Post your heaviest feel
>Too old to have a 15-16 year old GF
>too old to die young
>Tfw you can't undo your mistakes
>>28589315
>I do everything wrong
I cant even take a shit without getting poo on my fingers.
I'm self contradicting. I still feel things and seek friendship and love, yet I'm a terrible person and I'm incompatible with pleasant feelings and people.
I spend literally every moment in a fantasy world where everything is perfect and my real life will never be as good. I have no motivation to live in the real world.
>>28589315
>tumblr filename
gtfo faggot.
I feel satisfied peeing into bottles more than pissing into a toilet. Isn't that heavy
>>28590005
Not him but its just a picture from google you newfag
>>28589315
>Tfw black guy
>Tfw I'm into raceplaying as a white man.
I literally am Tyrone but this makes me sad.
I'm really really obsessed with this cartoon, I found out after I watched the last season that it was cancelled and there is no conclusion.
>>28590174
It's okay Tyrone I roleplay as you all the time. Not Chad, but am white.
>Girls are not interested in you at clubs.
>manlet
>dicklet
>balding
>khhv
>almost 21
>halfway through 2016 already
>>28589315
>tfw no abusive roastie slut gf that will dominate me like the one in deadpool
it's all i want in life man, a crazy dark hair slut gf.
>whether i end up happy in life is dependent on whether meme magic happens and i end up marrying my skype-gf of the last 3 years
I am far too disfigured and fat to even be in public as I can't face the stares, the weird glances, and the jokes from juveniles
I have no family (that wants to be around me let alone love me), no friends, no aquintances. My Mom and Dad died when I was 14 and they were my only best friends who truly loved me. (but I guess I have been loved so at least I've got that)
It's too late to fix anything about my past that would make my life more bearable
I will never be satisfied with ANYTHING EVER
I will never even feel the warmth of another living human being, let alone feel loved by one again
My life is basically over at 34. I guess the only thing keeping me going is to see how bad this reality simulation on expert mode gets before someone hits the power switch
I have no idea how to flirt or make a move. Still a virgin because of this.
In the past few months I've worked on eye contact and having normal conversations but flirting and telling a girl how i feel about her is a total disaster.
>>28590005
>waaahhh getting stuff from areas of the internet other than 4chan is BAAAD!!!!
>tfw no shipman doctor to end my misery
>my only internet friends are going to move on campus to uconn and now I will have no one to talk to or play video games with and even now we hardly ever talk or play anymore
>my hair is horrible and I can't style it or get it cut in anyway that looks good on me, mostly because I have a baby face and big lips so I will never be able to get a gf
>I have to get a job and I'm afraid to, plus when school starts I will be so overwhelmed because I will probably have a job, plus I'll be in my schools nursing program which is a lot of work, and I feel pressured to go to the gym
>since my only internet friends who I play video games with will no longer play video games with me, I will no longer have anyway to relax and have fun and will just be constantly stressed, overwhelmed and bored
>tfw 2011 is 5 years ago
>tfw 2000 is 16 years ago
>tfw when you've been depressed for 16 years.
>Too old to realistically find a virgin close to my age (24) to deflower
>Failed normie
>Roommates hosted a party with my consent
>Tried to be sociable, not be a sperglord
>Break down crying after 2 hours from the amount of people and the noise
>Next day friends are bragging about who they had sex with
>One of them literally broke up with his 1.5 year gf a few days prior, was already able to have sex
>I want to be completely normal so fucking bad, but can't even function in a social setting let alone attract women.
>>28590481
Shit man...
You made me feel. I would give you a hug (no homo) if i could.
>now that i'm in my twenties i'll never have teenage sex with an older woman
I will never have a true companion.
>no female will ever love me
>no female will look lovingly into my eyes
>no female will ever let me cum in her unprotected
JUST
END IT
>>28591616
>Break down crying after 2 hours from the amount of people and the noise
Get medicated dude
>>28590481
Get a job
Save money
Travel to a third world country
Get lost
Find yourself
>>28591068
>getting stuff from the low-effort cancerous roastie part of the internet
pls don't pretend tumblr is an acceptable place to take content from.
I have been going through some heavy feels.
