post whatever your feeling itt
>finally work up the courage to ask a girl out
>she doesn't text back
fuck
>>28262592
>talking to girl
>start hitting it off
>ask for pic
>fat land whale
>block
>delete conversation
>>28262592
>Went out on a date with a cute girl yesterday
>10/10 date, couldn't have gone better than expected
>Currently on Cloud 9
>>28262592
honestly anon if she can't reply to a date request she's not worth it man.
>ask out ct3.14 grill
>"anon I'm gone for a month"
hopefully second times a charm....
>had the chance to become someone and be successful
>ruin it cos of depression
>>28262592
My sides sorry Robro, at this very moment she is laughing at you with her friends and is tellinf Chad about it
>>28262648
Well at least she didnt have a stack of dickmeat right?
>>28262893
You never had the chance senpai, now you can die with the rest of us bots, why don't you at least eat something good for dinner or get smashed and fap to some traps
>tfw poison ivy all over arms and face
>tfw dumbass
feels itchy as fuck man
>>28262954
true, hopefully pity sex at least
>>28262592
You were friendzoned faggot now she thinks you are a creep, whats plan B?
>>28262989
Thats nothing you limp wristed bitch, try getting it on your dick, balls and fucking taint yup all around my grundle, so how did you get it?
>tfw passionate man with no passion left
I can't endure just drifting through The flow of life without a goal.
>Have gotten more action this year than pretty much ever
>Have never been more depressed in my life
That's what happens when you start a thing with a girl who just uses you to get over her ex, and then get a fwb who you naturally proceed to get feelings for, while also knowing about the other dudes she sleeps with.
Just once in my life, I'd love to have a "boy meets girl" scenario and have a nice relationship. But I guess that'll never happen.
>>28262726
Hate to burst that bubble but she is being blacked right now by nigger Chads
>>28262648
You should have at least fucked her, or made her shove all kinds of shit in her cunt, or get a fackin handy J, heres a phrase my dude "When you are poking the fire you are not looking at the hearth"
>>28262893
Flipping burgers at McDicks is not considered successful
>>28262592
>worried about my driving school and shitload of money i will have to put in it just to get driver's license
>injury keeps getting back, it's been a year now, cannot train
>fat bastard (like 30%bf), want to train badly
>turning gay for one of my job colleague, he is blonde tall qt blue eyes slim quiet intelligent
>want to bang cute shy girls and hit on them basically on the streets while going home or something... but cant since i am fat currently
>i have done nothing with my life and i have been given less than my peers, no chances have been given to me, had to lie trough my teeth to get internship, no actual property except few pieces of clothing and 5yr old smartphone ... and my peers are getting jobs trough connections an are traveling the world
>want to emigrate to IRE or NED or CAD or NZ and work for a couple of years and then start a company
>worried about my current project at my internship
>sad about the fact i am 28 soon
>sad about that my mom (and me too) is losing all hope of me becoming the only successful person in our wider family
i was already born in shitty situation, spent my childhood in shitty situation, but bad economy will finally ruin me
need to move across the continent
>tfw work in less than 9 hours.
>>28262919
This, if shebhasnt txt you back she is telling all her friends and prob fucking everyone on FB, mocking you and laughing.. harsh world OP her Chad friend is laughing at you telling her "he actually thought he had a chance"
>>28262954
Fat ham beast or a chick with a feminine penis, I would take the cock assuming she wasnt fat as well
>>28262987
Why would you even suggest fapping to traps? Is everyone a faggot these days?
finally let go of my oneitis and I've decided to start hitting on femboys
feels good if I'm being honest brotherman
>>28263064
Yeah, nah
Take your cuck fantasy and go pls
>>28262592
I'll hang myself, if god or some unborn soul wants me alive then the attemp will fail
>>28262592
>feeling sick
>start a new job tomorrow
>nothing to do today
>bf is busy today
>/r9k/ is chipping away at my self esteem yet again why do i even browse here
> it's impossible to have an emotionally fulfilling hobby without spending money
Kill me now.
