Why are you afraid of happiness, anon?
There is no happiness in the world so great that it will crush you. Even the happiest person in the world still lives.
All kinds of happiness exist, each perfect for you, even the ones not so great.
>>28552664
There's no reason NOT to be scared of happiness since it always ends in pain. The fact that everyone in the world will experience this at least once proves that suffering is more palatable than happiness.
Being sad makes me happy.
>>28552739
Then you aren't actually sad, are you?
>>28552753
I am, it's just that everything else is even worse.
>>28552664
I am content with how I am now, I don't want any better or worse. Is that happiness?
Change is what scares me, perhaps that includes being happy because once you have it, you can only lose it.
>>28552664
Because once you're happy you can only become sad. As a sad fuck, I sometimes have happy moments, that's enough for me
>>28552739
That is like saying you find pain pleasurable.
They're two different things, if you're happy that you're sad, then you're not actually sad, you're happy.
The happiest time in my life was believing in God and going to church. Then my faith fell apart. I couldn't just pretend to have it again and it be alright. There's no pill to reset my mind.
God leaves, friends leave, everyone leaves... it's better to not have anyone than to lose them. Because the ghost of their memory never leaves you. Warmth becomes the cold in the room that never goes away.
>>28552664
Fuck you now i miss winter
To be happy I would have to ignore reality that my life is harder and less happy because of my inferiority. I can't do that.
>>28553992
Why? Snow everywhere, painful cold, having to wear clothes...
