I think I need help guys.
I have a huge problem with nofap, it makes me 100 times hornier, it makes me go from straight to huge sissy bitch, even when not watching any porn I just start craving cocks viciously, I finger myself, I look for anything in the house that I could fuck myself with...
Imo fapping keeps my head clean and stop me from doing stupid shit (like posting ads on craigslist offering my ass to the first stranger replying to me).
Im 25 and I thought all my life since 9 when my libido started going crazy that my faggot self would somehow disappearing but the hornier I get over the years, the most fucked up things I end up doing. I spent like 400$ in dildos from amazon, riding them for a few weeks then throwing them away because I would be ashamed of being such a fag, then a few months later it would grow on me again...
Yeah I think I have a serious issue.
I think I just like abusing myself sexually, that's fucked up
Yeah my faggotry has gotten pretty bad too.
I'm starting to embrace it though, kinda fun not giving a fuck about woman anymore. Just don't hook up with randoms for sex, that's filthy.
Just embrace it anon and lock yourself up in chastity. Then you can become the cock loving sissy your bodys telling you to be
>>28351182
Have you done anything with another man?
Like I would gladly give my ass or suck a cock dry but kissing and getting a bf in general doesn't interest me in the least. But yeah I haven't done anything with a dude yet, worst was recording and uploading myself riding a dildo on xtube, ended up deleting my account 3 days later.
>>28351230
Never. I've thought about it, but decided that if I am gonna do it, its gotta be with a guy I like, and that doesn't happen very often since I only like feminine guys. So I just accept that I'm bi-curious but unlikely to act on it and fap to gay porn as much as I like.
>>28350936
>nofap
>i finger myself
So you masturbate. Thats not nofap.
>>28351229
>been on nofap for about a week
>balls have been aching
shit is distracting and annoying
>>28350936
same, op. I think my low-point was 1-2 days puts me into brainless dick craving sissy mode, but I've recovered back up to about week+ long build/release cycles.Here are my experiences/tips for reaching that.
Nofap is definitely directly connected to "sissy-mode."
Being shaved all over, while cute, will make your everything more easily stimulated. letting your body hair grow out adds padding to lessen casual stimulation.
Never ever post on craigslist.
You will always feel like shit once you get into the downswing.If you naturally happen to meet a qt to be a fag with, great, but don't go out of your way. it's just too jarring.
I've personally managed to dodge the bullet that is meeting up with anyone, but really only due to having unrealistically high standards.
I personally found browsing craigslist is the exhilarating part, the personal involvement adrenaline/stakes I think is what makes it so tempting.
I'm not sure instruction audio files are a direct replacement for that RL rush, but my faggotry has leveled out since I got into those, so give audio only JOI/HFO a try. It's a nice mix of personal and impersonal, lets you feed that submissive part of yourself without actually being submissive to anyone other than your own brain.
in general, just act out your faggotry in a substantive, but private way every so often when the urges get unmanageable.
I find my faggotry gets weaker in intensity after doing some kind of big blowout, so I burn out on being a mega-fag for a while.
Last thing I did was buy some stockings online, took like 25+ cute pics of me wearing them, and never posted them.
The sheer amount of effort it takes to fully shave everything below your waste will deter you from doing it again anytime soon, and when you start to get hornier you'll remember that you did a cute thing, which will making it more satisfying to fap a bit until disgusted or preferably ambivalent that you did the blowout action, because it's secret.
It's been a while since I've been on 4chan, but immediately I get something super relatable that I wouldn't see anywhere else.
>>28351997
Thanks for sharing your experience anon.
How do you spend 400 dollars on dildos?
What's the point of nofap if you're a homosexual? Generally the point of no fap is to become less degenerate in your tastes, but if you're naturally inclined to want to be fucked by a dude then that's not a degeneracy that nofap can cure. Probably can help for guys who want to fap traps or shemales though, since most of them are just prison gay. The real gay test is if you want to suck a dick. A straight guy might lower himself to fucking a feminine male in the ass, or getting a blowjob from him. But a straight man would get absolutely nothing out of sucking a dick.
>>28352118
40-50$ a dildo, I only buy somewhat good quality, tgen throwing them away and ordering a new one... it adds up.
>>28352120
Its still annoying. I hate this idea that just because you're gay you have to be a faggot, its just a impulse, you're still allowed to have an opinion on it rather than embrace the degeneracy.
I don't mind liking cute guys, but the sissy shit is bad because nothing good can come out of it.
>>28352074
<3
embrace the faggot within you, make it submit, and only loyal to you.
