Anyone else have their internal monologue turn to suicidal thoughts if they're not distracted?
If there isn't something that is holding my attention, I wind up almost having conversations with myself about how I want/need/deserve to die, how I should end it all now, and how much of a failure I am. It doesn't even have that feeling of depression when it's happening, it's just sort of like a prerecorded message that my brain plays to fill in the silence.
You're not alone with this. It sucks.
I guess so, although maybe just sound bites rather than full messages. I always just randomly say stuff like "kill me" or "I want to die" etc. to myself and don't know why. I realize I shouldn't think like that, and don't necessarily even feel that way, but it's a habit, like you say. it's how you've learned to think. where your brain's gotten strongest, basically
>>28325310
It's the worst.
>>28325322
>I always just randomly say stuff like "kill me" or "I want to die"
I do this now too. It was only inside my head at one point, but now I'm always saying it under my breath or even just regularly.
>>28325286
Have you tried joining the discord to chat with fellow robots? That might help you distract yourself?
>>28325613
I tried joining a few discords, but they're always tight-knit cliques who don't even try and pretend to welcome and include new people.
You have to carve out your own position within them by having a more interesting personality than the other who are already accepted and it's just not worth it.
>>28325635
You can join ours if you want there really isn't a circlejerk at all. Robots with no roasties or normies allowed.
https://discord.gg/0xGYE8yZx5zXygIm
>>28325652
No thanks, I really don't think it's worth the effort.
I sometimes catch myself dreaming of differnt ways to mutilate/ absolutly destroy my body publicaly. I never want to do it but at the same time i do...
>>28325687
Alright anon enjoy doing whatever you do, I'm out
>>28325286
Well, it is the most important philosophical question after all.
>>28325286
A psychologist gave me 2 methods to deal with these thoughts today:
1. Take deep breaths in the nose and out the mouth, focusing on each breath
2. . Playing a word game where you try and come up with words starting with the last letter of the previous word, so if you think of the word "talk" you then say "kind" then "directory" then continue on in that fashion
Neither helped me but apparently it works for some people
>>28325734
It works on retards who can't focus on more than one thing at the same time. If your IQ is above 110 it won't work.
>>28325734
I do the taking deep breathes things occasionally, mainly because I looked into meditation stuff a long time ago. It helps while I'm doing it, but after a minute or so it all just floods back in.
>>28325694
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mZov5MVaRM&autoplay=1obligatory censorbot avoidance spoiler
>>28325790
Why is my taste in music so bad when I'm drunk?CUT MY LIFE INTO PIECES
