>tfw you and all of your friends are depressed and we don't live near each other
>too autistic to make new friends
What do?
>a few friends died
>the rest abandoned me
>too autistic to make new friends
>felt sorry for myself
>got over it
>fine with being alone now
Nobody needs friends, OP.
>>28504147
I use to be fine being alone but I've done some things that make me hate myself now, and I constantly worry about it. I don't know how to take my mind off of it. It seems like nothing entertains me anymore.
>>28504111
>the only few people i thought were my friends start being rude and awful to me for no real reason
>no choice but to drop all communication
>realize i never had any friends
it's depressing as hell but i am better off this way
>>28504211
The regret never leaves you, a thousand voices couldn't drown it out.
Try to do some nice shit to compensate.
My friends only hang out with me when I have bud.
>>28504111
you're not actually depressed you're probably just bored and gay
>>28504326
>not depressed
>gay
That's pretty high up there on mental disorders that invariably lead to worsening depression and suicide.
>>28504326
Nah, it's been 2 months and I'm still constantly bothered by a decision I did. Anything that would usually entertain me just isn't working now. I've lost motivation to do nothing but sleep extra and browse 4chan. It's definitely depression.
>>28504212
In what way were they rude?
>>28504392
m8 read psychocybernetics
>>28504394
well for example when we were out they would suddenly walk fucking fast and leave me behind them, ignore me, speak weird stuff that they obviously understand but i don't, and when i would ask them if something is wrong they would gaslight me and tell me everything is okay
>>28504440
What is there in it that can help me? If you want to know what's bothering me, then basically I thinned out my lips from the sun deliberately for a girl because I thought it would be more appealing. I have really full lips and it looks way worse. And of course the girl doesn't like me now.
Believe me, I've learned my lesson to not change myself for a girl. And it might seem like a dumb reason to be depressed, but now my face is just a constant reminder that I did something stupid and I look permanently uglier.
how do i convince myself to be ok being alone?
>>28504634
>thinned out my lips from the sun deliberately for a girl because I thought it would be more appealing
what?
Whatever you're trying to describe can't possibly be permanent, moisturize your lips and keep them out of the sun and they'll heal.
>>28504670
M8, it's been 2 months without sun exposure. They're not the same.
Pic related. Left side is old, right is current. Lower lip has less volume; doesn't bulge out as much I guess.
Might seem like a slight difference, but I remember how I looked before in person, and I definitely look worse now. Looks like I have fish lips now. Maybe I still look decent, or maybe I was always ugly, but I just can't get over the fact I ruined my face for a girl.
>>28504836
This probably showcases it better.
>>28504836
The difference is basically negligible, you've psyched yourself into thinking you fucked up your face.
You look totally normal either way, I wouldn't look at you twice if we passed each other in the street.
>>28504908
Still not seeing it, the bottom lip looks a little scarred- is that what's up?
>>28504957
It might be a negligible difference, yeah. But there's definitely a difference that's more easily discernible in real life. My father was able to notice I looked a bit different. But yeah, I'm just extremely pissed off at myself still. Looking in the mirror is just a constant reminder.
>>28504989
Nah, the bottom lip just has less volume now.
>>28504111
>tfw my only depressed friend and I can't hang out because his parents thought I was making him alcoholic (I was but inadvertently, I don't drink)
>all my other friends live in other towns around the state and I can't drive
I know the feel OP.
Just live alone I guess.
you made me remember this OC i made a while ago