>>28352228
I hope he doesn't think he fooled anyone with those skinny boy legs.
I love traps but boy are they obvious.
>>28352120
I would pay money to live on my own and suck dick every day :|
Weirdly enough, I only have this inclination if I'm feeling cute, petite, effeminate, etc.
As a guy, sucking a dick is fucking gross. As a cock-hungry slut, sucking a dick and getting ass-raped is my sole function.
>>28352120
What if you start to get desperate and willing to settle for a female even though you'd be much happier with a male?
>>28352306
This.
>No ass
>no hips
>scrawny gross legs
You're either trap material or you're not.
Also, OP, you faggot, just do what arouses you. You're already human scum for visiting and posting on /r9k/.
>>28352306
Well, at least he has a decently sized dick.
>>28352378
Yeah I'd suck that donger.
>>28352120
>doesn't get sexual pleasure from stimulating partner unless his dick is involved
there's a reason society calls self centered people "dicks"
>>28352436
Thats a shoop
can't fool me, I've been in the trap game for a long time.
>>28352306
oh most def.
I actually think this one does the neat little ass trick of stick out your asshole, arching your spine and thighs forward to create an almost-hips like curve, but when you stretch out flat, like when this one flips forward, it's blatantly obvious even without the dick.
>>28352378
nice sized for non-monster cocks. speaking of monster cocks.
>>28352460
yeah I'm always suspicious of this one. looks kinda like miley cyrus. haven't bothered chopping it up and googling the pieces to confirm though. lemme know if you find out one way or the other.
>>28352436
You missed my point entirely you silly homo. If a guy eats pussy or sucks dick, he is getting no PHYSICAL pleasure and can only be turned on by the MENTAL pleasure of making his object of sexual desire feel good. A gay man has no motivation to eat pussy, a straight man has no motivation to suck dick. A closeted gay could still have good physical sensations from his dick in vagina, a desperate straight could still feel good from putting his cock in boypussy.
>>28352538
Speaking of it...
>>28350936
Its good to know I'm not alone with this shit.
Last time I tried nofap, I ended up going further with sissy/feminization degeneracy than ever before lol
But I recognize it all just addiction and a fetish gone too far, kinda. I've been into sissy hypno videos and erotic hypnosis for like 5 years so..
Actually its kinda scaring me because I used to use nofap to kinda reset my sexuality in a way, because after 3-4 days of it I can fap to normal vanilla porn and nude women again but inevitably end up back to the same old sissy feminization and forced bi etc stuff.
>>28350936
>buying dildos/girl clothes and then purging
Yeah thats a thing with this fetish, don't know why but at some point you stop doing that shit because you come to accept it more as just a fetish you like to delve into sometimes and its ridiculous to lie to yourself and keep throwing your money away kn items you purchased then discarded in a week, until you feel horny enough to want them again.
I kinda learned to stop doing that (though I don't have a dildo but really want one from Amazon) and stop reacting to the way I feel towards this stuff during the refractory period, just kinda accept it in a way but as a fetish gone too far I guess. In the long run you will lose less money and feel less stupid if immediately after cumming and losing the urge and lust you were consumed with before, if you put everything away and leave it be and resume your normal life until you inevitably, without a doubt feel horny again.
I would never go so far as to want to act out these sissy hypno fantasies (no matter how much I may fantasize about it) IRL though, its just something I like to do in private.
Honestly the thought and idea of taking it further, getting chastity and dildo and only cumming from anal etc etc like all your sissy hypno keep telling you to do, is hot as fuck but you kinda gotta recognize where to draw the line between fantasy and reality i think.
This fetish is really complicated
>>28352688
cuuuuute, shame it's so dark.
Jesus is always watching, friends~
>>28353099
Jesus, what a naughty boy.
>>itt: closeted bisexuals
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNak7H4Bizw
>>28353031
Yeah this guy gets it.
That being said, I've stopped throwing away my dildos and plugs and keep them concealed somewhere in case I feel the need, so that's kind of an improvement.
The lust for a real cock can be really tough to quench though, and sometimes I feel like I'm missing out.
>>28353176
lol so?
closet shaming is so silly, everyone has a right to their privacy
>>28350936
is the possibility of being bi that terrifying to you?
is it beyond your comprehension that maybe you might like dudes and ladies at the same time??
get on grindr and go outside your comfort zone for once you fucking autist
>>28353031
well put, these are great management practices.
where do you anons get dildos/plugs anyways?
