just found out the other day that I have a fatal and incurable neural disease.
How are you doing, fellow robots? any other /incurable/ on r9k??
I have moderate to severe ulcerative colitis, it's not fatal but it is incurable and it affects my quality of life in that I basically have to plan things around it and I will for the rest of the forseeable future. So there's that.
>>28431253
Can you explain further? What exactly is wrong with you? Are you going to die?
>>28431253
how long have you got op?
are you gonna cut out the middleman and kill yourself?
I'm so sorry opie. I hope you can enjoy the time you have left.
Have you told anyone?
>>28431298
Yeah. basically what happened was i noticed that I was struggling more whenever I was doing certain workouts and i went to my doctor to see what was up, One thing led to another, and I end up in a neurologist office getting poked and prodded with electric charged needles and after taking a DNA test they told me I have a form of muscular dystrophy that will cripple me within 6 or 8 years and eventually kill me. I refuse to let myself become a rolling vegetable so I am planning on quitting my job, travelling or doing something fun for a bit, and then killing myself with either helium, overdose, or gunshot. I am 21 years old and I live in the US.
>>28431253
Congratulations anon, you've been given a chance to leave the shitty life you've been dealt. you don't even have to do the work of taking your own life, you just have to wait.
I envy you.
>>28431288
That sucks, I had pancreatitis, worse feeling on the planet and I can only assume what you have is like a permanent version of it. Doctors had me hooked up to IV pain killers, and to this day I wish I was back at the hospital getting an injection, they turned me into an addict :(
>>28431373
I just got out the army actually so I told some of my friends (my only friends, really) from then. my parents know and it hurts them bad I think. in fact the only reason I didn't kill myself when I found out was I didn't want to hurt my parents. No girlfriend, naturally, so I don't have to worry about breaking any woman's heart.
>>28431298
>Are you going to die?
>fatal and incurable
Fuck, i know you're autistic but c'mon
>>28431377
Before you decide to kill yourself in 6 years, make /pol/ proud and take a few niggers with you. Not the good niggers, the ghetto trash niggers, save some lives anon, you have 6 years to plan this spree.
>>28431423
Fuck you man, maybe I have that disease that makes reading impossible. Like for all you know I see Hi as iH
>>28431377
my suggestions. every single girl you see ask to fuck while you still have the chance. don't even go about it as sob story just act like you're not having the muscle dystrophy.
go base jumping buy a base rig climb tall antennas and bridges and base off.
>>28431288
My wife (24yo) has Crohn's. It was fine/ not problematic for 10+ years, but has been hell for the last two. I feel for both of you and can't wait until they find better treatment options.
>>28431510
honestly I have about $18K in savings and I am tempted to use it to go to vietnam or thailand and just fuck a ton of whores and maybe find some ayuhuasa (sp?) or do some other crazy shit. more than anything I want to make friends and have actual meaningful life experiences before I go.
>>28431518
is that the one that makes you shit a ton?
>>28431552
don't even have to buy them go out ot bar tonight no joke dont' get shitfaced but get a nice buzz going on and approach the females dude. you know most of them in there WANT dick.
also go sky diving at least once iwth that 18k i think yo ucan go for like $200 tandem not including traveling expenses but most areas in US you're within two or three hours of a skydive academy.
>>28431665
At times yeah
>>28431253
Oh no man. Is it boneitis?
>>28431665
i have crohns or 'supposedly' i don't shit a ton but it causes me malnourishment which causes me fatigue and depression. that's really the biggest problem we found out i became anemic because of ulcers in intestines and also malabsorption of iron wasn't helping either.
i know somewith crohns go constanntly but me it's mainly just an annoying conidtion that make me more tired then someone more healthy. i found rigirious exercise and whole food diet gives me a great feeling, look, and energy so that's what i do now.
>>28431690
I've jumped out of planes before, but i'd like to do it as a civilian just for fun. that's a good call. In terms of women, I dunno. I'm very very introverted, even while drunk. and so painfully awkward. Funny story, when I was getting tested for this disease I have, i had to get naked under a hospital gown. of course the people doing my initial tests were residency doctor candidates, so close to my age relatively, and of course they were all hot girls. I got a fucking boner when they were touching my thigh. I almost cried.
/terminal cancer/ reporting in, shit fucking blows
cannabis oil cures degenerative tissue disorders
>>28431819
now that's what i'm talking about. thank you.
>>28431794
were they really hot indian doctors?
there was this one indian doctor that drove a mercedes and benz and would travel hours away to buy cocaine so she couldn't be 'ousted' or w/e. man doctors and surgeons are some of the craziest people they're good af at what they do but don't put it past them to be whacky or even doing cocaine and shit on weekends lol.
>>28431819
I wish i had brain cancer, and asking the doctors to not allow any family visits :) shit is heaven
>>28431841
Haha, no, this was at the University of Virginia hospital, so they were all hot blonde dignified southern-type girls. I was tenting so bad and about to cry and one of them, without saying anything, gave me a blanket. waifu material right there, but I was way too petrified to say anything. plus i'm sure I'm not quite desirable now that they knew I was dying. no qt stacy wants to hang around a person with an expiration date in the relative near future.
>>28431936
i can kinda understand. my crohns disease makes me look kinda sickly and weak so i'm not really able to secure a mate either dude. i cry about it a few times but all-in-all i want to do like you and live life for the experiences.
>>28431965
How old are you? I've been trying to find someone to come with me who understands what it's like to be sickly and unwanted. i'd prefer to have a travel companion.
>>28431997
i'm 24. live in united states.
>>28431253
I've had seizures since I was 8 years old, it's under the fair control of medicine and restricted lifestyle (no caffeine including chocolate, nothing with aspartame, no staying up late, no alcohol) but it still counts and it closes a lot of doors in my life.
