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Well, the youre stuck here forever meme is apparently true brobots.

I tried leaving this place. Thought maybe the toxicity and the self wallowing of this place was weighing me down. Thought i could change. I tried putting harder efforts into my studies, taking care of myself, trying to learn guitar, building self confidence, turning normie.

This was 6 months ago. I worked hard. I joined an online chatroom to cope with loneliness. I laughed at normie jokes and acted interested in them. I got a girl i kind of started liking to go out with me. But i never felt complete. The shallowness, the vapidness of normies was something i could never emulate.

I put on a mask everyday, i tried smiling, but i guess im stuck being dead inside. I put this shit up for about 5 months, and finally started relapsing. My "friends" caught onto it. I gradually turned into a punchbag for them. Just like the last time i tried fitting in. Last week one of them had a party at their house. I wasnt invited. My gf was. She cheated on me, and broke up with me the next day to date this lacrosse player jock. I felt nothing. Nothing except the dull bitter pain eating me away from the inside.

Now im back here on r9k complaining about my shitty life. And its pretty comfy desu. I missed you guys. I missed the captcha. I missed the robot. Even though ive realised im a fuck up and a goner, im uncomfortably comfortable being here. It feels like i belong here. It feels lie you guys are the only people who will ever understand me.

I just want to thank you guys for being there. You may feel worthless, but your existence does make people like me happy, and i love you all even though we will never actually get to meet.

Im not gonna make it but i hope you all do. Lets just enjoy our time together being stuck here in the meanwhile.

So itt:
>post best of r9k
>your autism/sad stories
>feels songs and images

Heres a song i like-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eO-eAldJmA8