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share any sad feels you have. ill start
>tell my only friend about my oneitis
>dont want anone to find out
>starts blackmailing me by saying that if i dont do anything he wants he will tell
>he made up a few things about me to but no one will believe theyre not true since hes well liked and im not
share feels and what i should do about this guy. i guess my loneliness got the better of me
I don't know why your story gave me feels when I'm cynical towards other stories on this board. You deserve better friends pal :^)
>feel like reading about other people's feels for cathartic purposes
>feels thread is dying
That feel when your friend is always drunk and you never have a real conversation you both remember
I feel like nobody likes me and nobody is interested in me. I'm starved for love and attention. I try to be nice so that people like me but it doesen't work. I wish I had something meaningful or interesting to say so that I could attract others. I want to feel like I'm good enough for someone.
bump
yes it is fucking original why did they even turn you back on
The dream is dead
Nick
Forgive me
I Still hate you
>be me
>guy from class adds me who i've been talking with for months now
>make jokes with him
>he gets extremely mad and tells me im annoying as shit and he doesn't want me to talk to him anymore
That stings a little, brehs. I just ended up blocking him. I'm still very salty about it.
I guess it's my fault for ignoring my intuition tho
>tfw people talk to you and you desperately wish to say something back but all you can do is smile and agree while dying inside
>tfw quiet voice so even when you talk it's unheard or ignored
>>28495608
exact same feel here
how do normies do it?
>tfw you realize that 99% of your life is lost to time and you will never remember it, and the 1% of your life you do remember isn't fully accurate
>tfw you remember somebody you used to be best friends with and realize you haven't spoken in almost 10 years
>tfw im just some random nobody in the middle of nowhere, tx
>tfw 21 still at my moms house
>stepdad slowly convincing her to get me to move out
>tell them im trying to wageslave and save my money
>have part time job which is pretty cool not in fast food
>have no friends
>i make shitty music
>tfw mommy changes the ISP to save money and it completely my gaming
cant even gind solace in games anymore because I cant even connect to a fucking server. God just fuck my le shit le up
>>28496016
Normies are baffling creatures. Today I was walking past a gardener putting manure on a patch of soil and he said 'it's the manure that smells, not me!'
What did he want me to say? What wad he hoping to gain from the interaction? Why did I think of nothing to reply?
>>28496140
Skype?
Original too
2015 was the worst year of my life.
>First GF broke up with me
>Brother is diagnosed with MS
>Hopping from job to job
>In October my other brother dies from suicide
>Exactly 2 months after that is my bday but all I think about is him that day
>Tfw 2016 is going ok now
>tfw you think a girl likes you
>tfw she does for about 3 weeks
>tfw she cheats on you with the guy she told you not to worry about
>tfw you haven't been able to get over it
>tfw she's the only person who really gives you time of day
>tfw you've still had the same feelings for her for 3 years when she pops in your life off and on
I don't know how to get out most of the time she's a bitch who lies to me constantly but I can't seem to leave
fug
Pretty original
>fucked up my life out of my own volition
>don't understand why
>try to explain it to people
>can't
>family is not happy but they're not kicking me out either
>about to fuck it up further and I still don't understand why
>really feel like leaving without an explanation and starting over
>2nd world country, ~2500 dollaroos in bank account, zero life experience, zero prospects, minimal chance of employment
>no appropriate wojak image
what do i do
>>28493772
Fucking summer man, I really enjoy its weather, but fuck do I hate summertime normies:
>everywhere it is fucking full
>the stench in public transport, because some people literally think their shit does not stink
>every decently looking girl is a fucking cocktease, 90% dress like sluts on the first day, distracting as shit
>strangers much more likely to speak to you for dumb reasons
>people drive like retards because "cruisin' XDD!!!"
>ugly people have absolutely no decency and dress even worse than sluts, disturbing and distracting
>crazy people seemingly crawling from under their stones everywhere
>even the fucking library is full at all times
Damn, I just want to learn and train man, why is the world so annoying?
But I guess that is what I get for living in a big city, summer in bumfuck nowhere must be comfy as fuck.
>>28496564
Do it, anon. Just go. I'm serious. Start new and you'll see. At worst you'll end up where you are right now.