I'm a little hesitant to go to the RL toy shop by myself, never quite mustered up the courage. If that's definitely the way to go as opposed to online I'll probably go sometime this weekend, I've been dying for a plug and play passive stimulation lately.
>>28353266
>get on grindr
>find literally no one attractive
That's the problem, we're just not attracted to real men.
>>28353369
Just order one from Amazon dood. None of that JellyDong stuff though, it's porous and they can melt when they come in contact with lube sometimes. What you want is a good medical grade silicone. They're not too expensive, plus you very good quality.
>>28353369
I really want to buy a dildo on amazon, through amazon locker so I can pick it up and not worry about it being seen by who lives with mejust like I did with my grll clothes, but I'm really worried about the dildo being discovered somehow despite having a spot for it that I think is safe, I would be more embarrassed about that than having the few girl clothes I bought being found desu but I don't want either to be found obviously since its just for fetish purposes and not a lifestyle but no one else will understand that and it would forever be awkward
But yeah like an anon said in this thread, this is something that turns me on incredibly thanks to all the porn and the conditioning over years and I can be incredibly into it and all browsing the porn but the moment I fap it all disappears and I lose the urge to do or fap to any of it but know that the urge will be back so kind of passively accept it and not get mad and all that ashamed anymore after fapping.
But the thing is that I kinda feel it growing more and more (especially after 5 years of sissy hypno/porn addiction) and even with no-fap its becoming harder to stop to the point that I'll fap to this stuff for weeks imagining all sorts of lewd scenarios and drowning in porn until one day I'm absolutely sick of it and not feeling it, and thats when I'll naturally start to do the nofap and no porn, but of course that break from the porn makes it all much more hotter like OP said and now it just ends up with me edging to the sissy porn until I give in after like a week and fap and then start that cycle of fapping till sick of it all over again
Honestly at this point I don't mind the progression of this fetish from 2D traps and futa to 3D shemales and traps to 3D femboys and even muscular guys, its hot as fuck and think cock would be really nice to suck but I don't ever want to do it IRL and I'd like to keep my lust and libido under control but its so hard..
>>28353557
get a false bottom box and put bank statements on the top layer, sexy stuff on the bottom, under lock and key. If anyone gets into the box they'd obviously know what was really in it, but if you just squirrel away all your banking/personal savings in a box people will write it off as mild paranoia if they ever notice the box.
I feel like so much of cock-lust would be alleviated if we truly suck our own dicks, like deep throat level. stupid spine, i blame you for not letting me fulfill my cock gargling desires.
>>28353738
>I feel like so much of cock-lust would be alleviated if we truly suck our own dicks, like deep throat level. stupid spine, i blame you for not letting me fulfill my cock gargling desires.
God yes, I wish I could do it but I will never be able to, that would probably satisfy a lot of my cock lust. Cock lust that I never fucking even had before getting hooked on porn, but now porn has pretty much made me bi and I don't care anymore, I can feel the cock lust growing and idk what to do, thats why I want a dildo because sucking off bananas when no ones home gets messy and people might get suspicious too lol.
I fucking hate porn for giving me this cock lust but also love it for that, its so weird. I don't want to to act out any of the stuff I fap to for hours in porn IRL but I find the idea of doing that so fucking hot.
I've decided to try and master lucid dreaming to act out all my sissy feminization and cock sucking bi fantasies in a safe and private manner but I'm too addicted to the porn to stop fapping and learn/practice lucid dreaming techniques in the first place!
Fuck!
I started NoFap the 1st of the first of this month after about two month of not being able to be satisfied sexually at all. I masturbated and came but that's it, it felt good, but I didn't felt pleasure, I didn't felt satisfied. So I said fuck it and decided to NoFap to see how it went.
Yesterday was horrible, I edged myself for about 5 hours and was about to cum when I realized what I was doing and hurried my ass up to take a super cold shower. My balls ached for a few hours afterwards on top of them getting huge. It was horrible.
I've never felt this sexually frustrated ever in my life. The worst part is that I've been getting massive crossdressing urges lately, the type I've not had since I was a horny teenager who was barely just discovering that masturbating felt good and doing it while wearing my mom's clothes felt even better. I get unbearably horny just from seeing a woman wearing pretty clothes and imagining myself wearing them. I've even had thoughts of hormones just to satisfy my fetish even more.
That I'm unable to satisfy on those urges for a plethora of reasons is killing me inside. Fuck.
