Post your deepest, darkest secret.
I unironically listen to Money Come & Go by Brian Silva
tf when anonymous
Still afraid to post it becuase its so pathetic
Fuck greentext btw
>>28460307
Just get it off your chest, Anon.
>>28460294
Jesus Christ, son.
>>28460322
Thanks for encouragement but I'm not in the mood to be judged by strangers
As you can tell I have a fragile ego and that's a major component of my "secret"
>>28460385
it's an anonymous image board. just tell us. we're all autistic weirdoes here.
>>28460259
I eat my boogies
I have a sewing fetish
Original
I'mbulimic
>be an introvert girl, 21 year old virgin
>be last month
>on college campus
>see crush
>wave at him while walking down hallway
>he sees me wave and smiles and nods
>walking down hallway
>someone bumps into me while exiting class
>i end up bumping into crush
>knock his new phone out of his hands onto floor
>screen cracks
>he looks at me with a thousand yard stare
>i run off to my car
>cry for 30 minutes
>endit.webm
I have intrusive thoughts about harming small children whenever I am near them, to the point that I actively refuse to hold my cousin's children at family reunions because I am afraid I will somehow act on the thoughts and throw them onto the sidewalk or something.
The possibility of one day having a child is horrifying for me.
>>28460259
> I frequently lose touch with reality and become convinced I'm in a dream
>>28460259
I was sexually abused when I was a child.
>>28460455
Same. I can control it but everytime im near some kid i just have this urge to bash his head against a wall.
>>28460442
hows that a secret
>>28460484
>tfw relatives start to notice
>tfw they probably think I am just a pedo (only my parents know about my mental disorders)
>>28460259
I lost my virginity when I was 6 to my uncle, it was rape. The faggot never saw me coming.
I have pee and scat fetishes.
I tell close friends I want to die but I don't know how true it is.
I don't really have any real personality.
I daydream about violently killing people, mostly young women. I've seriously thought about doing it with a knife before ending my life.
Whenever I get really upset I smash my temples or thighs with my fists. They're almost always permanently bruised.
I love Death Grips but I hate their fans because I somehow think I'm better than them but I'm exactly the same.
I'm an awful boyfriend and that's why women cheat on me but I can't come to terms with how to not be a shitty person.
I probably need help but I'd rather die than admit that.
>>28460484
>>28460548
>>28460455
My niggas.
>tfw used to get in trouble in foster care over those annoying younger foster brothers
>>28460385
xDDD sooooo quirky and mysterious! haha
Sheeeeeeit.
I started my day off today waking up at 1:30 in the afternoon. After taking a piss, I went downstairs, grabbed my brother's pistol without checking the chamber, put it to my head, and squeezed the trigger. Nothing.
I spent the rest of the day feeling like shit. Went to a social drawing event at a local bar alone, hung out with a bunch of people I never met. I could tell they were turned off by my weirdness, but it's all cool.
I think I have a problem. I've come close to suicide a bunch of times over the years, one of which has left me with some nasty scars, ones that scare new people away.
I haven't made any new friends in over 6 years and the ones I had don't want to be around me because I'm such a mess.
My parents are going to be really sad.
I hurt small animals, and neighborhood pets, because i am afraid of them.
>>28460455
>>28460484
It os instinct.
it is the same thing that happens when you're in a high place and have an urge to jump
by doing so you are aware to not to do
I often cheat on my girlfriends.
It always starts out the same.
The relationship starts strong, I'm very in love.
But everytime they tell me that they don't have strong feelings for me.
They threaten to end the relationship at the drop of the hat.
They are often emotional and stressed, so I support them as much as I can, always, never questioning anything, I love them so I must support and comfort them.
But then when I struggle, they take it as an opportunity not to comfort me, but to say that I'm in the wrong, and once again threaten ending the relationship.
This type of behavior continues on for months and months.
