>studying for personality psychology final
>get to the part about sexuality
>all of this gross shit that I have to read that makes my skin crawl
>begin to feel like shit because I realize that I'm a broken person
Anyone else know this feel? Drives me up a fucking wall.
it's literally just sour grapes and you're trying to convince yourself it's gross so you don't feel bad about yourself
hope that helps
>>28339735
But see that's actually physically disgusting to me. I don't understand why all anyone talks about is sex. It's just so foreign to me. I've had opportunities, I just never act on them because I have no interest. Same goes for emotional dependency. It's just degrading to me.
>>28339917
Sounds like you're asexual.
>>28339699
maybe you just have a healthy sense of disgust because of the way people treat sex today.
people act like it's just a hobby, while they spread disease, have unwanted children, emotional issues afterwards, etc.
>>28340015
See that's what I thought too, but I've also heard that they don't give a fuck about sexuality so they don't really get hung up about it. I'm actively repulsed so I assume that there's something wrong with me. I know I'm not the only sexually dysfunctional person here so I was wondering if I could get some insight from people who feel the same way.
>>28339699
I kind of feel the same way but I was molested as a kid
same senpai
and ive had sex
never really liked it
>>28340087
I have an asexual friend. He is very repulsed by sexuality.
>>28340087
There's definitely something wrong with you if you actually feel sick from reading about sexuality in a scientific context. It's as bad as someone giggling about the word "penis" in an anatomy class.
>>28340120
reeee fucking normies, just get out of this board
>>28340189
See that's what I've heard from most people. But I don't have some sort of sob story or anything. I was never molested or anything like >>28340090. I've just always felt this way.
Same here. Thinking about the act fills me with envy and sadness, which makes me think of myself in a sexual situation, which always brings anxiety at the idea of intimacy.
>>28339699
I am afraid of physical contact and have turned down sex because of it. couldn't get it now because I've let myself go, but I used to be capable of getting laid but found the thought of doing it disgusting, same with kissing. now I'm a 31 year old HKV.
I do have a sex drive and watch porn, but can't ever see myself being able to do it. so, I'm not asexual, just something broken.
I wish. I think sex is degeneracy but I want it, it tears me apart.
>>28340425
you probably shun it as "degeneracy" because you can't get any
>tfw chronic anxiety and stress has killed my sex drive
>tfw can't maintain erection for fapping anymore
Fucking ED at 22. Kill me
>>28340312
Were your parents emotionally distant? Or something else from your past that shapes your current view of sex?
>>28340544
Well my parents were separated for most of my childhood. They eventually got back together when I was a bit older, but neither of them were particularly distant to me during that time and I have a decent relationship with both of them.
paid for sex once, didn't really think it was all that great. paid for it a second time, with a really hot woman, thought it was okay.
i don't think it'll ever be enough to pull me away from doing other things tho. maybe if i was chad and women threw themselves at me, i would go slightly out of my way, but i'm too ugly for that option.
at the end of the day though, i just want a GF to im not so lonely, but the thought of being with a person almost 24/7 seems exhausting.
>>28340486
Anyone can get sex. It's hard to deprogram though. I'm American and it wasn't until 22 that I even started getting comfortable with the idea of sex. Christianity will do a number on you. I lost my oneitis because I wouldn't fuck her. It remains the biggest regret of my life.
My case is fucking weird, I figure.
I have no interest in sex, but I look at porn of women with big boobs, and I hate my sexual urges and I hate masturbating and I want all of it to just stop because it disgusts me, but I still manage to do it daily with a sort of tired "Let's just get this over with" mentality, and the entire time before, during, and after, I'm just telling myself that all I want is love and that I don't want to think about sex at all.
If I ever did manage to find a girl who would be interested in me enough to be my girlfriend, what would that situation even be like? I can't even imagine it. I don't want sex, but I have sexual urges, but I'm sick of those sexual urges, but I still act on them and feel the lust and longing anyway. I have no idea how either of us would deal with that.
I will always be alone. It's for the best.
>>28340801
Sorry, this was really fucking incoherent, I just can't get this shit out of my head and it's killing me.
