>tfw havent had a single friend since 7th grade
>tfw never had a gf or had sex/kiss
>tfw never even had the chance to beta orbit because i cant even get to the point of becoming friends with a girl
>only going to a cc three days a week and am averaging a few sentences of small talk a month
>never had a job and have somehow i have managed to procrastinate nearly a whole year to get a job (havent even finished one application for a mcjob in a year)
>literally done nothing but browse this shithole for hours each day for the past year
when going gets tough, just bring someone in your basement and you will never be alone again.
>tfw havent had gf since 7th grade
I have the relationship skills of a 13 year old
>>28157146
you might be joking, but i am slowly losing my grip on reality from the isolation.
i am starting to fear for myself and others.
please make the demons go away
>>28157167
Not joking m8. what is your age?
going will get tougher and tougher.
conditions will not improve and anybody won't have a reason to associate with you.(unless you are a rich guy or do some good paying job).
Your social skills are already nil and won't improve.
either bring a QT or somebody whom you hate and let the fun begin in your basement.
then do something about it holy fuck
keep talking to people, make goals of having at least one conversation with someone in class; it can be about anything, then build from there. you LEARN how to be social by fucking socializing so if you want a fuckhole so bad then you gotta start talking to some
also
>tfw falling in love with a character in a book you're reading
>>28157167
talk to us anon. we are here for you. socialise on the internet where its safe.
>>28157225
18 but i dont feel as though im a lost cause just yet.
at least thats what i tell myself to stop me from killing myself. but if i could just get a job where i might meet some people and get experience talking to people i think it might be a step in the right direction.
>tfw haven't had a friend in as long as I can remember
>tfw still pining for a girl who broke my heart a long time ago
>tfw spend my free time drinking cheap liquor and listening to depressing music
>tfw seriously consider drowning myself most nights
Thinking I might get a dog soon. The companionship might help me through this but at the same time I don't want a 10-15 year commitment to not killing myself.
>>28157290
what about college, m8?
18 is nothing, there is still time for the basement plan.
>>28157290
workplace is generally pretty good for socializing. you get a group of people with a common goal who hate something that you also hate (their job) so you automatically have something in common.
>>28157304
puppers are nice and if you want to check out, you can get them to a pound where they will at least be cared for.
>>28157315
i am in college but its a community college and i just go 3 days a week for a couple hours and then im gone. difficult to make connections there.
>>28157360
yea community college is awkward. its easier to make friends in real college. i dunno why. it just seems to be that way.
>>28157350
Yeah, I guess. I'll have to read up on breeds and find out what kind I want. I'm fond of corgis but I might go for a bigger dog who will let me lay my head on him and cuddle him and cry into his fur when it gets to be too much. I've spent my whole life telling myself I like being alone but I just can't take the pain of it anymore.
>>28157360
don't focus or force the social connections part, m8.
just pay attention to college and try to get a good paying job. Try some hobbies.
Bitches will follow.
>>28157389
shoot for a mid sized dog. small ones are annoying and big ones can be an absolute mess if you dont train them right.
their unconditional love is worth all the picked up poo.
>>28157429
What breeds are considered mid-sized, just for an example? That way I can work from there. I'm not savvy enough to know where the line between mid and big or small and mid is.
>>28157389
also being alone can be great if you are a good friend to yourself. but thats a lot harder than it sounds. Ive been working on it for quite some time and i still have a lot of self loathing.
>>28157467
For a long time I at least thought I was okay alone. The last 5 years or so have been unbearable, though.
>>28157453
well lets use corgis for example. you probably want something a bit bigger. maybe 10 pounds more
http://dogtime.com/dog-breeds
this website shows all of their personalities. could be of use.
>>28157482
5 years is a long time
>>28157502
Yeah. Been alone about ten now, give or take. Thanks for the link, I'll check it out and write up a list for myself.
>>28157132
Kinda dealing with pic related myself right now.
Feels bad, man.
>>28157520
I would suggest a french bulldog. They are small, but they are super intelligent and have a knack for being really entertaining...like they are putting on a show for you. I find it endearing and it means more interaction for you.
>>28157522
I understand the need for sexual validation but why do so many people invest their happiness in women? thats one of the worst places to look for happiness.