My love that was so strong in the beginning has decreased so much as I struggle to love these women that are constantly verbally abusive, constantly fighting with me over the smallest things, constantly becoming emotional and depending on me for support, constantly using all of my money, never understanding my interests, never joining me in a decent conversation.
And I start to look around, at other women.
I start cheating, sometimes with dozens of women.
Then eventually the relationship ends.
I swear everything off, I'll never date again.
But then I find another woman that I fall in love with.
This time I'm an even better boyfriend, but again, the slow steady spiral of verbal abuse and threats leads me to become disillusioned.
One of these days I will simply kill myself.
The only reason I haven't is because of my friends and nieces.
They're the only people in the world I ever feel love from.
Why do people lie about love? Why do they say they love me? Why do they date me? Only to claim later that their feelings aren't strong, that they aren't love? That I'm not their ideal? That I don't have enough friends for their liking? That my hobbies aren't interesting?
Why do I always fall for it?
>>28460442
what do you look like famalam
>>28460554
Kek that was great anon
>>28460455
i have.. similar intrusive thoughts
>>28460641
Why would I have to be aware that I shouldn't smash my baby second cousin against the stones? The idea shouldn't occur to me in the first place.
>>28460660
It isn't always just for kids, but usually is. Have had thoughts like it since I was six (my grandmother came over for Thanksgiving dinner, and I couldn't stop having thoughts of carving her up with the knife, it was horrible).
Dr. NSA, I'm hebephile
>>28460745
>literally every male human throughout all time
>>28460779
sure, but nowadays is a dark secret, you are literally a baby rapist for saving candydoll pics
>>28460704
The problem isn't if you have those thoughts.
It's how those thoughts make you feel.
You seem terrified of the thoughts, right?
That's normal and good.
When my niece was born I was constantly terrified of dropping her, I would have daydreams about doing it.
So if those thoughts make you feel bad, and you want to avoid those situations happening, then yes, you're A-Okay.
>>28460834
It's not normal anon. I assumed it was too, but as soon as I started mentioning this stuff to my psychiatrist, I was basically immediately diagnosed with OCD.
>>28460455
I have intrusive thoughts about punching pregnant women sometimes.
>>28460822
>for saving candydoll pics
>tfw actually triggered for once
>>28460900
My intrusive thoughts usually relate to skull crushing in some way. Back when my dog used to lay on the floor, I would obsessively remind everyone to watch their step when they would get up from the couch, just in case the dog's head would be where they put their foot.
I ran over a dog when I was 16
>>28460871
Wow, someone who makes money off of you having a mental illness told you that you have a mental illness?
What are the odds.
>>28460969
Except he didn't, because he told me up-front that I would have to see someone else (i.e. he actually lost money because of that particular diagnosis).
>>28460903
explain how I triggered your jimmies?
>Dabble with hard drugs such as meth
>Did meth last week and enjoyed it highly
>Have withdrawals as of today
>Can't get anymore
Feelingbipolar.jpg
>Been thinking sick and twisted thoughts all day
>Saw my cousins kids screaming all day
Murderthem.exe
MFW I have homicidal thoughts about murdering children and men since I was 10
>>28461062
pls tell me you are a cute original female
>>28460463
I sometimes feel like my whole life is a dream and I'm stuck in a coma somewhere else.
>>28461078
I am a fembot though I don't know if I'm cute.
28 here
Have never had sex
Have never been kissed
I got 2 hugs from 7/10 girls in HS but that was it
I have no friends
I have no job
I fantasize about being a supervillain and kill things
I want to cull bad people from existence. I think many people even deserve to bepunished.
>ywn have a gf to kill people with ;_;
beat the dog when daddy or older brother yells at me
I can't stop buying porn. I'm unemployed right now and need to try to make my money stretch as far as I can until I get another job, but I spend close to a hundred dollars a week on porn. I can't fucking stop and It's ruining me. It's the most filthy disgusting degenerate stuff too, which is why you can't find it for free. I hate myself so much but I can't stop
>>28461190
Do you think the doctor makes the little feet tapdance like a puppet?