>>28263307
You can play with squirrels and wear sheets from thyne bed .
>>28263162
Getting any sort of job would make people around me thrilled.
>Had one of the worst weeks in years
>My oneitis is really interested in my best friend and will probably end up fucking her
>He gives literally 0 fucks about this
>My friends are literally cunts and don't care about me and just make fun of me
Why was I born Asian on a western country?
>>28262987
>>28263162
i actually had the chance to be a developer where a dude i know worked too but i ended up fucking it up cos depression brought me away programming passion
>talked to girl I met in a chart thread for a few days
>really hit it off, play vidya together, share music
>we make plans to hang out this summer and possibly be gf/bf
>evaluate her pictures, don't find her physically attractive at all
>tell her I have to back out of our relationship
Now I haven't talked to her in a few days because of my avoidant anxiety, and I know as soon as I open Steam, I'm gonna have messages from her waiting for me. Why must I be so shallow? She's really cool, but I've been kicking myself over backing out of the possibility of a relationship, and now I've just made things worse by borderline ghosting her.
my dick has gained 2 inches since starting to lose weight
feels mighty fine
>>28263456
You should find better friends. I used to have bad friends. Better to be friendless than dealing with shitty people.
>talking to girl who's somewhat qt
>wonder why she's wasting her time with a guy like me
>manage to get her number
>end up never texting her
>years later, remember her
>look her up on fake fb
>see some posts where she's talking about not letting her disability stop her from loving her life
>think that's odd, she seemed physically fine
>turns out she's mentally challenged
>tfw the only girl that seemed somewhat attracted to you in the past course years was mentally challenged
It all made so much sense.
Other feels:
>tfw you're trying to listen to asmr and your roommate is playing loud music so you can't focus on the sounds but you're too much of a pussy to tell him to turn it down
>tfw you need to find a job for the summer and literally everyone is turning you down so you might have to work another mcjob
>tfw porn stops turning you on and jerking off feels more like a chore than ever
>tfw the really cute girl that your friend knows comes over to hang out with you guys and is really drunk and gets so close to you your shoulders and legs are touching and when she says something and you look at her she stares in your eyes and you realize how fucking lonely you are no matter how much you try to think yourself out of wanting a gf because you know you'll never get one
>>28263307
Yeah, you pretty much have to have money to do anything other than sit around. My parents couldn't even afford a computer in the house until I was in sixth grade, and we didn't have internet until I was in high schoolin 2010. Never had money for vidya consoles, musical instruments/lessons, or anything fun really.
>>28263456
Come to Croatia
We (younger people) will treat you like a foreigner or a tourist the whole time (if you look Japanese or Korean, not if you look Indian because people will assume you are Gypsy, finely/well dressed Indian will get fine treatment)
Or we will treat you like a mascot if you know Croatian language
People will buy you drinks and invite you to eat and drink
You only need to introduce yourself to someone local, local person near you will automatically be excuse to other people to talk to you
or just go into a bar
>enjoying the post fap high
>not tall enough to be graceful and elegant
>not short enough to be cute and tiny
>not fat enough to be considered voluptuous and curvy
>not thin enough to be considered skinny
>proportionately large hips and ass and no breasts
Even if I become stick thin I'll never be one of those cute, tiny, delicate girls.
>>28262592
>mom doesnt think im mentally ill, even after explaining my homicidal and suicidal tendencies
>today is crush's bday and i cant say anything to him
>cut self last night, bled more than i ever have, nearly cut vein open
>crying nonstop in my bedroom and thoroughly punching myself and biting my wrists
i would do anything to be put on medication or sit in a hospital for a couple months
>>28263546
I know, it's just that I am way too shocked to know that my friends that I have known for years and I thought were robots in the end are a bunch of normies who don't care about anyone who isn't.