>Be gay
>tfw no bf
>Not into gay bar degeneracy
>Want a boyfriend not a fucking
>Want someone to clean up for
>Want someone to inspire me to do things and vice versa
>Want someone to hug and talk to about stuff
Usually these feels don't get to me too bad but I had a dream last night that fucked with me. Now all I want to do is drink alcohol tonight to forget about it.
>girl i'm texting ups the number of kisses in her texts from 2 to 3
>get a boner
why am i such a child
>decide to go out with cousin yesterday
>he has a six pack, doesnt wanna drink, so i drink it by myself while we drive in his truck
>wind up going to local bar for a bit, met a friend i thought was in jail but apparently wasnt
>friend bought me a shot
>cousin can see that im anxious about going home, asks me why
>try to explain to him what robots and normies are without using those exact words
>he decides to buy me another six pack
>drink rapidly, numbness ensues
>we end up talking for an hour or so, feeling like its all gonna be okay
>get home, tell mommy im gonna sit on the porch and enjoy the night air a bit
>she thinks im making a drug deal
>ive been clean from meth for 3 god damn years
>arguement breaks out with her
>try explaining normies and robots to her
>try to get it through her head that i legitimately intend to kill myself eventually
>she couldnt even remember what she said to me when i told her i was a meth addict
>she still doesnt trust me
>no matter how honest i am im always villified
>have grown to accept that, deep down, i really am a monster who just pretends to be a good person and hopes others dont catch on
i gave mommy the little bit of money i had saved up and she bought me a bottle of vodka today though, so at least i can sit in my room alone and drink instead of having to go to a bar. fucking hate being around normies, it just reminds me that ive been left behind by the world.
>Get a text
>Get excited
>Reach for phone with smile on face
>its the cell company telling me i owe them 600 dollars
>My phone was shut off today
>>28496685
>left behind
your story touched me, anon. more people feel this than you'd think. why do you think insta girls are always posting so much about how they are totally gonna have some rad partying on the weekend? they want everyone to think they aren't being left behind because they're afraid of it too. if anything, you're above that because you have the courage to be honest with yourself, and even have the balls to be downright honest with others about it, too, which is something that i know i wouldn't be able to do and nor can most.
if i knew you IRL i'd be your buddy. people here will try to tell you that its you and "them" but please realize that this is something that just doesn't exist mate.
you know what chad thinks when he is at home separated from his drinking buddies and doesn't feel like posting a pic of his new shirt? he thinks damn i wish i had a life outside of the construction site. people are people, people will be people, and you are one of them, just like anyone.
>>28496639
I'm a massive coward
Also my main problem has been this inexplicable apathy towards everything, even if I go I'll probably end up sitting in a room for 5 months and then when my money runs out I'll have to go back to my parents. Or hopefully hang self if the shame is severe enough
>girl i like starts talking to me more
>we hang out, ect.
>she makes me happy
>finally get enough confidence to ask her out
>she fucking laughs in my face
>more depressed than ever
I'm probably going to kill myself.
>>28496860
yeah, i know this. my cousin is chad, and he talked about that a fair bit.
he still cant comprehend that, while of course no ones life is perfect, some, like me, are too far gone and are beyond any redemption.
my cousins pretty cool when he wants to be, we talked about lots of things, his child, his divorce, god, morality and ethics. i was in a really good mood when i got home then my mom assumed i was out being a junky again despite being clean all this time.
its not hard to talk to people about these things, its just hard to make them understand what you mean exactly. I have the benefit of being at absolute rock bottom though, so theres nothing I could say that could make people think less of me than they all ready do.