>>28157132
>the have "friends"
>can't tell if they're actual friends or not
>too paranoid after all the betrayal and lies in my life
>can never trust anyone
>social skills have suffered
>can't have a normal conversation
>can't look at people
>feel their judging eyes
>scanning my every flaw
>my shit hair, asymmetric face/ears, nlmy forced smiles, my dead eyes
>I don't know what to do anymore
>drained, tired all the time
>procrastinate work
>skip half the semester
>no one knows who I am in class when I do go
>teachers don't recognize me
>don't care
>don't
>care
>want to die
>>28157578
I'm really starting to realize that now.
>>28157522
ouch... that one hurts. You find someone that might understand you but you find out they have hundreds of facebook friends, multiple exes, friends they go out on the weekends with.
>>28157603
Find happiness in yourself and women will sense that and come around and try to ruin it all for you. its just the way of the world.
>>28157598
you think you might be slightly paranoid schizophrenic? Sounds like thats possible.
>>28157598
how old are you? people usually break schizo in their 20s. were you always like this? could just be social anxiety.
>>28157598
you all faggots miss the trick and raise the normies to the pedestal.
almost same problems as you but never skipped studying.
always consider normie stuff to be stupid or inferior(most of the cases it is true).
this comes handy when i talk them with gazing deep in their eyes and ripping apart their stupid logic and statements.
they think i am based as fuck, always effiecient in work, sound logic and who doesn't pay attention to them because they are stupid.
If you are not confident, try your best to feign it.
>>28157633
Dude, I don't know. All I know is I can't trust anyone after the shit my parents and "friends" have put me through over the years. I'm not imagining this stuff, it all happened
>>28157697
ah. its probably just family issues man. i know its hard but try to remember there are good people out there...maybe just not around you right now.
>>28157693
fake it till you make it.
>tfw stuck on disability ever since being hit by a car
>tfw suffered brain damage and lost my left leg from the thigh down, as well as assorted breaks and such to most of the left side of my body
>tfw living with my little sister because our parents are dead and I can't be alone anymore
>tfw not even 30 and I'm already doomed to a life of being a burden on everyone
>>28157690
I turned 20 a month ago. I don't think I'm schizo. I know they did this shit to me. I came to the realization, after self reflection on my 2 decades of life, that it's their fault I'm a fuck up. I didn't have proper guidance. No kid can properly guide themselves through life 100% on their own. So, I trusted them and they manipulated me to their own ends
>>28157755
that sucks man. I got tbi myself. are you experiencing the irritability yet? it sucks
>>28157760
I agree. parents can fuck up a kid for life. There really should be licenses for raising a kid.
>>28157598
literally me
also im a failed tranny
i'm a schizophrenic hon
this is not how I thought my life would turn out
>>28157619
>tfw have a qt girl in my class that has no facebook, no twitter that i could find(and i used a lot of different tactics), and no record anywhere online
>tfw she is extremely shy
>tfw one of the only girls ive ever seen that isnt on her phone while waiting for class to start, just sits there silently for 10-15 minutes
>tfw feel like she is that 1/million waifu material girl for various other reasons too which i wont get into
>tfw semesters almost over and i will probably never see her again unless i happen to have a class with her or see her in the halls
>tfw she looks at me a lot but i know that i will never have the balls to talk to her even if a good situation arises somehow in the next couple weeks
>>28157132
This describes me except I go to cc 5 days / week and have a shitty job. Jesus Christ.
>>28157822
are you doing anything to help yourself? have any favorite coping mechanisms? Meds can even out schizo, one of my best friends is a paranoid schizophrenic.
Stop acting like a cool kid schizophrenic
>>28157783
I was always irritable. It mostly affects my motor skills and thinking. A lot of signals from my brain to my hands get mixed up, I forget a lot of things, and depending on the day, I have trouble stringing two thoughts together. I get stuck on words a lot while typing, too. Like I know how it's spelled by my hands keep fucking it up. Can't really walk very well anymore, either. The prosthetic is great but I had to buy a cane too. Can't ride my bike anymore so that got sold. Can't bowl anymore so all my bowling stuff is gone. Can't play fighting games anymore so I don't go to the local tournaments anymore. Sometimes I take a drive out to the bowling alley on a Sunday morning anyway, though. Buy a coffee and watch my old team play, catch up with them, that kind of thing. Get lunch while I'm there and stop at Tim Horton's on the way home, just like I used to. Kind of surprised I can still drive properly, honestly. I guess that's mostly muscle memory for me, and there's not a lot of fine finger movement so it's not too bad.
