Does anybody here have a situation that is inescapably bad, and is hopelessly cut off from what they want in life? Where it is nearly inconceivable that you would accomplish your goals?
No. This board is literally teenage virgins who think they will be alone forever because they're shy.
Yes.
I'm failing college due to a combination of brain fog, the inability to focus, the inability to retain information, and constantly being tired due to depression--this leads me to fall asleep in class and fall behind. I am American, so I have a lot of debt now for basically nothing. I cannot drop out because my parents would kick me out. I cannot get a job because I can't drive and no place will hire me. I cannot become a NEET, even if my parents would let me, because I need to repay loans. I didn't want to go in the first place for other reasons (anxiety, wanting to be a NEET) but I was forced into it. Now I'm really fucked.
On top of this, I have no motivation, no ambition, I'm almost constantly miserable and want to kill myself on a daily basis, nothing makes me happy except for anime, and only in twenty two minute increments, obviously.
>>28212259
Have you tried going to a psychiatrist? It sounds like finishing a good degree could solve your problems, and what's keeping you from getting a good degree is mental issues.
Lying about having ADHD and getting on Ritalin would probably help a lot. SSRIs also might.
>>28212330
Yes, I was on SSRIs, which made my mood improve for a month-ish, after that it stopped working. I'm on bupropion at the moment, and while I am supposed to have my dosage increased it's not helping at all.
Either way it doesn't matter now, even if I got good grades from here on out, I already failed classes (if I elect to retake them, my transcript will still say I failed them, which is bad if I want to go to medical school). My anxiety, lack of ambition, etc inhibits me from forming a good relationship with my professors so I couldn't use them as references anyway. There's nothing that interests me as far as extracurriculars go, either. Even if I did finish a degree with decent grades, I'm still fucked.
>>28212330
People here don't want advice, they want to feel helpless.
>>28212458
>People here don't want advice, they want to feel helpless.
Speak for yourself. I'd love advice that helps.
I do try almost any advice given to me by anyone, because I'm already essentially at rock bottom; it just doesn't help.
Yep. Trying to become an artist but it's so fucking hard. Finished uni and then worked for bout year and a half then realised I wasn't learning/improving fast enough so quit my job and moved back home.
Been NEET for almost a year now and I'm close, so close to being able to start making money off illustrations and commissions and shit but I don't know how to break through and start that ball rolling.
And I'm so lonely and unhappy stuck at home like this but I don't even consider getting a gf/bf at this stage because I'd want to go places with them and just chill and enjoy it but I can't, all I do is paint paint paint, vidya or movie as a break at night then back to painting.
Also feels like the longer I spend alone like this the less chance I have of being good with people.
>>28212454
Could you change majors? If you're decent at math there are a lot of lucrative alternatives to med school that won't require graduate education. A lot of people don't get good references but they still do fine, and a lot of people take longer than four years to graduate college. Extracurriculars aren't nearly as important to employers as they are to colleges, either.
Convincing your psychiatrist to get on ritalin will probably make academics much easier for you.
>>28212594
I'm terrible at math; that's part of the problem.
I'll keep it in mind, but I don't have ADHD.
>>28212555
Could you post some of your work here? I'm interested and it's a free way to advertise yourself.
>>28211998
42 khv, no job, failing health, no goals, no friends, no money, no car, no hobbies, no hope. it doesnt get much more inescapably bad than that.
>>28212610
>I'm terrible at math
That does make things a lot harder.
>I don't have ADHD
It will help with studying either way. You will probably also feel better.
Good luck getting somewhere comfortable anon.
>>28212677
What's your living situation like? Have you ever been employed?
>>28212629
Can't post anything from my phone but I've been doing daily uploads for a challenge thing and that's all on this blog
http://dailychoob.tumblr.com/archive
>>28212810
A lot of this is lovely. I'll spread it around 4chan at least
>>28212914
Thanks family. Not sure how to make the jump from making paintings to making money off paintings, but told myself I'll keep going until day 200 at least before I go find a real job again. Think we're on day 110 or something atm.
>>28211998
I want to join the military but I have SH all over one arm and a huge laceration from SH on my leg. I cant do college because of my pol power level it's okay if you kill me, senpai
>>28213188
>I cant do college because of my pol power level
This isn't a reason you fucking idiot. Just shut your mouth or lie in humanities core classes.
>>28213504
being quiet makes people not like me and make up stuff. Being quiet kills my reputation and I could go on but thats the jist. I want to be in a rekt video thats gets posted on here all the time!
>>28213573
You can talk about things other than politics you mongoloid. Some leftist people are capable of liking people they know are conservative, just don't tell them you're racist or homophobic.
>>28213188
What is SH? I can't find something specific on google.
>>28213188
>pol power level
haha what a retard. jump off a cliff you idiot.
