Tell me something. Anything is fine.
Tired of being pushed around.
I'm trying to get over a grill.
>>28202758
Do you have a choice? Is it how you are? Who's pushing you around? Why do they do it?
>>28202760
What's her name? What happened, how did it end?
You're trying to get over her, I'm sure something sticks. What do you miss the most and why?
I have a 10 hour shift tomorrow, but at least only the nice manager is going to be there tomorrow, and two other 19 year olds, so we dont have to feel like were being watched the whole time. we dont need to we get everything done on time anyways, but this one manager always has to have a word just to feel in charge
>>28202787
Georgee, it already felt like it had fallen apart when she cheated on me but for some reason i gave her another chance and now she's with another guy /already/. It ended with me leaving her because she treated me like shit over the fact that i got heavily depressed due to what she did
I miss her voice.. it was long distance OP.
Because whenever i closed my eyes and listened to her voice, it felt like she was really there.
>>28202796
Pretty long shift, that sucks. Money is nice though, as long as you give yourself some time to enjoy it.
That manager is probably bored out of his mind considering his job could be done in a fraction of the time he has to spend at the job. You're doing fine letting him be, might be annoying but hey you're getting paid.
>>28202745
Generic snarky joke
Bosses want to fire me because they hate me. Just signed a new lease too. Can't lose this job. Feeling sick.
>>28202820
I feel you. I've had an internet relationship before. Kinda. Just once, I decided if you're not going to meet early on, it's nothing that will be sustainable. However if it makes you happy in the moment and that's all you need, it's fine.
I guess it's a bit easier knowing she was entirely in the wrong and a shitty person, though, in order to get over her. Don't give second chances to cheaters again. You're a good person who got taken advantage of, probably. I don't know her side of it. Cheating is never justified.
You can keep mourning like you have for a bit, but keep in mind she doesn't deserve it, and you deserve better yourself. You'll be okay. Give it time, but not too much. Try to do new things to focus on the future.
>>28202842
Generic laughter, probably.
>>28202902
That's disgusting and a horrible position to be in. It really sucks. You know ahead at least, are you looking for new jobs until then? Do you plan on confronting him?
>>28202768
Everybody man. The whole fucking town. Can't do jackshit about it.
>>28202937
I'm putting in for a transfer. If they don't let me go then I'm calling the union.
All my coworkers agree that I'm not a bad worker. It's just that the boss has it out for me.
>>28202745
Sometimes I like to brush my teeth without pants on. I'll flick the bristles of the wet toothbrush towards my groin until I feel a minty tingle on my dingle.
>>28202946
A town can't follow you. Probably.
>>28202960
The fact that your unionized is great for you. Follow through with it and document everything if possible. I hope the transfer works out, keep all your options open at a moment like this including new job offers, especially due to your lease situation. You seem like an honest guy, at least as far as being a worker goes, you hopefully will be treated as such. Good luck with everything.
>>28202980
I'm convinced we all do weird shit and tell no one about it. Keep flickin', man.
>>28203019
But a town can eye you down like a little fucking cockroach. Everybody here is out to fucking get me. I feel it in my bones. Everytime when I drive, go to class, go to work, go back home, I feel it. They are onto me.
>>28203051
Paranoid Schizophrenia? Or is it a small town?
>>28203072
It's a small town full of the rudest sons of bitches this side of the fucking Mississippi. Hicks and Niggers rule the town and anybody that is decent is given a death sentence.
>>28202911
thanks anon, god speed
>>28203107
>hicks and niggers
gtfo of there
>>28203107
I feel you, some sort of anti-intellectual culture prevalent among the community as a whole? That's pretty shitty. But you said you're in school. Do good, try for scholarships. Sounds like you have a good motivation to do that. You could eventually move if you keep performing. You can't change everyone like you said, you can change where you are. I wouldn't do it until it makes sense though. Once you hit university level, probably.
>>28203137
Link me your latest favorite song before you leave, I'm running out of tunes.
>>28203186
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ki-fATpXa00
if you see any anon posting this song, it's probs me
>>28203170
I'm going to a commuter college that is just like the high school I dreaded. I'm so fucking ready to get out of here. Currently building up funds now. I just don't have the patience right now.
>>28203221
Love the sound, ty.
