who /gonna kill themselfies/ here
It's either going to be a very long time before I do or sometime in two weeks or so
My brother is graduating from law school soon and it's important to my mother, so I don't want to ruin it by killing myself before then.
I'm still terrified but at this point I feel very, very cornered.
I feel motivated this time, i think i can do it today. I haven't felt that way in months.
Would getting drunk increase or decrease my chances of pussying out?
>>28370986
decrease
I feel like it pretty often, but I don't recommend it. You have eternity to be dead so what's the rush?
>>28370916
One day. When my daily quality of life is >50% negative with a poor chance of improvement. So likely in my 50s or 60s, barring major illness or other significant life changes.
>that feel when you want to kill yourself but terrified of non-existence
>>28372215
This,
and the thought of getting brain damage from a failed attempt,
and having the thought of my family's reaction in the back of my mind.
>>28370916
It's going to happen at some point or another
Every week I cut myself up a little worse, I get a little more fucked up, I get a little more disgusted with myself, I get a little closer to absolute hopelessness, I get a little closer to finally having the balls to do it.
>>28372261
yeah I also think it's pretty shitty to kill yourself when your parents are still alive. same goes for a parent killing themselves while kids are alive
>>28372319
They brought unnecessary suffering into this world for their own selfish ideal of life
I have no sympathy for my parents
>>28370916
Ehh. I'll think about it..
