used by manipulative cunts.
Marina was the victim here, I even wonder how long is she even in that business.
OP if you arent gouging eyes out of the lifeless skull of her flatmate cunt I abandon thread.
Not really but. no.
>>28639848
No make it sloowww, Barry White slooow babeh
this is getting intense, i hope she moves in with you soon or something like that
>>28639763
This part makes me think she's using a roundabout ploy to get OP's money but, I don't know. All I know is that the vast majority of women are either taken or evil.
>after she finishes speaking she shrugs in an exaggerated way and says "so, yeah, that's why I was busy today. Ok?"
>she says this in a nasty way but without looking at me and with a facial expression that makes me think she isn't just trying to be unkind
>I sit back against the back of the sofa with my hands on my thighs
>I really don't know how to penetrate my feelings of guilt and say something worthwhile other than "sorry"
>but I say "Sorry for thinking otherwise. I mean it."
>to try and lighten the mood I extend my hand and say "friends?"
>she looks at my hand and seems to try and not to smile
>I know it's childish and I don't want to seem like I'm trying to bring things back to normal with no effort so I don't hold my hand out any more
>but when I do she holds hers out and we shake hands
>we shake hands for longer than is normal (we haven't shaken hands before, but I mean normal for two people in general)
>we both smile and soon we hug and I kiss her cheek (near the back of her cheek near where the jaw begins to move upwards or ends and connects with the muscle there above it)
>our bodies are leaning to the centre of the sofa while we hug
Cont...
>>28639864
>I even wonder how long is she even in that business.
IIRC she said she just starting in the first thread.
>>28639903
make up sex?
>>28639903
>we shake hands for longer than is normal (we haven't shaken hands before, but I mean normal for two people in general)
>we both smile and soon we hug and I kiss her cheek (near the back of her cheek near where the jaw begins to move upwards or ends and connects with the muscle there above it)
>our bodies are leaning to the centre of the sofa while we hug
hnnnngg I want a girl as qt as op's sitting beside me now
NOWW
>>28639903
>to try and lighten the mood I extend my hand and say "friends?"
>>28639933
U kno it bb ;^)
>>28639952
Thats the sickest shit I have ever read
>>28639995
tthanks bro
>from hugging we stop and realize that by sitting straight again our bodies are still on opposites sides of the sofa
>I sit near the middle and she sits further back from the edge and comes nearer also
>she sits with her legs up but facing forward instead of with her feet in between my legs as she did on another night
>I put my arm around her shoulder and hold her close to my side
>I know it may sound again "creepy" or something, or that my way of describing it is odd or unnatural, but to me then she felt like a sister or daughter or at least someone akin to family to me
>I have felt suddenly protective of her before (when she was lying below me on that same sofa on the Friday night) but before without a reason
>I turn and kiss the top of her hair and say "I'm sorry" again and kiss her hair again
>I ask "so what are going to do?"
>she just shrugs and doesn't say anything
>I feel like it would be natural to say something rash like come stay with me or I will give you money but I feel like I don't want to drop my guard totally even though
>I ask her does she have enough for rent and she says yes she has already paid, but her said she can't expect to live there as a bum
>she said her flatmate brought up a lot of tiny things like her leaving toothpaste around the basin in the bathroom and cooking too late at night sometimes which felt really hostile
>I know again it probably sounds creepy but I feel "proud" of her for not crying when she tells me this
>I have said before how I feel she seems like someone who doesn't seem used to being treated like a little girl
>or how she seems mature or reserved in a mature manner which seems quite lonely (to me anyway)
Cont...
>>28639903
Would you let her move into your flat if it means she stops hooking?
OP, protect that girl, try to enjoy the gud feels.
Show her a better way to live.
And ask her if she wants to continue doing escort? If not, ask her to live with you or smth.
you are both fucked up OP, yet in these moments of vulnerability you can be your oure selves.