>>28350936
this doesn't happen to you
you're making a thinly veiled fetish thread and you sicken me
>>28353938
don't do hormones.
hormones are for identity crisis, not fetishes. don't ruin your well-functioning body, it will not impact your sex life, personally or externally, positively.
literally just straight up give up on that idea unless you can't look at yourself in the mirror and say "meh"
>>28353983
I know. Trust me, I've investigated them extensively because of that.I don't have the means nor the resources to do and I wouldn't pass anyway.I'd just me making me more feminine but that's about it. I don't hold delusions of becoming a girl or wanting to present myself as one.
>>28353938
>That I'm unable to satisfy on those urges for a plethora of reasons is killing me inside.
Same kinda, like porn and fantasy and imagintion will only go so far, thats why I want to lucid dream like I said here >>28353799 so I can act out all my wildest fantasies without fucking up my body anymore IRL and being discovered or whatever.
It seems the safest bet for those of us addicted to this sissy fetish but with no desire to act it out IRL but with a huge desire to act it out IRL and take it further if you get what I mean.
>>28354155
The feeling of nylons slipping over not shaven legs feels like hell.
At my old job I wore black pantyhose instead of nude color on days where I had leg stubble or bad razor burn.
>>28354155
>It seems the safest bet for those of us addicted to this sissy fetish but with no desire to act it out IRL but with a huge desire to act it out IRL and take it further if you get what I mean.
I feel you friend.
I'm rather picky about my sissy stuff actually. I'm more on the feminized/sissified and dominated by another lady and become her maid or sissy daughter. I don't care much about "real man" and the only way I can honestly get interested on dicks is on the dick of another sissy or when my lady would be fucking me with a strap-on or making me to suck on it. Despite how much I've fallen on this, I've still not become attracted to men, cuckholding crap or BBC stuff either. That's way over the line for me and even disgusting.
>>28354226
Feels so smooth and heavenly on your legs when you do shave though, but its such a pain in the ass to shave, especially since I hate my body hair so much I wish I could be totally smooth and not feel an iota of any stubble anywhere, just like I wish I could grow my hair out down to my shoulders just to see what it looks like, because I love growing it down the neck already, but afraid to do that because other people and my parents might suspect things which I don't want them to.
>>28354265
>I can honestly get interested on dicks is on the dick of another sissy or when my lady would be fucking me with a strap-on or making me to suck on it. Despite how much I've fallen on this, I've still not become attracted to men, cuckholding crap or BBC stuff either. That's way over the line for me and even disgusting
Thats just the natural progression of porn addiction. The worse is when you do no fap but can't get the thoughts out of your head and they become even stronger like OP said.
But yeah cuckholding at least I will never understand or fap to, BBC depends on how deep I am in porn binge, attraction to men varies depending on mood and again how deep into the porn binge, the longer I've been watching and fapping daily the more I'm into that stuff. But I think I've been permanently into femboys and 3D traps now... but again not IRL, only because I don't have a chance with any girl IRL just like I won't have a chance with any trap or femboy because reasons, but also because when it comes to the latter its all part of the fetish and fantasy that I don't think I would be able to sustain attraction to when it comes to real life, unlike with girls, but as I said I have no chance with either IRL so it doesn't really matter what I fap to in a way.
That's how I've rationalized it at least.
Biggest problem is libido, no matter how much I am fine with the porn I fap to I can't stop when I want to and have to overload myself with porn to get a break for a bit....
>>28350936
>>28351997
Have you ever felt that you were born this way? No joke I crossdressed since childhood. started with stockings, and escalated to it's peak during puberty.
I tried to become a trap, taking estrogenic herbs, hormones, feeling my body getting more feminine and sensitive, wearing panties and female clothing OUTSIDE, looking like a woman even attracting other men gave me the biggest sexual high I could hardly get living as a "normal" male.
I've gone cold turkey now because it impacted my life so much. But flip switches are still there. Maybe limiting my internet use and going outside more will help.
>>28354440
Just wax it all friend. It's somewhat painful and time consuming but there's no better option. The only thing that gets closer is epilation.
Or just save up for electrolysis. It's better in the long run.
Fetishes are surprisingly expensive when you think about it. Just think of how much one would end up expending on clothes for this.
>>28354440
>Thats just the natural progression of porn addiction.
I've pretty much been attracted to crossdressing, IRL crossdressers and transexuals and the such before I even knew what they were called or what they actually were. If I've not gotten hungry for buff muscle male cock in 23 years I doubt I'll start falling for them now. Still, who knows.
If I managed to get myself a partner, either a female or a transexual/trap/another crossdresser with which I could get into the fetish together and fulfill it IRL I wouldn't give it a second view. I'd dive in completely until I drown. But as you said, chances are extremely slim.