>>28203238
Sounds like you got it all figured out. You're doing good man, hang in there. It's tough, but it's worth it.
I'm tired of being single. I want to love. Why doesn't anyone want my love?
>>28203489
where do you go to talk to grills/boys
>>28203489
Love is nice, I agree. Are you ugly? Awkward? Or happen to only have superfluous relationships?
>>28203512
I don't really go anywhere. I'm a senior in high school (blah blah you're young) and the last gf I had wasn't even really a gf. We just walked home.
>>28203519
I'm pretty awkward. I also think I'm ugly but I could probably be less ugly if I bought acne cream.
>>28203641
>>28203512
Should clarify. That was the only gf I've had. And it was 5 years ago.
>>28203641
possible to put a pic? you can't be that bad. you literally won't go anywhere if you don't go anywhere. go to a park. volunteer at a local charity store like good will or something. go to the park often and see who's regularly there. go to the local bar (if not in america)
>>28202745
just got politely rejected by a girl tonight, after she agreed to go out sometime last night.
Felt bad man, I built my self esteem up a little bit and here it goes, i'm back to looking for increasingly homosexual pornography despite not being interested in dating men.
>>28203709
Uhh I don't know if I want to do that. I have tons of pics but this is 4chan.
>>28203753
true. what do you do generally
You're young, as you said, often people will lament not being more outgoing during their high school years. As you are in high school, this is likely not to resonate with you but it is worth it to say just in case it does.
That said, it still holds truth, you can't do it from one day to the other, but confidence needs to be nurtured in order to actually be able to talk to women. College is right around the corner for you. Join a gym until then, looking good definitely helps with the whole confidence thing, As for the rest, fake it until you make. Just do it, talk to someone, it's fine, if you fail, good on you, you tried. But nothing will get done unless you just do it, no one will do it for you. I wish you luck, more than anything to find love you need to be a person who can be loved. If you aren't, you can become that person.
I'm thinking about doing this course that teaches me plumbing, hvac and i think refrigeration also and it will put me 15-18k in debt with financial aid. i'm wondering if i should do it. I really don't know if i will even like it. i usually hate everything i do
>>28203842
It's almost always good money, at least where I'm from. It's true you might hate it though. Having money on another hand, isn't so bad.
If you're looking for fulfillment however, you're right, it sounds like it isn't right for you. What would make you feel fulfilled as a profession? OR as a hobby even?
>>28203796
I can talk to girls perfectly fine, but I never know when to ask if they want to see a movie or something. As for the gym thing, I've thought about it and I really want to try it, but I think I may have a disorder..when I try and do stuff alone I get really sad and bored. I'm afraid I'll get bored and quit.
>>28203781
Talk to them for awhile. Money is tight right now and has been for several years. I'm surprised my parents can afford internet and be able to pay bills. I'd go and ask if a girl wanted to see a movie or go to the mall but when I get there and I have a paper clip and loose change I'll look like an autist.
>>28203877
the only thing i really enjoy doing is making music, but making a career out of that is hard since i'm not amazing. I really just don't know what i would like as a job. i've hated every job ive had and i can't play the life game
>>28202745
5 bar is equal to about 72 PSI
Pic unrelated.
>>28203910
That's great. And gym buddies are a thing, do you have any guy friends? You could just straight up ask any of them if they wan't to join the gym with you.
>>28203930
You're right that most musicians are not good enough to make a career out of it. It can always be a hobby. And I feel you about not finding anything that I liked. I went with the process of elimination myself. I just picked what I disliked less. What is that for you?
Also, do you have any songs you're proud of? If so, would you be willing to share? Any genre is fine.
>>28203973
Studying Chemistry? Physics? Random Thought? Did you know that the surface tension of liquids shares a proportionality with the atmospheric pressure? In fact, there is different surface tensions between different liquids, it just happens that air acts as a liquid as well.
I really have to take a piss and should probably go to bed, but I dont want to wake up and go to the DMV tomorrow.
>>28203979
I do have a few guy friends but I've asked them all and I've gotten no's. They're all unfit. I also asked a girl that I've known for a long time and she already goes to a gym with her family, which means no.
>>28203998
Engineering, currently taking thermodynamics and differential equations at the same time since I failed both of those classes last term. I really hate it here and I spend most of my time alone.