Accept nice things op
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vWigoe1NmUY
soundtrack provider, do try peeps
>>28640038
this is an amazing story I have to come here more
I am on the edge of my seat fuckkkk
>we spend some time sitting like that but gradually make small adjustments to our positions until we are each more comfortable
>I tell her frankly that I will support her whether she is willing to forgive me or not
>I say I'm not just trying to make up for acting like an asshole and she laughs in a way that seems accidental or unexpected by her
>soon after I hear a stomach aching but I am so hungry I don't know if it's mine or hers
>I fear that if it's me she may think I have broken wind
>I ask "I am actually pretty hungry"
>she said "I knew you hadn't eaten!" and looks up at me from below my jaw
>I kiss her mouth and ask her if she feels like anything in particular
>she said she is hungry but doesn't know what for
>she says "I might make some pasta, oh wait!" and although it isn't very funny I smile anyway since it is at least sweet and a sign of her forgiveness and good humour
>I suggest pizza (there is a small place nearby which I usually order from each Sunday evening)
>she says okay and we order it for delivery
>the guy recognizes my voice and is first surprised that I don't ask for my normal pizza (medium margherita) and then doesn't understand I want a delivery
>the pizza arrives and I go and get it and when I return I find her setting the table with plates and so on
>to lighten the mood I act somewhat like a waiter and say this one I believe is for you madame and turn the box around and present it to her (open the lid as you would a giant wedding ring or something)
Cont...
>>28640052
>>28640062
>28640062
Isn't she saving for college? Just moving in with OP won't pay for it, she also needs a good job.
You have no idea where you are getting into anon, back the fuck away or you're in for a world of hurt. Definatly a case of borderline.
If you are 100% sure you wanna try with her start reading up on bpd asap
>>28640248
They gotta start somewhere.
She needs a fatherly figure. OP can provide that.
I dont think she is in it for money, she needs a fatherly guy/boyfriend, I mean put yourself in her shoes.
Maybe they can make it, I am romantic so I stand by it.
>>28640272
bpd?
also, let him enjoy it, few of us will, Id rather try it than live the life of loneliness.
>>28640272
Don't take medical advice/diagnosis from r9k op, be happy with her.
>>28640151
https://youtube.com/watch?v=0XCuj-foSQI&feature=youtu.be
>we eat quite quickly without speaking
>we have eaten pizza before together in a restaurant and then I was briefly overwhelmed when she ate the pizza in a way that seemed natural or "carefree"
>I asked her some question and she shook her head to say "no" while leaning over to bite the pizza and it made me feel happy to see her act in that way
>I think the reason I like her more and more is because of the accumulation of minor details about her that only someone close to her can observe
>we drink the rest of the wine bottle of my flatmate / landlord
>when I carry the boxes to the kitchen I turn around and she is in a "karate" position
>she wears a serious facial expression that is obviously also fake and does some karate punches and then a kick
>I smile and she say doesn't explain herself
>after that we sat in the sofa again
>I put my around her and lean my head against her hair and hold her close
>but as I do this she leaps up and I feel pretty stupid for being "clingy" or something
>she turns off the lamp and opens the curtains by the balcony windows
>the table is blocking much of the glass but we can see the sky (but it is almost dark)
>the front lights of vehicles moving towards the building along the road that runs parallel to the left and another that moves underneath keep "scanning" the ceiling and far wall
>we talk quietly about other topics, though occasionally she says something like "oh and another thing" about her flatmate and what she dislikes about her
>her flatmate is a little older from which I could tell when I went briefly into her kitchen
>I realize then that the flatmate and the other girl must have thought I was a client (which I guess I was) when they "met" me
Cont...
>>28640272
she didn't do anything wrong by now, she was hurt but she didn't overreact at all
>>28639736
lol, I just got up your reply. Yeah, that was painful. Horrid, in fact. My eyes welled up ;_;
>>28640347
it may be accurate but he should still try it, they both have their issues and they seem quite compatible
>>28640272
What? OP has been way more unstable than her desu.
>>28640364
this jam is nice hahaha
>like the way in Call of Duty you know you are playing well and don't allow your self-awareness to intrude as you run around getting a long kill-streak which is pure instinct
this kills me it really does
I can relate to the weird shit you say so much OP, godspeed I hope this woman brings you happiness.
