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>tfw I think I am becoming addicted to weed
smoked everyday for the last few weeks, I can't even remember if it has been 3 or 4
>>28550454
It's easy to fall into that hole, where time kind of becomes meaningless because you're just high all the time. Is there any reason you've been smoking so much?
>>28550493
Because I have weed
I'm beginning to get addicted to xanax. This shit is seriously the best drug I've ever had.
>That feeling of calmness
>Everything will be okay
>Just pass out and sleep for a long time
This is pretty fucking embarrassing, but I've been chugging Robitussin like 4-5 times a week for the past 2 years. I literally can't function without being fucked up because I get depressed to the point of suicide if I go like 2 days without it. I can only guess at the kind of brain damage I'm inflicting but I don't know how to stop.
>>28550541
I've been thinking about getting xanax for legit anxiety. How easy is it to get addicted to?
Bex!
Yup originality!
>>28550576
What is your tolerance like after this heavy use?
>>28550454
i'm completely and totally addicted to weed. i've smoked weed everyday for the past 3 years. ive sold clothes for it at platos closet i've stolen it ive sold game consoles. now that i work for my city i make god money so im just stoned whenever im not working now, i have spent thousands and thousands of dollars on this shit. i don't even get that amazing enlightment and awesome epiphanies you get high as fuck on weed anymore. i just get fuckin stoned but not like you get stoned its not as mindblowing. its still really good but its just not the same as smoking every now and then
I'm going to order some ecstasy soon.
Does it really fuck up your brain if you don't take it too often? Even if it does eventually, I'm not sure whether I'd care. While on a good drug is the only time I can feel happiness.
The sound of music while on it, the euphoria/feeling that everything is alright, and not being repulsed by myself and depressed over my situation for some hours is the best.
>>28550678
good money not god money
>>28550645
It pretty much peaked at needing 3 bottles for a good 2nd plateau trip, I rarely go higher anymore because it's too expensive.
>>28550700
>>28550699
Great thread y'all have got here.
About 10 months clean of heroin.
>>28550431
I vape, used to be addicted to cigs
/heroin/ master race reporting in.
We out chea getting smacked silly tonight.
>>28550748
have u had any problems from vaping? i wanted to get into it but my friend coughs like all the time from it.
>>28550762
nah man, I feel better in general, although i am still dependent on the nicotine. its not healthier than not smoking, but its better than inhaling all the chemicals in cigarettes
>>28550734
Good job mate proud of u
>>28550734
How did you do it? Do you go to NA or anything?
>>28550820
I just couldn't afford it and let myself deal with a month of hell.
>>28550576
Had that same problem about a year and a half ago. Took a lot for me to quit too. I've also noticed I'm not as smart or witty as I once was, I'm just slower now. So yes, if you are going that hard I believe you will have some brain damage my friend.
>>28550431
I know this sounds silly, but bear with me.
I feel like I have an issue withweed. I smoke once a night, but I crave it througout the day and when I can't smoke, it's all I want to do.
Recoving opiate fiend here
46 days sober. This is shit. I miss nodding out in my room alone. People suck. I just want to go back to getting high alone again.
Worst part is i know deep web shit and can never forget it. Its like having any drug at your finger tips. You can never forget it. It makes trying to recover impossible.
Once i stop getting drug tested in my iop i am going to relapse again. Last time i did opiates i did 2.5 grams of tramadol and 8mg xanax hoping id never wake up and i fucking did. Im going to double the dose.
Buying fucking bitcoin is hard when your bank account is being watched. Taking $10 out every couple of days at 7/11 and pretending im buying cigs. Fuck this life
>>28550678
Jesus dude
what fucking job do you have?
>>28550431
Today makes two months sober from alcohol. It'll more than likely kill me if I drink again, so I have a pretty good reason not to.
>>28550875
Same here, I've been off it for a good while now and I feel like I'm just not even close to what I once was mentally. My advice to the anon you replied to is cut that shit out.
>>28550904
post deepweb tips plox
>>28550888
It's not silly, people treat weed like it's harmless and non-addictive but you can pretty much get addicted to anything, and it's definitely an intoxicant. You should try and talk to someone, it's going to be embarrassing but it will be worth it.unless you don't want to stop in which case whatever i guess
>>28550949
Not spoon feeding you. Its not worth it. I cant get clean because of it.