>>28212259
Have you ever considered that you're just not as smart as you think you are? Maybe you're genuinely just a bit too dumb for whatever you're studying.
I was too dumb to study anything serious, so, I studied something easy and wracked up debt for nothing too.
I'd be in tremendously better shape if I just hadn't gone
>>28214425
Self-harm, I'd guess.
Anyone have experience with setraline?
>>28214456
>racism and traditionalism are always dumb
Back to tumblr narrow minded moron
>>28211998
I want to get a job but I didn't finish highschool
no job = no money = no gf = no nothing
>>28214706
Have you ever been on an SSRI before? It isn't particularly abnormal.
It will take several weeks to have an impact on mood or behavior but it might cause side effects earlier. If it has no impact within three weeks or so your psychiatrist will either switch to another antidepressant or give you more of it. This will continue until you're on about three times as much as the original dose. If it doesn't work by then you will taper off and then take another antidepressant. SSRIs do cause addiction and can have nasty withdrawals, although most aren't that bad in my experience (SNRIs usually gave me worse withdrawals).
SSRIs didn't help me much but they usually aren't too bad to try out. For me, when they worked, they really numbed any emotion, positive or negative, which took the edge off of my anxiety and made it easier to accomplish things.
>>28211998
yes
old
broke
unemployed
unhealthy
no escape
>>28214706
Took sertraline for 8 years.
As mentioned, they numb you up. You won't be as devastated by things, and they make stuff easier to deal with. They didn't really make me less "sad", but they did make life easier to deal with, and generally a bit less raw and unpleasant.
I also have bad obsessions, and they helped a lot with that. Keep in mind, they'll damage your libido, and it could be permanent. I have mild ED at the age of 26.
>>28214941
Interesting, SSRIs never actually affected my libido. I've been having as much good sex now as I did before SSRIs.
>>28212810
Is that traditional media or photoshop? Good stuff either way.
>>28214884
At the very least you can get a GED. You can also learn a trade.
>>28214992
They make fapping more fun, actually, because of the improved mood. But my dick is a little more soft, and it takes longer to cum.
All things considered, if you're miserable, they're worth a shot. They worked well for me, and I'm only off them because I'm American and I have no insurance.
>>28214897
never taken them before, i just keep hearing bad things about anti depressants in general.
>>28215098
>takes longer to cum
Yeah I know thatfeel but it's advantageous because now i last longer when im having sex. If i really try though I can still cum in under 2 minutes
>>28214995
photoshop mostly
you don't run out of pixels the same way you run out of paint
>>28215098
Paxil made masturbating really fun. It would take me an hour or two to orgasm, so by the time I was done jacking off I would be slick with sweat and panting.
>>28214909
>old
This is the one thing you cannot reverse. Do not waste your fucking youth youngfags, get the hell off of 4chan
>>28212157
this
>>28212677
38KV reporting, same boat.
I get triggered by all the 19/20 year olds on this board complaining on how all hope is lost just for been a KV and in collage
>>28214470
I've considered that, but in high school I took courses at the same level as freshman college courses. The only reason I wasn't able to opt out was I got a few questions on the exam wrong, because we missed class due to snow days and were a bit behind, so we never got to said material. I got straight As.
A significant part of it are my mental problems. Not to say that my own abilities are perfect, that aside. Only that were I not as bad as I am now, mentally, I'd perform a lot better.
I never had this brain fog and constant drowsiness a year ago.
>>28211998
Some people mistake emptiness for death, it's not, emptiness is far worse
>>28216204
What is this pseudoprofound and irrelevant gobblygook?
>>28216809the newest r9k MeeM :^)))))))))
I'm an illegal immigrant with a family that's barely living. We are broke and because my dad has no visa or money to get a proper passport or anything, we cannot go back home. I can't do anything about it.
>>28216925
Have you tried going to your country's embassy?
>>28216891
I don't believe you, I think you're pretending it's a meme so you don't get embarrassed
I googled it and could find no appropriate entry on KnowYourMeme.com, the foremost authority in recent and rising memes.
>>28217267
It's across the country, and my birth country is really small anyways. We can't afford to make the drive.
>>28217959
Will you get deported back to your country of origin if you break the law? Or if you go to the police and admit you're illegal immigrants?
>>28215705
>>28212677
Why do you choose to be here over wizchan? There have to be way more people like you there
>>28211998
There's a lot of us, we typically support Donald Trump.
>>28218006
Probably, yeah. We can't really take that risk though, we have extenuating legal circumstances keeping us here.
>>28212458
We want advice, yours is just shit.
>>28218737
>we have extenuating legal circumstances keeping us here.
Can you give some details? This sounds like it could be interesting
>>28218712
>There's a lot of us
No, there are a few of you and a lot of people who wrongly believe they're doomed
>>28211998
Sort of.