>>28640366
be careful op. once the honeymoon phase wears out you start seeing mistakes and imperfections
OP , if things end badly for you I'm finally gonna kill myself. I've been here since the first thead. I'm too attached to your situation
>>28640463
totally
>>28640364
goes perfectly with this story love it haha thanks bruv
>today I had work as usual
>quite late last night she patted my leg and said "okay, I should go"
>I interpreted this as a sign to ask her to stay but when I did she clearly said not it's okay
>I tugged the bottom of her jacket from behind and held her like I did in the kitchen before
>I said to her "I don't want you to go back there if you don't want to be there"
>she smiled (as if I was the one in the bad position, or who needed support) and rubbed my forearm which was around her
>at the front door we kissed for a long time
>I asked if she would let me travel with her home but she said no it's okay
>I said I would pay for a taxi but again she said no it's fine honestly (she seemed to feel sorry for having made me thought she couldn't handle everything herself)
>she promised me she would message me when she got home and in the morning to tell me how things were
>after she left the front door I (with less indecision than before) ran out and began walking beside her down the stairs
>I walked her down to the bus and waited with her on the plastic seat which makes you lean forward a little
>the bus took some time to arrive and when it did we hugged before the doors opened
>when the doors open she stood onto the bus then turned and kissed me again but as if she was just letting her face fall gently onto my face
>I return home then and wash up (I don't know when my flatmate / landlord will return) and place one of his wine bottles from the cupboard to the refrigerator
>I then think of posting about it here but I hope you understand why I did not right away
So that happened yesterday (Monday) and I feel a lot of what I wasn't allowing myself to face until after I had lost my virginity was then faced (if it makes sense). As always I am sorry for posting so many posts for so long a time. I hope the people who said they wanted to know the updates get to read it. Thank you!
>>28634920
I like your threads, It reminds me Of Ernest hemingway books
>>28640521
keep us in the loop
love yourself
>>28640527
>ernest hemingway
which one in particular
Please keep us updated, these threads finally make me feel again
great read
goodluck buddy :)
>>28640521
Thanks OP. Do you think you will write again tomorrow?
Will you talk to her about you problems?
>>28640521
Good luck senpai, I'll keep looking for your threads
Quality thread. Good luck anon.
real comfy feels.
Best thread on /r9k/ thank you OP
>>28640521
I had some peepee in my eyes
>>28640521
oh, forgot to task, how is your arm/elbow?
OP HERE ANSWERING QUESTIONS
>>28636836
I did ask this after she asked me but I answered in a bad mood and with an intention to hurt her, honestly.
>>28637795
Someone posted them here I think > >>28637967
>>28637861
I am not going to post picture sorry. I said before she looks a little similar to the girl eating pasta without expression, which is posted in this thread. Sorry but I think you understand why.
>>28638879
Someone posted them here I think > >>28637967
>>28639933
We did not have sex yesterday.
>>28640052
I really don't know, a little because I don't know if my flatmate / landlord would like this and still I don't know how we are. I can only say so much about my thoughts and how I see her and me etc but it's complex (for me anyway). If she needed urgent help I would do anything, however that sounds.
>>28640062
I wanted to ask her that (I was planning to). She mentioned that she had cancelled all her "bookings" this week which made me feel bad for being the way I had. I guess I will need to ask her this however or she will need to tell me.
Thank you.
I hate to be the one to ask but what happened to the thread before this??? I must have missed it :(
>>28640713
They fugged
OP HERE ANSWERING QUESTIONS
>>28640609
I don't know about tomorrow or when. I will update though since people are being kind (as before) to offer advice / guidance and so on. I appreciate this, so yes I will write again.
>>28640686
It looks and feels (when I touch it) a little swollen, and isn't pleasant to have in certain positions. My eye at the end of my eyebrow (the thinner end) is also a little swollen.
>>28640713
Someone has posted a links to where an archive has these threads >>28637967 (You)
I must go to sleep now. I have work tomorrow and again have posted for much longer than I had planned. Thank you.
>>28640702
OP I honestly love you man. Good luck with everything. Please just trust her. She loves you bro. More than anything
>>28640521
Don't worry about the pace, your threads are awesome. They remind me of Molester Man and some 2chan threads I read I few years ago.
I fucking hate you OP. I hate you so much
>>28640916
yeah, he's one lucky bastard
he's more autistic than me but he still scores
>>28640521
For things to go well with Marina (whether as a partner or a friend), you must control your jealousy. I understand well these feelings, for I have suffered them myself. Any time you feel jealousy or any other negative emotion toward Marina, try identify it, and then refuse to act on it. Do not say or do anything in response to thoughts which are merely paranoid delusions and anxieties. Otherwise, you will quickly ruin this.
