I'll be honest with you. I used to be like you. Depressed, antisocial, and with a very angry, warped view of the world. I was a red pilled, misogynist, racist robot who was utterly convinced that I had the truth about the world. I hated women for not paying attention to me. I hated myself for not being good enough. I hated minorities because it made me feel like my problems weren't my fault.
But that changed. I'm much better now. I had a lot of anger that I needed to deal with. And coming back here, all I can see is what I used to be. I wish I could help you.
Sounds to me like you were retarded then and you are retarded now.
>>28305646
Yeah, that's pretty much what old me would've said too.
>>28305635
>a very angry, warped view of the world. I was a red pilled, misogynist, racist robot who was utterly convinced that I had the truth about the world. I hated women for not paying attention to me. I hated myself for not being good enough. I hated minorities because it made me feel like my problems weren't my fault.
Thats not me tho famalam
>>28305635
How did you change? I want out of this place and this mindset. Pls help
>>28305635
same here , /pol/ is just a /r9k/ mutation.
blaming it on degeneracy and minorities.
What changed you anon
How can you even have full trust in people when most people are backstabbing cunts
>>28305657
>open up with implied personal attacks
>continue to preach from a moral high horse with a savior complex
it's what the world continues to think of you as
haven't used this little maymay for a while
You guys care too much about girls.
Who gives a FUCK?
>>28305635
>dear /r9k/
>I'm better than you and can't prove it
>suck my balls
sure thingyou gay nigger
>>28305670
"degeneracy" is just a way to complain about the fact you can't get laid
"minorities" arent the only one being violent , there's always a lower class fucking around , just see any "white" eastern euro country.
Nobody really is the cause of what you are right now (except maybe bullies) and you're the only one who can improve.
improving is much easier with a friend or a life partner.
start using tinder.
>>28305670
I dunno man, it was slow. I forced myself out of my little bubble and realized that the views I had didn't actually reflect reality. Tried to start looking at why I thought things. Started taking responsibility for my actions and the things that happened to me.
>>28305683
Turns out there's a lot of really beautiful people in the world who you start to meet when you start being a little bit decent yourself. You realize everyone you hung out with was a shit person because you were a shit person and all the shit people clump together.
>>28305635
>le humble brag face
I will find you and shit down your throat.
>>28305635
honesty is hard to come by in the real life. People here have no reason to lie other than just for fun. You claim to know what depression and anger feels like. Something changed you.
so what made you change your mindset, betterbot?
>i shed all my old thinking ways
>it hasn't done shit for me, but hey, i did it
>>28305758
>taking responsibility for my actions
So you think you have free will? Read a book, fairies don't exist. If you got motivated, it was due to your environment, don't pat yourself on the back.
>Turns out there's a lot of really beautiful people
I agree, however these people are usually outsiders because society is a vicious, cannibalistic competition.
>>28305776
Honesty is difficult. The first time I took acid was a big turning point, and I think that was the first time I was actually honest with myself. Forced me to really examine who I was and who I wanted to be. Did I really want to be this person I was? Or did I want to be someone who made people's lives better, who was friendly, who had warmth.
>>28305834
I used existentialism as a shield so I didn't have to examine my own motivations and actions for a very long time. Not gonna go back down that road.
>>28305758
>blahblah just put your dick in a vag blah
>>28305635
Your post is meaningless, it won't make any difference at all to the world and will soon be forgotten.
So is your life. It is completely unimportant and will remain empty of interest for everyone and everything, except the few people who will know you one day.
So why come here, betterbot? This thread won't change anything for you, or anyone else.
>>28305895
Maybe it will, maybe it won't. I'm happy regardless.
>>28305865
Are you actually retarded dude? Do you not believe that we live in a physical world of cause and effect? Do you not realize that behaviorism is unequivocally, 100% correct?
It's not an excuse for anything, it's the state of the world in which we live.
I don't hate people on an intellectual level, I understand why they are the way they are, but if you buy into some just-world garbage, you're just peddling bullshit.
>>28305758
oh its a "pretend things that are objectively true aren't" episode
carry on OP
>>28305921
And I am really glad that you are.
But 100 years from now, nobody will remember it nor give a shit about it... There are too many things that are irrelevant in the world today, there is no need to add more.
>>28305942
I understand behaviorism but I don't agree with it. A lot of very intelligent people also don't agree with it (although of course a lot do), and have written a lot about why, so I'm confused why you present it as some inescapable truth.
>>28305961
Maybe. Maybe not. My purpose in life isn't to be remembered, so I don't really mind.
>>28305635
It may be airbrushed to hell and back but that pic is pretty damn hot.
>>28305865
Oh, so you realized that the direction that your life was heading was not aligned with your inner wishes. That's half the battle right there.
Mind you tell me the other half? Wasn't hard for you to turn away from a familiar and comfortable lifestyle?
>>28305635
And you're 'better' now because...?