I'm a bit unsure of my family's future housing condition. I was homeless earlier this year due to my parents inability to pay rent and eventually being unable to find an apartment within our budget. When we did find one, it turned out that my dad had an eviction on record and so turned us promptly down. Out of the pity of a fellow churchgoer (that my dad and his wife attend) we got two rooms to rent for $500 each. For an added $25, I get access to her Wi-Fi network. Our contract only lasts 6 months and I was hoping for my stepmother to have a decent credit score and prequalify for a mortgage loan but turns out she doesn't so that route is out. If we don't find a place to live that is fine with someone with an eviction on record, then we'll probably be homeless again.
On top of that, I spent 3 years at a community college hoping to transfer to a 4 year university to pursue computer engineering but unfortunately my financial aid took too long to process and my admissions was cancelled. I called back to ask if there was some way to fix it but the admissions office said the only way was to appeal for the fall term. So after that fuck up I'm stuck at a fast food joint flipping burgers and hoping my appeal gets through.
All I ever wanted to do in life was be an artist.
>>28219357
Jesus that sucks. What kind of art do you want to specialize in?
>>28219613
I wanted to go into animation but other avenues are fine as long as they allowed me to craft some sort of narrative from drawings.
>>28219705
Do you have anywhere where you upload your drawings? Would you be willing to share any?
>>28219729
No. I don't upload my stuff. I feel too unskilled to show the world my drawings. I truly want to get better before I manage to upload material. And anyhow, I haven't had much free time to draw this year because of everything that's happened.
>>28219777
Does Cartoon Network, or wherever you want to be employed, demand a college degree?
In any case, good luck anon.
>>28219893
As far as I know? No. From what I've heard, it's mostly skill. If you can draw/animate well then you can probably get a job. But then again, that's easier said than done.
>>28218761
No you don't. You want to wallow in self pity, hate everybody, and do nothing.
>>28218712
>/pol/
Seriously kill yourself you hopeless memer
>>28211998
I have herpes and my greatest joy in life was getting puss.
Now I'm on r9k. I don't see a point and purpose to do anything anymore
>>28220584
Get the fuck out, normie slime
>>28221558
If you post Pepe and use the word normie you're probably more of a normalfag than I am. At the very least more of a redditor.
>>28221481
Develop dignity.
>>28212477
People actually generally don't like receiving advice. If somebody vents to you commiserate but don't give advice
>>28212458
>they want to feel helpless
Yeah? So fucking what. That's the entire point of this place. We don't give a shit about how you crawled your way out of a pit. We enjoy talking to people who have the same feelings and are going through the same thing. This isn't about getting better. This is about being miserable together.
Go fuck yourself you piece of shit
>>28223487
Robots are so defensive. You should know by now that you aren't any better than they are.
>>28223548
What the hell are you talking about? Of course we aren't any better. Are you retarded? They're better than us. That's why we don't want them here.
That's the entire point of this damn place. We don't give a fuck about how you crawled out of living a worthless life. We want to be around our own. Not people who have climbed out of the well and are looking down at us from the top shouting to us to do it too.
>>28223766
4chan is what you make it. You are not a mod and you really cannot accomplish very much in terms of making me leave. Still, it's good to see somebody like you here still. Nobody cares anymore.
>>28223857
I'm really just talking about /r9k/ in general right now. But we have the crab mentality here. We could each get out of the bucket on our own but we keep pulling one another back down in a useless struggle of sharing the same fate.
>>28223953
You use "we" when it isn't appropriate. You're already a fossil.
>>28211998
Im schizo so... ill be making barely enough to live on for the rest of my life. Meds affect my libido so hardly ever get really hard so no sex life. But my sorrows aren't more than I can handle.
>>28224096
>ill be making barely enough to live on for the rest of my life
Doesn't necessarily follow. But this is pretty awful:
Animal study on antipsychotics
http://www.nature.com/npp/journal/v30/n9/full/1300710a.html
Also,
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3476840/
>>28224138
Thanks for the articles. Just have to remind myself that someday they'll cure it, just hope I'm around.
>>28211998
I have a great want of power, prestige and success, but no intelligence or will power to achieve it. I am uncharismatic, short, and only have a slightly above average IQ.
To make matters worse I have a crippling case of non-verbal learning disability which makes it very hard to speak fluently outside of typing, and very hard to learn things threw reading.
I also suck at math, which locks me out of almost every single fucking high-paying job in existence.
I hate my life and I hate myself but I hate this society more.
>>28224138
Jesus christ that monkey brain study was terrifying to read. I remember when my mother put me on mood stabilizers and a whole host of others medication through out my life. I felt like my brain was getting thicker and "clotted". I guess that might explain why.