Marina sounds like a lovely girl and you seem like a great guy OP. I expect that you would regret messing things up with Marina and upsetting up, so don't. Her flatmate sounds abusive, controlling, manipulative, and a bad influence on her. She really should free herself from her influence, but only she can do that, not you. And if you push her too hard, even though it is the right thing, then she may react negatively.
*ALL* indications are that Marina likes you a lot OP and you should remind yourself that the next time you start to be paranoid (stop second guessing what she is thinking or doing, or deciding that she couldn't possibly like you really, etc). Be supportive, enjoy yourself, be proud of how far you have come, of how well you have worked things out and interpreted your thoughts and the situation (well, sometimes!).
Think of something fun - an activity or a place to go - and suggest it very soon to Marina, even if you only do that activity or go to the place on the weekend. As an anon said in an earlier thread, you have to have contact time where you are chatting and also doing things together. It can't all be about sex and it shouldn't all become about her situation, money and her flatmate. You need to have time together where you are both having fun, setting down memories, building closeness, etc.
Consider suggeting you do something one night this week too.
Godspeed anon. I wish you well.
Please come back to report to us on the next instalment, with all the lovely detail.
>>28640575
Farewell to Arms,
I don't know if its the writing style OP has more than the fact that he's having these events happen to him. also that other hemingway book, i forgot the name where in the beginning the guy just meets a woman and takes her to dinner. it also reminds me of catch 22 a bit.
>>28636164
>on the living room floor is what I think is a damp patch on the carpet where I had sex
>go on my knees and pat it but it doesn't feel wet
>smell the carpet with my eyes close but it doesn't smell like anything different
>realize it's just a light shadow and continue reading my book
top kek
>>28634920
Fuck cunt I've been checking every chance I can for your next thread OP. Give us the goods baby.
>>28640702
I was ready to burst into treats in the middle, but left with cozy feels
10/10, keep making these threads with updates pls
Op, you better keep delivering this. We support you, man.
Did Marina realise that you had fallen over? What did she say?
The fact that Marina cancelled all her appointments shows either/or (1) she wasn't serious about continuing to hook (2) she likes you a lot. That said, you really have to be okay with what Marina did and indeed may continue to do. That's even if you don't have much more to do with her. You'll come to regret it if you lose contact with her because you can not come to accept things. And if you continue as bf+gf or just friends then you especially can't be judgemental and unpleasant to her. Irrespective of the fact that she hooked a little, she seems a lovely girl. Also, you wouldn't have even met her if she hadn't been an escort! So you should be glad.
Your threads are enthralling reads OP. Good luck
>>28639040
She's a good person in the story. Op is a shitty manbaby. And a terrible writer
>>28637967
Archive, escort
>>28640950
In short, don't let your desperation make you act irrationally. I speak from experience as well.
>>28640809
OP what escort website did you use ? Im a khv
>>28641446
Yeah right. Im not OP but this sounds like you are just trying to dox him and fuck his shit up.
If you really want to get an escort then a simple google search is all you need.
>>28634920
>falling in love with escorts
How far men have fallen
OP take this time and get to know her, it sounds like you both really care for eachother, and she completely stopped booking clients just to date you which is really touching I think.
I'd take this chance man, your story really touched me and you seem happy as far as text can make you seem that way.
>>28641636
>encouraging OP to get with a girl who fucks people for money
>>28641567
>>28641672
normieeee
hey normieeeeeeee
>>28641672
if she's being truthful (it seems like she is the way OP wrote it) then she stopped doing that because she liked OP.
Who knows what happened to her to get her to that point, but she seems to realize that it's not worth doing (she just got into it) and wants to stop.
>>28640220
>>to lighten the mood I act somewhat like a waiter and say this one I believe is for you madame and turn the box around and present it to her (open the lid as you would a giant wedding ring or something)
If it doesn't work out with her I'll be your gf OP.
>>28641734
All women would stop if they knew they could get with a beta provider like OP
OP still hasn't mentioned her new job and career change.
>>28641703
>ree normies
yeah normies don't date escorts
>inb4 all women are whores
lmao that's just a meme, whores are like shit floating to the surface, you always see them but you'll never see the gold.
>>28635877
>convinced there will be a message from her
>nothing
Everyday. I wish I had atleast friends.
>>28637967
just caught up from thread 4
now this one
Bumperino originalerino
very original bump
>>28637887
Yes, he did in the last thread.
I love you ohpee.
OP you're so autistic but I love you