I'm shooting about 5 grams of heroin a day. Spent about half of my 250k inheritance on it over the last year.
My life is so fucked. No hope for me at all. Once I'm down to 10k or so I'm gonna buy a gun and kill myself if I haven't od'd yet.
>>28550937
Agreed. Also the amount of acetaminophen you consume can and will kill you if you take it so often. I took the pills and regrettably didn't do the drip method or anything and after a few months of regular use had to go to the emergency room a few times because I couldn't pee for a couple days. Shit fucks you up.
>>28550959
Yeah, you have a point, anon. Thank you for being so civil about all of this.
>>28551025
No problem, I almost lost my life to addiction and I've seen it come in all kinds of different ways in different people so if I see someone who wants to try and kick a habit they get nothing but respect from me.
>>28550431
recently "quit" weed. usually I just run out of money and actually have to stop smoking but today I actually managed to say no to a free session. on the other hand I'm drinking a lot right now because it was a long day. I plan on quitting all stimulants save for maybe the occasional acid in the future. i have no idea how I'll get along without such distractions. I'm kind of an emotional wreck.
>>28550615
For me, it was quite easy. You just feel really good about life when you take them. Tolerance develops quickly, and you find yourself needing them more often and at higher doses. I'm been slowly weaning myself off them, since you can't stop cold turkey.
>>28550431
I'm 21 and I drink alcohol literally every day. It wasn't a problem until about 6 months ago when I realized I couldn't stop and I needed it mentally to function in life.
>>28551017
Yeah, using anything that doesn't have DXM as the sole active ingredient is suicidally dangerous.
>>28550888
stop listening to your retard friends and this retrd meme that a drug can't be addictive
literally you're putting various chemicals into your blood stream when you smoke weed that's all it is
it's literally no different from any other drug
"Hurr it's a plaaaant man", yeah so is opium dude, literally smoke that shit straight from the plant
where did this retard meme even come from? you can get so addicted to weed and there's a withdrawal syndrome go look it up people are just so invested in this idea that weed is a 'soft' drug and has no negative effecs andlike it's not even a druuuuuug manaaaa
no, smoking is the process of getting psychoactive chemicals present in the structure of the trichomes absorbed into your blood stream so the chemicals can have affects on your mind
literally he same process as meth
people would be shooting thc if it was possible
>>28551162
this, there's so much fucking misinformation abut weed out there it's crazy.
>>28550904
> 2.5 grams of tramadol and 8mg xanax
that's really fucking dumb the only reason tramadol is dangerous is the lower seizure threshold thing but you combined it with a drug that stops seizures LMAO
dude seriously you need to really plan it out if you're going to do it or you're just going to harm yourself like get brain damage or some shit and then you'll be stuck in life as a retard
benzos+opiates+alcohol+barbs+ghb+heart pills+etc
you need multiple cns depressants at high doses if you want a drug overdose death my man
>>28551093
Being an emotional wreck is behind the habit for tons of addicts man, you aren't alone. You can find people to talk to.
>>28551161
To be fair I was very suicidal when taking that particular drug, but I met somebody who made me realize that there is something to keep living for(as cheesy as that sounds) I'm just glad I got off it when I did.
>>28551296
I've been meaning to go to a therapist for almost a year now but I never managed to put all of the pieces together to do so. I'm on my parents insurance but I need the info/insurance card and my parents live like 2 hours away. . Currently I'm fooling around with a girl who liked me in high school but she has 2 kids and I don't want any part of that. she's so into me though and I've never had that before. I'm catching nso many feelings I didn't know I had.
This sounds stupid but can someone be addicted to the Internet? I can't study or sleep well because of it and I'm on the computer for 15 hours or more everyday
I would be a coke addict if I could afford it.
I fucking love cocaine. and I hate myself. Perfect combo.
'0 an 6*5ate add5ct, f6r 1/ years n6w
>>28550431
In a halfway house in SoFlo. Been clean for a year and a half, work at a treatment center and manage the halfway I'm at. Going through my steps again with a new sponsor and I have two sponsees.
I've seen people overdose in front of me, save two guys lives with a narcan shot, I've found people dead, and now I'm about to go to school to become a therapist.