I fantasize about being a dictator or kommandant. I've even thought out all the details of how my regime would work and who I'd have taken to the camps. It's been going on for over 6 years.
>>28461217
I hope you're at least sharing it
>>28460259
>it's another 'anon spends the night repressing his hebephile urges because if he acts on them he'll never be able to morally forgive himself' episode
Fuck me, enough is enough.
>>28461234
Kek I hope so.
>>28460259
I've got to many to bother listing. It's not good, but I don't give a fuck. Just move on, and maybe partake in some of your secrets in the mean time because you know you can just forget about it later. haha
>>28461243
Same. I have a friend or two that aren't autistic and are super charismatic and handsome that feel the same as me. One is even more extreme than I am. We're seriously considering going into politics, but I doubt we'll ever do it.
>>28461254
I would gladly if anyone was interested in morbidly obese women stuffing their face with burritos while getting fucked from behind, or playing with their fupas
>>28461325
Going into politics doesn't work with my fantasy. It's more along the lines of being a high ranking general that proceeds to overthrow the government.
>>28461341
J-U-S-T
I have a stutter that's physically crippled and alienated me for as long as I can remember. Literally any social interaction, parents, friends, girls, and etc are all immensely tough. Nothing would be more embarrassing or defeating than admitting that I have one though so I often have to dumb down and simplify my speech in order to survive, or quickly think of synonyms of words. Not the thing I wanted to say or had in my head at all but the most efficient sentence I can produce without fucking up. It's reflected mediocrity my whole life though as I've never progressed deeply in jobs or tried post secondary, (high school was agony enough)
My few good friends know me but I don't have many. Most people just think I'm weird or insanely shy. I used to drink a lot cause it helped with the speech a little bit and I relied on it for social interaction. I used to sneak whiskey in medicine bottles to school for presentations or I'd get smashed at other random times when I needed to talk a lot. But I got tired of getting sick so I mostly gave up drinking. So now I mostly just smoke weed and spend time alone
I'm also pretty good looking I guess and get approached all the time by hot girls. I've had my share of instances but nothing ever caries far with the hot ones. They're all cringy stories to think about.... Knowing what to say most of the time but struggling to finish a proper sentence, or having to divert to something dumb and simple. It kind of makes me cynical about everything as basic humans are always after the smartest/or best looking person when people have so much more to offer
So I live a pretty unfulfilled sad life, not many people really know who I am and I have such a hard time asserting myself no matter how hard I try. I dunno where I can go or what I can do in life to feel anything a bit like I belong. For the last few years since graduating most people think I'm lazy but I've mostly just given up
>>28461383
Gee, who does that remind me of?
>>28460259
I wish I was just being edgy, but I'm responsible for the death of someone. When I was a lifeguard at a beach someone drowned and it was mostly my fault. Even though it happened almost 15 years ago I think about it pretty much every day and dream about it most nights. Despite the circumstances which make it seem like I wasn't responsible, I definitely know that I am.
>>28461383
Well, that's obviously the ideal, but obviously that's hardly practical.
>>28461395
I've given women like her thousands of dollars. Please help me.
>>28461438
just shipe them food
>>28461422
It's okay anon, you're gonna be okay.
You can't change shit, so just live your life.
>>28461404
As long as your parents take care of you its no big deal desu
>>28460259
I listen to lady gaga and katy perry in the gym
I am currently watching "social experiment" videos by choice.
