ahh, who am i kidding? maybe i'm just a loser. maybe i should just give up. maybe it was always inevitable. maybe hope was a passing phase. i just seem incapable of living. who knows what's wrong with me. what'll society do with someone like me? my faith in God has been shaken, i feel completely alone and forgotten about. perhaps death is what i'd prefer.
Don't worry. Things will get better after high school
>>28431724
thanks friend
i'm almost 24
>>28431764
If you're in a rut, change your situation. Do something drastic, like move somewhere far away. Something that will change you so much that you could never go back to the way you were. Go somewhere that will change your perspective on life. Join the peace corps, or the french foreign legion
>maybe hope was a passing phase
>tfw death has come to represent hope
I'm fucked, aren't I?
>>28431828
well, i kinda already did that, sort of. i used to be a neet and i just moved out last year. it's definitely changed me.
i simply do not know what to do anymore, however. i'm terrified of fizzling out and just moving back in.
i fear that i'm out of divine favour, that my state of consciousness is too corrupted. that fears sprout like weeds and all my good is completely overwhelmed by darkness. i've been smoking too much weed.
>>28431909
i don't know, friend, but i can relate.
>>28431982
>i fear that i'm out of divine favour, that my state of consciousness is too corrupted. that fears sprout like weeds and all my good is completely overwhelmed by darkness
Woah are you literally me?
I don't know what to do about it
>>28432255
i've learned that all of your power comes from your state of consciousness, and that taking care of that is key to... living. i've had small glimpses of this goodness but i also do things that fuck me over. i've gotta start meditating again.
>>28432381
You're freaking me out
This is basically my exact narrative as of right now
Can't meditate anymore though. I can't sit still for long enough, and I have these fucked up hallucinations that make me hate even closing my eyes.
>>28432458
huh, weird. yeah it turns out there's probably something to this spiritual stuff. did you mess with third eye stuff?
>>28432678
or who knows. maybe it's the weed>>28432678
>>28433032
>stop smoking weed
>end up reintegrating into a horrifying reality
>keep smoking weed
>the nightmare only deepens, but at least it's not this
It's a tough choice
>>28431615
This was feely. Maybe hope was a passing phase, it certainly feels that way
