What is your deepest, darkest secret?I don't have one
>>28148094
Pretty sure I accidently killed a hobo a few years ago
>>28148166
Were you one of those bumfights kids?
>>28148094
like fat chicks
I hugged my pillow and cried while thinking of a girl and did so regularly. I don't cry about it anymore but I still hug it while daydreaming about her
That i love spaghetti
>>28148094
I have men tits.
>>28148166
Story time anon
Blocbloxbloxjjjj
I've pretended to be schizophrenic for 9 years to collect neetbux and play the perpetual victim because I'm a lazy and want everything handed to me. I am extremely entertained by pretending to be crazy around people, it's fucking hilarious to me to confuse people and then accuse them of "Just not getting it man." I'm prescribed a bunch of pills that I never take because I know I don't need them, and if shit gets too real or I'm ever found out I have enough pills saved up to literally kill my whole family. I don't feel bad about it at all.
>>28148094
>space jin
I'm sure you have a secret anon.
>>28148094
A girl left her jacket at my house once so I kept it and sniffed it to remind me of her.She was 8
>>28148293I do have one. It's unrelated to the artist and I dare not say it here. It's not illegal, but I'm not at all comfortable saying it. Don't bother asking what it is, I'm not saying.
>>28148292
And how much do you spend on medication?
>>28148338
baito desudesu
>>28148094
I own a sex doll.
Paid $2.1k for it
>pic related
>>28148292
you're better off overdosing on tylenol than antipsychotics dude
>>28148353
literally nothing, because insurance
>>28148094
Nope not me, It's not much of a story.
>Back when I used to be a junkie (coke and ketamine mostly) I liked walking around really late at night
>One night walking around completely fucked up on really good coke
>Some drunk bum comes up to me starts to ask me for cash
>Don't have any
>Hobo starts to get angry, getting in my face telling me to give him whatever I have
>Tell him to fuck off
>He slaps me
>Something snaps in my head probably due to the drugs
>Start beating the SHIT out of him
>Not even thought out punches just start hitting him as hard as I can as much as I can
>After something like 5 minutes I snap out of it
>Hands are bloody, hobo is on the floor not moving, blood everywhere
>I check to see if he's alive he's not breathing
>Freak out and run home as fast as I've ever run
>Hide out in my appartment for like a week
>No cops show up or anything
>Quit drugs cold turkey never touched the stuff again
It was a shitty town and they probably thought he got beat up by a random thug or something. It made me clean and I'm still pranoid about it getting back to me
I used to watch cheese pizza once. It was a long time ago. But I'm not a pedo per say.
Iunironically like Fallout 4
>>28148373
Did they not have a flat chested model?
>>28148373
timestamp fagWhat's her name?
>>28148385
How the fuck do you have insurance when you're on benefits? where you live?
>>28148381
am prescribed benzos as well, because of "insomnia" 1mg daily lol. Great for the ol' sedate and stab maneuver
>>28148388
Meant to quote>>28148205
>>28148250
Originiggeriginal
Probably that I fap to loli. Not exclusively, I fap to plenty of vanilla stuff and 3D. Don't even like traps. But goddamn I love loli doujins and hentai.
I've wanted to kill myself for three years now, ever since I was 16. Being 19 now I've got friends who used to try to get me better, but I didn't want to
Now that I want to, they don't invite me to anything. The worst thing is I knew it'd happen
>>28148456
>I've wanted to kill myself
Your on /r9k/ here buddy pretty sure that same secret could be said for 90% of us.
>>28148388
they probably didn't investigate because he's a hobo. poor guy.
>>28148421
murrika. I'm legally incompetent and exist on my father's health insurance which is stellar. So I collect neetbux because I "cannot work" as well as sit /comfy/ under the care of my inattentive parents.
>>28148481
So you pretended to be schizo and they fell for it. Damn. You should sell your meds I bet you'd earn some good additional cash.
I have gay thoughts and urges daily.
