>>28611308
I don't feel human. I can never seem to get along with people; I try, but I always end up annoying or disgusting others over time. It's like I'm not human but just an impostor that happens to look like one.

I don't even look that ugly and I keep myself clean. It's just that there's something subtle about me that turns people away.

All my peers are graduating except me because I legitimately went crazy for two years during college. Day drinking the pain away.

>>28611308
I want to kill myself and have wanted this for a very long time. Everything i do to make me feel better fails horribly. My teeth are fucked beyond repair and getting worse and now i am fat. I cant function amoung normal people anymore i hate this life

>>28611453
Not OP, but the same thing happened to me, if only for a semester. They all graduated last year, and I was still stuck in this shithole.

Just keep your head down and make it through, it'll be worth it in the end, at least moreso than dropping out. Cs get degrees, remember that.

>>28611394
People can often subconsciously tell if you're apprehensive about being around them. Even if they don't intend to, they push you away because they can see that deep down you're really nervous and it's causing you to be reserved.

A simple and casual "You're really funny, dude" or something to that effect can keep someone engaged with you and make them know that you care more. After they get to know you better they'll realise that you wanted to be around them all along.

>>28611503
OP here, I also made >>28611525 but forgot to say it was me.

Can you elaborate a little, my friend? What besides your appearance gets you down?

I have a crush on an eight year old.

>>28611308
>What's making you feel like life isn't worth living

I'm ugly, short and have a small dick. I got kidnapped and raped when I was a kid, because of my small dick and this I don't feel like a man sometimes. I'm not gay, I don't feel attraction to man but I don't feel that I'm enough for women. All my life all I got was rejection and bad things happening to me. Didn't had a good thing happening to me all my life, my whole life was adjusting to suffering and pain. I feel no hope for future, I feel no joy from things I do. I feel exhausted dealing with work and being social, only person I ever loved and thought she could understand me is in love with a Chad that doesn't give a shit about her. I try really hard to not believe in memes but god fucking damn it they are fucking real. I'm living in a 3rd world country with no future, born in to a shitty poor household, neck deep in debts etc. Working a shitty min. wage job to get by. Ever waking hour I think about blowing my brains out with a pistol or shotgun, stabbing myself in the neck, jumping from a skyscraper etc.

I just want a simple life with a girl I love, is it really that fucking much to ask for?

I've been posting on and off on /a/ drawthreads for a few months, and the most (You)s I've gotten for a drawing were 2~3, and I feel awful throughout my days because of it, it's like I have less value than trash and not worth anyone's (You).

>>28611525
>Even if they don't intend to, they push you away because they can see that deep down you're really nervous and it's causing you to be reserved.

This makes some sense but why would they react so negatively? If I truly was cold towards them I just wouldn't interact with them at all.

>>28611601
You mind greening how you were kidnapped/raped? Did they catch the guy?

>>28611645
OP here, I'm not saying that you're being cold towards them, it looks to me like you genuinely want to make it work. What I'm saying is that even though you do care and you want it to work, you're obviously going to be nervous about being around people. And sometimes people interpret those subtle signs wrongly as signs that you can't be bothered or don't want to be around them.

>>28611574
I was a robot as a teen but turned into a normie for two to three good years. Went to another country to work where the workplace was emotionally abusive, manipulative and felt like i was constantly belittled and being watched for any mistake. Couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, went very bulimic too. Came back to my home country fucked up, went back to school and broke down. I got medical leave but everyone knew how fucked up i was and i kept hearing them talk. I got on medication at this point. After i graduated i tried to keep bisy and hang out with friends but i hated it so i went off meds and went into a deep depression. Now here i am and i can't function normally or do anything well at all. I cant be with people i hate waking up and having a routine and who would want to date someone so miserable and ugly? I hate this life.

>>28611703
>>28611601
OP here, this. Let's talk about how this may have affected you if you don't mind elaborating, friend.

