So alas I have broken my personal record of 24 days completely abstaining from any masturbation, and am fully commited to remaining free of onanism, and accepting that I will never have sex. I am dealing with some lingering injuries from the utterly insane amount of fapping I have abused myself with. My perenium muscles are stiff and the whole area becomes swollen and hard behind the anus when I get an erection, and there is a constant usually dull feeling that feels like urine left in my bladder even though I urinate normally. Shit is annoying but easily ignored since no actual pain or urine leakage nor urgency. So I have delayed fighting the medicaid beaurocracy to see a urologist and go to a chiropractor. Doctors said my prostate and urine is normal though, if I had to guess its an issue lf the muscles that involve erection and ejaculation affecting bladder nerves and clamping down hard on the prostate when I get a boner. If its not serious enough for medication or surgery, not sure what a uro or chiropractor can do to diagnose and treat it.
But as I say, grateful for whatever minor thing this is because otherwise I would still be living hand to dick
try phenazopyridine for that annoying sensation of having to pee
same boat here though, I fucked up my suspensory ligament not from capping, but from I think pulling down too hard when I was shaving my pubes one time
fuckin bullshit
>>28436387
I meant "fapping", in actuality
How was it diagnosed? and is it healing?
The bladder sensation emerged randomly on day when I was 2 weeks into no-cum and not even edging much. But while fapping I often had pain in the perenium muscles near the anus, which was sharpest during ejaculation and subsides after. My assumption is they are related, and the bladder sensation is a secondary effect of the fucked up dick muscles.
>>28436897
yeah, pelvic floor probably
I went to a urologist
>>28437024
any pain or other sensations accompanying it
Not worried about it, but would help if I could find an explaination for it and to see if any physical therapy or osteopathic adjustment can help
>>28436387
I too have a damaged suspensory ligament
feels really fucking bad man
>>28437225
no it doesn't hurt
listen I think you just have a pulled muscle down there. it should heal eventually
>>28437445
>tfw your dick will never be fully flaccid ever again
>>28437445
>>28437024
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can you describe how it actually feels, so I can compare?
>>28437588
entirely different from what you describe
dick refuses to go entirely soft, like it's pinched off at the base. when erect, there's a downward bend at the base
>>28437586
I also feel something hard right behind my anus- in the same area that caused pain during ejaculation, especially if I fapped like crazy, like 3 times in an hour. This hard lump in the perenium which I originally thought was the prostate. However, as I mentioned, when my actual prostate was briefly probed by the doctor, said it was small, and I asked it it felt at all inflamed and was told it was not.
>>28437588
There's like a little hole right above my penis, where the ligament used to be before it broke, and when I get an erection it doesn't actually stand up. It feels like something is missing, right at the base of my penis on the top side.
Been thinking about trying to find someone who will try to surgically repair it but its scary as fuck
>>28437656
>dick refuses to go entirely soft
So it's like hard-flaccid syndrome?
>>28437685
man I'm glad I don't have it that bad
I feel for you anon
>>28437705
like what now
>>28437669
I wonder if you like tore some of the spongy tissue in your dick
that would make sense if it gets more palpable when you're erect
>>28437731
Hard flaccid is when something in your penis/pelvic area (the cause has not been discovered yet for sure I think) makes it so your flaccid penis is still "hard"...like there's a hard piece of rubber inside it, or a pill bottle crammed inside the erectile tissue.
It's insanely uncomfortable. I have it but it's slowly getting better (it's taken years to improve and it's only about 50% better)
>>28437656
>>28437685
as expected, its something more serious than whatever is going on in my nether regions
going to try some deep tissue massage in the fucked up area between the anus and perenium to see if it can relieve the 'always have piss left in my dick' feeling. No decline in quality of life, and easy to ignore, but it is frustrating to feel this way all the time more or less.
>there is a constant usually dull feeling that feels like urine left in my bladder even though I urinate normally
I have this same feeling when I am trying to fall asleep after consecutive days of fapping 2-3 times.
I have found if I take a hot bath, it makes these muscles relax a bit and it goes away.
>>28437793
yeah that pretty much describes it
I mean I can probably tell you what caused mine though
I pulled the front part of my suspensory ligament, which caused the entire enclosure to shift forward and down, resulting in a kink at the base of my dick. I can feel exactly where it is, too.
>>28437753
I think a muscle tear would be painful with an erection. Since I'm not fapping the only times I can observe my erections is before getting out of bed with morning wood. What I notice is the entire perenium feels tight and swollen, and a hard lump near the base of my anus. But this was the case as a result of fapping for a long time. The funky urethra/bladder sensations began one day when I hadn't fapped recently. However, I did notice a weakness in the muscles I use at the end of urination, and so it could be a result of squeezing it too hard to feel like I fully emptied the bladder as much as I could. Since nofapping again I also stopped doing that, I just do a gentle kegel and shake my dick at the end of urination
>>28437910
you might have a hernia, yeah
you'll really want to get that checked out
>>28437588
to me it feels like there is a knot or some thing hard and swollen up inside the area of my body a few inches passed the area (towards my ass) where my balls connect to my body. It really is uncomfortable, but like I said here: >>28437835
taking a 15 minute hot bath lessens the sensation
>>28437835
I don't have access to a bathtub only shower. However, I have a long thin space heater, and remember last December I would often straddle it and the heat on my dick and balls would feel delightful. Gonna try that and do some massage to see if I can relax the muscles more. But a concern would be that I can only reach from the outside, whereas when I have back muscle problems I can quickly relieve then with self massage
>>28437936
hernais would be more painful, but I assume if I go back tot he clinic and demand to be referred to a uro, they would check for any hernia
>>28437937
that describes my same feeling, but its more like under the anus in the perenium
>>28438033
even a heat pad ($10 online or so) would work very well I would imagine
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>>28438061
l got this
>>28438088
pads work way better man, conduction and everything
>>28435861
how do you stop fapping?
give me all your hints and tips m8
i've been trying for years
I don't even have an addictive personality, it's just about getting over the physical reactions
I am really glad I am not the only here with this problem. I was trying to find what was wrong with me on google, and couldn't find shit.
