I feel the void in my life by playing games/watching anime/reading comics/fapping to 2D. I genuinely love those activities which is why I am completely fine with being a friendless virgin at 25.
However, I don't know what I would do if that ever stopped working.
How about you? How do you fill the hole?
>>28407682
>he's happy
Get off my board
>>28407682
>I feel the void in my life
Innocent typo, or Freudian slip?
Pretty much the same thing, though it doesn't work very well these days. I'd give anything to be able to go back to a time when I had few responsibilities and I could be carefree and off in my own little world. I'm not cut out for adulthood, and that never changes no matter how long I beat my head against this wall.
All my escapism stopped working, had a mental breakdown. Probably wasn't far from killing myself until I started talking with a qt fembot here. Now I have a long distance relationship. Sucks being so far apart, but I'm alot happier now than I was before.
>>28407682
You must not worry but it's a good way to tell is going to have to keep looking for flaws in yourself. Well... sounds like you are a skeptical why are you even here if you are reserved, lying or disingenuous. When I got older I kinda started to realise that the best way I can explain but you won't make that claim.
>>28408042
>online gf
>"fembot"
LOL
You gunna get keked son
>>28408120
Maybe, still alot better than I was doing before. And I have some irl friends/drinking buddies now. It's slowly starting to look like I might escape robo hell.
>>28408042
Can you greentext your story anon. :3
>>28408177
>Gets an online roastiie attention whore as a "gf"
>thinks he has escaped
Just so you know your original comment was so pathetic that I actally burst out laughing irl
>>28408042
This will probably happen to you. My escapism stopped working and everything is much worse. Enjoy it while you can and start lining up future replacements.
>>28408222
I know I'm pathetic, what do you think I'm doing on r9k?
>>28408222
Better than nothing. If he's lucky he'll be able to use that relationship as a springboard out of this festering cesspit and into a real life. No guarantees, of course.
>>28408290
Its ok anon just ignore the bullies
>>28408290
I think you are shitting up my board with your beta ass shit
Pathetic faggots like you are the reason roasties here get away with so much shit
Its always the thirsty orbiters who keep giving them attention because they want an online gf
She is probably on /soc/ right now looking for a more attractive replacement
>>28408321
>relationship
cuck
>>28408350
>you are shitting up my board
Whoa, look out, someone's been here since last summer.
>>28408380
wait wtf, i meant to say kek
When did they remove the filter?
cuck, senpai desu
>>28408396
Orbiting roaties has always been pathetic and cringeworthy
>>28408448
You're pathetic and cringeworthy. So what?
>>28408465
Sounds like a certain roastie is getting toastie
>>28407682
I don't anymore.
I'm broke so I've had to make a lot of concessions.
I sold all of my vidya because I was desperate for cash. Sold my new consoles, and all of my old childhood favorites too
Porn is a habbit, or a need like piss/shitting. I do not enjoy it.
I've actually had sex (yea prostitutes) but I don't enjoy that either, I just get excited by the idea of touching, smelling a real woman before me.....but it feels worse than fapping and is too damn expensive. I've had sex 5 times. I've paid for sex 5 times. I've never had a girlfriend, and I've never kissed a girl on the lips.
I eat the same food everyday, it isn't very good but I can't cook and I can't afford anything better
I quit my job, dropped out of college, and moved back home, still here now 27 years old
I've tried drugs but I've never enjoyed them, I don't get the appeal but I think it's a cultural social thing and as an introvert I can never relate, getting fucked up actually makes others seem even more distant to me. My older bro was normie, but lost everything because of drugs & alcohol, now he is in rehab and legally not allowed to leave. I don't envy him as he had a taste of normalcy and lost it he's worse off than I am.
I sometimes go to the movies but don't really pay attention anymore so I cannot remember what I just watched even if I sat there for 90 minutes or more.
I've never liked music.
My drivers license expired, I've never renewed it since I had to sell car to pay school debt anyway
I was diagnosed with lupus and I suffer from asthma. I always feel like shit, and rather than relating or feeling pity people are just creeped out by me and only ask questions so that I can satisfy their curiosity
Nature is OK, but it's starting to get too hot for me to go outside anymore, I sweat constantly and feel faint.
No pets because I hate dogs and I'm allergic to cats. No friends since I cannot connect with anyone nearby. There are not many people around. Middle of now
>>28408465
It can't be helped. So pathetic and cringeworthy I had everything I could have ever hoped for within my grasp and I let it go. Like fucking sand through my fingers. Nobody to blame but yourself.
>>28408602
If you've still got a PC, even a laptop, there are always PC games. You can play old console games on emulators, too.