>>28551344
It's hard but it might be best to put her on hold for awhile until you get your emotional issues sorted out. Especially if you're dealing with substance abuse as well, that's a mix of stuff that you really don't want in case shit hits the fan. And I know that getting to the therapist is hard especially when you've got conflicted emotions, but it sounds like you know it's something you need, so get yourself there! You'd only be helping yourself in the long run.
All I can get here is meth cut with ket
I'm addicted to Sasha, Becky and Bayley. Does that count?
>>28551355
There is a short documentary about kids in China who go to rehab for internet addiction. It's pretty interesting.
Here, found it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqctG3NnDa0
>>28551470
>not including CharGOAT
i have a full time job, a home of my own and a long term girlfriend who really loves me . and i really love her. for the past 6 months ive been working over night from 3-12pm.ive got to about 10-20 beers a night. i realized tonight driving home that i am an alcoholic. i dont think anyone knows. how do i get past this. i finally thought my life was good , why do i have to be this way?
>>28551422
literally everyone I tell about her tells me she's bad news. I fucked her and thought I got her pregnant but she said she was already pregnant. I wasn't even mad. just releived. I know she's bad for me but she wants to cook for me and appreciate me and fuck me. I've literally never had that. She's even gone through really similar traumas as me. I was a bitch about dumping her and I keep running back to her and now I can't stop thinking about her and I want to die. I even told her what an emotional wreck I am but she only says that she'll have the patience for me. it's not fair. no one has patience for me. I don't want to be with her but fuck I need her.
Also yeah I really should get to a therapist.
>>28551412
I'm sorry you had to go through so much but I'm glad you're on the right path. It makes me happy to know someone can rise above their problems and even help others.
>>28551511
i mean 3-12am
>tfw been taking morphine to get high for 3 years to deal with being alone
My tolerance has been so shit recently its like just now I've realised how much of a shitty situation i'm in
I think I'm a porn addict
What do I do besides "just stop bro XDD"
>>28550576
your happy receptors are toast. no wonder you'll feel like garbage
>>28551511
Either get to an AA meeting or contact a treatment center. AA can be a little bit offputting if you're not spiritual/religious and can seem a bit dogmatic, but it's helped tons of people, myself included. I don't know how bad your problem is, but it can't hurt to call a treatment center and see what they recommend (like if you need to be hospitalized or some shit to deal with withdrawals). I know you feel like you're alone, but there are literally millions of people going through the same thing you are, you just have to reach out and find them.
>>28551583
keep busy and you won't want to jack off. take it form someone who had nothing to do all day every day for as long as they can remember. Porn addiction goes away the more active you become. Sometimes you'll want to jerk it after a long day and that's natural. or maybe you have the day off and you just want to jack it. That's okay. just make sure you have something to do afterward.
>>28551412
Good for you man, my cousin followed a similar path from addiction to counseling and we couldn't be any more proud of him.
>>28551583
Just jack off to your imagination. It's actually pretty good.
i love getting high so much. just, so so much. opiates, stims, benzos, RCs, weed, uppers downers lefters righters, just all of it. help me
>>28551523
It sounds like you've got it pretty rough right now man, I hope it all works out for the best. I'll be praying for you for what it's worth.
benzo addict around 250mg diazepam a day atm. does a bottle of wine a day count as alchy.
>>28550692
take it every 3 months (but it could lower to a month and a half if you're not the type of guy who can limit himself). Do you know where are the people who took md every week for raving purposes? Me neither. X/MDMA is really really nice, but taking it a bit too much might leave lifelong brain damage
>>28551523
>It makes me happy to know someone can rise above their problems and even help others.
That's all part of the program. The only thing I don't like is how a lot of rehabs/inpatient treatment centers take advantage of addicts and reap in huge amounts of money from their insurance. You can bring in $7,000 from one kid going to PHP or detox. So you get places letting clients get high so they can bill them for a higher level of care. They charge for drug tests, group therapy, one on one sessions, and even taking them to the movie. Down in Florida, urine is worth more than gold.
>>28551701
thanks man. I could use the support. If only I'd known how important peers were in highschool. I wouldn't have ruined my personality like I did.
>>28550904
i'm lucky only opioid i was hooked on was kratom, i still miss that warm glow.
still like paramol (dihydrocodeine) sometimes
>>28551660
Thanks bro, hope your cousin stays on the right path and keeps saving lives.