>>28340801
No I totally get what you're saying. It sounds sort of similar to how I feel, I just don't want love or sex. Like I understand the frustration because I just feel like there's something incredibly wrong with me that I just cannot pinpoint. I have no clue how to address or identify my issues and it paralyzes me.
I feel really guilty after masturbating. Like I'm disgusted with myself for a good ten minutes afterward,
Some of you might just be addicted to masturbating or porn, and it's making you feel bad
I have sexual urges, but every time I get close to real sex, I get distracted or I think of excuses to not have sex. I've had sex with girls before, but never actually came from it. The girls always think it's because they're not pretty and end up with their feelings hurt, and I end up disappointed. To avoid that situation, I try to avoid sex.I'm getting married soon to a girl I never had sex with.Help.
>>28341067
Or maybe you're just addicted to shitposting and being wrong. There is no such thing as as porn addiction. You're confusing the symptoms for the disease. Nofap cultists are fucked in the head. The meme has been around how many years now? Don't you wonder why there's no research in any urology journal by now? If it had any merit there would be at least one supporting study by now.
>>28341131
>getting married
With all that you just said I have to ask, why?
Seriously, how does that even happen?
>>28340801
It's funny because many guys on here I've spoken to say that love isn't real and all they want is sex, with fuck buddies at most. I could not even imagine thinking like that, but it is probably the best way to go these days.
>>28341163
She works a job where she's away a lot. When she's here, let's just say I got good at making excuses. We cuddle and make out and everything, but she's starting to wonder why I haven't given her the D yet.
>>28341241
No I meant how the fuck did it even get to marriage? Is it arranged or something? Why would you ask her to marry you/agree to marry her if you understand all this stuff about yourself already?
>>28340801
>just stop because it disgusts me
WTF? Grow up nigger. You're just masturbating.
>>28341300
Because I really didn't think it through and I'm hoping the problem will magically solve itself
>>28341418
Sorry to say but either you have to drop her or get comfortable with sex real fucking quick because if you do get married and you can't deal then she gets free legal reign to absolutely fuck you over sideways. My advice is to bail out now and if she asks just be honest with her so she'll back off.
Sex is disgustin anon, but that's the beauty of it
Sweet running down our bodies, feeling her jucies leak onto your pelvis and you slam her and slam her.
We're animals
I'm disgusted, but it's not by sex or by women, it's by myself. I can't stand the thought of subjecting women to how disgusting I am. Even when women show interest I avoid it, thinking that they're somehow deluded about what I look like under my clothes. I felt this way even when I was /fit/ back in the day, too.
>>28341588
Why do you come to this board if you're such a normie?
>>28341204
It makes me feel even more alone when /r9k/ is so clogged with all these threads about sex and virginity and I just don't care about it at all, and I'm always so disgusted by it and it feels like a sick joke because this is the only place I feel I can come to to talk to people that I can relate to, and yet I still feel so far away.
It's hard for me to fathom that sex could matter so fucking much to everyone when what seems blindingly obvious is that the personality of another person should come first, the kinds of connections you have with them.
>>28341336
You don't think it's incredibly fucking frustrating to not only waste hours of your time thinking about and obsessing over that kind of shit when you could and much rather would be doing something else, but also being a slave to these stupid intrusive thoughts and animalistic desires and not being able to stop yourself from giving into them every single day of your life over and over?
You can't seriously be brain dead enough to not see how one could find that disgusting. Of course if you like masturbating and it doesn't bother you I have no problem with it, it's not even the act of masturbating that is at all bad, it's that I can't escape these thoughts that I don't want.
>>28341588
Yeah that's not beautiful to me. That's disgusting. Not to sound condescending or anything that's just how I see it.
We're built for sex. The purpose of our mediocre brains is to walk around carrying our reproductive organs from place to place maximizing our chances of mating with genetically diverse reproductive organs of the opposite sex.
Everything we do is to fuck. College? It's to meet potential mates. Law degree, Ph.D. or md? A way to maximize our mating potential.
We're built for sex physically and mentally. Children are a side effect of this, not the main purpose.
So yeah you're flawed. Get your face in a nice stinky pussy and start licking.
>>28339917
Yeah, you're broken. You miss the purpose of life.
