What made it so great? What changed?
>>28359266
shit this is depressing as fuck
i cant think of any time i have actually been happy
fuck this thread, OP
im sorry
I can only find happiness in expectation: when I look forward to something, I start dreaming about all the best things that can happen, the good time I'll have. I get excited and happy, for a while all my problems disappear.
Then when the moment actually comes, it all ends: things never go as I anticipated, something doesn't work out so well. The very fact that the end is approaching makes me sad again.
I was happy when I had some chances. When my HS crush asked if I would like to take the seat next to her in class. When, some years later, I started going out with a girl I liked and it looked as if she liked me too. When I start a new semester at college, convincing myself I'm gonna make it this time. When holidays come and I make a whole lot of plans for my free time.
Needless to say, it always goes bad.
>>28359562
really? not even like, some point in your childhood? no people that made you feel happy?
>>28359266
I had a really happy moment a few months ago. I'm in a class with my oneitis and people were split into groups to work on a project. During the scheduled work time, she repeatedly ditched her group to hangout with me. I guarantee that she doesn't have any romantic interest in me, but that still felt really, really good. It's so rare that I feel wanted, and at that moment I felt like the coolest guy in the room. I'd like to feel that way more often
>>28360198
well congrats, anon. i'm still friends with my old oneitis, she wasn't interested in me like that but she and i are still very close. it's a weirdly pleasant feel.
that one year when I was a normie
>>28360310
how did you go from normie to robot? story?
>>28359266
>What was The Happiest Time in Your Life?
Going camping with my family and my childhood best friend. My dad taught us how to fish, how to start a fire, and let us each have a sip of his whiskey.
>What made it so great?
It was both my first time camping, and I lived in a dirty city at the time so being outdoors was the best
> What changed?
Family moved around a bunch, and I lost contact with my friend. I finally met up with him about two years ago, he turned into a coke addict with no job and a kid on the way with some nasty spic
>>28360404
I'm sorry for your friend mate. did he at least act the same? I met up with a couple old friends recently and their lives are totally fucked but they honestly haven't changed at all.
That summer I spent at home alone playing visual novels and pokemon with my online bros. My cellphone was turned off the whole three months. I think I didn't interact with anyone outside my family and a friend I saw one day.
I like being alone. It was escapism at it's prime. And I loved it. Cause life blows and now that I have to interact with people and do shit every day there isn't a single day that goes by that I didn't wish I was dead.
>happiest time in life
I was 12 and posting on instant message boards. I had no friends at school and felt so alone, but those people i met on those boards meant the world to me. They were like me, future robots really, and we were alone together. I lost contact with a lot of them, I count 17, but a few I still talk to. So many memories.
A lot of them got lives, I think one died ( i can't remember, it was so stressful at the time i don't remember if that was a fear of mine or actually what happened) and the rest sort of...disappeared.
One im board is alive and well, one is dead. I look at the dead one like a tombstone sometimes. It was cool. It was supposed to be some piano shit where you play via your keypad, but we muted piano and just used the chat bar.
Link is multiplayerpiano.com/lobby if you want to see the remains.
>happiest time
Having my Chad best friend with me. We were the best of friends. Completely inseparable. We were always out somewhere.
>what made it great
His company. As long as I have one person to be with, I'm content.
>what changed
He moved and introversion hit me harder than black Tuesday. Still affecting my 3 years later.
>>28360613
that sounds so great, a beta and chad friendship...did you at least get his contact?
>>28360564
Holy fuck that pan con queso guy is awesome.
Like, he's a god at this piano thing.
>>28360691
oh, he's using a bot. everyone does these days.
>happiest time
A few years ago I had a circle of people that helped me cope with my depression
>what made it great
I had friends that I could talk to day and night, I was never alone, I could write with them all day, talk with them all night. Even though I was horribly depressed at that time , still am now so that hasn't changed, life was less shit having people around you that understood you and that you could talk to
>what changed
Some died, some didn't make it, some just left.
But in general people changed, I didn't.
>>28360644
Ofc. We were friends for 4-5 years. We don't talk as much anymore but I'm gonna visit him soon.
>>28360714
>>28360691
also, look up synthesia death waltz on youtube, one of my old friends on there could actually play it without a bot on the fucking qwerty i perfect tune.
>>28360731
>people changed, i didn't
fucking this. I just didn't want things to end. I tried to get everyone back together and nobody really wanted to after a while..I'm like some childish memory to some of them now..I don't want to be..I just want to go back. Just for a day. Just be with those people, and smile, and just fucking be me again.
I had the privilege to attend one of the most prestigious boarding schools in the United States. It was small, but we had chefs who would prepare whatever we wanted for breakfast within reason. Everything went to hell after hs though.
>>28359266
Being 9 and playing the original spyro trilogy on the ps1.
>>28360822
I'm crying because of this. Fuck you anon. I didn't ask for these feels. I didn't ask for any of this. I want to go back. I want to be happy again. Just for a few minutes. I just want to be with them again..
Now I am nothing more than a fading childish memory to most of them.
We said we would be forever. Who would've guessed forever can be such a short time?
>>28360875
oh man, i remember this...
>>28360956
Well, we're both crying now. I guess that makes it a little better, doesn't it? the fact that there are some people out there, no matter how far, who you can still cry with? I'd rather sit here and cry knowing I feel something than be some numb piece of shit who didn't feel anything anymore.
Never stop crying anon, it's the only thing that keeps the memory going.
>>28361004
The worst part of it is that I am exactly this piece of shit that is just numb. This is the first time I am crying in a fucking long time..
Right now, lads.
