>having good day
>suddenly want to die
Just happened to me an hour ago
>have a good day or do something I enjoy
>feeling of guilt overwhelms me and feel like I don't deserve it
everyday it happens usually after I wake up
This desu.
Why won't the fucking doctor just give me benzos
every time
>wake up
>sleep deprived but at least it's something
>do things
>things are okay
>i'm okay with things
>this isn't too bad
>nevermind i'd like to die now please
>i don't like things anymore please end it now
>i'd much prefer to be not-alive right now
every time
That's when you take some fucking drugs.
>Wake up in a good mood for once
>Manage to have some nice conversations and get invited somewhere
>Start to think maybe this'll be the start of me loosening up a bit
>Suddenly feel out of place
>They must know somethings wrong with me
>I'm not a real human being
>I'm an impersonator
>Cut off social activity
>Go home and go to sleep by 7pm to make the day end quicker
>Wake up wanting to die
>Nothing bad even happened
That happens to me at work all the time. I'll have a not so bad day, get out, get something to eat, then I come home to an empty house and just the computer and feel like crying. That's usually when I break out the beer and roll a joint. Its all I have in this life. Then I go to bed and do it all over again the next day.
>>28498015
>reading a good manga/comic book
>realise I'm just a pathetic 25yo manchildren that need to find another hobby in order to be not seen as a creep autist
>feel the urge to throw all my shit away
>>28498113
This post was so uncomfortably true i just started laughing.
>>28498194
it's nice knowing i made someone laugh, thank you
>>28498208
I get the same feelings every day, hope you find some peace brobot.
>Feeling good
>having a great time
>wake up
>didn't die in my sleep. again
Rinse and repeat
