I'm a Muslim
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Hello /r9k/, I wanted to share my story with you, and seek some advice. This will be a bit of a long post but I hope it is worth it, thank you for reading my brothers.
A few years ago I was in a dark place in my life and after a lot of studying and examining various religions I went to my local mosque and took Shahada. I knew then it was the perfect religion for me. At first, I put down the Quran and stopped reading as I did not want to become Muslim. I resisted it. Somehow, it kept calling me back, and I kept reading Quran and studying Islam. I just wanted to find out more about Islam, this religion was beckoning me, it really felt right.
Eventually I gave up and returned to Christianity. But I cannot accept the Trinity, I understand how the Trinity forms one God, but I cannot accept it. Priests and Pastors must jump through hoops to make sense of their version of monotheism. I began looking at Judaism; my grandmother was a Jew. While Jews are supposed to love the convert Judaism made it clear I could never be a "complete" Jew. So then I looked at Unitarian Christianity. Jehovah's Witnesses were very smart and able to back up monotheism in the New Testament with scripture, but they in essence operate as a cult: if you do not do a certain amount of evangelization you're considered "inactive", they also have peculiar cultish things like this in their church doctrines.
One day I actually told my mother and step-father I was Muslim, but they thought I was joking, and began laughing, so I joined them and I hid my faith and pretended I was joking. It hurt to do this, let me explain why. I'm a white man from Texas, with a very Baptist family. My family hates Muslims, my friends hate them... Everyone I know does, and it pains me, because what was revealed to me was the TRUE Islam, and they will never be able to know what I am talking about.
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I won't ever be able to go to Jummah because my local college students would recognize me, and inevitably word would spread to my friends in college. I live in a southern state and some nearby mosques had armed protestors and I'm always too afraid to walk in. I couldn't ever marry a Muslim woman for obvious reasons, I can't raise my children Muslim, I would have hide my faith from my family when I get married. If I follow a religion I follow it to the T: I simply can't imagine my life without guitar and rock music. I don't have the desire to stop marijuana. I feel as if I wouldn't be fully committed to Islam with these things in my life. I'd come back to Islam in a heartbeat if it meant no Jummah, raising kids Muslim... etc... Effectively if I became a Muslim that didn't exist in the eyes of any others. Allah, why couldn't you have just given me life into a Muslim country and family?
Sorry, I honestly don't know what the point of this thread is, I guess I just want to vent and see what you all think about it... It's such a shit situation, to finally find something that gives answer and structure to my life, and have my mother laugh about it. So here I sit in my room on a dark Saturday at night pissface drunk, stoned and depressed, drugs are my only real god now and it doesn't come close to Salat, which I can never have, or at least live to the fullest extent.
>>28551554
>being a religious cuck
Being accosted with neckbeard hat memes is much better than accepting a religion that literally stands for submission.
>>28551620
Islam is dear to me, it is the true light in my life. Without it I would be lost. Peace be upon you, brother.
>>28551554
shoo shoo saudi scum
>>28551765
I am not Saudi Arabian, I am American. I am white. I was born in Texas.
>>28551735
Look I'm mostly memeing you kid. If it brings you satisfaction in life that's great, but I just don't get it.
If your faith is truly in religion, why do you care what others think? If your faith is really so shallow as not wanting to be associated with a religion, you should just give up.
>>28551554
Brother, please answer me. I'm also a muslim, but in times of doubt, recently. Please explain to me about the verses that tells to kill the nonbelievers, and about being able to having sex with our slaves. I hate being a joke to western people.
>>28551944
>>28551554
I was born in a muslim family, in moderate muslim country, but sometimes i wish i wasn't. Sometimes i wish i was born american and christian. Being very westernized and whitewashed, i think it would be very easy for me to be american and christian. I don't even care about religion, or 'the truth', i just want to live calmly and relaxed. I kind of thought about leaving islam, converting to christianity and moving to america.
>>28551944
The Bible also has verses that condone killing nonbelievers, and verses allowing rape if the rapist marries his victim, and many instances of slavery. Yet the modern Christian does not need to practice these things, they are seen as antiquity. The Quran has many beautiful things in it and we must take from those things, our lessons. This is how I read Quran and understand its verses. Peace, brother.
Take it to >>/pol/.
>>28551554
>Priests and Pastors must jump through hoops to make sense of their version of monotheism
No they don't
>>28551620
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZ1pLyLdnhM
>>28551991
Only insincere Christianity is calm or relaxed. In no other religion can one follow every tradition, ceremony, and law and still not be a sincere follower.