It's just really depressing to think about that you know? To not have anyone to say stuff to without telling other people what I said or judging me.
playing vidya while it is storming outside right now, reminds me of when I was a kid playing ps2 with my dad
>>28263712
you are not fat and if you don't have some fucked up face you don't need to worry
males have high sex drive and will hit on you IF YOU FUCKING VISIT THE DAMN NIGHTCLUBS FOR A CHANGE
ffs dickfests everywhere
>>28263673
those 5-10 min will past really quick
>>28263509
>>tell her I have to back out of our relationship
fucking idiot
don't tell her shit next time
>>28263720
go
to
fucking
hospital
by
yourself
quit being a kid
>ywn be a 8+/10
>>28263829
too much anxiety to fucking do that
i can barely call someone on the phone to say hi
>buzzed on heroin
>feel more interested in being alive than I have at any other moment in the past month
Drugs are funny. I haven't even looked at potential colleges since last year, and dope got me to start looking again.
>>28263849
Literally all you need to do is call 911 and say your suicidal. From there on, the situation will basically take care of itself. You only need to say those two words. You don't even really need to say your address (though it would help), they can find out where you are. Cops will show up first probably, then EMT's will get there to take you to a hospital, from there you'll probably get to a psych ward.
>>28263893
Yeah, I notice that I'm way less productive and unhappier when I have relatively long periods of sobriety. I'm in college and I've seen a pretty linear correlation between how often I'm under the influence and how well my grades end up at the end of the semester. I don't even do heroin or anything, just weed and booze and the occasional addy.
>>28263969
I hate sobriety. I know I'm supposed to be sober and clean and all that shit, but I don't know how to make it work, so back it's back to the drugs for me.
>tfw Xylophone ribs
I just want to not be skeletal, but I can't eat more
>>28263720
how old are you?
what does a hospital have that you can't do at home? why would you rather be there?
>>28263951
Also, if anyone asks, say you have a concrete plan. Make one up if you don't actually have one. If you're not actively suicidal and just think about suicidal, they might say fuck it and not care enough. And make sure you go voluntarily, being involuntarily committed comes with it's whole own world of bullshit. Luckily that only happens if you aren't willing to go, and it requires a court order. Even if you end up being taken away by the cops or something, that doesn't mean you're involuntarily committed. They'll probably put you on a 24-72 hour psych hold, and if you really feel suicidal and feel like you need to stay at the hospital, that shouldn't be overly hard to accomplish.
I hope you've got insurance.
>>28263849
bite the bullet and do it
fucking around won't solve much
writing down shit you want to say to the doctors&staff helps
>>28263893
heroin is great but it's just jacking off
you are not getting anything done, this will not go forever
you should have tried using cocaine once a month at least, not fucking heroin
>>28263997
Mental hospitals are a nice little break from reality. You get meds, you don't need to deal with normies, no one gets on your case about not having a job or being in school or anything, you can just sort of sit around, focus on your problems if you want to, and commiserate with similarly fucked up people.
>>28263984
If it's negatively affecting your health on a noticeable level or causing you to suffer in other areas of life then you should probably stop but in all honesty if you're being productive and have decent self-control and life is otherwise fine then I can't see a problem with drug use. If anything, while straight up getting fucked up is a lot of fun, the majority of my use is actually to increase the amount of shit I get done in a day.
>>28264039
I've smoked crack, and that was fun, but it wasn't enjoyable enough to repeat often, and from everything I've heard cocaine is milder, and it's ridiculously expensive, so I'm not really interested. If I want drugs to get things done, I'll get some amphetamine. If I just want to get really high on stims, I'll get meth. Cocaine doesn't seem to really have a point.
>Meet nice girl and have a crush on her
>Realize after two months things arent gonna workout
>Friends wont stop trashing her now that I'm not trying to date her anymore
>tfw still have strong feelings for her
>tfw she still texts you from time to time
>tfw you know it'll never happen
>>28263997
19
>>28264075
exactly, and i want help
>>28263951
>>28264038
too scary for me, i just wanna stay home
at some point though, i feel like i might have a moment of courage and call.
thank you for caring, I appreciate it.