The worst one though, im infatuated with a girl i havent met or talked to. I cant stop thinking about her no matter what i try. All i want is to be able to meet her and see her smile for once.
Needless to say that its never gonna happen. I wish i could just forget about her but i fucking cant.
>>28591737
>think of a relevant image that you want to post
>search that image on google
>take first result
>post it
Why is this unacceptable?
>>28591693
I don't think medication would solve the problem. I put so much pressure on myself to improve on my social skills and have a better personality that I think it ends up backfiring. At the end of the day, medication wouldn't make me able to think of things to say to someone to keep a conversation flowing.
>>28590083
>Getting your memes from google
>you're not a newfag yourself
>ywn feel like you belong in a community that you can dedicate your time, energy, skill and love to improving.
for the time being, I will have to settle for anonymous imageboards and skypejerks of maladjusted strangers halfway across the world.
I am a wasted human. This is hell. I suffer but do not die.
I don't think anyone is going to be able to relate to this but ill just post this anyway
>tfw no gf
>not instilled with confidence from parents or any other life experiences
>incredibly insecure and timid
>isolate myself completely
>all this means I will never be able to get a 15-16 year old gf
It truly is the heaviest feel.
>>28591899
>n-no you
Just stop.
There are many reasons why one would want to get images from google. The fact that you make a big deal out of this shows that you are a newfag who is trying too hard to fit in.
>>28591737
content is content. It's the same no matter where it came from. Trying to say one image is better because you saved it from a certain website is fucking ridiculous.
>>28591192
Good luck in nursing school, mate. It's a steep hill, but you'll make it.
>>28589315
>Too old to have a 8-12 year old GF
why live
>tfw the girl you love is just using you
>>28589315
Found out the other day that the age of consent in my state is 16
>its_a_whole_new_world.wmv
>but most likely not for me
>tfw no scat gf to eat shit from
why live
>you'll never have a gf
>you'll never have a member of the opposite sex care about you
>you will only ever have your waifu
> you will only ever live in a fantasy world
>you will never not be dead inside
>you will never again feel real emotions
I have a 8.5 by 6.8 dick and I have only used it once
>tfw hitting new levels of loneliness every day
>>28589315
>tfw only girls who think you're cute are 16 at best
>>28589315
> missing out on amazing early twenties sexual experiences and partying
>>28590005
>yfw you read the filename
>I'll never put my life on the line and eventually be killed fighting evil
this life is killing me from the inside out
>>28590885
I know that feel anon, we're in the same boat.
>>28593311
>actually believing you missed something by not going to parties
stupid normies who just want to get drunk and act dumb go to parties, only to later regret it
>>28593503
Regret what? Getting laid?
Anyone's best chance or getting laid is railing some drunk chick at a party
>tfw you missed out on teenage love
>you will never have a teen gf who's just as inexperienced as you
>you will never learn about love and relationships together, figuring things out as you go
Have a song to go with that feel
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Lz1TlJGLzqs
>tfw attractive childface so I can even though I'm 23.
How does it make you feel beardfags?
>>28589315
>I'll literally never be able to properly have sex with my 4.7 inch side-bent dick
Pic related.
>tfw capable of getting a gf but don't want one
truly the only feeling worse than >tfwnogf
I'm one final and one paper away from graduating, and I can't bullshit the paper anymore. I'm out of nothing to fill space with. I've been staring at this shit for too long, but it needs to get done, and I'm a few hours past the deadline.
The paper is for the one class I really need to graduate from this shitty school, and I can't bear to look at the relevant textbooks anymore. I fucking hated this place that has left me in thousands of dollars in debt, and now there's a chance I won't even be done yet.
I just want to go home and get started with my life, but if I fail this class and have to stay another goddamn second, I'm going to find a way to get a bunch of drugs off the internet and ODing.
I have dreams, and goals, and aspirations, but this place has beaten me down to the point where I'm willing to surrender all of that to the void instead of having to sit through another goddamn lecture about theories that don't matter.
>>28594767
Why would you feel bad about that?
My dog just died, and my numbing green isn't here yet.
>>28589315
Yeah...
This is a pretty bad feel.