>>28611633
i know this feel like the back of my hand

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>>28611633
OP here, I'm an artist myself. Not for anime specifically, but I'd love to see some of your drawings so I can give you improvement advice instead of unhelpful criticism.

Pic related, I drew it.

>>28611755

I was playing near a clearing my place, he just suddenly grabbed me and pulled me in to a empty house's cellar then... just you know.

They never catch the guy, it's a secret no one knows anyways not even my mother knows I made sure that no one knows.

>>28611824
Shit and generic. Every thirteen year old makes le egdy skullz xd doodles like that in their notebook.

I'm fit and somewhat attractive, and get a moderate amount of looks from females (take that as you may). I've never had a girlfriend though. I'm so cripplingly alone. I have no friends and no close family members. I think getting with a girl will give me someone to talk to(> tfw no escort blank expression spaghetti eating gf) and someone to love. How do I cold approach some girl? I go to the grocery every few days to have some interaction with the outside world, but never flirt with girls. I just keep my eyes in line with the food I'm looking for or whatever; all because I'm scared and interact a beta. What do?

>>28611308
I have a problem were I NEED to be with other people in order to be happy. I'm a total normie with my friends, but as soon as I'm alone i become sad and have suicidal thoughts. Anyone else have this problem that can offer some advice?

>>28611747
OP here. I understand that all of that must hurt a lot. Don't believe the meme about all girls only wanting Chad, it's fucking bull. I literally look like a methhead skelly manlet and I have a gf who is more attractive than me and likes me for who I am. You will find it eventually, Anon, trust me on this one.

>>28611902
>Don't believe the meme about all girls only wanting Chad, it's fucking bull
fuck off with your feigned 'i care about you anon' normie shit. You're just a pathetic normie trying to get karma points

>>28611900
OP here. I completely and totally know this feel, this used to be me on a day-to-day basis for about a year and a half. For me, getting a gf helped but anyone who you can be yourself around and diverge to will help.

>>28611900
>>28611967
lol normies helping normies, fuck off to facebook faggot

I think I'm going crazy OP. Earlier in the semester I was having hallucinations occasionally, and whenever I was outside walking to class it felt like everyone was just staring at me, with cold, dead, beady eyes. Staring and laughing at my clothes, hair, the way I walked, the irregular shape of my torso.

Anyways, I still managed to get to class despite all the pressure and hopelessness I felt just walking outside. Now I'm working in a managerial position at a summer job. And the same shit is happening again. All the workers are laughing at me, giving me dirty looks, thinking my voice is weird, or the way I walk is weird.

I know they probably arent, but they could be, right? I mean, I'm not the crazy one here, right?

>>28611964
Why is it unreasonable that I might want to offer what little help I can in an environment full of people on the verge of suicide?

>>28611967
I'm in the military currently, so finding people I can be myself around can be a daunting challenge. Being away from friends and family for so long can be a struggle also. Maybe I'm just being a crying faggot and need to get over it.

>>28612020
Pls no bully friend

Hey OP. I'm not meeting with my shrink for another 2 weeks, so I might as well post here.
I've realised I can't stand being around people. Like any other person, I need social interaction to stay sane, but as soon as I get it I just want it to stop. The mixture of voices makes me irritated and uncomfortable, their humor makes me roll my eyes, and their lifestyles disgust me. They probably have deeper thoughts, but what they display is ridiculously shallow. There is an asian qt I might have a chance with, but I am consciously stopping myself from pursuing it because I won't be able to stand her after a while. Even with all of this, though, I can't stand being alone. Wat do?

Also, get a trip for this thread. Might save you a few words.

>>28612031
all you're doing is making normies, who already have friends and girlfriends happier. These same faggots will come back and laugh at us. And you're not here to help anybody, you're here because you want to spread your normie beliefs here.