I'm banned from being in the military and can't be a police officer, so I'm stuck being a security guard. I'm finally able to drive which is a huge risk that I'm not comfortable with.
>tfw taking driving lessons with teenagers despite being 22'
Medicine is not cheap and no matter where I am, I have to stop what I'm doing at 8am and 8pm to take my medicine. It's been like this for over 10 years so i'm used to it. It's just a hassle when I'm playing the dating game.
>>28431253
Life is fatal for all of us pal.
Enjoy the rest of your time.
Ive got a brain tumor. Had it since I was a kid and its really just off and on that it affects me. Apparently the location its in precludes surgery as long as it isnt life threatening, and it doesnt appear to be yet. Occasionally it pinches a nerve and i am taken out of commission for a week or two. It also affects my memory and motor skills slightly. The doctors try to be optimistic but sometimes i used to hear them telling my mom that i likely wouldnt make it past 40.
>>28432060
what area of the US?
>>28432073
why would you want to be police at 5.1
that's a huge liability
>>28432191
It's been done before, girls my height in the police AND military. They're my role models and only glimmer of hope so I don't feel useless for something I can't control.
If leg lengthening surgery was free i'd do it in a heart beat.
>>28431253
everyone dies, senpai.
hopefully my cryogenic freezing works.....
>>28431377
If you're gonna die in 8 years max, pick a steroid cycle that will kill you in 10 years.
why live out your last years as a normie when you could live as a Chad Freakbeast?!?!!
>>28431253
I have a small tumour at the base of my brain stem. Chemo sucks, and there's a chance it's going to get bigger. Surgery would probably kill me. Dead either way. Makes shit weird. Everyone treats you so differently when all you want is to be treated like you were before.
>>28432326
>muscular dystrophy
>steroids
this does not work
>>28431377
>lives in the us
>us healthcare
im soo fucking sorry bro
have fun with your last days
>Family has a history of Alzheimers and autoimmune disorders along with heart disease
I'm going to die a slow death either through terrible degradation of my body through Lupus or through destruction of my personality and mind. One of my Uncles dropped dead at 35. I don't know when how how I will die but it won't be pleasant.
>>28432302
>everyone dies
not this early, ya fag.
>>28432398
i have good healthcare cause i'm a vet. But the best healthcare in the world wouldn't have stopped what's happening to me.
>>28432405
I think i know who's behind your problems
>>28432405
Bruh, iktf.
My hearts already started taking little shits.
>>28432405
>family has a history of strokes, heart diseases, diabetes and testicular cancer
>>28432073
well thought you were just an attentionwhore but those are some strong feelsies
>>28432881
tfw just waiting to drop dead
>think I have multiple serious health problems
>too scared to go to the doctor and find out
If I'm gonna die, I'd rather it be I was unaware of it until right before it happens so that way I can live out the last of my days in a somewhat normal state of mind, I wouldn't like to be told I only had a certain amount of time left to live
I don't even fucking know how to make a doctor's appointment, then going through the ordeal with having to find time, wait in doctors office, etc.
Fuck it, OP here. if anyone is interested in joining me on my adventure (and I can help with some of the $$) let me know.
>>28433229
>>28433229
yeah, i kinda wish I was still ignorant. but the manifestations of my illness meant that I couldn't ignore it any more.
>>28433355
Well I'm gonna have to go eventually because I need to know. Don't think it's anything terminal if I do have some health problems at least. But knowing my luck I would end up having some shit that is going to end up killing me at an early age, I really don't take care of my body and have gone through years of alcohol and drug abuse and really unhealthy lifestyle. I hope I didn't fuck my shit up too bad.
>>28433252
God Speed, OP. My opinion is that you go to southeast asia or somewhere foreign where your dollar will stretch far and the exotic women crave americans.
I recently when in for some bloodwork, I won't have the results until Tuesday though. I don't think there's anything wrong with me desu, I think the doctor was too lazy to check me out himself and just sent me somewhere else.
I'm not sure if my stomach condition is incurable.
When I was 16 I suddenly began having tons of nausea and stomach pain. I dropped from 150 to 115 pounds (and stayed there permanently) from it. I have constant pain every day and vomit about once a week minimum. I've seen dozens of doctors including prestigious university doctor specialists. They tell me I have an idiopathic illness.
It really fucking sucks. I at least get some painkillers (1800mg methadone, 1800mg oxycodone in roxicodone form, 600mg oxymorphone per month). I also was given a prescription to use cannabis.
I'm managing it decently but I really fucking hate living with this.
>>28433771
I'm 26 now, by the way. I forgot to mention that.
>>28433702
yeah thailand sounds pretty good.
>>28431253
I have a tube stuck into my heart at the end of this month that will tell me if I have pulmonary hypertension and will die in 5 years or if I will be fine. It's so stressful sometimes having to wait. Nobody really cares, and I doubt they will if it turns out I have it.
>>28434201
got a kik? let me know and I can talk you through the process of coming to terms with death.
>>28434258
Getting it now, would be nice to hear what that would be like. Death isn't set in stone yet, the echo of my heart says I have it, but they are usually only correct 60% of the time... But the doctor says the guy that came up with the results has done this for 40 years, is there best and has rarely gotten a single thing wrong. That and the fact the doctor says all the Ritalin I have taken can cause pulmonary hypertension so yeah. Got to wait until the end of the month for them to measure the pressure directly. Will post again with kik info once I work out how to use it. Thanks senpai.
>>28434572
right on. my kik is stadtmitte.16 and I am indeed the OP so if anyone wants to talk just hit me up. you guys have inspired me to start planning my journey.
>>28434258
Alright senpai just made a kik account, user name is loyalkoala
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