I have stopped caring what normalfags think. I don't want anything they can stop me from having. No desire for sex, for friendship, no career ambition, no desire to be loved or accepted by them. I've been NEET for two years now and have never been more relaxed in my life. My sister's boyfriend might be able to land me a comfy, easy and well-paying job that would involve zero social contact. I'm exercising 3 hours daily and feel fantastic for it. I'm progressing in all of my hobbies.
I can only imagine becoming smugger and happier as time goes on now.
>>28361157
well then you aren't numb, anon. Just..almost. But you still have a chance. You have to hold on, man. It's not worth leaving feelings behind. I let some things just bottle and now I look back and feel nothing, it's one of my greatest regrets. I want to feel everything I once felt, because maybe then it could lead back to happiness.
Please, for my sake and yours, don't just let it all go. I swear the pain is better than nothing.
life was never been happy for someone who lives in hatred like me.
>>28360198
>>28360252
Yall have the right atittude. Who gives a crap about being friendzoned if you still have a friend at all?
A lot of us are jealous of that.
t. friendless kissless virgin
>>28361215
My problem is that I am almost at that point. I haven't cried in literally years, I don't feel anything throughout the day, literally nothing seems to affect me on an emotional level. When I look back I know that I should feel happy or sad about it but I don't. But just your few words made me break down, I can't stop crying right now. I hate what I have become.
>>28359266
i guess back in highschool when i play vidya all night with some "friends" (after o graduate i realize they were just
acquaintances) fuck my life is so fucking boring
>>28361284
Try going to chatrooms and shit anon. I know a good irc and a nice instant messaging place if that helps. Online friends are really nice.
>>28361180
What excercise do you do?
Tell me it isn't lifting.
>>28359631
I know what you mean. I always get excited and think things are gonna get better for some reason, but then I don't change anything about myself so of course I just end up in the same spot feeling sad
>>28361369
Nah, no way. I do sprinting, free body exercises (callisthenics stuff), gymnastics, parkour, swimming and just random jumping and climbing over obstacles I find while walking. Then stretching for flexibility.
I've never actually lifted a weight. Not interesting in bulking.
>>28360875
That reminds me.
Mine happiest time was probably playing Halo 1 for PC. Got pretty good and starting pushing people's shit in. While morons were fumbling around trapped in our base by spawnkilling tankwhores, I sniped em with my pistol til they fucked off.
Or maybe the first time I got drunk. It felt really, really good. Had a company party at a bar, and everyone gave me shit for being a fag who lives with mom at 23 who doesn't drink or smoke. They got me drunk, and took a pic of me humping a statue of a bull, and the boss took a piss in the parking lot in front of us.
A good bonding moment for the company.
>happiest time
The first months of my first year at uni
>why?
made loads new friends, starting going to societies and events, managed work well - hell, I was even seeing someone for a time
>what changed?
I started to slip in terms of sustaining friendships. I'm fine with socializing, but I'm just bad at keeping socializing going just for the hell of it. I wasn't involved in societies to the point where I was fully integrated - so I was outside the clique. I knew a few people, but was never wholly in the group. I chickened out of seeing that guy because I'm a coward; another guy I was interested in turned out to be a douche; I stopped going out. Stopped hanging out and talking to my friends because of the effort plus I was jealous of how much they achieved through the society (it's a music society so all the events are shared to everyone). Soon I lost all motivation and passion to do anything - I turn up to only half my lectures, my quality of work is bombing, my music is getting worse as the year goes on.
I used to be confident, I used to like myself. used to go out and socialize almost every day in one form or another - gigs, coffee, bars, pubs, clubs whatever. Now I'm back to being a shut in browsing 4chins and watching shitty YouTube blogs about redpilling and pseudo philosophy and hating myself.
yay
>>28361499
A true free spirit.
Reminds me of the days when I still rode a skateboard around town not giving a fuck. I couldn't do the jump but it felt free.
Well continue what you're doing man.
High school. It was the only place I had forced interaction and was able to find losers like me to talk about video games and stupid shit with.
Also, easy workload, no debt, no rent, no expenses, no stress, no worrying about the future, acceptable to be a virgin and sperg around other people, etc
>>28360822
>people changed, i didn't
That's how it was for me. I went out of state for school, and every time I came back for winter and summer break I had less friends. Most had moved on and just lost interest in the things we did in school. Now I have no interest in going home
>>28361984
well i mean, it's better that you don't have baggage following you when you're away from home. probably gives a bit of freedom. That's no to say it's worth losing people of course, it's a horrible feeling.
>>28360875
shit dude this is powerful
i haven't even played the game and i get feels from this
Vanilla WoW was a good time too desu senpai desu familia.
We even got it back with the Nostalrius reboot, it was so fucking comfy to be able to goof around in a vanilla arena again. Too bad it only lasted a year before Blizz sued.
when i left the rehab place. i got into a car accident almost three years ago. the rehab place was all full of old people they blocked here and porn websites. all i could do is watch tv when i wasn['t in pt. when i got home i was able to eat great food and play my video games. i still can't walk and lost my "friends"
High school was pretty good. I had a fun part-time job, my own cheap car, some disposable income, a small handful of close friends, and lived in a super comfy, beautiful rural area where everyone was friendly and there was a sense of community.
>what changed?
I moved out at 18 to the big city and proceeded to slip into total degeneracy and almost immediately permanently fuck my whole life up to a laughable degree
TRUMP 2016
originalblox
When I was about 15
I somehow got a girlfriend. She was chubby and into scene metal while I was more into Death Metal. It was my first and only relationship.
We got out hands on cheap alcohol despite being underaged and got drunk together. We made out for hours and spent the full day just holding each other. I was genuinely happy.
Within 2 months she falsely accused me of sexual assault. I still have trust issues to this day, and haven't gotten involved with Women since.