>>28264081
Yeah, I have an easier time functioning if I do a few little bumps in the day. I know that's obviously a straight march into addiction, and I already probably am halfway to physical addiction on top of the already existent psychological addiction, but it makes me feel better enough that I don't really care.
I know it will probably come crashing down, but I won't stop until it does. It makes me feel like I can imagine still being alive in six months, and actually wanting to be.
>>28262592
>tfw just drank two bottles of dr.pepper and am starting to worry about whether or not i'm gonna get diabetes
>>28262592
>Ask girl out
>via text
>>28264154
Just do it right now. It will go fine. Pick up your phone, and call 911. Three numbers, that's easy. When they answer, you need to say three more words. "Hello, I'm suicidal." Then they'll probably say some things, and ask for you address. Even if they don't ask for your address, all you need to say after that is your address. They'll probably ask you to stay on the line until responders get there. You can if you want to, but it's not like you'll get in trouble if you don't.
Three numbers, three words, then your address. If you go voluntarily, you can always say you don't feel suicidal anymore, and that you want to leave. They can't force you to stay more than a few days. You can manage it. Do it right now.
>tfw on anti-deps and feeling actually better
Also I have an exam tomorrow and I will get butt-raped
>try to do a no-fap month
>already struggling on the first day
fuck this fap addiction
>>28262592
>spend most of school being a sad loner literally just walking around on my own each lunch break
People try to talk to you if you sit alone but no one questions you if you just walk aimlessly around for an hour
>listen to conversations as I walk past groups
>always seem to be idiots in the groups, always just saying stupid meaningless shit
>never hear anyone that I'd honestly want to be friends with so never talk to anyone
>carry on like this for years, sink deep into muh meme-depression
>supportive family get me through it but I'm a completely changed person
>massively insecure so I constantly insult other people
>all the fucking time seriously I'm just harassing people all the time
>basically im just negging everyone around me so they don't pick up on my insecurities
>somehow it fucking works and I get loads of friends even though all I ever do is take the piss out of them
never successful with grills though ofc because actual real insecurity like that cant be solved by calling people cunts
>fast forward to uni
>going to lectures in groups of friends
>me always loudly talking shit about people, swearing insults all the time
>notice qt grill sitting alone looking sad in lecture (STEM course that's rare as fuck)
>people honestly just ignoring her, she ends up sitting alone in every lecture
>make eye contact with her once and she quickly looks away in disgust
>she can obviously hear my conversations all the time so to her I'm just a massive cunt
I realise that I'd have reacted the exact same way all those years ago and now I feel it's my duty to stop someone going down the same path I did.
But the moment I show weakness I lose all of my friends.
>>28264075
Don't mental hospitals charge you though? How does focusing on your problems help if your stuck somewhere unable to do anything about them? Aren't you just delaying doing anything, the same as if you stayed home and watched anime or dicked around on the internet?
>need to find someone to move into my shared flat by Friday
>spent 16 quid on a premium advert on a flatsharing site
>sent messages to ~30 people who are looking for somewhere in my city
>not a single reply
I'LL LITERALLY TAKE ANYONE, JUST MOVE IN FOR CHRIST'S SAKE
>finally work the curiae to follow up on my applications
>no calls back
never mix opiates with alcohol lads, unless you want a 2 day hangover where you constantly vomit water
>>28264297
Most people have insurance. If you stay home and watch anime or dick around on the internet, you usually do your best to avoid your problems. At the hospital, you can at least try to mentally prepare yourself to handle them better, and you have several people who's job it is to get you stable enough to handle reality when you head back out.
Honestly it didn't do much to help me other than getting me through most of the detox process and making me slightly less actively suicidal even if I still very much wanted my life to end, but it was as I said, a nice break from reality. I actually enjoyed parts of it, and that's not just rose tinted nostalgia glasses. I knew the day after I left that I enjoyed inpatient more than I liked outpatient therapy, which I fucking hated.
