I'm tired.
I dont want to talk but I dont want to be alone
I just want to be asleep all the time.
I want to be dead
>>28539290
I know that feel. I had a good run but i can't stand life anymore. I failed.
>>28539297
>trust me it will get better
yea it wont
>start spewing memes to make me feel better
I appreciate the effort, but it only makes me want to kill myself more.
>>28539290
failed normie spotted
git
fucked
>>28539351
can the memes please leave?
>inb4 more memes
>>28539338
I gave up waiting for it "getting better" at around 22. I am 27 now and it was basically 5 years of complete indifference, not feeling anything at all except for that melancholy when having to face happy people (especially young couples).
The thought of having to endure this another 40 or 50 years just fucks up my day.
>>28539290
just kill yourself then
>>28539437
Working on it.
I'm also kinda contemplating to maybe stream it via periscope or whatever that app is called.
Would it be interesting for jumping infront of a train?
>>28539338
I know your feel. Normies will never understand our feels and our pain. My life is nothing but suffering
>>28539338
I never said anything that you claimed i did m8
>>28539545
sorry, I didnt mean it as a reply to your post.
>>28539290
Cheer up, OP. You're not alone.
>>28539712
Isn't it kinda ironic?
We are all alone, but we're not alone.
It sounds like a lyrical line or something.
>I'm also kinda contemplating to maybe stream it via periscope or whatever that app is called.
Would you anons be interested in a livestreamed train suicide? I have nothing to lose and it would create some interesting content.
>>28539769
Thanks to China and Brazil, there are no shortage of death videos. So you can thank them for sparing for life.
>>28539818
>and brazil
care to link? I think i've missed this one
also why would I not kill myself if nobody wanted to see it?
>>28539874
>why would I not kill myself
I'm going to assume you're no older than 30. Even if you're completely unsuccessful by normie standards, you've still got two lifetimes left to observe the world, for better or worse. To sate your curiosity. To eat well. To laugh at the injustice. And maybe one day life will turn around. It's a little thing called hope. It's a powerful thing, you can feel it in your chest. Maybe I'm wrong, and you can say smugly on your deathbed that you lived to spite everyone who ever thought you'd take the easy way out.
>>28539586
Alright no worries then. I understand how you feel OP i want to die too.
>>28540004
Suicide isn't the easy way out it's fucking hard to do and to have the guts to actually go through with it. Living while suffering is the easy way since you don't have to do or plan anything.
Insanity is doing the exact same thing and expecting different results.
>>28540060
There are a million ways to die, anon. Many sudden and accidental. Like that guy who got decapitated by a recycling bin because a fence fell on him. Woops.
It's only the same if you continue to be the same. Change what you do. Change your perception. New habits take time to form. Have someone help you.
>>28540004
I could live longer if people werent so mean all the time.
>finish school
>get a job
and then?
I have a job, house, maybe a partner or whatever...
It won't make me feel any better.
life will still be miserable.
I just want to get out. there's no reason to stay any longer.
>>28540140
I've been thinking of maybe picking a date or something. Are there any interesting dates coming up?
Today is friday the 13th n shit. any cool days coming soon?
>>28539479
lame. don't attention whore it. go do something spectacularly foolish. ride a bike cross country, go get lost in Yellowstone and let bears eat you, etc.
your suicide video will never die and shame your descendants
>>28540165
>shame your descendants
>implying I care
people sure think that people who want to die care a lot about their enviroment.
>>28540121
>just bee urself
>all you have to do is try
Spoken like a true normie that never struggled with mental illness. I bet you had a perfect life. Congratulations
>>28540160
The ides of march would be cool since that's when Julius caesar was assassinated but that is next year.
>>28540165
The last time I hiked through Yellowstone I breathed in more mosquitoes than oxygen.
>>28540204
>I bet you had a perfect life.
I'm a penniless neet tranny who was kidnapped and sexually abused as a child, and raised in a trailer. Thanks for playing though. I just like maintaining a positive attitude.
>>28540246
Takes too long yeah. Maybe if for whatever reason I fail getting killed.
>>28540259
>implying the drama story is real
But you do have a perfect life mentally. It means that you never had to deal with the shit we do. Congrats on winning the life lottery.
>>28540322
>mentality privilege
>>28540296
Yeah exactly. There's another Friday the thirteenth next year in January as well.
>>28540348
Yeah you never had anything wrong with you, had a perfect life and insist on giving normie advice to help the suicidal. Congrats.
>>28540348
>>28540322
>>28540407
Can the memes leave now?
This also is a thing that really bothers me, especially IRL.
The neigbhours are litterally fighting because the other parked infront of his house on a PUBLIC parking space.
They are literally big children. I'm so sick of that. They should just go back to kindergarten. Same with everyone else causing fights, baseless accusations and overall shitty childish behaviour.
>>28540363
That takes too long and I'm sure there are other days that are closer.
I've also been thinking about an full lenght album.
maybe try to tell with that how I feel. idk, it sounds pretty stupid in my head so I'm sure it is stupid to actually do aswell.
>>28540541
making an full length album*
>>28540541
Without despair, there would be no art. Go for it. You might find it cathartic.
>>28540423
Where do you think you are?
Origami pepi
>>28540590
It would probably be a more frustrating process because my computer is done for. But hey! what do I have to lose? Right?
Worst case I will kill myself before I finish it.
I feel like I'm slowly going crazy again. I hate this.
Isn't there something that just turns off the bad feels?
please someone respond.
>>28540862
>Isn't there something that just turns off the bad feels?
Highly addictive drugs.
>>28540889
yes, no idea where to get that though. I only can get weed and shrooms here because "netherlands".
But I'm sure that won't do the job.
>>28540590
>>28540642
I didn't do anything yet and it already crashed.
Looks somber for my suicide album.
>>28540926
>netherlands
Assisted suicide is legal in your country, you know. Not saying you should do it. But how complicated is it to have your Jew doctor stick a needle in your arm.
>>28540541
Can you sing? If so, could you post a recording? I could help you with the production.
>>28540191
wouldn't be reaching out if they didn't care. and yeah sure its OPs shit life he can do what he wants. leaving a video like that makes him an even bigger piece of shit though.
and why video if "no care"? seriously? just fucking do it
>>28540862
For me, making music. Since you posted a synth I suppose you're a musician as well?
>>28540165
>descendants
What fucking descendants?
>>28540971
It's only legal when you're terminally ill with diseases that are a hindrance to your life.
Feeling sad isn't a reason you can go through with. You will be put into therapy if you randomly ask to get a shot.
>>28541016
I'm not sure if I can sing. I have been reasearching singing for a very long time but barely practiced. I'm planning to sing on this if I get around it.
I don't know if you could help with the production anon. I'm pretty much able to do anything myself.
>>28541068
I am. I barely do it anymore because I don't really enjoy it as much anymore. Most likely due not having the right computing power.
I sometimes think that commiting suicide would be a wast to my music knowledge. But then I realize nobody gives a shit and there are people out there that do better with less.
I dont even know anymore.
>>28541108
unless OP is an only child, he/she can have collateral descendants. look it up
For anyone interested. This is what I'm working on right now.
https://instaud.io/private/e893f82d8eee21a2dd6cf0459ea9d8ffe50d5c99
Just a rough atmospheric idea I guess. I feel that it probably isn't anon's average cup of tea. oh well.
I dont care anymore anways. I'll keep posting progress until the thread dies I guess.
https://instaud.io/private/15691364e5c9ec06674fdd0ec7760948f6ca9355