I'm 25 now and have been able to fuck an 18 year old and make out with a 17 year old by lying about my age on tinder,
But I don't really see how I can get a 15 or 16 or 14 year old cutie at this point.
>>28589315
>24yo
>dont know what to do with my life
>all seems grey and boring
I came home from college to find that all my dad does on days when he doesn't work is sleep and watch anime. He's probably on this board as we speak.
My life is bad but now I have purpose trying to make my dad feel happy again. I just wish I knew how.
>I will never be someone worth remembering
>I will always be irrelevant in the greater scheme of things
>>28594831
It feels like people are supposed to want to be in a relationship and I'm missing out on that feeling and if I ever get that feeling again I worry that it'll be too late
>>28594942
>drinking with dad
>one of the funniest, smartest, nicest guys I know
>out of nowhere, he admits he's severally depressed after retiring
>not in love with mom anymore, poses the idea of divorce
>thinks he's a failure
I just told him I loved him and will always be there for him, but what the FUCK am I actually supposed to do?
>>28595110
>severally depressed after retiring
Dunno, maybe try and find him a hobby? My dad has been involved in a sailing club for a couple of years now and even if he's still got some time before retirement, I can see how happy it makes him.
>>28595202
He reads and watches sports, and I convinced him to start hitting the gym with me tomorrow. I also am trying to get him to write again, which was his dream, but he just says he doesn't have the energy or drive anymore.
I just feel so helpless about the entire situation. I don't blame him, by any means, and I'm glad he told me so I can try to help, but holy shit I am not the person to ask when it comes to overcoming depression.
>>28595283
Well, I think you're doing great. The important thing, really, is to have someone who cares and you clearly care about your dad a lot. I hope he feels better soon.
>>28590005
What is google image search
>>28591192
Chicks can dig a guy with full lips
Workout to minimize the baby face. Try some facial hair, too. That shit isn't a deal break or anything
>MSN era
>A girl from a random group started talking to me in private
>Start a good friendship for 2-3 months talking almost everyday
>"Dude, you can't see I'm into you?"
>I've always supposed it wouldn't happen to me so I was really surprised
>After some spaghetti we started dating
>We went to each other cities multiple times and it was awesome
>She was religious so we couldn't have sex
>Me, hormonal horndog, was almost blowing
>Ended up with her just for some cheap sex with random skanks
>Fell like shit and realized my error
>She went more into religion and now couldn't date with a non-believer
>we still talk to this day as friends and from time to time remember that our relationship was the best and only in our lifetime
>We are both single until this day
>when you'll never pass as male
I'm gonna off myself soon, I think
>>28595824
>when you'll never pass as female
That's the closest I came
>>28595909
We can be hons together anon
>>28589315
>enter 30s
>too old to begin most of my dreams
>will never be musician
>will never be comedian
>will never again be seen as precocious
>no one will ever again tell me "you're impressive for your age" because there is no such thing past 23
>>28592718
She used me for a lunch date.
I wonder what it feels like to be good at something. Not be better than someone at something, but good at something. You're the authority in someone's life on something. Boxed for a while, lost my first amateur match. Fenced for a while before that, lost my tournament. I'm not good at anything. I'm not good at anything. I played Dark Souls a lot when it was still young and small, but I never got good. Only thing I was ever truly good at was casual Halo multiplayer, but since then I've lost my shot and the community's smaller anyway. I'm not good at anything. I'm trying my damnedest and can't think an iota of above-average skill. Fuck this game.
Are you guys?
>>28595928
It would be the lamest couple in the world...sounds fitting, would be better than any other option
>>28596065
I'm good at several things and it feels awful, cause my life still blows and it all feels futile.
Sure it's cool for mental masturbation to actually succeed at the things you do in your free time. But when you don't succeed at life, it doesn't matter if you succeed at anything else.
>>28595909
you pass pretty well as a post-menopausal woman
>>28596114
Sounds absolutely fantastic. We'll have
suicidal and dysphoric cuddles all night long
>>28591192
Nursing is full of pussy, man. Don't even focus on getting laid, just enjoy being around a bunch of pretty girls. Study group is your friend, for both meeting new people and for helping you maintain grades.
You'll make it.