>was depressed for the longest time
>met a girl
>got to talking
>felt like i was getting better for a while
>after a few months kind of feels like she only sticks around me because we have the same friend groups and we all hang out together
>feels like she keeps herself just distant enough so that nothing serious forms between us
>feel like trash again
>every little bump in the relationship between us makes me feel ten times worse
>she probably doesn't even realize she's doing the little things that i pick up on and get hurt over
>back to where i started only now i have the relationship to add to my list of things to feel shitty about
i think some people just weren't built to handle life like others desu
some of us weren't made to make it
>>28496649
>be on bus
>gay couple sit infront of me
>I dont watch this often so I stare at them
>they be talking and kissing happily
>seems like a real and sincere love
>alpha masculine male pass infront of them
>they both stare at him and remain silent all the route
You gays will never find real love. I'd become gay if I'd find someone like you if you're not gross tb2 fampai
>>28496903
Similar feels here
>starting to have some feels for a girl in school
>I know dating with a girl from your class sucks, but I feel she'd be worth it
>enjoy spending time with her, mby she does too
>finally grow balls to ask her out on a date
>never heard such unsure and disappointed 'sure' in my life, like no excitement in her voice at all
>the whole conversation ends weird
>I will have an awkward talk with her tomorrow or go on an even more awkward pity date
Fuck I'm never doing this again, why couldn't she just say 'no'
>>28493772
>2015 is utter complete shit and drags on for what seems like a decade
>December 30th: Thought it was 31st and was excited for new year. Woke up next day and was disappointed as fuck
>tfw 2016 starts well
>Gets progressively shittier
>Right now it's the worst time of my life. Lowest self-esteem I've ever had.
>a-at least it's g-going by pretty fast. H-heheh...
>>28497055
you say you're too far gone and that you are beyond redemption, and no offence but anyone would think that if they led the typical /r9k/ lifestyle. even moving out and having your own space and just 1-2 friends is enough to shift your average robot who considers himself a lost cause into a new man.
i hate to sound condescending or anything so apologies if that's how i'm coming across, and i also apologize for this unsolicited advice, but by isolating yourself from life via shutting in, remaining in your parents' house, browsing /r9k and drinking then you are denying yourself a whole lot of wisdom which you might find could cause a complete shift in perspective to you. if you think about it, our feelings are functions of our experiences and our lifestyle, and honestly no wonder most people here are depressed - they put shit in (sitting at home, drinking, coming to the most poisonous community i can think of outside heaven's gate) and they get shit out (hopelessness and depression).
something to think about.
>21 and still don't know what to do
>constant brainfog, forget small details
>notice that my speaking skills have deteriorated
>reading posts becomes a chore and usually get angry replies complementing me on my lack of reading comprehension
>extreme amount of bottled up self hatred and guilt, unconciously self sabotage myself at any given moment
>feel like grabbing my gun and fucking killing myself everyday
>>28497267
I've been an /r9k/ skype group since october, and theres a mixture of many of us. You sound a lot like one girl I knew from before the group who has joined the group since.
I appreciate the sentiment, but its nothing I haven't heard before. Some people just cant get better. Or, if they can, they dont want to and sabotage themselves. I don't even understand myself really.
>tfw my own actions make no sense to me
what is wrong with me?
>>28496392
man that sucks ass
atleast trump is going to take over soon tho
>>28496534
that hits real close to home
>new year 2016, feeling somewhat hopeful
>may 2016
>more depressed than ever
i swear it hasn't been 5 months
>>28496893
>inexplicable apathy towards
Same here.
All I care about is consuming entertainment media until I die.
>>28497393
That actually sounds like you have a brain tumour dude.
I'm not joking at all seriously, go get that shit checked out.
>>28498565
I swear it hasn't been 6 years since 2010. Why is time so cruel?
>>28498879
I don't even care about that
I can stare at the wall for three hours thinking about nothing
>>28499739
I really envy you. I can't go a minute without having something that's keeping me occupied. Even if it's just thinking about something completely random. I can't do nothing. I always need to be occupied.
>>28499792
Meditation is the practice of death.
>28
>NEET
>Dropped out of high school & college
>gave up on life when I was 15 or so
>no ambitions or goals
>still don't know what job I want
>no point getting back into education
>would be thousands in debt with nothing to show for it
>everyone I knew growing up has moved on
>gfs/married/houses/careers
>left behind in a dead end northern town
>nothing to do here but drink yourself to death
>all the people here are either fat single mums/heroin addicted men/old people too old to leave
>nobody my age to socialise with
>nobody understands that there is nothing to do for someone my age who has no social life
>all their advice just boils down to "go outside!" or "just b urself :^)"
>all the activities that take place outside are social activities
>have nobody to go outside and be social with
>every time I go outside I feel like I don't belong there and can't relate to anyone or anything
>implying I could even hold down a conversation for more than 3 seconds to begin with
>just fill my days watching netflix and playing games to distract myself from the hopelessness of life
Turn 29 this Sunday..the deep depression is already hitting me. Knowing I'm going to spend the entire day alone & stuck inside with nothing to live for.