>>28550627
>he unironically likes BeC+etty
>>28550922
why will it kill u?
>>28551868
it would be extremeIy painful
>>28551868
Acute pancreatitis can do it without me drinking. If I don't my odds of surviving and eventually getting better improve.
>>28551622
i know that, the hardest part is doing this without my family finding out. my dad died last year and i dont think my mom could handle it and her first husband was an alcoholic. i dont think she could take it, and if my girlfriends religious conservative family found out i wouldn't be aloud in their house
>>28551889(you)(you)(you)
But seriously, it can and does hurt.
>>28551868
Kidney/liver failure, reckless behavior, driving drunk. You can also die from withdrawals from having a seizure.
>>28551836
sasha fans get OUT
>>28550431
Hi I'm Ryan. Addict, alcoholic here. Had some clean time under my belt numerous times. Currently in a heroin relapse :(
Can answer alot of your questions about rehab/sponsor/after care. I worked at a rehab, have been to rehab twice. Numerous psych wards. Jails. Can answer alot of questions regarding what they give you in detox and what to expect regarding the program depending on how much money you're paying.
Yeah! So. Fire away.
>>28551934
I really feel for you, that can't be easy. I wish our society was more open about these kinds of problems so it wasn't so hard for people to get help.
>>28552036
Are you in NA/AA? I assume so cause of the first sentence so I'll go ahead and ask my question. I tried AA for a few months, had a sponsor and everything, but I just straight up cannot deal with the spiritual nature of the program. So I left and now I'm drinking again and don't know if going back is the right move. Do you have any advice for a strongly atheistic robot wanting long-term help?
>>28551010
I'm sorry friend, but I also have blown 200k in inheritance an a settlement from a car accident. Heroin and Oxymorphone (Opana) so I get the shame spiral feels. Looking at all the things you could have purchased and how much money that really is. Makes you sick to your stomach.
Here for you brother.
If no one has told you today, I love you, and there's not a god damn thing you can do to change that.
>>28552038
thank you, my mom would always love me, i just dont want to break her heart. shes been through to much the last couple years. i guess im just going to have to be okay with loosing it all. and if im not supported then ill try my hardest to do this alone. i know my girl would support me but i dont think my 6 older siblings would.
>>28550431
>tfw smoked 40 grams of weed over a 12 day span while studying for finals
Have to be constantly high and disassociated from reality in order to get through college. Only way I can study without panicking, and power through the realization that i have no social life in one of the biggest party schools in the country.
Its pretty fun being alone with my paranoid delusions as well.
Only Pablo Prigioni's Penis would ever get into a rehab program. u fagut
>>28552070
I work an AA program now but I started in NA. I have found there's a lot more old-timers with alot of time in AA compared to NA. I attend both though. AA sponsors are also traditionally harder on you to succeed and work your steps, NA sponsors kind of usually let you do your thing and are there for you if you need them.
There's a solution for the spiritual thing.
-AAAA (Atheists Agnostics Alcoholics Anonymous)
- or just understand that the idea of a higher power can be anything. Use it at a reason to never be alone. And having faith in something just because fuck it man what can it hurt. Obviously everything ive done before was wrong I might as well try new things.
Remember. Your mind is not chemically the same as other people's. It's US and THEM. And remember always.. Your first thought is wrong. Always.
Keep going to meetings. Even if you don't share. Fuck. Do two meetings a day. Keep it to open discussions. Less book study or step based meetings and alot of the god shit goes away.
Anyone out there considering rehab or detox and have questions lets hear em.
Pls thread no die. It's 2 am I hope some drunk out there will see this and give up the high cost of low living. We gonna love you until you can love yourself.
Get it off your chest!
>>28552036
whats the easiest/least painful way to kick the lovely brown sugar?
>>28551511
>>28551934
Similar situation here. My life looks great on paper, I have a well paid job, good career, a beautiful gf, many friends, and lots of people outright tell me they're envious of my life. And yet I have an alcohol problem. It hasn't affected my work (yet) or my relationship (yet), but I can feel it's having an effect on my health. I'm the type that can't drink one beer, once I have a drink I'll go all the way.
5 days sober now. First day in a while where I slept well and don't feel like shit in the morning. I wish I could just be able to drink in moderation. When I finally got a gf, I thought that now my days of excessive drinking would be over... nope.