I want to find a qt husband or wife that will kill with me like Fred and Rosemary West
>>28461508
Nope, conversative hardworking parents. The times I was living there and not doing much, I had them on my back. I mostly kept odd jobs but I had some fall periods inbetween. Currently I'm living at my second apparent, few months laid off my old job living on ei. I always knew this is where I'd kill myself
>tried meth for the second time and sucked some guy off in a field so I could smoke more
>stopped after that time and tried it again several months later and swallowed the load of an ugly asian tranny in my garage
Meth turns me into a faggot. Never touching it again.tfw you get told youre good at sucking dick after your first time[\spoiler]
>>28461623
I hate faggots so fucking much it hurts me inside. You're human filth.
>>28461613
That's too bad. Dad is cuckservative le bootstraps type but mommy will let me leech forever. At least I hope so.
>>28461652
>REEEEEEEEEEEEE STOP HAVING SEX WITH PEOPLE THAT HAVE THE SAME GENITALS
Sex is normie regardless of whether there's two dicks involved.
>>28461652
Trust me friend I know it and I hate myself for it.but y'know what they say, meth, not even once.
>>28461721
It's more like
>RREEEEEEEEEEEE STOP THINKING BEING A PERVERT WITH A MENTAL DISORDER AND A DISGUSTING FETISH IS SOME HOW A LEGITIMATE AND NONSHAMEFUL HEALTHY LIFESTYLE.
>>28461395
>ex wife of Hollywood superstar Brendan Fraser
holy shit
can't get any more JUST than that
Sexually abused by brother and I lie to everyone about the music I enjoy (electronic, mostly psytrance). My dad was pretty bummed when he wanted to go see Heart with me but turned it down. I used to love classic/hard rock until I got into psychedelic drugs about 4 years ago. Nothing stimulates this degenerate mind except that high bpm shit ya dig.
>>28461780
How is it disgusting?
How is it a mental disorder?
>>28461802
>muh abused self, now I must drug my shit up
molested people are the worse
I killed my grandmother. I jumped out from behind the fridge at her when I was about ten. It gave her a heart attack and she died in front of me. Called the ambulance and after that it was just a blur.
I kept thinking people knew. They had to know. When we were at the funeral there was a police car parked up outside the cemetery, I thought they were there for me. It took me years to get over it and I haven't told anyone.
>>28461802
>>28461817
What's the big deal about being molested? Especially if it's your own brother like who cares boo hoo he touched my pee pee. Some gross old man is one thing but if it's around the same age range who gives a shit.
>>28461858
I'm sorry friend, but that's legitimately hilarious.
>>28461858
that could be a monthy pithon sketch, with the funeral a priest and all that
>>28461813
>How is it a mental disorder?
It's undeniably affected by sexual abuse at a young age. A young boy who is sexually abused has substantially increased chance of turning out gay. There is undeniable correlating between pedophilia and homosexuality Any pedophile is incredibly likely to be gay. They are substantially more likely to have other forms of mental disorders or substance abuse problems.
>inb4 that's a result of homophobia. If you compare the numbers of a country with harsh anti gay sentiment and a "progressive" country the mental disorder rates of gays are virtually identical
If you scan their brain and compare it to a normal persons brain, it's physically different
>inb4 that's proof they're born that way. Meth addicts brains also appear different in scans but they aren't born meth addicts
If it's a physically different brain that can be affected by trauma and abuse and is undeniably tied to abuse and other mental disorders.
>how is it disgusting
Well like the guy I was responding to originally sucking dick for meth. Almost all gay men are disgustingly promiscouis. They suck strangers dicks on the weekly, usually multiple dicks. There's apps like grinder. There's bug chasing. Go to a gay pride parade and watch how fucking disgusting they are. Research aids patient zero, the man who first developed aids, and look at some of his quotes. He was fucking hundreds and hundreds of men
It's literally and extreme perversion like scat or pedophilia, not a legitimate sexuality, and the facts back this up, except for the fact talking about it and acknowledging it is illegal now in most countries
benzedrex inhaler master race
>>28461911
This. Fags are so sickening. That's why I stick with either women or traps.