>>28305758
realtalk, same happened to me
responsibility for self is number 1 on the list, otherwise you won't do anything
>>28305635
>tldr: changed from being a NEET to being a hipster
you've gone from bad to worse senpai
>>28305834
if you think outside the box, you are always an outside, so why not embrace it? you sound like it is bad to be an outsider
>>28306030
I don't see how one could look at people without bias and come to any other conclusion. Intelligent people can still be very willing to convince themselves that things are better than they really are.
>>28306107
Out of curiosity, what does this "responsibility" lead you to do?
>>28306066
The other half was figuring out what a good person is. I still don't know the answer to that, but I feel like I'm closer than I was.
Yes it was hard, but it made me happier. Once I realized that, it gave me a lot of motivation.
>>28306135
Well, in my case it is bad because I have to act like a sociopath on some level in order to survive. But I would never in a million years choose to be normal, pretending is a lot better than the real thing.
And I do embrace it, I love my fellow outsiders. I just have some residual anger towards the people who have wronged me, despite being perfectly aware that they didn't know any better.
>>28305747
>start using tinder.
Opinion discarded
>scores one or two ugly sluts and suddenly thinks the world is a great place
lmao dude don't come crying when that bubble bursts again.
>>28306139
well i didn't pay my rent, because i didn't feel like it belonged to me, if this makes any sense. i didn't eat because i wasn't hungry and didn't care if i was eating nothing today.
that is what no responsibility leads you to do, you don't care about yourself or what happens to you.
The moment that changed me is probably some light moments from tv shows, some people i view as very nice and i want to be like them. you probably need to hit a very dark point before you can change though, otherwise you are not scared enough (not really accurate). basically you need to really get deep into shit until you want to do something about it. acid can help (as OP mentioned) and also almost getting kicked out of your flat because you stack garbage and can barely walk on the floor in your room (what happened to me).
>>28306182
yes, i know that feeling, really annoying. its like being annoyed by their low level of emotional intelligence while also being so empathic you understand it's only natural and they did not want to hurt you. but i guess this passes, i try to belittle them (kinda arrogant) but then i feel better.
>>28305635
Why do you think you're better than any of us? I have an objectively good life complete with a gf and a social life. But I'm still constantly suicidal and anxious. I'm considering killing myself today and my gf is in bed with me right now. I hate myself and idk why.
>>28306146
Well then, I'm glad that you made it. Some have to.
Now that you consider yourself a better person do you see any value in this hellhole of a board? Are you here to stay? Aren't you afraid that the darkness will swallow you back?
>>28306226
Personally it's just a matter of pride, I hate that they think they're better than me or that I would want to be like them.
>>28306206
Well in that case, you realize that your turnaround was motivated by outside factors, which is good. What bothers me is people who act morally superior because something caused them to change, they're smug and give themselves undeserved credit.
>>28306251
not op, ever talked to people about it? do you like your gf? maybe you have something which bothers you subconsciously or you need antidepressants if your depression is too strong. i myself had some childhood stuff (bullying) which i didn't "finish" in my head, but also never thought of until i spoke with someone about it and noticed it as a possibility to my anxiousness.
>>28306251
I mean shit man, that sounds like mental illness, not anything wrong with you. I would really like you to seek some help.
>>28306272
Nah, I'm mostly here for the porn now.
>>28306285
just smile at them, i don't care what anyone says who can't relate to my emotions/feelings.
i don't think medium sized or bigger depression can be cured without outside factors, saying that, even this thread could influence some people to change.
>>28306328
I'm sorry you think that.
This place is great for casual banter.
>>28306342
>just smile
I wish I could, but beating them to a pulp just seems so damn appealing.
>i don't think medium sized or bigger depression can be cured without outside factors
Well yeah, chemical depression is an entirely different story.
>>28306272
>this hellhole of a board
This board is, at worst, a shelter for beaten animals that are lashing back pathetically. Not a nice place, but not deeply malicious. The real hellhole is the outside world, where Bateman-esque behavior is systematically encouraged.
>>28305758
this so much, im coming out of a long cold depression and ive found im noticing lots of nice things with the world again, i rarely even go on r9k anymore, it just makes me sad again, this whole site has a warped perception of the world, and theyre so adamant theyre right,
arguably they are right, as what you yourself experience is what you believe to be real, its just putting yourself in the 3rd person perspective to see how diverse the world actually is
>>28306295
I've been in therapy for a year now and I still hate myself. Idk what to do the anxiety is just so bad. I have dreams about dying and getting yelled at every night and every morning I wake up crying.
>>28305747
>start using tinder.
but how
>inb4 just b urself bro :)
>>28307269
distant friend of mine seems equally severe, but shes getting better. i am now getting her to move because she is really interested in film and arts and my city is big enough to have art stuff.
she took about 3-4 years i think. don't rush yourself, take your time. i know its not easy.
>>28305635
john pls
>>28307313
Tinder is the worst place possible for robots. If your looks somehow dont deter females your spergyness will when you visit her.
Tinder is literally made for Chad
1. I don't hate minorities
2. I don't hate women
Where and when can I cash out my good boy points? Thank you!
>>28307499
exactly. Robots would be better off hanging around the club at closing time hoping that some blind drunk skank who puked on herself will let you touch her vag