>>28552035
no fuck you don't encourage them
>>28551554
>Allah, why couldn't you have just given me life into a Muslim country and family?
Then maybe you should kill yourself so you can ask Allah yourself. The only think more vile than a Muslim is a traitor, and you are both.
>>28551554
Tl;dr
I'm a Christian anyway
>>28551554
I'm a muslim from an arabic country, and the best advice I can tell you is that you should keep your faith, practice praying in secret, its alright to do stuff secretly if you feel scared, and Islam is quite different in western society, and most shiekhs will tell you that its alright to not do certain things like salat al jummah in a non-muslim country.
One day you'll have to talk to your parents about it, and it can be tough if they go against you because they are your parents after all.. but you need to try to keep in touch with them.. respect them and help them whenever they need help.
Stay strong brother, for life is only a test and you'll be rewarded greatly in the after life for your struggles.
It sounds like either A. you should do a shit ton more research on what it takes to be muslim. B. Consult a pastor/priest, unless they would likely talk about what happened to others. C. Become an agnostic. Accept that it's possible for a god to exist and let that be the end to it.
Move out. Southern USA is cancer.
>>28552205
Thank you brother. I will stay strong, Allah is close to my heart. I am afraid of what others will think of me but I am not going to let this get in the way of my faith.
>>28552301
I'm curious, what is it about islam that really changed you ? What is it that makes you think it's the truth ?
>>28552032
The new testament is mostly hippy shit, it just tells you about respecting others and living your enemy and all that crap, it doesn't have the main figure fucking children or goats, or murdering people. Shitty role model is shit.
>>28551554
>Jehovah's Witnesses were very smart
>>28552325
When I went to the mosque the first time, there was beauty there. I really felt connected to God, to the divine, and the chanting and prayer felt authentic and real to me, like nothing else had before. When I read the Quran, its verses spoke to me, they were so beautiful and poetic, they calmed me, they brought me out of depression. When I pray to Allah I feel connected to Him, I feel His love and kindness. This feeling is hard to explain with words, that's why it's faith I guess. You just know it in your heart when you feel it and it's right for you.
>>28551554
I wonder how fucked up your life was if you managed to find "the light" in quaran's verses...
If, that is, you're not just baiting right now. I can no longer tell the difference.
Will never understand people's need for dogmatism and religious institutions. Can't you just believe whatever you want to believe and follow the faith in whatever wat that pleases you? Why do you need to be "accepted" by other or be a "right kind" of muslim? You are the master of yourself, your soul and your destiny, goatfucker. It's only you. Do and believe as you please, you don't need "islamism" to tell you're right, nor your parents' approval to do so. Grow some fucking pair of balls to follow your own path.
>>28551554
>>28551610
>not even greentext'd
fuck off stupid sun goblin, I'm not reading all that shit
>religion
even people in religious schools hate that shit
youre about 800 years too late
>>28551554
If you look up to Muhammad, a man who diddled a 9 year old and spread his religion by the sword, you deserve no respect. Get the fuck out of my country.
It's as if OP turned out gay and wouldn't be able to go into a gay club.
>I'm a Muslim
stopped reading right there.
reevaluate your life.
>>28552205
Mudslimes only care for reward, not virtue or grace.
Go watch more pornography.
>>28552516
Only the lowliest of people 'hate' religion, because the Holy Spirit burns to enter them.
>>28551944
You must look at these verses as direct revelation to the people of the time. For example, the Muslims at the time were viciously persecuted and fought back in many major battles and these verses came down during those times.
If you really have doubts or questions, as we all do, go and ask a learned person. This is not the site for that.
>>28552787
So since you muslims feel viciously persecuted now you think it's your right to kill, rape and persecute non-muslims? I've had muslims tell me they feel oppressed because I'm not muslim and I don't hide it.
>mfw when people still believe in voodoo aloha snackbar babby jaybus bodhishitva flying spaghetti xenus
when will the religion meme end?
Get ye away beard-paedo man
>>28551610
The original ummah lived in a society where islam was actually illegal, where people would be whipped and tortured for being muslim, actual legitimate persecution. You can deal with this much.
>>28553298
I am not a pedophile. I want to meet a nice Muslim woman who is my age.
>>28552575
I did re-evaluate my life. It is what led me to Islam. One of the best things I've ever done.
