>when the existential dread kicks in
don't remind me this feel
>when the derealization kicks in
>when the depersonalization won't stop
>>28277849
>when the derealization stops
>when the depersonalization refuses to kick in
I liked myself better when I was more broken than I am now
>>28277872
I admit derealization is interesting sometimes but it's very hard to fuckin talk to a thing in front of you while you question its existence and reality
its just too much, too real, set me free
>>28277835
Whats your existential crisis about?
Ive never understood that feel.
I mean, you live until you die, thats it.
What is there to think about?
*points up*
made me kek
does anyone else have derealization manifest itself when your masturbating with your eyes closed? idk why but it happens a lot to me
>>28277887
That's the best part
Social obligations wash out almost entirely
Incoherency sucks and so does the anxiety that comes from being around meat machines that have weird expectations you can't understand in your current frame of mind, but it's so much easier to just walk away like a rude asshole when you're derealized instead of engaging when you don't really want to
>when you've become disillusioned to disillusionment
>when nihilism seems inescapable
>when dissociation has replaced your personality
>when you realize you'll never re-experience any of your memories
>when you need someone to talk to, but don't know anyone or have anyone in your life who you're comfortable speaking with
etc.
i'm pretty close to killing myself, familillamas.
>>28277909
>What is there to think about?
why that moment in between birth and death sucks so fucking much
>>28277963
>never being able to re-experience memories
fuck why do you do this to me
>>28277963
A scene I like from the Sopranos, its basically how I feel, ignorance is bliss.
I might be just to stupid to self actualize my life.
Christopher Moltisanti: You ever feel like nothin' good was ever gonna happen to you?
Paulie 'Walnuts' Gualtieri: Yeah. And nothin' did. So what? I'm alive, I'm survivin'.
Christopher Moltisanti: That's it. I don't wanna just survive. It's says in these movie writing books that every character has an arc. Understand?
Paulie 'Walnuts' Gualtieri: [shakes head]
Christopher Moltisanti: Like everybody starts out somewheres. and they do something, something gets done to them and it changes their life. That's called an arc. Where's my arc?
>>28277835
just accept it
feels good not giving a shit at all about anything at all
>>28277963
are you me?
fuck man...
originaldo
>tfw you're on so many layers of irony and sarcasm that you can't even tell what's real anymore
ii like this feel. this feel feels real.
Anyone can explain where that feeling come from?
From introspection? from nowhere? from reading the writing of greatest mind? from depression?
I literally cant relate.
Ive never questionned myself, Im more like the stranger from albert camus.
Im drifting through life without a care, truly detached from my feelings.
People find this really strange.
Im never upset or happy, I dont feel love, I just wonder through life..
>>28277963
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stay alone in your room for months, then you will know these feels
Last night a spider came to visit. It really made my night. Not sure where he is now though. Hope hes doing well.
>>28277835
I prefer it to the dread of responsibilities in life and the dread of how others perceive me.
>tfw you realize death is a better alternative than the shit that is life
>>28278141
I have for more than 2 years.
I still dont feel lonely or sad, just meh.
I have no hobbies, no friend, little money, I dont browse much the internet.
I still dont feel tfw no bf/gf or others common feels.
>>28278149
i had a ladybug once visit me. i hung out with it for a few hours.
one of the best nights in the last few years. i remember it dearly.
>>28278073
Usually from just being detached from humanity and people around you. Picture everyone laughing and having a good time, then imagine them all dead in 100 years. It invokes a panic like moment similar to The Scream.
>>28278221
Oh ok, thanks
I guess the difference is that I don't think about that stuff. I'm just here, right now.
I dont think about the past, I never think about the future.
>>28278175
what the hell do you do??
>>28278073
its because these people believed their lives were leading up to something great, or rather they had been lead to believe that ll their lives that could have a normal/happy/succesfull life and then reality sets in and they cant deal with it.
where as with you it sounds like you never gave a shit about that stuff in the first place, they have have all been built up for the biggest disappointment
>>28278259
I sit on a chair, go for a walk, I read sometime.
Well, come to think of it, I do like to take care of my plants.
>>28278262
Yeah I understand, losing hope and dream must be hard. Ive never been told I could achieve something or theres was something great waiting for me. I just lived my day to day live until I got here.
>>28277835
In the darkness that came before your birth, there was no you. Likewise, in the darkness that comes after you die, there is no you. So then what is it like to go to sleep and never wake up?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fc50qOxdn5s