>>28408633
You wouldn't be the first. It's easiest to blame yourself but it doesn't change anything. If you can show yourself compassion, though, and forgive yourself your failures as you would a good friend or a child, you have the potential to learn from them and overcome them.
>>28408640
I'm not very smart, educated, or techie.
I don't really know what you mean by emulator or how this would help me or where to get
It's my mom's computer, she thinks everything is virus and will freak out if she sees something new on it. I could probably convince her to get over it but I'm too weak willed for that fight, I want to keep her happy.
>>28408733
There's nothing technical about it. Just download ZSNES and a torrent of SNES ROMs. And don't put any of it on the desktop.
You should probably look into ways to cope with depression, too, because you sound pretty depressed.
I can't fill the void OP. Video games don't do it anymore. I try so hard to enjoy games and other hobbies but I just can't do it. It's not enough. I'm too far gone.
>>28408771
well i won't kill myself or anything
>>28408828
That's good, but being miserable constantly isn't exactly a great way to live. Surely there are ways you can improve your life. Instead you seem to offer a rationalization for inaction, like by minimizing the problem.
>>28408200
Okay
> grow up in a lower middle class household
> really overprotective parents that wouldn't let me get out much
> dad didn't like the idea of me playing any sports
>spend entire childhood and teen years inside playing vidya and eating junk food
>only time I'd get out would be visiting family.
> bullied pretty bad in middle school
> only had one friend, he moved in 7th grade
> started lifting hard at 15, this cut out the bullying
> mostly ignored in highschool except for a few stoner/ metal head acquaintances
> became hardcore shut-in neet after HS graduation.
>Locked myself in my room and starved myself(lost 70 pounds in a few months)
>got back into lifting and started trying whatever escapism I could find.
>stayed like this for years, slowly going insane.
> lurking one day and decided I'd post my face for the fuck of it.
> a few fembots said I was pretty attractive, met my qt.
We're both kv's with some pretty serious self esteem problems.
>>28408602
Oh right, I've never held hand either.
I forgot that existed because I've never seen it in porn and I'm afraid to look at couples in public.
>>28407682
Grew out of vydia some time ago, don't enjoy those other things. I go to university and do well at it. Work out, listen to music, talk to parents/few friends I have the rest of the time. I'm jelly of people who are still into vidya in their 20's, appreciate it while you can.
>>28407682
>How do you fill the hole
first it was vidyas
then it was weed
then it was weed + booze
now it's trump + booze
once this campaign is over i may end myself
>>28408850
>Surely there are ways you can improve your life.
Do you want to know what the ultimate horror was?
One time i decided to do just that, so I went to normie board (Redit) and asked for advice etc. Fucking everyone made fun of me. All those rules, and all that BS about being accepting and empathetic and a safe space etc. and they still tore me apart and congratulated eachtoher while doing it!
At least 4chan is honestly terrible wtf was that shit?!
>>28407682
I don't. Even though I enjoy some things I still need to force myself to do them so I just do nothing all day.
>>28408932
I bet you like Vampire: The Masquerade
>>28408994
I was too young for the video game and too old/friendless for the table top game.
>>28408968
That was the ultimate horror? People on Reddit making fun of you? You must have a seriously easy life after all. People do tend to make fun of you when you throw yourself a pity party, though, which I suspect is exactly what you did. You sound like a classic example of learned helplessness. I say this not to be critical or insulting, because I do understand what it's like to be the victim of bad habits and thought patterns that you never chose. If it's an option you should consider seeing a therapist as they might be able to give you some valuable insights into yourself.
Mostly 4chan. I don't really feel like there's a void, I just go straight to my PC when I (eventually) get out of bed, automatically open my bookmarks and start getting various boards on the go. Sometimes Reddit.
I used to be heavily into videogames (RPGs, FPS, turn-based strategy), still play every now and then, but there's no real motivation for it anymore since I rinsed Fallout and TES.
I cook spicy as fuck food and have been getting into coffee, grinding beans and using the pour-over method. Amazon and grocery deliveries are a miracle for hermits like me.
I practice self-hypnosis and lucid dreaming as well, that shit's really fun. Highly recommend both for people who are committed to the solitary lifestyle.
I recently started taking fantasy holidays using Google Streetview and various webcams. For example, I "went" to Tenerife's playa de Los Cristianos, went up and down the street imagining what it would be like to be there. Enjoyed the view of the harbour from the streaming webcam. Then went into a local restaurant/bar. Made myself a mojito IRL because they had it on the menu. I use vesseltracker to see which boats are in the harbour and find out about them, that sort of thing. Better than doing nothing I guess.
>>28407682
Recently remember how my brother managed to play PGR4 with amazing skill. I have been watching a lot of initial D so now I listen to eurobeat and play PGR4 and other pre-2012 games.