>>28461858
You shouldn't tell anyone anon. You shouldn't feel guilty, if her heart was this weak it would have been triggered by something else soon anyways, but telling your family will only have negative consequences.
I tell all my friends and family that i pay for my education and rent with government assistance and a part time minimum wage job, but in reality i pay for my school by being a full time cam whore, and pretending to be gay for a bunch of old rich faggots
>>28461802
>electronic, mostly psytrance
Was that a lie too, anon?
>>28461979
Where can I see you? :$
I never want to have kids because if its a boy I wont have him circumcised like I was but I'm afraid that from then on I'll envy my sons penis
>>28462085
if you are open about circimcision with your son once he is old enough like 10+ and your wife, the envy will go away, that kind of thing can only be work it out talking.
and anyway there's a natural envy when your woman focus all her attention in the baby.
>>28462048
chaturbate... im not anything ot see really, im a man for one thing, not a fembot
>>28462085
>tfw you tell your wife you don't want your son to be circumcised like you were
>tfw when she agrees a little too quickly and a little too enthusiastically.
Even though people have told me I'm smart and that I'll do very well for myself, I know I lack the drive and determination to do so. I know I'll be a failure and never be as successful as my brother, father, or grandfather. I contemplate killing myself every other day and would do it if I wasn't afraid of dying alone.
>>28462189
>tfw when
>tfw that tfw when you're this big of a fuck up at everything, even 4chan
>>28462189
remember to teach him to clean himself and eventually retract the foreskin,
>>28462189
woah check out this bigshot, he's married!
>>28462232
I dunno if you mistook my post as bragging or something but what I was saying is that my wife didn't even hide the fact she hates my penis and wishes I wasn't circumcised, making my foreskin envy even worse and I want to kill myself
>>28462306
That's not necessarily the case, m8. My husband is also circumcised, though the choice was his own made when he was an adult. I like his penis just fine. I'd never circumcise my child, though, because that's not my choice to make.
>>28462342
She outright told me she prefers uncircumcised. It was fucking devastating. As if having the most sacred part of my body mutilated against my will wasn't bad enough, she literally told me she doesn't like it and wishes I wasn't. Literally adding insult to injury. I can never be secure in my penis with her because I know she would like it to be different.
>>28460259
eini1203iaizor
>>28462383
Did she literally (and I mean "literally" in the literal sense, not the slang sense) say, "I don't like your penis"? She can prefer scrambled eggs to sunny-side up but it doesn't mean she doesn't like sunny-side up, you know.
>>28461911
[citation needed]
oregon
>>28462408
She literally told me she strongly prefers it and even started listing why. I didn't even ask either, it was hardly even on topic. It was just important enough to her for her to feel the need to tell me. She told me specifically that she likes blowing them way more, and then followed with "and blowjobs are my favourite so It's kind of a big deal"
You can prefer scrambled and still like sunny-side up but when you tell sunny-side up you'd prefer scrambled then sunny-side up is going to feel like shit and inferior to scrambled for the rest of his life
>>28461202
man don't do that
>>28462476
Yeah, she sounds like a bit of a bitch in that regard. But you have to tell yourself that she chose you in spite of having a penis that is less than ideal, meaning she really must like you quite a bit, right?
>>28462476
that's women for you mate
>>28462508
>she chose you in spite of having a penis that is less than ideal
>in spite of my penis
>my wife likes me IN SPITE of my penis
I WANT TO FUCKING DIE
>>28461404
i would hang out with you dude, that wouldn't bug me at all
sorry we'll never meet, but i think a lot of people wouldn't be bothered by that.
i get that its hard because you sound stupid or something, but maybe you can try meeting people online over text and talk to them for a bit before meeting irl?
do you have any skills at all? you can get a job working from home for a company. i used to work for a photo company online just over slack, they didnt even have an office, and that was basically unskilled labor just writing emails and shit.
>>28460641
I think its pretty normal right?