>>28264317
I've never had that experience, then again for me it's always been decent amounts of opiates with a small amount of alcohol, not a lot of alcohol with a bit of opiates thrown on top.
> tfw you'll never be able to fix your childhood
>>28264542
I can see how that might be helpful. The idea of being around others going through struggles in real life does sound appealing somewhat. Was that the part that you enjoyed?
>>28262592
You did well by asking her out. I wish I could do the same.
Not every girl has the courage to turn a guy down, can't really do anything else than to accept it and move on.
>>28264664
Yeah, that part was actually nice. It's much easier to interact with people in that kind of setting than in the outside world. Especially members of the opposite sex. Sexuality is more or less irrelevant, so it's easier.
>Looking at facebooks of old classmates from middle and highschool
>They are all successful and have relationships
>They are all happy in their photos
I never fucking asked for this
>Get compliments from guys
>Never girls
Being gay would be so much easier
> bust my ass to get good grades
> getting As and Bs in all but one
> on probation so I have to get a certain GPA to stay
> tfw constantly stressing about whether or not I'll hit the mark
> tfw also looking for work and can't find anything
> tfw if I get kicked out my parents won't pay for my college and I will have to reenter retail hell and will probably never be able to escape
> tfw can't even sleep because of all the stress
>message qts on okc
>view my profile but don't respond
>if they do respond the convo always dies
LIKE A CARROT ON A STICK I AM TORTURED
>a girl from my year which never talks to me other than the occasional joke talk and never congratulates me anything sent me "Happy easter :*" on facebook
>think about this message for almost 2 hours not knowing what to reply
Kill me
>>28264901
>happy Easter
>it's May
>>28264732
Thanks to facebook I saw a girl I used to know in elementary today. We made eye contact several times but never said anything.
Hmm...
>>28264984
Orthodox Easter, man
>>28264757
trust me it's not hardly anyone else is gay and those who are are pompous fags who make everything they say about being gay
>>28264297
>tfw your inferior genes could never produce a girl that cute
>>28262648
>talking to girl
>start hitting it off
>ask for pic
>fat landwhale
>oh well, you could still be friends
>she asks for one back
>send her one cause why not
>tfw she blocks you
>>28265115
damn you allright? that was harsh
>>28262592
> Ask female friend out 4 weeks ago
> She says no but isn't mean about it
> Not bother at all because not an entitled manchild
> Last weekend, friend go hang out without me
> Ask them why
> Female friend had her new bf with her, friends worried about awkward situation.
> Funny because I never mentioned asking female friend out to anyone
> Wasn't planning on making her rejection an obstacle to out friendship, but her and everyone else did that for me.
> Loose shit at them because missed out on pool night because they assumed I wasn't mature enough to see a friend dating someone else.
>>28262592
>get off with two girls in the club
>friends of each other
>I end up going to bed alone
>accepting I have almost no chance of losing my virginity under normal circumstances
Anyone here ever gotten a happy ending? I know a massage parlor which supposedly does them, and I might try it, especially since my dad's insurance might cover massage therapy.
>>28265559
Just be aware that your attractiveness might determine if they offer the service or not.
>>28265840
This is a good way to gauge my attractiveness. Gonna go find one of these places when I get paid.
>>28263015
Don't even say that man, I still believe I can salvage this. She was perfect.
>literally told me she was a virgin
>bought me a cd that was actually good
>her favorite movie is mulholland drive
>shes qt
I fucked it up. I know I did... Fuck my life
>>28265974
Only if you know for sure that they offer the service, otherwise you can't be sure.
Also remember that they're the ones who should initiate, so don't ask about it or awkwardly pop a boner.
>been living alone
>my brother stays the night
>realise im tired of always being alone
>>28265840
Is that really true? I would think they wouldn't give a shit when it comes down to the cash.
>>28266946
That only goes for prostitutes without any other income, these girls also get money from the massage so they can often afford to be a bit more picky.