>>28157843
talk to her man! the worst that could happen is that she says no. besides, its good experience for socializing.
>>28157871
you sound like you got it a bit worse for me. I have trouble with memory mostly. just a bit worse coordination.
I have realized that my main coping method is to simply not care about anything. A girl came along that I cannot help but care about and I'm not handling it well. How does one cope with actual feelings?
>>28157850
i'm not on any medication right now senpai
there are no brakes on this train
>ywn live in the pokemon world
>ywn have a secret sexual relationship with your pokemon
Why even live
>>28157902
I'm not really sure if it affected my memory. That was always pretty bad. I'll walk into a room and forget why I went in there, but I can't honestly say if that's the brain damage or just me.
>>28157911
expressing them. you have to find an outlet or it all builds up and turns to depression. I write in a journal. it sounds pretty gay, but it helps me get my feelings sorted out and expressed. even if it is just only to myself.
>>28157929
sometimes that happens normally. if it happens more than a few times a week its probably an issue.
>>28157290
Not a lost cause at all m8. I was a complete edgy friendless sperglord khv metalhead when I went to college at 18 in a different state. Had sort of a trial by fire where I could either learn to fake normality or get progressively more unhappy. I'm 24 now and have gone pretty much full normie.
There's still hope anon. You're too young to give up just yet.
>>28157914
well good luck man. if you change your mind about it, it really does help
>>28157969
I'd say a couple times a week. That's just how I've always been. It really varies from day to day. I felt pretty sharp today. I went for groceries and remembered everything I needed.
>>28157911
i just ignore feelings now
i'm totally detached from life but at least nothing gets to me
>>28158008
yea, some days are better than others. do you know of any medications that help? ive got some neurotropics that are in the mail that i think might help me.
>>28158065
Not really. They tried a bunch with names so long I could never pronounce them with me, and none really did anything.
>>28158079
I was offered meds when I got back from iraq but I felt i was well enough to function without. good to know they seem to be pointless anyways.
>>28157902
i dont know what to say and there are no good chances to talk to her. she sits across the room and we show up for class at different times even when i try to time it to where we might be walking to class at the same time so i could talk to her. we also go different directions after class.
ive posted this feel about this grill on here before but no matter what advice i got i just know deep down its not going to happen. nothing ever changes with me. i tell myself at home i will make an effort to talk to her before the semester ends and i feel i actually am going to try for once. but as soon as i get there i just either try to forget about it or make excuses as to why i shouldnt do it today.
>>28158118
well i would say either give it up and move on or strategize a way into her life. a lot easier said than done, i know. I would suggest just going up to her and asking her for her number.
Don't be apologetic, just feign confidence. Be like "hey, i think you are pretty, can I get your number?" and hand her your phone. Handing her your phone part is important. do it on the last day of class so if you sperg out you dont have to see these people agian.
>>28157132
>tfw you do something for 10-20 minutes and lose interest
>repeat for the entire day
What do I even do with myself
>>28158180
the problem is this girl is a quite a bit different and difficult to read and im not sure the whole chad pua type thing would work on her. shes kinda artsy/naturey and stuff, dont know how to describe it. she would probably be offended by that unless you are like a 10/10 chad then she might subconsiously make an exception.
i know i cant go for the friend approach because ive read enough beta orbiter shit here. i know i will have to ask her out basically the first time i talk to her but i dont think opening up with that will work for her specifically.
what i had in mind (critique welcome) was if we so happened to be waiting outside of class or something i would ask her if shes ready for summer and then ask what shes doing and if shes taking any summer classes like i am and then go from there. if it goes well and she seems remotely interested in the conversation i might mention something about going to the lake over the summer and ask if she wants to go and ride bikes or something. if she says yes then i ask for the number and we can plan to do something later on.
>>28158467
just fucking say hello and find common ground. stupid fucking nigger cunt.
>>28158633
nice advice there, chad.
>5 page essay due wednesday night at 11:59 pm
havent even started
>>28158667
stupid fucking cunt. i am a complete aspie surrounded by degenerates(i live in california.) i would kill to be in your current position. don't fuck it up. fucking stick niggers in gators. this is your only chance. dont fuck it up, talk to her NOW!