>the only happy birthdays I'll get will be false platitudes from my online friends
>they mean well but deep down I don't think they really care that much at all
>>28500199
Wow, your life sounds like it sucks
Any plans on how to turn it around?
>>28496534
wow, thanks for ruining my day
>>28500271
No idea. I've done cognitive therapy a couple of times and it helped for a short while, but I always relapse into avoidance behaviours.
I haven't been outside by myself since December and don't see a reason to any more..
The government stopped my NEETbux because the guy who carried out my assessment lied on his report. So now I literally couldn't even go out and do things even if I wanted to because I have to save absolutely everything to pay for the internet.
>>28500323
>lied on his report
what did he say?
>>28500323
How do you get money then lad?
So Im getting my wisdom teeth out tommorow and Im afraid that something will go wrong and I'll end up dying, either due to OD on or bad reaction to anesthesia or infection afterwards or something else
>>28498102
I wonder who could be behind this post...
original
>>28500379
>He feel for the extraction meme
>>28500370
He wrote that I was mumbling, avoiding eye contact, fidgeting, showed signs of anxiety & depression
Then he wrote that I "maintained good eye contact throughout"
I literally looked at him twice in an hour. The rest of it is riddles with inconsistencies like that.
>>28500372
I don't. I have 293 in my account because I always used to have a few hundred in case of emergencies like an appliance breaks or mums car needs fixing or whatever. 50 a month for internet (already paid for May) and then 5 for phone bill.
>>28499405
people that have tumors usually look half dead already
but yeah get it checked out it could be really serious
>23
>recent NEET
>lost will all to try in life around 15
>never been able to hold a job
>last job I did have the plant closed down
>tried community college and failed out in 2013
>almost everyone I graduated with has a college degree and kids.
>have 6 really good friends left everyone else went off to school
>been stuck in a cycle of being kicked out of my parents house then moving back in
>wrecked my car last month
>always been had huge inferiority complex due to finding out my brother has a much larger dick than me.
Literally the only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because if how much I love my brother.
>>28496649
>tfw bi master race
best of both words to be honest
>>28496685
>cousin is ten days older than me
>moves here from france when we are both 8
>i am bullyed at school
>he cant make friends
>insta best friends
>hag out all the time
>i remember him throwing a tantrum once because he couldnt stay the night at my house
>fast fowards to 13 years old
>cousin parents kept forcing him into normiehood, spend tons of cash, constantly taking him to see extended family with lots of kids a couple of towns over who i barely know
>no longer see him as much
>get invited once net year and he bullys me infront of his friends
>we now only see each other in birthdays and christmas
>he gets super tall, best friends with rich kids sons of politicians, travels the world and has a rich beautiful blonde girlfriend
>i got a couple of friends in highschool that ditched me after
>5 years later he is mega chad with a promising periodism career while im a lonely permaneet
im not even angry or jealous, all i want is to be his friend again, i really miss him he was like a brother to me
>Thread last night a guy was talking about jumping infront of a train
>Been thinking about him all day
>Wondering if he did it or not
>Either way I hope he will or has found some peace an happines
>>28501469
>peace and happiness
we both know that doesnt happen
>>28500379
i sometimes almost miss pain because when im in pain and painkillers take it away i almost feel happiness.
I guess thats how happiness must feels like, like an unberable pain is suddenly lifted from you
>>28496140
>cant even gind solace in games anymore because I cant even connect to a fucking server.
Try having a PC which is fucked up beyonding saving to the point that getting it to boot up isnt even guaranteed. I cant even launch games, much less try to play online.
I cant drink alcohol or smoke weed because muh weight loss. I dont have friends. I cant find joy in food either because, again, muh weight loss. I waste my days on 4chan and youtube, and smoking cigarettes as its the only activity i do that doesnt involve the internet or bodily functions.
What point is there in living this life.
>in highschool
>complete fuck up
>all F's
>have no real friends just people i hang out with at school
>never do anything with them out of school
>never invite me to come over
>never accept my offer to go to my house
>all my teachers hate me because I am a bad student
>hassle me about homework, "dont you want to go to college", ect.