Green Onion and Chives are basically the same thing, right? Please help

>>28612066
I am not your friend normo

>>28612025
OP here, I used to feel like this all the time and to an extent I still do. There really isn't any easy solution to this one because I know from experience that being told that no one cares in the slightest because they're far too wrapped up in their own issues and insecurities may not help you but it is the truth and I would legitimately bet my life on that. I bet even if you saw the most fat autistic virgin NEET on the street you wouldn't even really give them a second glance.

>>28612116
Pls Chad, I don't need this today

>>28611308
I have bad social anxiety and sometimes I am depressed
Right now I am going to a psychiatric day hospital every weekday
Even when my anxiety is super low I still have a tremor and if I can't stop the tremor from happening I will probably have to stop my chemistry study and pick a different major

I have no idea what to do with my life
I just don't really care about anything
I have one friend, but our relationship is weird, I need them a lot and I am just another friend for them
I want to hurt myself often and punish me
I really don't care about finding a SO
I have no hobbies

>>28612138
Oh also benzos are fucking amazing and I hate them so much
Why do they work so well
It's like a warm blanket that protects you from everything
Fuck benzos
Fuck benzos

Been thinking of getting some HIV needles and dropping them in parks, swimming pools, inside fork\spoon holders at fast food joints, but I don't know where to get AIDS? Please help.

>>28611589
OP here. I completely and totally know this feel, this used to be me on a day-to-day basis for about a year and a half.

>>28612073
I think you should try with the asian qt. I think you're underestimating the change you'll experience when you're around the right person

>>28611308
OP I honestly have no idea what to do. My girlfriend and friends don't satisfy me anymore, after 4 years in uni, and a year working I am already sick of my job in oil. Girls are constantly approaching me and I feel trapped in my shell because I know I have made a commitment to my girlfriend, and I am too unwilling, and anxious to meet new people. I-I think I was
raped by her last week. I believe I am becoming suicidal because every morning, after a long nights rest, I wish I could just go back to sleep. I am so depressed

>>28612258
OP here. Honestly, you seem pretty pathetic. You sound like you have pretty much everything anyone else would want to be happy, but you just aren't. You're a defective person and should probably just kill yourself because you are fundamentally unpleasable and will never be happy.

Well in a nutshell...I have a girlfriend, everything is going well BUT im a super paranoidic fuck who cries himself to sleep every night because im afraid that my girlfriend will cheat on me, im already having dreams of it, it drives me fucking crazy. There are no reasons to assume that she cheats too...

OP here not this guy >>28612312

>>28612258
Talk to her about your feelings about life at the moment. If she reacts badly and doesn't try to help, she isn't worth and you need out. That feeling of not wanting to break commitment could be a sign that you're in a bad relationship and if that's true you'll thank yourself for getting out.

>>28612312
You mean like every post in this thread?

>>28612203
>>28612312
>>28612337
Just in case anyone's just joining, I'm the one with the trip

>>28611308
Ok OP.

I turn 21 in a couple months. I don't work, don't go to school and generally don't do anything important all day. I don't even worry about my future enough to want to work or anything. I've been depressed before, this isn't depression, this is just an overwhelming lack of motivation.

As for girl problems, physically I'm attractive and I'm not even she anymore I just can't make my intentions clear, plus I'm not even sure being with a girl is a good idea considering I don't work or drive or anything. There was this girl that I knew for 3 years, who you could've called my soulmate. We were planning a life together. We would hang out literally every day, then she moved, then I flew out and lived with her for 6 months in a foreign country, then she moved back. We then tried dating, which worked for all of 3 months, and now we're broken up and I'm over her now, but I don't have that feeling of security that I had. I still talk to her, but I'm starting to realize how big of an overall bitch she is.

I feel like if I don't start doing something soon I'll start getting old and my body wasting away. I already pissed away my teens and once my 20's go that's where my youth ends. I just need to share my life with somebody I love. And I don't know how to find that somebody.

