Is tonight the night guys?
Can I be strong guys?
>>28596077
Yeah OP, I'd say you can make it.
>>28596077
Find something you can live for. Move if you have to. If something is causing these feelings, you need to get them out of your life.
It's all coming to an end
>>28596118
Cmon man, don't do it.
These memories are nothing. Goodbye my friends
Last picture I've left my mark
How are you ending it? Give us details and tips for when one of us eventually does such a thing
>>28596200
I plan it very soon. Plan to take a ridiculous amount of gabapentin and cut my wrists and get in a warm bath/hang myself
>>28596118
>>28596145
Are you hiding in a public trash can?
>>28596240
That's three different things at once i feel like poison plus something else will ensure success. How did you get the drugs? Was it easy to do?
I want to take a lot of sleeping pills and drown in the bathtub but i don't think it will work desu senpai
>>28596240
What pushed you to do this, anon?
>>28596240
Don't do it, I speak from experience when I say, you CAN make things much better for yourself.
>>28596356
Your comment isn't going to change his mind man especially with your normie tier advice
>>28596294
no
>>28596318
it's either hanging or bathtub but either way the gabapentin is involved. They're prescribed to me
>>28596328
Life anon. Life. And trust me you'd do the same
>>28596356
I'm past that now anon. I've quit drugs, taken meds, gone to therapy. I've gone in the psych ward twice now and attempted twice. Trust me when I say things will not get better.
>>28596328
tell us OP. It's not like you have anything to lose.
Leave it for another month and see if you still feel like this, most of the time I can't even remember what I wanted to die for.
Hey if you gonna do it, can I have your steam account? i'm poor! haven't bought anything new in 6 months
>>28596484
here you go anon. this is a little bit of it
Your call, OP.
Right now it's just you.
>>28596538
haha it's every day man. I've done that for the past year just waiting a month. It seems as if every month I get a better reason to.
>>28596481
I am jealous you got prescribed meds that can kill you anon godspeed
I can only hope one day i will be as brave as you
>>28596633
thank you anon. It can get you high if you take enough. I'll go out high and in peace
>>28596591
>literally describing me
I don't want to know anymore anon.
>>28596594
It's the only thing I can control. This is my one decision. It all comes down to this.
>>28596684
I understand man. Then you know my pain and what I must do.
Ahh anon, I'll be thinking about you tonight. I hope you don't regret your decision though.
Hey OP, I feel miserable as well. Every night is a pain. Every ounce of hope I get gets inevitably crushed. I go from delusions of grandeur to pits of darkness and despair. You probably have it worse and whatever I write to you won't make things brighter. But choosing to carry this weight instead of cutting it loose makes you a better man in my eyes.
>>28596738
If not tonight then another anon. There is no regret in death.
>>28596724
Goodluck man. I hope you'll have a safe journey.
I hope to maybe join you soon. unlikely probably though.
>>28596657
Going out in peace and high is a great way to go. I hope it is painless and quick
>>28596744
I've been carrying this load my man. Life is like a car with gas in a race. Some start off with plenty of gas, some don't have as much, and for me I started out with none. I can't push this car in this fast race anymore anon. I've run out of energy.
>>28596693
>It's the only thing I can control
>This is my one decision
Well yeah, that's typically a common theme. I mean, we're not in control. If we were in control, things would be different, right?
Or maybe we're just not in control of the things we want to be in control over. I mean fuck, I have a steady income, a house, mortgage, car. I'm in shape, not absolutely hideous, disabled, or malformed (not handsome either but you get the idea).
And yet for all of that, I'm a 31 year old virgin who has never loved anyone, never had love reciprocated, and will die alone.
So we try - or don't try - to take control, and when that fails, what then? What's left? Throw everything you have at it and hope for the best? Or just accept the fact that you're going to be running on this train until you're dead - just several decades from now instead of in the next few ours.
Pressed a cold barrel against my temple plenty of times OP. I'm not here to give you advice. Just perspective.
Do what you want to do.
You guys have made me laugh and I thank you all.
>>28596819
You're the only one that will ever truly understand what you went through. But you're still here and you're still typing. You have more control over it than you think right now.