>>28148476
I did feel real bad for it for a long while. Now whe I give my change to homeless bums when I see them it's almost a pavlovian thing
I have a mother
>Told everyone she died of cancer years ago
>Actually she is alive
>When my parents divorced I choose my father
>He needed me more than her
>Also she was an unfaithful manipulative bitch
>She constantly harassed my father to get more money
>Even when he was unemployed and didn't own anything in their marriage
>She kept calling me, lying about her health to get me back, stalking on the social media
>In fact she is ashamed to tell her friend she doesn't know what I'm doing
>My father died of cancer due to lack of heealthcare, he drowned in his own blood when a vein located near the tumor exploed
>I tried to reanimate him until the ambulance came, then I mop up the blood
>Everybody think my father AND my mother died
I will never talk to my mother again because I want her to suffer the shame of loosing a children and I don't want her to be happy about my father death
I've never told this story to anyone and I never will, not my girlfriend, not my future wife and certainly not my future children
I am a mostly closeted gay guy who has done lewd things with my friends when drunk.
Also I've found out a lot of straight guys have jerked off with their friends when younger. Weirdly I've never done that.
>>28148570
How gay? Elaborate upon them.
>>28148647
>See guy
>Glance at crotch
>Feel myself get a semi
Fuck no god damnit no
>Be talking to guy
>Suddenly think he would be nice to cuddle with
>Wish he would flirt with me and make me feel qt
>Wish he would take me to a secluded area and tell me to suck him off
Fuck what the fuck am I thinking god fucking damnit
>Go to take a piss
>Pissing in urinal
>Start to get a boner while I'm pissing
>Thinking about a bathroom gangbang
What the fuck that's just disgusting stop it brain!
s-stuff like that
>>28148749
I got a semi just from reading that, are you a qt?
>>28148749
you sound totally gay
desu
>>28148818
I think I'm qt but I'm kinda tall 6' and have somewhat broad shoulders, but am athletic and act like a total fairy when I'm left on my own desu.
>>28148400
They have smaller chest models. But I like big tits.
>>28148408
Currently at work. But I post all the time. Here's an old timestamp pic.
>>28149015
What's her name?desu
>>28148942
You sound like me anon, good luck out there
>>28148094
>Had a friend as a child we watched porn together and we eventually had anal sex and i sucked his dick
>Killed my neighbors fish by taking them out of the pond and smashing their heads into stones/ shot a tweety bird dead/ shot a lizard dead.
>teabagged someone while they where sleeping
>have a mother/son incest fetish, i think it stems from feeling like a never had a mom to take care of me
>have avpd
>flinch a lot because my older brother would beat me up
>have a very hard time opening up to people because im afraid of rejection
>>28149069
I would be interested in being friends with you.
>>28149042
Leah.
Original af.
I tell people my favorite color is bluemy favorite color is purple
>>28149142
>who /devilish/?
>>28149046
Thanks anon I appreciate it
originul
>>28149097
How tall is she?
Where'd you get her from?
>>28149142
when people ask why I have no gf I tell them I'm gayim not
I've been dating a girl since she was 13 and did subtle things with her.
She's nearly 17 now and pregnant
>>28149193
140cm so like 4'7"ish
1am USA.
In about a month, I'll be ordering a new model that is 155cm. 5'0". More life like.
>pic related
>>28149097
My first crush was on a girl named Leah.
What material is she made out of?
Does it feel like real flesh or is it rubbery?
Would you say it was worth it?
>>28149180
she's still cute, i don't care what anyone says
I fucked myself in the ass with my moms vibrator
I was bullied from 9 to 16, and molested by older kids when I was like 10.
Been to 11 different schools from 9 up to now (20)
Can't tell anyone because you have to network to make it
>>28149180
Fuck she has broad shoulders.
Though it was a short man from behind
>>28148554
>schizo
>pretending
>believes hes actually sane
Maybe, you know, he's actually just legit schizo and he's delusional.
>>28149317
She is a man
Not original lmao
>>28149374
Just as I hoped.
>>28148094
>tfw your deepest darkest secret is really minor and everybody already knows but it's kind of awkward to acknowledge
I read shota or watch movies like For a Lost Soldier. I don't even want to imagine my family's reaction if they ever find out
>>28149409What is it?origionalinio
>>28149256
>My first crush was on a girl named Leah.
Mine too. Lol
>What material is she made out of?
Something called TPE. it's just silicone I guess.
>Does it feel like real flesh or is it rubbery?
Rubbery t b h
>Would you say it was worth it?
Fuck yeah. Especially for guys like me. Dolls are my fetish. They have been since the first time I saw a naked Barbie when I was like 7. I Get to fuck her unlimited times, however I want, whenever I want, why every I want, so on and so forth. Everything I fill her rubber pussy or asshole up with my cum, I get my money's worth.