>>28612344
That was a bait post OP, its specifically structured so every negative is actually a positive, and subtle brag. I.e. Girlfriend, friends, went to uni, works in oil, attractive
If you can't sense the normie in my post then you obviously have a shit sense for detecting who is a normie and who is not.

>>28612472
Yeah I see that now, I kinda got into a rhythm of replying so I didn't read closely enough

>multiple people claiming op and replying to people
>no one replies to your posts
feels bad 2 be h

>>28612386
You're pretty worthless. Don't shit up my thread, faggot.

>>28612563
This person is not OP. I don't know how he got my trip, but I'll be using a secure trip as well now.

>>28612554
I'm sorry bro, I just thought it was a troll because I couldn't believe anyone was really that pathetic.

>>28612563
Oh, ok. Bye then.

>>28612608
There is no need for this rudeness

>>28611902
This doesn't help me at all OP all I do is hurt. I know no girl would ever want someone like me I have nothing to offer them, and the no gf feel is mostly just a symptom of my depression.

>>28612629
I'm sorry, but I had to be blunt. You need to man up and be yourself, not try to pretend to be someone you're not. I hope this helps.

Okay this thread has been overcome by autism I give up

>>28612667
That joke was actually kinda good/10

>>28612659
Your problem is that your standards are too high. You aren't going to get a supermodel bro. You're going to have to settle, perhaps, *gasp*, for someone who isn't a 11/10 virgin. Start a Tinder profile and use single moms as practice gfs. You may even like one of them. But whatever happens, you will gain skills and experiences.

>>28611308
I failed at uni, mom will freak out and possibly kick me out of the house if she find out

What do

>>28612881
Just move in with your girlfriend for a while. Write letters to whoever gives you a scholarship and explain the situation.

>>28612979
>girlfriend

nigga are you trying to help or you are fucking with us

>tired of feeling bad all the time in my head
>set up an appointment with a therapist i had 3-4 years ago for a one-time problem
>she remembered who i was over the phone
>forgot i got new insurance when i turned 20
>did a bunch of back and forth calls to figure out prices and in-network bullshit
>could pay in-network co-pay, but not out of network
>apparently she's not in network with them
>have to cancel tomorrow's appointment

im feeling defeated. i was excited because her clinic's ~5 miles away and she was familiar with my issues. now i gotta try and find someone 30+ miles away in the god damn city.

>>28611308
>What's making you feel like life isn't worth living

Crippling social anxiety. Being so far behind in life that it seems beyond repair. Shitty upbringing caused terrible dietary habits. Health problems I shouldn't have at 23. No will or motivation, no drive to do anything. No attachment, no friends, no love, no life. Every time I convince myself to do something about it I panic, or overthink everything or just give up before I even start. It's become such a habit that I'm stuck in this cycle and I don't know how to get out of it.

Failing isn't what hurts the most, though it is painful. What hurts the most are the realizations.

For instance, that everything good is hyper-romanticized by society for some reason and will not make you happy. That unhappiness is the default state of human beings. That you have nothing to look forward to.

I know some of this isn't true, but I am crushingly sad right now.

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>sent my ex whom I haven't talked with in 2 years a friend request
>she accepted

FUCK

Hi OP!
Pretty neat idea for a thread, but i wonder, do YOU feel okay?

Anyways, hope you are doing fine.

I haven't properly talked to my best friend in 6 months because literally every time we talk something interrupts us or something goes horribly wrong. The last time we really talked for a bit was 3 years ago. Send help.

>>28611308
I want to die and i know the world doesnt care. Every day i suffer and every night i have nightmares. I never trully escape the pain. Its like being in a never ending darkness. Its always night all the time.


God please help me

>>28612726
A girl is the least of my problems i only want someone that will like me

>>28615695
i dont know what bullshit op will say but
there is no god, there is grand point and meaning. if you genuinely cant take it end it in best possible way. go out in a BAM or something.