>>28341983
Says who? We're not built for shit. It's all random. We could just as well be stars. Are stars built for twinkling like a diamond is the sky? No, stars are stars. If we have a purpose I'd rather subscribe to creationist belief, we're here because God thought it would be cool. Otherwise I like the taoist shit. We're here because we're here.
>>28341983
>>28342007
Yeah that just makes me want to barf. The physical human body just disgusts me. Like it's just a warm walking sack of meat, shit, piss, and bile. People say shit like "oh her pretty eyes" or something. When I look at people's eyes I have the same reaction of seeing a cow's eye that you're supposed to dissect. Everyone just seems like a moving cadaver to me, it's just disgusting. It's even worse because I feel this way about myself and I can't look into the mirror because I feel like I'm just seeing a bag of guts and shit. The physical world just doesn't jive with me at all.
>>28341983
>Children are a side effect of this
children are literally the entire reason we're programmed for sex, boyo. propagation is the most basic purpose of life.
>>28342239
might as well just kill yourself and transcend the physical form
>>28342293
>propagation
you mean procreation
>>28342377
tried three times fampie. Guns are hard.
>>28342420
Most life forms don't utilize sexual reproduction, fampai.
Procreation is propagation. Propagation isn't necessarily procreation.
>>28342239
Reminds me of the weirdest mushroom trip I had. I was laying there waiting for it to kick in, lights off, music on, room cold. I get bored so I start having sex. Like 30 seconds in and it hits we. I'm cut so sex isn't pleasurable to begin with but it's like my dicks sensitivity was cranked up to 11. I could feel every little detail of her, not erotic in the least, the sensation felt much like palpating with my fingers to explore a texture. Time dilation is a thing so I won't even estimate how long this went on. I went to the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror a bit in the dark, this went on a long time. Everything felt so weird and alien. She calls me back and said she missed me and was worried. I just look at her like I would a cadaver or maybe a piece equipment. At this point she appeared crystalline and I connected the facets and just looked at her. There was no love, attachment, on any emotions at all in particular beyond a detached curiosity. She thought I was being romantic and said she loved me. I was staring at her anatomical landmarks and visualizing where and what her viscera were like. Pretty surreal shit. People always says psys make you feel at one with the universe and lovey dovey. I always feel even more detached. I tried taking higher doses but that just ended it a bad time. That trip was just thinking about how immense the expanse between people are and some solipsism typo shit. Noone gives a shit about anyone, only their perception of them and how they expect them to behave. This is all obvious, hence bucket of crabs and hostility even when changing the way others want but don't expect. Communication is inefficient because of coding and decoding errors, yada yada. I like drugs but most experiences seem just weird or sad. Never dude feels so good, le all is one, or even much zany hallucinations xd. I'm doing something wrong but I like it so I won't change.
I'm not disgusted by it but every time I do have it I have such an emotional disconnection after I come because I have feelings for whoever I'm fucking so I might as well be jacking it. Also, I cannot fuck and not shower shit is exhausting and it pisses me off how physically dirty I feel, worse than after a workout. And If whoever wants to go again I really have no desire to come again and it gets tiresome because it feels like more work.
>>28342786
I don't have feelings*
fuckyoucocksmokingrobotnigger
>>28342786
>t.normie
Fuck off.
>>28342585
Yeah see the difference is that you felt that while high as a kite. I feel that disgust regularly. It's just how I naturally see things. I was originally going to school to be a surgeon, and I had no problem with the gore that usually chokes people up, but I see living human bodies the same way I saw the cadavers. Just bags of gross-out. I see myself the same way. I have no problem with people emotionally, like people's personalities or consciousness I'm fine with. It's just the physical bodies are nasty as all hell.
>>28342920
ib been fund od :DDDDDD
>>28342982
Fair enough. I used to be easily grossed out but just stopped caring. I wouldn't eat or drink after anyone, obsessive handwashing showers, clothes, all that stuff. I still need my routine and tidiness, but I'll eat food left out for a couple days or dropped on the floor no problem. I never felt grossed at myself though, it was always something external and I didn't want it on me. That sounds like an uncomfortable way to be. Is there anything that alleviates the feelings?