>>28460259
I had a girlfriend in 2011 who was raped six times while we were together (she was schizophrenic and was an easy target when she was having a bad time). The 3rd time was by a guy who came into her work all the time and harassed her before and after the incident. I found out who he was (she wouldn't tell me but I got his name off her phone and I knew a bar where he hung out), tracked him to his apartment building, and beat him unconscious with a piece of concrete. I went through his wallet and wrote RAPIST in permanent marker over his drivers license and left him there. No idea whether he lived or not. Don't feel the least bit bad about it.
>>28462538
Do you like every single thing about your wife? Is everything about her ideal to you?
>>28462538
Sounds like a real cunt. And you are stuck with her for the rest of your life
>>28462558
Honestly yes. But even if the answer is no, it's not comparable. The penis is the most sacred part of a man. There is no female equivalent to the penis. It's the ultimate pride and the ultimate shame of a man. There is nothing on a woman like this, and nothing that can be consequentially mutilated. To have your most sacred member mutilated is something a woman could never understand. And then to have your wife say she'd prefer it different. This is the ultimate a shame that can come to a man. A man's wife being unsatisfied with his penis has no equivalence for a female, there is nothing that even comes close. It burns inside, and to others it just makes me look pathetic and they'll laugh hysterically. It's the ultimate humiliation.
>>28462561
It's even harder because I love her. If I thought she was some cunt then it wouldn't bother me so much because I wouldn't care about satisfying her. Having the woman of your dreams dislike your penis when it's the (hopefully) the only penis she'll ever have is the fucking worst.
>>28462553
>implying she was really raped
she cheated on you you dense fuck
>>28462653
Well, at least he fucking rekt the guy who cucked him.
>>28462653
yeah you killed some guy whose only crime was your gf hopped on his dick while she was having an """""episode""""" by which i mean while she was being a whore.
I jerked off a dog once when I was 14.
It was for breeding purposes.I think I was okay with it on a higher level than I should have been
I've got a few. I dabbled in beastiality for a bit, touching my pets sexually.
I lie compulsively so everyone around me. The only exception is a significant other and that is only in the start of said relationship but I think even then I lie left and right about tiny things.
I'm a psychopath. Not in the sense of me wanting to murder people, but I like hurting people emotionally, especially over extended periods of time.
>>28460596
>tfw I was in fostercare too
Any other subhumans ITT?
I'm a male and a trap dominatrix.
>Most clients are fat balding old guys in their 50's wanting to give a bit of being gay a shot
>Some have wives or are 'straight acting.'
>They're putty in my hands with a bit of gentle 'femdom' and praise
>The pay is nice
Not that much of a bad secret. Really just something I don't let people know about generally.
>>28460646
Normies and chads the fuck get out
Reeeeeeeeee
>>28462547
Thanks, that acceptance honestly means a lot since I've never really talked about it much
That's gone both good and bad for me. One of the cringe stories. Back in high school I got a really hot girl from one of my classes to basically fall in love with me over facebook messenger. But she was really upbeat and hyper... and when she saw what I was like in person she slowly just kinda dipped. That sorta things happened a few times. I'm my own buzzkill haha
I dunno what I have for skills.... I'm good at most things when I out my mind to it I'm just a social cripple
I once wanked to pictures of my mothers breasts i found on her phone and i didnt copy them anywhere
I regret it still to this day that i didnt copy them because it was the best wank of my life
>>28460434
>>28460434
pls throw up in my mouth
I dry humped a dog one time. The dog's expression looked like "wtf are you doing?" He just fuckin let it happen too. God that dog was such a faggit.
When i was 13-16 i used to get the dog to lick my dick/balls/asshole while i jerked off, once i tried to fuck it but it was a little dog so it wouldnt go in
Now when it sees me it tries to lick my dick through my pant
>>28463145
Has it ever started licking your pants in front of someone else?