>>28435861
Man I have pretty much everything you described. The dull ache and constant need to piss especially
>>28438237
P H E N A Z O P Y R I D I N E
>>28438124
If they're like $10 at Walgreens might just get one
My heater gets super hot though and allows me to safely put my bare skin right above it
>>28438131
well aside from the injury my decision to stop fapping is supported by the knowledge that, aside from a few seconds of euphoria, it doesn't actually feel good, it not a sensation I would ever experience with a woman in real life, and wreaks havoc on my subtle energy bodies- far more than just testosterone and dopamine. I'm sure there are scientific explainations other than auras and chakras, but its evident to me that I am my best self when I am not fapping, and no good can ever come of it, so I stopped.
In a nutshell I guess you should feel disgusted with the idea of fapping, but forgive yourself for it, and love yourself enough to force yourself to stop doing it.
>>28438206
>>28438237
Do you actually piss a lot or just feel agitated and keep trying to squeeze out more? Thankfully I don't have this, and can tell the difference between the phantom sensation and when I actually have 400ml or more in my bladder and piss every 2-3 hours depending how much I drink.
>>28438317
not him, but it feels like my bladder shrank or is really inflamed, and if I am not careful about how much I drink, I can pee like 3 times in 30 minutes when I am trying to sleep
>>28438317
nigger, fapping is not evil
that said, if you do it "like 3 times in an hour" regularly yes you might experience problems
I'm a tranny on hormones, so the diminished sex drive makes nofap child's play and you know what? it doesn't change anything either way
you retards think you're overpowering some great temptation but really it's just your hormones and it makes no difference whatsoever
in your case, you probably do wanna abstain though with an injury like you got
>>28438249
what does this do? And does it actually help with your problem or just relieve pain?
Something I did when this first started was put some spearmint essential oil on my perenium- careful not to get any on my glans or balls, and it would numb the area for me. Stopped doing that since body adapted quickly and was able to ignore it and fall asleep- same like when my tinnitus is loud, seems like it would be a problem when trying to relax, but I just end up falling asleep quickly
>>28438382
sounds like common overactive bladder
do you pee a full piss each time or small amounts?
a normal pee for me is usually 0.5 litre more or less.
Tense pelvis floor is treatable. And masturbating isn't bad. Porn is.
>>28438482
>Tense pelvis floor
not sure if related, but will certainly ask about it next time I see a chiropractor
Some people have porn problems, others fapping, or both. My porn tastes have always been super vanilla, and porn sans fapping is not worse than any other way of wasting time on the internet. Yet I fapped like crazy long before I saw porn, and when not using it (in bed, in the shower, etc)
bumpss
>>28435861
> never fapping
> never having sex
Sounds very difficult OP. Are you religious? That would probably be the only thing that I think could motivate you to stay celibate. If you aren't religious and have simply resigned yourself to celibacy, then you should consider prostitutes. They can be quite fun, and at least in my opinion sex with a sex worker is a lot more enjoyable than fapping, so long as you can afford the cost.
>>28439162
It is congruent with my belief in antinatalism, at least as a personal lifestyle choice. I would literally rather be a virgin for life than ever have to worry about getting a woman pregnant
I don't subscribe to any specific religion but have welcomed back in spiritual beliefs and practices. I also read into the condemnations of masturbation in Abrahamic and eastern religions, and can understand where they come from in relating to my own experience with how it affected me.
I despise any paying for access to sexual capital and would be to scared of STDs even if it was legal and I wanted to have sex. I regard sex as just fapping in a woman, and just as likely or more likely to lead to a relapse as masturbating.
I was attracted to women since I was 5 years old or so, and never knew of sex or fapping. Now its the same way sort of, I don't actually want sex and if I had a gf somehow would just want to cuddle without any sexual activity.
Besides, I know ways of having brain-body 'orgasm' using only the breath that is far more pleasurable and actually energizing, but its so powerful I rarely do it. I've expereinced this a few years ago, yet was not enough to break the fapping addiction
>>28439315
How old are you. I seriously doubt this is sustainable. Lonliness is bad for the mind
>>28439335
27. This time has felt much different because I am much more calm and peaceful due to my yoga and meditation practice (whereas in previous years nofap/nocum would cause intense sexual frustration), and also because I feel it is absolutely necessary due to the injuries, and the accepted fact that I have never been able to fap in moderation, it was either a severe addiction or not at all
Loneliness is a subjective state, having no relation to sexual abstainence, though robots tents to use lonely to describe themselves when wanting intimate companionship and not getting it
I felt lonely when I was thinking about sex all the time, but not when I am just living life and being social, not hoping to use people for a specific end or hoping they will like me. Its like a semi monk mode where I still enjoy looking at women and hugging them (lots of women hug me at yoga events I go to), yet relinquished any actual desire to act on feelings to masturbate or have sex
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