>Be 18 with an 18 year old gf who looks 16
>Love fat chicks with huge tits and massive asses
Shit
>>28596541
iktfb
just break up with her, it will not work out
>>28589315
>raised with a strong set of values by two loving parents who are still together.
>values such as the desire to get married and have kids and to do whatever was necessary to be a good dad.
>feel like you were raised too well.
>already nearly fucked up and married a girl who would have made a horrible mother.
>can't trust myself anymore. Use LDR as a way to avoid settling down and risking having a girl who would be bad for any prospective kids.
>stuck in life doing everything right but the one thing you want most.
>>28596569
But I love her and she loves me, she genuinely makes me happy. Sex isn't everything anon. My heaviest feel is not that heavy.
>tfw you will never peacefully exist under a blanket with your gf on a freezing Winter day and enjoy each other's company and share body heat
>>28596617
i used to tell myself all that stuff. you're only 18, though so you can afford to try it out
>pretty much raised my little brother since he was a baby
>so much of my life revolved around him
>he died a month ago
>>28596663
Were you not satisfied with her body? Why didn't it work out for you?
I started dating a 13-year-old girl when I was 24.
my greatest accomplishment will take my entier life to finish, and it wont even be that good
also I am going to die alone. life is meaningless and if i lose too many more of the things that matter I will an hero again and maybe this time i won't pussy out.
>tfw things were going well with the girl you like but then you got too emotional and, worse, told her about it and now you think you've ruined everything and are too scared to talk to her
>tfw the girl you wanted to make your gf is pregnant
>tfw deep inside don't care about it but don't want to be a cuck
A-at least maybe I'll get to fuck a pregnant girl. That sounds hot, right?
>>28596732
ugh captcha keeps bugging out.
no, i was not satisfied with her body and she could tell. over time, the fact that i didn't really enjoy sex with her destroyed her self esteem and she ended up cheating on me. since then, i haven't had a kiss/sex/date
our relationship lasted 3 years, and the reason it lasted so long is me misunderstanding what "sex isn't everything" means. it does not mean that you don't need good sex in a relationship, you do. what it means is that good sex is not enough to create a good relationship
>>28596853
Anon, talk to her. Be an open book, tell them exactly how you feel. This is extremely important for any good relationship.
>>28596632
A pillow will do, anon. A pillow will do
>tfw you know that the entire reason you are so attracted to the "red-pilled" posts and youtubers is because you're lying to yourself
>>28590005
We can all tell that you're a newfag. No need to pretend you aren't.
>>28596902
That's the thing, we already talked about all of this stuff last night. We both agreed that I'm likely more attached to the idea of her that I've built up in my head than to her as a person. She's the type of person that would rather take things slow before getting into a relationship, which I totally understand. It's been so long since I've felt this way about a girl that I'm feeling overwhelmed by it all.
Now I just want to hear her voice and talk to her about the things we'd normally talk about before, but I don't know what to say.
>not as smart as you thought you were
>world doesn't work how you thinks it does
>had a glimpse of what it could have been like
>never ever the whole experience
I like to rationalize with dumbass shit like, much better people have had much worse things happen to them. There's probably guys who did nothing wrong, went to church, were legitimately Lawful Good at heart, and then died in WW1/WW2/Korea or some shit. But then I immediately realize that worse people have had much better things happen to them, and I actually personally know several of the latter and none of the former, and I'm still pissed
>>28597266
iktf so well. often makes me feel like there's no reason to continue trying since i've already gotten so far off course.
>"had an amazing time dancing with the love of my life and best friends last night!"
I want off this ride
>>28589315
>I made mistakes that I will never be able to fix.
>My unhappiness is a product of my failures
>I was giving so many chances and opportunities but through them away carelessly or disregarded
>I had the tools to be a successful person or to be a normie, and couldn't even do that. I probably still have the tool, and even if I don't, I have to face the fact that I don't belong in the world of normies and successful people, nor do I belong to a world of people who are unsuccessful due to misfortune or bad or robots. I will, and I am, a failed normie. I don't even have an opinion worth consideration when it comes to whether or not it is better to be a robot or a normie.