>>28463217
Yes
>mfw my grandpa made a joke about the dog being horny and everyone laughed
>if only they really knew
>>28460900
I get the same feeling for pretty much every woman that walks past me. I want to break off in midsentence and clothesline a bitch.
I'm a furry
But I guess that pales in comparisson to the actual dogfuckers a few posts above me
>>28460442
>he didn't have a case
He was a damned fool and you're better off.
I want to be a man's pet and have him treat me like his property
>>28463425
Lay off the 4chan memes for a while
>>28463459
IT'S NOT A MEME! XS
>>28463459
They're not memes though...
>>28462085
I'm so sorry, you are cognitively impaired.
>>28461911
Someone once got touched up by a guy when they were younger and now projects his trauma onto other gay people.
>>28463591
Sounds a little bit like a certain board I know...
>>28462634
Dude seriously go talk to a therapist about this. Just a couple of times. You've made it into something huge that it's really not, and you can easily be helped to feel much, much better about the whole thing.
>>28460434
Under aged girls aren't allowed to post
Every night when sleeping I pretend I'm a Pokemom trainer. I'm 23 and I've been doing this since I was like 6. It just got autistic when I was 11 and Pokemania was over and I pretended to hate it to to fit in. It's the only way I can go to sleep since I can't be left alone with my taughts
I'm not in love with or attracted to my boyfriend. I don't like his personality or agree with his world view. I stay with him because he's better in bed than anyone else I've ever fucked, and because he's kind and treats me well.
I act like I love and desire him because that's how the relationship feels best to me. He thinks it's real and slowly falls deeper in love with me. He often tells me I'm different from the other women he's been with, that I'm warmer, more loving and caring, easier to get along with (that's because I don't challenge him when I disagree with his views, or tell him when I think he's being a twat so he could improve), and more sexually generous and compatible with him.
I feel bad for him when he says these things. But not bad enough to be honest with him. I don't look forward to dumping him, it'll be unpleasant for the both of us.
>>28460463
Same here, the best way I can describe it is like I suddenly become aware of where I am and the people around me, but with a sense of detachment from it all.
>>28460259
When I was 15, I went jogging in the park after school one day like I usually do. When I finished, I sat down on a bench and looked out at the small pond that was there. About ten minutes later, a homeless black guy came and sat down next to me. He had a shopping cart full of recycling cans and bottles and had tattered clothes. He was about 50 years old and obese.
He started talking to me and joking around with me. I humored him because I felt bad for him. After about 15 minutes of conversation, he asked me to help him with his recycling. I said sure and walked with him. He told me he had to go to his "house" to pick up the rest and that I should go with him. And so I did. We walked to a secluded area underneath an overpass surrounded by trees and garbage.
When we got there, he grabbed me, shoved me on the ground, took out a knife and told me he was going to rape me. And he did. He was very rough and violent, grabbing me all over my body and forcing me to suck him and everything. He laid me back and fucked me for like 20 minutes and came inside me. Then he laughed, said thanks for the help, slapped me across my face and ass, and kept my bra and panties and told me to go home.
And I did. I never told anyone about it because it is embarrassing. I was a normal, innocent girl that was raped trying to help a homeless guy.
I can't ever have a normal relationship with any guy because of this and I hate the feeling of sex.
>>28460259
I am satan
>>28460259
I get really obsessed with strangers. There's a guy that works near me and I walk past his workplace several times a day just to get a glimpse of him. He walked past me one day and waved to me; I've masturbated to that memory everyday since it happened.
I've tried stalking him on social media/internet and I haven't had any luck yet, still trying though.
I've never spoken to him before and I don't think I ever will.
I ate the last pizza sliceI have no friends, so no one can complain
>>28461514
im a 28 y/o male and i non ironically listen to lady gaga and taylor swift.
taylor swift gives me some sort of care free feeling like i had when i was a young teenager.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xg3vE8Ie_E
>>28463821
/cont
I ended up getting pregnant from this one encounter. What are the odds? The shame of having to tell your parents that you're pregnant and that you don't know who the father is was just devastating. I told them that it's a black guys baby and they were stunned and disgusted. They never treated me the same again. I ended up getting an abortion but this thing killed my relationship with my parents.
