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2016-05-10 02:18:15 Post No. 28456880
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2016-05-10 02:18:15
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I just had a realization. I'm not any better than the normies out there, in fact I'm a lot worse. I'm unattractive, skinny, short, nerdy and boring. Spending all this time on the internet has led to me having the personality of a brick. Before, I always thought I was in some ways better than others, I thought I was at least more intelligent, had more nuanced thoughts about the world, had better style, I was cooler because I don't care about the world, I was cooler because I have problems with depression. But in reality, I am simply not.
Everyone deals with the same problem we do, and they just handle it better than we do. I'm not special because I'm depressed and don't get treatment for it, other people are just as depressed but they're willing to own up to this disease and get medication for it. Everyone feels a little lonely sometime, but they don't deal with it by furiously masturbating to increasingly disturbing pornography for multiple times every day, they don't shut down and become a shut-in with no friends, they make an effort to deal with it.
I suck, I literally have nothing to offer. I don't have above average intelligence, despite desperately wanting so for as long as I can remember, my jokes aren't the funniest, there is always someone funnier than me. My personality doesn't make up for all my other fallings, I guess that's what spending each and every day inside your bedroom does to you.
Just typing this shit up makes me hate myself even more, it all sounds so cliche, so atypical, as if I'm still romanticizing my failings. As if doing nothing to change anything will lead to a miraculous gf showing up to save me and get me out of my miserable existence. See, I'm still hoping this happens to me, what a stupid way to think about things. I'm not that important, I'm not any more special than everyone else.
I look for feels thread in an attempt to make my sadness have some meaning and significance, when it really doesn't.
Good night /r9k/.