>>28589315
>hurt innocent animals in my teen years
>guilt catches up
>vowed to never hurt another creature again somewhere along the line
>we're broke and mom takes in a dog with a lot of health problems
>can't take her to the vet
>rubs itself raw against furniture, bleeding
>end up beating that dog until its fear for me overrides its urge to hurt itself
>put down by mexicans mom worked for two years later
I don't even know how guilty I should feel. It still hurts. I most likely deserve it though.
>So many people who genuinely cared and loved me now hate and pity me
>stole from them and slow burned bridges
>never overdosed yet still trying
>too cowardly to kill myself
Criminal record so there's no follow my dreams of new Zealand
>tfw it's probably only a matter of time until your closest and only friend kills herself
>tfw she hates you
>tfw helpless and unable to help her in any meaningful way
>>28589315
>your first serious and only serious relationship ended with your athletic friend "walking her to the bus stop" when he was really going to fuck her around the back of the house
>tfw trump is more of a father figure to you than your real dad
>>28590377
You got hope lad
>>28590377
>balding
Oh man I know how this feels
>"He's 2x! He shouldn't be thinning so much!"
>"I have never seen this happen before!"
>>28589315
>can barely get/keep a security job because I'm a short female
>went out of my way to get Homeland Security certifications to bump up my chances but it barely helps
>health complications prevent me from the military but I'm too small for that too
At 5'1 and 112lbs I'm cursed to have an office job
>>28599187
Damn you kinda fat. I'd still snuggle with you though
Today was graduation day at my college. I saw all of the seniors move out of their dorm rooms with their families, going out to dinner and doing regular family bonding, putting their lives aside to give their sons and daughters their special day, being happy for them.
All I could think about was how much I wish I had that. My parents are bitterly divorced and can't be in the same room together. I'll never get to experience a regular life with a happy family, and I can't stop thinking about what could have been.
>>28599092
>tfw anonymous robot senpais are more of father figures than the dad i never met
>>28599187
prove to me you're not just some weirdo RPing
>>28590419
It's only good if you're a slut too. You gotta be able to make the street go both ways. Do drugs and fuck sluts and you can have dumpster love too. It's one of the purest loves I've experienced
>>28598631
If we could just go back, I was not fated to be this way, so many stupid stupid mistakes. Could have basically been a Chad
>the only girl who i think i really understand and who really enjoys my company already has a bf
and i'm not the kind of guy to try that kind of thing
>tfw you will never write that novel, meet that loving qt, have those great experiences and memories, have those interesting friends, have those nice things, or have great social skills
>tfw you are fated to work some shitty factory job for 45 hours a week making money you won't spend 90% of because your friends are moving on and you have no hobbies/passions while you struggle to hold back tears every day during breaks because your anxiety rules your life and you feel enormously pressured from nothing at all
>tfw had a 16 year old gf when I was 18
>tfw had another 16 year old gf when I was 22
>>28589315
That is the worst feel in my opinion. To think that I will never have sex with a girl in her teens (or even 20s if I dont get a gf soon).
>>28600003
Somebody post the girl in the shower version for me please
>>28600067
wtf anon, didn't she age??
>32 years old
>In college trying to get life together
>Too late
>5'5" turbomanlet
>trying to get life together
>too late
>too late
>>28600954
two different girls
>>28589315
>tfw i found a qt gf
>she was the only person i had so much common things and connections
>and now it's been one week since i saw her after the break up
Is it always that hard, or is it because she was my first adult gf ever ?
>>28590280
What's the cartoon anon?
>>28601931
how long together for?
>>28601977
A year
It's short, right ? Before her i was a sperg Virgin addicted to MDMA with only trust issues
Now thanks to her i'm back at lifting, dress better, doing better in society, but with a whole lots more of dependence and anger issues
>>28602051
i'm gonna guess you browse /fit/, /fa/, and /r9k/ daily
>>28602068
Used to, yeah. Am i that easy to read, or so you know me ?
Around those day its more like /fit/, /his/, and /tg/, tho
>Skinnyfat
>GFless virgin
>I will NEVER have the willpower to change this
Every week I tell myself "On this day, I'll finally start working out and put myself out there!" But I never do.