>>28552716
On your own? Or are you asking about an inpatient detox?
>>28552139
you should start vaping
I went from smoking a half every two weeks to vaping that amount in a month and then being able to eat the rest of the already vaped weed to get high for another week
>>28552826
I know that feeling too. Why can't I just drink like normal people. What the fuck is wrong with me.
And it's good you've realized your problem before it's amount of unmanagibility goes to the degree of you losing things you care about.
And the anxiety involved in not being able to drink at business/family functions. Having to explain yourself and the possibility of being judged.
>>28552872
I think he's explaining how he can't go without weed. Not the quantity being the issue.
>>28552893
yeah i know it sucks but 40 grams of weed is a lot of money and with vaping it would probably be like 18-20 with weed left to eat
>>28550454
>>28550493
>>28550678
I used to be addicted to weed, for about 4 year smoking it every day I just decided to quit and not buy any more, that's the easiest way, plus I hated drug dealers they were such scum bags and I hated giving them my money.
Reasons I wanted to quit was because it had gotten to the point where I forgot what life was like before weed, I'd been using this crutch and I realized if I didn't quit smoking it then it would be problematic, I learned in the earlier days how much my temper got fucked up by smoking it.
If I wasn't stoned I would get angry, very easily and that just wasn't me. I realized that for all the happy feelings weed was giving me, they weren't real, it was an illusion and I didn't want to live like that.
You in the film The Matrix when Morpheus shows Neo "the Desert of the Real", well that's what it's like when you stop smoking weed. You see life for how it really is since you smoked so much you've forgotten.
Do I miss smoking weed?
Sometimes, but then a few years ago I decided to smoke one more time when someone else was smoking it and offered, I decided that I wanted to see how far I've come and the truth is, it really wasn't that good.
I grew out of it I think.
>>28552872
I had a vape gut it just didn't get me as high. but >>28552893
this i can't even fathom getting through college without being high all the time
>>28552877
>not being able to drink at business/family functions
That I can do just fine, actually. When I have one drink, I just want to have more and more, but I also can hold myself back as long as there are people around.
What happens instead is that once I've had a bit to drink, then after the social event or whatever is over, I'll go to the pub to have a few more, and then continue drinking at home until I pass out.
>>28552893
literally after right getting a vape the first thought i had was why i didn't get one so much earlier
if you're going to smoke weed regularity there is no excuse to not get a vape
Cocaine is becoming an issue. I need to start going to NA. I just really hate those fuckin meetings.
>>28552932
I am in the same boat except im done college in six weeks and have no idea what i want to do with my life
there is no way a vape wont get you high, it gets you way more high
you must have had a shitty vape
I spend 200 canadian on my portablevape and it is the best investment i ever made
tfw jerking off 3 times a day for the past year
>tfw when i try no fap I feel guilty and bust even bigger nuts
>>28552967
Keep trying different ones until you find a group you like. Not to mention they have a cocaine anonymous. End of the day no one is gonna get you clean but yourself. Try to find a meeting and sponsor you like and work your steps. Great things happen
>>28552936
Are you going to be completely abstinent from alcohol or are you going to try and manage your drinking.
>>28552932
Is this from an undiagnosed anxiety disorder or another mental issue
I am day 3 of cold turkey 110mg methadone
hasn't been that bad to be honest but I'm sure it's gonna get a lot worse
im drunk af right now, im watching the film zero day.
>>28553238
Any particular reason you aren't doing a taper? I would suggest you do a supervised inpatient detox.
>>28553175
I just want to be able to manage it. To not overdo it every time I have a few and then can't stop. I want to go out with friends for beers. I want to have a nice wine with dinner. I just want to stop drinking myself to sleep 50% of the evenings.
I'm relieved that I'll never be addicted to coke, since I can't afford it. Holy shit is it fun though, I felt like a normie, talking to people, flirting, the whole nine yards.
was a spice addict for 6 months, 3 weeks clean. was twisted all the time, was so easy. could hang out a window at work, 2 quick drags, good for the hour
heart & chest feeling normal again. still getting incredibly vivid dreams. the decision to start lifting probably saved me
>>28550431
I only now figured out that's wordplay for ass kicker. I wonder how I manage to feed myself.
>>28553826
Have you tried MDMA?