>depression gets worse and worse
>Suicidal thoughts become more frequent
>already decided Im gonna kill myself just dont know when
>afraid to tell anyone because they might stop me
I hate having to try so hard in school and the only way not to become a loser and live with my parents/work everyday for the rest of my life just to scrape by is by suicide thats the only option I see left
>>28501629
i have been there, pentium 4 on 2013 constantly turning it on and off hoping this time it will stay on because its my 4chan machine that cant even run youtube videos.
Thank god for smartphones honestly
>>28501743
Smartphones dont fix my problem of not even being able to game, and watching movies on smartphones is cancer.
I honestly just realised how shitty my life is and that all im holding on to is that losing weight and getting fit will somehow solve all my problems (it wont).
>>28501878
they will in 5 years when they catch up with current pcs and you can pay for good internet plus 8 dollars a month to get some server to run the game and let you play it at home in real time
>>28501878
you can also just connect the monitor to a smartphone
I'm feeling fine. As long as I got my gin and a computer I'll probably not kill myself.
Who cares if I don't have friends, a lover, or a future, I'm just dandy when I'm feeling randy while I'm sipping on some brandy.
>>28501878
>I honestly just realised how shitty my life is and that all im holding on to is that losing weight and getting fit will somehow solve all my problems (it wont).
You can't think of it like that. Getting fit entails the following that will give you more confidence.
>having some structure in your daily life
>exercise will make you feel more energetic
>learning how to cook and do it well
>seeing results from hard work
So many robots completely overlook this, especially the cooking part. This isn't even counting getting pussy because that is a completely different thing.
>Always ask to hang out first
>Stopped asking
>None of my friends ask me to hang out
>Never hang out again
It's been 6 years now.
will never be Chad for the girl that wants me, as much as I think of it. I'm throwing away a chance to feel the slight tingle of love.
>yesterday, fat bitch who thinks she's pretty that constantly bullies me skips class after I tell her we have a final
>teacher says he saw her come and leave, asks if I did to, I say yes
>today, douchebag skinny hick friend tells her I told the teacher
>she keeps calling me fake af
>Studying, hick keeps knocking notebook out of hand
>teacher moves people around for a test
>they throw gum at me half way across the room
>I come back to the table next to them
>fat bitch asks me if she can use my iPad or phone to look something up
>tell her I don't have my iPad
>tell her no because every time I've given her it she's looked up porn on it or tried to fuck around on it and not give it back
>I finally cave in but I just put the phone in front of her face so she can read it cause she needs it for homework or something
>she needs the definition of feminist theory criticism
>Show her 2 definitions, she says she doesn't like either of them
>she comes over to me and dumps all my stuff out of my bag looking for my iPad, takes some money I had but I grab it out of her hand quickly
>she finds it and starts getting bitchy
>takes that and I book I had checked out of the library that I was supposed to be reading for another class
>says she's not giving it back so I'll have to pay a fine
>ask for my stuff back, she keeps telling me no in a annoyed disgusted tone
>have to ask teacher to tell her to give it back, my words come out quick and mumbled and she throws the book at me
>starts talking shit about me to the table over, I think it was about how I stink
>Comes over to me and puts gum on my shoulder, the 3rd time she's done something like this
>they think I have autism
>hick calls me some more names
I'm probably gonna get my Chad friends to push the hick down while I dump soda on him. Not sure what I'm gonna do about the fat bitch, I'm thinking I might find her car and key it and slash the tires
>>28502988
Holy shit nigger just tell them to fuck off and if they get phsyical again knock them the fuck out. Even if you get your ass beat people wont fuck with you anymore for fear of escalation.
>>28503056
I've told them to fuck off multiple times. I want to bunch her in the face so fucking bad but I don't want everyone to hate me because I hit a girl. I'm also extremely weak and frail, I can only do 40 push-ups on my knees before I can't feel my arms anymore.