>>28203979
https://soundcloud.com/realityhasgotyourneck
this is all i have made. im really limited on instruments so the only real instrument your hearing is the guitars.
also have to digitally record everything since i dont have a microphone set up and stuff hence the reason why i want a job.
I've only had retail jobs and i know those suck so much compared to other jobs, but i just don't see myself liking any job. i've never liked putting up with shit that i don't have to do really. Sometimes i just don't care enough about my life to do some bull shit job
>>28204026
Im the guy looking for love but wow. I really like your music. It's acctually really good in my opinion.
>>28204073
thanks. i havent been making anything because i'm pretty sure my guitar recording thingy is broking and im too poor to get another one. hopefully i can get it to work
>>28204021
Oh fun, I'm taking Thermodynamics next semester it sounds fun. Differential equations went okay for me.
Failing classes definitely sucks though, been there. What was the hardest part for each class respectively for you?
What do you hate about 'there' the most and why do you spend most of your time alone? Do you dislike being alone? Any internet friends?
>>28204026
I really like it, personally, definitely within my taste. However that said, I don't think it's mainstream enough to make a lot of money out of it. I could be wrong though, have you uploaded it to youtube and advertised to see if you get some ad revenu?
And you've only had retail jobs like you said. Dealing with people is definitely down there as far as jobs go. You should try something where you don't talk to customers for something immediate. Then in the future something related to music? (sound engineering, technician etc.)
>>28204102
i wouldn't say its good enough to make money. i'm waiting to upgrade my stuff before i get to that and do proper recording. at the moment i only have 1 instrument and am not recording with microphones so it doesn't sound as good as it could in my opinion
>>28204124
Yeah fair enough, you want the best quality possible for your debut. Go for it though, I like it, I don't doubt many other people will like it, I think a very important part of that will be getting exposure, maybe a friend who studied in marketing can help you with the best social media route to get your music out there? Posting to reddit, /mu/ etc.
>>28202745
Fucking tripcodes.
I posted mynearwet dream but noone putting respekk in my thread.
>>28204817
What's a near wet dream?
>>28205297
A dream obviously charged sexually but you wake up on an incipient climax.
I am overreacting about everything
I feel like I am constantly drunk
I let myself be pushed around even though I proudly state otherwise
I hate my bad teeth
and I am being kept around as validation for someone I love
>>28205408
I've never had a wet dream. Am I a failure as a man.
>>28205674
You know everything that's wrong, but you're not doing anything about it? Why is that? Minus the teeth I guess, that's just shitty, can't be helped unless you're making good $.
>tfw you wake up in the middle of the night and have no sense of direction and have no idea where the fuck you are for a good 5 seconds
This ever happen to you guys?
>>28205705
There isn't anything I can do because I can't change other people
I don't know I just needed to vent a little bit
I'm trying to find the perfect trip.
>>28205727
Love the image to go with the post. lol. No not really though, how does it feel when you pop back into your senses?
>>28205762
Venting is good. Glad it helps just a little to talk about things.
>>28205777
Jesus Christ.
>>28205822
I don't know, you just go back to things being normal I guess. Like it just takes a few seconds for your tired brain to reload the information of your life. It doesn't happen that often but it's kind of triply when it does, I think it usually happens when I wake up from a dream
She said no.
I mean, I'm glad i asked and its good experience. But it still hurt.
>>28202745
I get more depressed each day and I can't find motivation for anything. I'm really despondent about everything what happens. Everything I try goes wrong and if not I'm not even happy about it.
My loneliness makes it even worse. No real friends, no girlfriend, not a great relationship with my family. I'm depressed about a girl and too anxious to start anything. If I think about the past and my mistakes I get sad, if I think about the future I'm scared. I always feel pressure in my stomach and breast. I don't enjoy food anymore and eat nothing but dinner anymore.
The only time I feel alright is when I'm lost in a video game or book for a few hours.
The worst is that I exactly know that I wouldn't feel better even if I had the girl of my dreams, a circle of friends and everything.
>>28202745
I think my old therapist misdiagnosed me with Asperger's, and I think my current psychiatrist suspects I have schizoaffective disorder. I'm not sure if I'm happy that I'm not grouped in with the 'tism or happy that this is my ticket to legit NEETbux, but either way I'm happy.