>be 24
>girlfriend goes away for three months
>lonely
>bored
>start drinking heavily
>all day long, every day
>girlfriend returns
>makes me a coffee
>tastes weird
>she says it's just a normal coffee
>check expiration dates on milk, it's all good
>literally takes me 10 minutes to realise the reason it tastes weird is because it's the first coffee I've had in months that didn't have whiskey in it
That's when I realised I was an alcoholic. I'm cutting back at home, never done a program. Still knocking back about six a day but that's not too bad I don't think.
>>28553946
Yep, but it's always mollies, which could contain god knows what.
Very fun though.
addicted to weed vaping here
i just want to moderate it it's so hard since i have unlimited supplies
>>28552840
on my own lad
>moderate to heavy drinker last two years.
>high anxiety with constant paranoia. like to get buzzed at night to chill me out and help me sleep
>wagecuck job starts doing random drug tests in the morning.
>get busted and get sent home with a warning/strike. Boss is fucking pissed.
>can only really get fucked up on a Friday/Saturday
>weekdays are fucking tortuous. can't fucking sleep, in pain all the time, all i do is think about drinking and being relaxed.
fuck all I want to do it DRINK.
I went cold turkey a few days ago after a period of heavy drinking. My brain is starting to clear and I no longer have headaches, like the first 2-3 days. But now my hands are shaking. Pls tell me this will stop soon and I will feel completely normal again ;_;
>>28551162
>where did this retard meme even come from?
From stoner flicks that cater to teenagers, most notably Half Baked where a man goes to rehab because of his weed addiction and then gets ridiculed for not having a serious addiction.
At least, that's where my old high school friends learned that you can't get addicted to weed is what they tell themselves who still smoke every day.
My benzo withdrawal is almost over
Thank you based Valium for that long half life
>>28555616
tremors is a common thing, but depending how much you drank they may be around for a while.
addicted to adderall here.
been taking up to 90mg a day.
feels good man.
>>28550431
I'm trying to slowly kill myself with drugs atm.
i dont have much to lose so i might as well at least have some fun. i don't see why all depressed robots dont just become druggies?
I had to do 6 months in rehab after I pulled a gun on a Chad when I was piss drunk
>>28550759
Mushrooms are better than H
>>28551995
What perfect armpits
>>28556392
If you were drinking too much, then that probably was a good thing. It being forced on you.
>>28550904
>tramadol
Holy shit man you better get into rehab quick before you get into something really y hard like tylenol 4s.
>just jealous because I have a shitload of trams and they never got me high.
I would like some Xanax though. I hate it when I have money and no hook ups.
>>28550904
the most ive ever done opiates wise is 40 mg of oxy, felt really nice. i really dont care if i fucking die at this point though, how do i make the most of prescription opiates?
>>28556868
get some oxymorphone/hydromorphone and shoot it
does smoking weed every day from like 1pm count?
I'm definitely addicted to weed. At this point in my life I know it's only holding me back, it makes me lazy and it prevents me from meeting people and doing new things with my life. The biggest problem I have is that I have a cushy job, it's fucking easy as sin and I get 3 days off during the week. I have more than enough money to always have a bulk supply of marijuana on me (I currently have about an ounce and a few grams of wax) and because of my weird work schedule (I work weekends) it becomes difficult to go out on Friday/Saturday night so I can't hang out with my friends as much as I used to before I got the job, so I've really been using weed to cope with being alone so much of the time.
I think I should probably see a psychiatrist. I don't think weed is my number one problem, I think it's a symptom of my socially-evasive personality and until I'm comfortable meeting new people and going out and doing things then I'll just keep going back to weed. I'm also scared that if I stop smoking weed I'll start smoking cigarettes again (I quit after 4 years of smoking last year) or I'll start picking up a fifth of vodka on my way home from work everyday.
>>28550792
There are still terrible chemicals in vape liquids.
>>28557036
my dad has smoked 24/7 my whole life. it's not *that* bad for you but it just makes you boring and annoying, maybe try substututing it for alcohol on some days or something.
There is no such thing as addiction. You solely are responsible for your own choices, choices you make for pleasure.
>>28557128
My family has a history of alcoholism so I try to stick only to beer and only 12 per week. I don't remember the last time I had any liquor and I don't remember the last time I got a bad hangover.