>>28341155
why are you being so hostile man? you can get addicted to anything, and masturbating too often/watching too much porn can make you feel bad.
>>28339699
I have a similar feel, only it's not sex that turns me off. Everybody just looks like different flavors of average to me, which isn't a problem physically. However people's personalities disgust me enough that even japanese mutant cartoons would be more attractive.
>>28343481
I guess I just don't understand addiction. I like fapping, it feels good. Why would someone do something if it makes them feel bad? They wouldn't. It's definitely something else.
Tbh sex kinda disgusts me as well
I avoid it and every girl im around thinks of me as a prude...
Its too intimate for me to handle.
I have trust issues and low self confidence from women trying to use me and the only girl ive ever opened up with betrayed me... Ive only had sex with two people and i only "enjoyed" it like 5 times and just grew to not like it. Sometimes I have an urge to fuck but i just jack off and then feel better.
>wanting a mummy GF with no sex drive
>>28343670
Nobody cares, namefag.
Ur mum cares, suck my dick.
>>28343696
Nobody cares, anonfag
>>28343748
eyyyeee
>original comment duse
>>28343412
No nothing ever gets rid of it. Whenever I see myself it just immediately kicks in. It's like when I look at my face I don't see my face, I see the disgusting parts behind it. I just see everything in nasty parts as opposed to whole people.
>>28343630
They feel a craving for it and need to sate it whether or not they enjoy it. That's essentially what addiction is anyway. Not that I have a strong opinion on whether porn addiction exists or not, but I do believe that masturbation can stop feeling good after doing it too much. In cases like that, it's better to ride off the dry spell, no matter what it is.
Let's go with a good ol' food analogy, because those are clearly accurate when compared to a biological need.
>drink a lot of coffee
>don't feel the effect but still like drinking it
>feel like I have to for some reason
>have too much
>feel like shit
>don't drink any for roughly a week
>feels good to drink it again
Of course, if we're speaking strictly of porn this could make more sense. If we're including masturbation in any way that's when it gets messy (in more ways than one). Because sex drive is a biological need sort of gig it is difficult to say what is too much aside from "listening to your body".
>>28343823
I was always told to avoid being a gynecologist for that same reason. Most doctor courses involving study of the body has all this scientific shit that looks disgusting. This is on top of the fact that doctors are to cure things wrong with those parts.
So imagine if you will, being a gynecologist. You work with fucked up, diseased vaginas often because in The Land of The Free(tm) nobody except the rich are going to get regular check-ups. The poorer folk will come in when something is wrong. After that, you get home to your hypothetical wife and imagine putting your dick in a vagina after working with a bunch of diseased fucked up vaginas. It is as appealing as it sounds.
So if I'm reading this right, since you studied you felt ill thinking about the insides of the human being. I would say it's normal in a way, since nobody sees anything beyond the skin. To think of things beyond the skin would be gross, it's why stuff like unnatural holes in the body makes people's skin crawl.
>>28340801
That's a frustrating feel.
I dislike and am uncomfortable with intimacy so never had any interest in a relationship or being with anyone. Try 2d. It gets your mind off real women and you'll lose interest in them after a short while.
It's nice being content as a future wizard.
>>28344005
Well I felt that way before the bodies. It's just that the cadavers solidified it. I mean I always saw myself as shit (which seems to be an opinion that alot of people on /r9k/ hold about themselves) but the cadavers really put things into perspective. I was always disgusted by people for some bizarre reason that I could not understand, it just felt like something was off. Now I have a more concrete idea of what was putting me off in the first place and it's all because my perception of things is fucked up.
>>28344205
If you want advice on how to handle it, it might be similar thinking that porn stars have about their jobs and their romantic life.
One is a job and the other is what they actually want. They keep it entirely separate. It's good to have when you're academic or professionally focused, but not so healthy for every day life.
To put it differently, you would have to focus on different associations with your perceptions. Focus on their outward appearance in every day life until you don't have to think about it. Focus on the inner if you're applying your academic knowledge. It's the same sort of method I had to approach my anger issues with. It all comes down to controlling/managing it until it is a subconscious action.
