You might be dissociating.
Enjoy it while it lasts.

>>28493793
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depression_%28mood%29

>"People with a depressed mood can feel sad, anxious, empty....
>Empty

>>28493793
im in the same boat im addicted to oxy iv got a shitty dead end job i have no friends but i just dont really care i mean it cant get to much worse can it

there is no feeling more comfy than to watch the world you have built and lived in fall apart around you and sincerely not caring
I am 100% serious about that

>>28493931
How old are you, if you're under 30... Bad news.

Kind of like this at the moment, reminiscing the
past from the image you posted, I had such a
sense of having potential, desires to gain
talent, optimism for the future, and fascination
for many things, I just had a powerful sense of
experiencing/existing around the time this
movie came out, I felt alive. After many years
of severe depression, anxiety, and the bullshit
of this world, I'm like a ghost lingering on what
little time I have left as my life may as well be
over, I drift through life with no one aware of
my existence, just observing with no desire to
do anything great. I felt like I had a chance, but
now I blew it, I don't even feel like I am in my
body anymore. I feel like I am watching it fall
apart from another dimension, he's waiting to
see me die, he's waiting to gather my soul.