>Biggest problem is libido, no matter how much I am fine with the porn I fap to I can't stop when I want to and have to overload myself with porn to get a break for a bit....
This so much. Fuck. Just look at what I did yesterday myself. It never ends no matter how much one says no no and no. One always go back and wants more and even end up sexualizing the guilt feelings one feels after one cums and just makes you even harder and making you go for even more.
>>28354510
Not those anons but for me there was no attraction to and no desire to crossdress or do any of that gay stuff before discovering 4chan and internet porn.
Thats the only reason why I'm able to sort of keep this in check kinda even when in the throes of total lust because I know its all due to porn addiction not as a result of natural attraction, but its been going on so long the line between that has blurred.
But if I do no-fap at least for a little while then I will start to get boners to simple pics of nude women again without anything extra if you know what I mean, needed on them. But inevitably will end up fapping to the same shit again if I don't catch myself breaking the no-fap mindset.
I want to go cold turkey and use sheer willpower to suppress my libido but it never works, and sometimes it even backfires and I end up deeper into this stuff, deeper in lust, ugh its so weird.
>>28354864
>porn addiction
The slippery slope is real. I look back and wondered how the heck I got into gay porn. I had such disdain for them from my traditional background.
Other than crossdressing I think it all started with hentai, hentai has every single fetish ever, tentacles, futanari, traps, etc, then I discovered thai ladyboys and traps irl. It didn't help me to seek out real life relationships, there was part of me that felt dirty and perverted, sinful. Realizing it was just how humans are helped, they like sex, sometimes too much.
>I'm able to sort of keep this in check kinda even when in the throes of total lust because I know its all due to porn addiction
What keeps mine in check is that if I were to live as q.t. trap femboy my life would be more complicated. I've seen lgbt culture even visited some clubs, it made me feel uncomfortable. The only take away is seeing how the queer half lives, their quirks, the weirdos, and getting close to having a gf ironically.
>>28355116
That's the trick. If you wanna become a cute trap femboy then do it. But don't make it your identity like your average lgbt-person does. Don't make your life revolve around it and make it the only thing that identifies you as a person. Be not just a cute trap femboy but someone who also is a cute trap femboy.
And of course, avoid those communities like a plague. Just because you enjoy something doesn't mean you have to become involved with the fanbase of that something.
>>28354672
>Fetishes are surprisingly expensive when you think about it. Just think of how much one would end up expending on clothes for this.
Exactly which is why I rather lucid dream and act out my fetishes there while looking normal and everything IRL because that would satisfy me just as much if not moreso than changing things around in real life to better act out my fetish, which I have done before and doesn't always end well or can be a pain in the ass, and makes you feel weird when you have no desire to fap.
>>28355217
>>28355116
It all started with /d/ for me and escalated from there to 3D stuff on /b/ and then I discovered erotic hypnosis, then sissy trainer videos, then all those sissy tumblrs...
It doesnt help that for a socially awkward person, one who likes to avoid social contact and situations and probably has no chance with a girl let alone a trap or anyone else in that matter in real life without sperging out talking to them, this fetish is really a pain for that matter, because to take it further requires social contact and thats the one thing I want to avoid so I act out as much as I can of it in my fantasies or through porn but really if I could lucid dream I would probably be set and not deal with exposing myself IRL in anyway and keep it a strictly private affair.
>>28355217
>Be not just a cute trap femboy but someone who also is a cute trap femboy.
>tfw can't be either because too masculine looking and sounding and barely look like a somewhat femboy from some odd angle when I do grow my hair out a bit longer
its suffering
I lost my dress and panties when I moved, any recommendations on what to buy now that I'm here
I know some of (you) in this have to have this gif of this cute femboy swinging his big dick left and right. Post in plz.
I hate when I dont particularly feel like fapping but then browsing 4chan see an imagine that makes me want to fap and end up fapping a bit and then looking for more images to fap too out of habit and before I know it I've been edging for hour, came and feel like shit, mentally and physically.
Fapping is keeping my urges in check, when I regularly masturbate I only fap to high test stuff and when I haven't fapped in a long time at some point I will just blow a load fapping to trap stuff. Thankfully not to NTR or being a bottom myself.
>>28355732
is this wat u want bby?
>>28355732
lol rayray?
>>28357501
>>28357564
>Those manfaces
Disgusting.
>>28357921
>Disgusting
>post in thread anyway
Soon you'll learn to like cute boys.
>>28358770
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