>>28602204
haha no i don't know you, i just know that feel
getting obsessed with self-improvement after a harsh breakup, hence /fit/ and /fa/, then /r9k/ for the feels
>>28589315
>>Too old to have a 15-16 year old GF
No such thing as too old for 15-16 year old gf.
You can only be too poor.
>no female will ever say this to you
>ever
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a9iXD-yTJ_k
J U S T
>>28602447
>getting obsessed with self-improvement after a harsh breakup, hence /fit/ and /fa/, then /r9k/ for the feels
Oh, no, i was already browsing them before meeting her and before the breakup, always hated staying in my own helplessness
Did you got an harsh breakup too ? How did you manage to stay somewhat alive after this ?
>>28602520
yes, i did. and that is a tough question to answer. but i definitely feel i became more genuine as a result of being alone, since i always felt like i had to compromise on things in a relationship. i also enjoy how nice it is to not have to feel responsible for anyone else
>>28591743
>riding in a bus like usual
>realize a qt redhead is glancing towards me constantlyatleast that's what I'd like to think
>it seems we're both going off on the next stop
>as we're leaving the bus her hand brushes me
>she apologizes and smiles
>instantly imagine our entire life together
>never see her again
>>28589315
>tfw have a 15 yr old gf anyway
>be ugly
>meet female version of me
>she's also ugly
>she might have a perfect personality and love me but i want a pretty gf
>>28603125
>this feel but she literally really likes me
>still can't develop feelings for her
God is a fucking coward doing this shit to me. I wish he'd just FIGHT MEEEEEEE
>>28590885
flirting isnt about saying that you like the girl, its more like complementig her and talking bunch of bullcrap to get your dick wet. It`s a way of talking but practice makes perfect.
>Compliment her and other grills, that way you will learn it all !
>be me
>waste 6 hours of life on /pol/ and /b/ that I could have used sleeping or working
>>28603636
try 15 every single day
>>28603643
i feel better now that someone wastes more time than me
I'm terrible in bed
>>28595909
>good thing I read the text because I just wanted to save it
I just don't know.
I don't think I hate myself, but how else can I justify eating myself to 400 pounds, losing job after job because I can't focus on improving myself.
I like to think I'd do something if I came into money, but in reality, I just think that I would do nothing but drugs and end up killing myself.
Everyone else that are here who thinks about themselves like I do has a good reason for it. I guess the heaviest feeling I have is that I don't know why. Even at my heaviest, I don't think I was ever really unattractive, I can hold a conversation just fine with other people I have even had a job for a while now. With each passing day I feel like I'm getting closer to losing it.
I probably would have already shot myself if I didn't waste all my money on fast food. I don't even like the taste of fast food anymore... I just want to be nothing.
It's not like I want to die, there are even times I like no enjoy what I'm doing. But it seems like no matter how much I enjoy something, I'm just doomed to get bored of it.
I dunno, sorry for wasting your time if you read that.
>>28599687
This. Agreed. Been with basically any type of girl. The fleeting love experience with a dumpster was the best. Masochistic sex followed by playful and happy albeit intense emotions towards eachother for 2 weeks then on with our lives.
>>28599183
Iktfb started balding at 23....the thought of going out of the house without a hat on overwhelms me. I literally avoid all social situations where i cannot wear a hat...
>>28603750
there are books anon
>cant take my problems seriously anymore
>will never have a love affair with a 9 year old girl
>will never have lgf
im not attractive enough to have someone want to be with me
>a cute girl will never be initially attracted to you
>she will never lie awake at night thinking about you
>she will never glance at you and blush when your eyes meet
>she will never make shy advances towards you
>you will never know what it feels to be desired just for who you are
>>28591616
Reading this hit me pretty hard. I cry pretty much every time I get home from a party.
>>28592000
Absolutely destroyed >>28591899
Nicely done.
>>28603125
Do it. Trust me, you WILL regret it if you move on from her.
>She's the female version of you
>She has the perfect personality
>You wouldn't date her because she's ugly
>Means you don't have the perfect personality
>Means she isn't the female version of you OR she doesn't have the perfect personality
Doesn't add up senpai. Just do it, she's above you.
>>28597349
Oh shit man. Why drag it out??