Opiate addict here. Used to shoot heroin for two years. Stopped using that a couple years ago, managed to quit using everything up until the last six months or so where I've been using vicodin and percocet.
I take 1 perc a day generally, if I don't get that one perc I can't sleep and feel generally terrible.
Tfw live in suburbs of Detroit and don't gave a decent oxy dealer, fml
>>28557156
Yes and your brain can't decide otherwise after certain conditions have been reached. Some people clearly have no understanding what a brain is and how it works.
>>28550692
its gonna royally fuck up your serotonin receptors if you take it too often. you shouldn't take it more often than once a month, and that's stretching it.
>>28557185
Have not gave
Bloxblox
>>28557156
Get the fuck out of here, jackass.
>>28556392
did it help you? are you drinking now?
>>28550431
Not a alcoholic or druggie but,
I'm a self diagnosed sex addict.
I make about $4.5 a month from work and spend like $3k on sex a month. I go to 2 different strip clubs where I can get my dick sucked for $100 or have my dick rode on for $200-$300. I usually spring for the blowjob, because I never have to wear a condom, and its quick, and cheapest. With $3k to spend, blowjobs at $100 = 30 blowjobs. But of course there are times I NEED pussy, so i pay the extra for it. 90% of the time, its niggeress or spic strippers that offer, occasionally a white girl will offer, which is my favorite desu, but its rare, and shes usually a pretty trashy white girl, but whatever. I live with my mom so I can afford this luxury. Mom asks were all my money goes, I tell her I save it.
I masturbate about 60 times a week. Its all i do really. If I'm not fapping, I'm looking for porn to fap to later. But I'm usually fapping. I fap at work, I watch porn at work, I fap in my car while driving, i fap the movie theater, I fap in "arcades" at porn shops, and worst of all, I fap in dressing rooms at target and wal mart in women's clothes. Occasionally I can pull off sneaking panties into the dressing room to fap into.
This is the life I live everyday. I wish I could stop it, but I cant. Sometimes it's like I'm not even in control of my self, and I'm watching these horrible, evil, self destructive things happen, and i beg myself to stop, but I have no control to stop it.
I've literally had my hard dick in my hand the entire time I've been typing this. I'very only been awake 2 hours and have fapping 3 times already, and currently edging.
I need fucking help.
I wish there were threads like this more often. Its good to talk to people.
>>28557963
You are going to end up destroying your dick, anon.
Not joking.
Yes, you definitely do need help.
>tfw had to break up with gf
>tfw someone trashed my garden last night
I just wanna go buy some weed and get blazed to forget about it, but I know it doesn't help me one bit. The feels will come back.
>>28557963
>This is the life I live everyday. I wish I could stop it, but I cant. Sometimes it's like I'm not even in control of my self, and I'm watching these horrible, evil, self destructive things happen, and i beg myself to stop, but I have no control to stop it.
Thats addiction. At least you know you have a problem. Maybe you can go to sex addict meetings?
>>28557963
There's sex addicts anonymous, or you could try counseling. What you're describing sounds horrifying. Some kind of 12-step program (which is what sex addicts anonymous would be) sounds like it could help you.
>>28557983
Absolutely. In the midst of all the toxic negativity that is /r9k/, the alcohol/addiction threads are a completely different world. Posters are actually nice to each other and supportive.
>>28550759
what kind of stamp you got on them bags?
Ah my Heroin days I miss trying to score in the ghetto never knowing if the bags where gonna be amazing or not. Got off it years ago now Im just an alcoholic. My drinks of choice are 3 25 oz Natty daddies or 1 pint of dubra. that usually fixes me up for the day.
Alcoholic here. Not planning on getting treatment.
>>28558090
May I ask why not?
>>28558125
What's the point? It's not like not being an alcoholic is any better.
>>28558140
Eh, it's your life but I want to say I felt the same way when I was drinking but since I got treatment and stopped drinking my life has been way better. You'll never not be an alcoholic though, that shit stays with you.
>>28557963
you should watch Shame with Michael Fassbender. It's a really great look into sex addiction.
The good thing is you recognize your addiction, now you have to either find a 12-step program or use some of that blowjob money on a psychiatrist
I'm in an outpatient rehab program right now. Kind of struggling because the program is kind of shitty and there are two people who monopolize group to talk about themselves. Not sure what I should be getting out of this.