I felt like the whole thing was my fault because how could I have been so stupid to follow that guy along like that. I have a fear and racist thoughts about black people ever since.
I've been a social recluse and outcast since that day and I don't have any friends or had any bfs. Im basically ruined.
>>28460481
Get off the virgin board then.
>>28463933
srry anon.
I may or may not have molested my much younger cousin when I was a teenager. I started having random flashbacks the other day about tickling and groping her, and I really don't know if they're real or not. I see her quite often and I feel like I'm having a panic attack every time.
This isn't helped by the fact that I used to masturbate almost exclusively to loli.
>>28460259
I've actually killed hundreds of people, they come into my surgery with genuine medical complaints, I pretend to go along with this but then actually give them a lethal dose of morphine instead
>>28463895
>I've masturbated to that memory everyday since it happened.
WOOAAAHH NELLY
>>28463983
How haven't you been caught
I have fantasies of enslaving and brainwashing someone into becoming a willing and loyal sex kitty thay obeys all my commands.
>Be in grade 4 I think
>Get called into the office
>get sat down by a councilor.
>councilor starts talking in that slimy empathetic tone.
>says my little brother has been acting sad and when she asked him, he thought our dad was beating him.
>He wasn't, but for the past 2 or so weeks He and I had been at each others throats.
>I try to deny, but that slimy tone just keeps weighing on me, she keeps using key phrases, trying to trigger me into a break down
>It succeeds, I don't remember accusing him of anything, but I do say I'm scared of him and talk about the screaming matches we had.
>He get hauled into the school for discussions with my mom.
>No action is taking as there is no proof of actual abuse, but the incident is apparently on file
> He has never let me forget this, even as I explained many times what happened. Meanwhile little brother is never blamed for starting it in the first place.
>>28464171
>says my little brother has been acting sad and when she asked him, he thought our dad was beating him.
Me. He thought our dad was beating me.
I get the sudden urge to push people in front of trains when they pull into the platform.
I also want to jump in front of them myself.
>>28463984
Yeah, I probably need to ease up on that
>>28462383
Maybe she's so dumb she thinks you can go "fix" it with a doctors appointment? Maybe she is that dense.
I fap to everyone and everything. I've been fapping since I was 12, when I started out with pictures of actresses in bikinis. I first fapped to my elder sister the year after that. By the time I was 16, I had fapped to every female classmate in school who was better than 3/10, and every teacher who was North of the same.
I developed a habit of fapping in public and flashing it to women, and cumming on people in public, like in a bus or in a store. I had also developed a habit of fapping to loli, straight shota, and bro sis incest. I fapped to my mum when I turned 19.
Also, I've fapped to finish at least twice a day everyday since I was 14, my record for most faps in a day being 8, then getting really tired and falling asleep. I love experimenting with different kinds of things to fap with, fapping in different places, fapping through my pants, pretty much everything you can think of and everything you can't.
I really wish I could break the habit, this is as bad as having a drug problem, minus the expenses. I'm also scared I might become impotent or something, I've read that shit can happen. I have no clue how to stop, even though I want to.
Tldr, im the world's biggest fapper
>>28460442
First of all, obligatory REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE off my board whore!
Secondly, if he liked you, he'd be able to forgive something that was clearly an accident.
There's this girl I work with, who'll smile and wave at me, always comes p and talks to me and shit.
If she did that, I'd struggle to get angry because I'd still think it's adorable. Besides, screens are easy to replace.
So, I'd suggest moving on... crsh on another gy, I don't think he's interested in you.
>>28463573
What does that have to do with my problem ?
>>28463346
You guessed wrong
