>Want to kill myself
>Love parents too much to do it
This is fucking torturous guys, I'm fucking trapped in my own life.
Yeah I'm in the same boat. I know I wouldn't care once I'm dead because I would cease to exist, but the pre death me cares too much not to screw up my brothers lives and make my mom and dad sad.
If only I could of never been born...
You're lying to yourself. Not wanting to do it because of your parents isn't obviously the reason you're not doing it. You'd find a different one if you weren't alive.
>>28378988
I was in the same boat six months ago. Now I'm also scared of kama loka.
>>28379220
>Kama loka
What?
Don't worry about it, your parents will soon realize that they are better off without you anyways. Quit being a pussy and kill yourself
>>28379245
a theosophical interpretation of what happens to consciousness after death
http://www.theosophy-nw.org/theosnw/death/de-wqj1.htm
I keep telling myself that my mom attempted suicide a couple of times to make me feel less guilty but i still can't manage to kill myself
Help
>>28378988
Sadly it's inevitable.
>>28378988
Just live them out.
That is my plan all along, all my energy goes into making sure that I will earn good amount of money and wait for them to die.
After that I wil sell everything and donate money to blacklivesmatter/feminazis/sjw/isis or whoeverthefuck will be worst by then.
And then kill myself somewhere in the mountains.
Because fuck this world and everyone in it.
Remember to use a 20 gauge instead of a 12 so they can see you one last time
This is pretty much my biggest dilemma right now
Or the longest ongoing one anyway. I want them to have a peaceful life, so I'm going to try to be successful just for them and I'm motivated to do it now.
Sat on my ass too long, I could care less what happens to me. Once they're gone so am I, but depending if I find I spark I might stick around more. Highly doubt it, but for now I have to work hard.
>>28379103
Can guarantee that's wrong, most of us are really empathetic towards our parents (Some had shitty relationships but I meant the average r9ker). Logically it doesn't matter because once you die you don't feel bad, but it's the only lifeline for a lot of us. I would sudoku in a heartbeat if my parents died, my feelings on that haven't changed for 6 years now.
The only thing that stops me is the guilt of my mum finding me. I'm her only child. My dad died when I was 15, but they hadn't been together since I was a baby. Apart from my grandmother, she has no other family. Can't imagine what it would do to her.
>>28378988
>look mum I am, erm, how should I put this. I am not physically attracted to you
> but maybe, just.. you know I'm not really successful with women, and I'm rather scarred of them a bit to be honest
> I just was thinking that if maybe I could get it over with, you know doing it, it would
>make me feel less tense around them.
>I was thinking of hiring a hooker but I don't feel secure about this and maybe, well
>you know like I said I mean there is no harm in, you know if we could..? It's just that I trust you and
>I think this would really help, at least could we try, see how it goes?