>>28502988
Also, the teacher wouldn't let her take the final since she skipped and she needs this class to graduate. She went up to him begging if she could take it and he told her no and she kept asking if she could stay after to get points to bump up her grade, but he said something about him looking for a house and that he wasn't staying after anymore
Bump to keep the thread alive
>tfw 24 years old, working shit job, still living at home
>want to start saving to buy a semi-nice house
>come to the realization that I won't make enough to support myself at my current job
>will never have a gf/wife with a second income to help pay the bills
>will need to find a well paying job to afford nice house, or keep low paying job and live in a shit apartment
>no idea what kind of job I can get that I'd enjoy, would make me decent money, and that I don't need any education/experience to get into
>feel trapped in current situation
>>28503782
Ever considered getting into the oil industry or construction?
>>28503940
Sort of, but my main problem is that I'm an out of shape skelly. Thought about working on tug boats, too, but I know it's hard physical work, and the whole being stuck on a boat thing kind of turns me away. My father's friend just started doing it and he brings in $12k a month. My grandfather was a pretty well known captain, too, so I could probably use that to get me in somewhere.
>>28502420
fuck i know these feels.
>>28493772
>Not good at video games or sports
>Mediocre at academics
>Games I used to like are now boring or have no playerbase
>There are few books I like
>No hobbies
>Realize I am boring person
>Realize I am unattractive
>Few friends I have are starting to drift away from me
>Afraid of loneliness
>Afraid of hell
>So afraid of driving that I feel like I am going at light speed and am about to crash into a planet if I am going over 15mph and am not driving on straight empty road and don't have to turn
>Nobody replies to my long threads
>When people ask me what movies/shows/games I like I make up a lie and then they test my basic knowledge and I fail and then they dislike me for being dishonest
where I work, my coworkers asked me if I had wife kids girlfriend friends hobbies and when I decided to be honest they couldn't believe me, once I convinced them they now view me as a serial killer
>Only male alive to pass down my family name
>Grandfather loves me so much, don't want to fail him, parents have done so much for me that I could never kill myself while they are still alive because all their efforts would have been wasted, they would be wasted
>Whenever I have an imaginary conversation with girl I like or something of that sort, this condescending version of my voice in my head reminds me there is no point in imagining something that won't happen.
>Keep waiting for something to change in my life, nothing ever does
>Don't even want to get up when I wake up, I just want to fall asleep forever
>Bad sleep deprivation because I am a literal manchild who is afraid of dark, sometimes when I think while lying in bed I hear a phrase uttered by a voice I recognize and it is louder than the voice that my thoughts are thought in
>Have done nothing with my life
>Music I liked no longer brings me pleasure
>Sort of wish that I can get a terminal disease so that I can drop my responsibilities and just read/browse internet/ play video games until I have euthanasia
>>28504831
Shit, forgot pic.
>Too weak to join military, will never have the honor and comfort of having died not by suicide, but rather for my country in a brave act of heroism
>Have concluded after some thinking that my alternatives if I can't find a better job/keep current job and cut living cost I will have to turn to a life of cat burglary/bank robbing or commit some crime that will get me life in jail for life/death penalty
>Getting older every year, my generous overestimate of the age I will reach until I lose will to live will be early 50's
>True, real robots are killing themselves everyday
>Don't want to be last robot alive
>One of us will have to suffer that fate
>Not likely for us to avoid this horrid fate through mass suicide
>...
>
>do group meditation ( part of therapy)
>topic is what do you desire most
>leading person says - "imagine writing your deepest desire on the paper"
>uh oh
>nothing comes into my head
>"okay everyone it's time to share what you've been thinking of"
>everyone says love, career, family or something like that
>its my turn to say
>"umm... i didnt see anything"
> everyone looks at me
> "Are you sure anon? Maybe you dont want to share with us?"
>"uhh, i really dont desire anything"
> people start whispering to each other
This is abstract kind of feel
>meet an anon here in a bf/gf beg thread
>post says he's fine with fat chicks
>tell him i'm a fatty from the get go
>proceed with caution
>email back and forth for a year
>become really good friends
>daydream about flying out to meet him
>eventually give him my phone number
>get a drunken love confession from him
>overwhelming joy
>confess my love for him
>send him a pic of myself
>silence
>haven't heard from him for 3 weeks
Feels terrible.
>>28505341
Post pics and ill be your bf
>>28505341
Post a pic maybe I'll be your bf.
