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my meditation log: day 1
2016-05-15 21:20:02 Post No. 28589137
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my meditation log: day 1
Anonymous
2016-05-15 21:20:02
Post No. 28589137
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So i decided that I want to change once and for all, and to do so I need to cleanse myself of all this negativity through meditation.
I haven't started actually meditating yet, but I've been practicing to silence the whirlpool of thoughts in my head.
Today I started by focusing on sounds around me, such as a fan. Anchoring my attention to the noise and the noise only helped turn down the volume of the tornado of thoughts in my mind. Then, I set a timer for a few minutes. I watched the seconds tick down, and I worked on being aware of where it was at, but trying not to actually count down the numbers in my head. This was difficult because it's easy to just stare at it and space out. Once I was able to be in sync with the clock without hearing my inner voice say the numbers in my head, I was at almost a total mental silence, and it felt great.
It only took me a few moments of zero mental noise to realize that my emotions are what's bringing me down. My emotions work there way to the surface as pessimistic thoughts and delusions. Silence my thoughts, silence my emotions.
Now that small amount of practice hasn't cured me yet, but it gave me a bit of hope that I can eventually have full control over everything and be at peace. Once my thoughts and feelings came back, I felt like crying for no reason for a few moments. It's like plugging up a garden hose; the water gets backed up and comes out even stronger when it gets released.
Now I have to find another route for all that shit to go instead of back out, maybe through a refinery where it can be processed into something useful.