I raped somebody once, and I yell "niggers!" when nobody is around.
>>28148094
3 wordsPee sitting down
I'm actually an alien here to observe the human species. Pls don't tell anyone.
>>28149499
I pee in the sink its much more convenient.
I want to indulge myself in certain foul odors. Specifically, to sniff an unclean asshole. One that's been coated with sweat and very poorly wiped, maybe with a bit of hair.
I also want to smell smegma badly, but I can't because I'm cut. It may not be easy for me to articulate precisely how badly I want to do these.
>>28149509
Are you a sexy alien?
>>28149243
>4'7"
Perfect height.
That new doll looks like shit
>tfw no loli doll
I have a folder on my PC filled with pictures of girls I went to school with. All sourced from their facebooks, twitters, Instagrams etc. Not that dark but I guess it's the thing that would ruin my life the most if anyone found out.
>>28148388
Also I have a few funny stories from when I was a druggie of anyone's interested
>>28148554
Nobody except schizophrenics would want schizo meds because they make you feel like you have the flu.
>>28149567
>That new doll looks like shit
I have to respectfully disagree
>>28149509
I promise not to tell if I can get like a spaceship or a laser gun or something
When I was younger I lied on my foster siblings to get them sent back to foster care. Fucked the female one pretty much every day.
I'm in love with my best friend. I think he figured it out though, which would probably explain why he's been ignoring me the last two days. That or he doesn't want to deal with me drunk. Either/or.
I'm not anti gay, I think gay people should be able to get married, and so on, but I am personally repulsed by homosexuality, and if I ever did something gay with someone I would kill myself.
My deepest darkest secret is I find cocks arousing. Not male bodies, not traps, just penises. I want to jerk one off.
I dont know why but i have a fascination with ugly girls i just have a fetish for ugly girls it's not that they are all i can get its just the way that i feel when i build them up to fee great about themselves and then get nudes and release them to the world
so far no one has killed themselves yet but some have been close
>>28149468
It's stupid:Sometimes I like to paint my fingernails black like an edgelord teen but I'm too old to be dressing like that in public so only do it in private. People have still smelled the acetone off me and seen some stains on my nails. I'm kind of bothered now because they might have confused it for a crossdressing kink or some shit instead of manchild fashion taste
There's a black guy who has asked me out twice already. I really, really want to take him up on the offer because he's super sweet and kinda goodlooking but my family is really racist and I don't want the only people who like me to start hating me. I'm already pushing the envelope by being gay.
>>28148094
I don't want Leicester to win the Premier League. I think they're a bunch of cunts whose owners spent vast sums of money to get them into the league, whose top scorer is literally a criminal, and who routinely flop but get favorable treatment from referees because they're such an "inspiring underdog story". The only decent guy involved with that club is Ranieri.
>>28150278
>Black guy
>Good looking
Anon
>>28148094
I once attempted to choke myself to death, just to see what the fuss was about.
Turns out, I couldn't and spent the day with neck pain everywhere, and I admitted it to my mother. I have more stories, like one time I attempted to murder a friend with a row. I think I have too many dark secrets to pick one but that one stands out the most.
>>28149589
Im interested
Ydtdufkgif
>>28148606
You are a good person anon, thank you for not letting that cunt win.
>>28150308
He is! He might be a bit mixed though but I really think he's goodlooking, he's got high cheekbones and nice lips, yet he's still too dark for my family.
When I came out the first thing my mom told me was:"at least you won't bring home a black girl."
>>28150401
Why not date him in secret? Shouldn't be that hard.
>>28148392
did you masturbate to it?
>I'm so lonely, I look online for desperate men like myself willing to jerk off while I toy my ass
>I fap exclusively to traps
>I'm in love with my male best friend
even with all that, I still want a gf
I have extremely long butthole hair but dont bother to wax anymore since I dont have sex.
>>28150440
I'm a coward. I don't want to risk my family for a potential relationship. Hell, I'm posting on /r9k/ so I have 0 confidence he'd be the one for me. I'd do better looking for some fat, abusive guy who makes fun of me for doodling pepes when I'm bored.
>>28148094
> be 7
> bored at recess
> invent "whos" and "lice" as microscopic creatures at war
> imagine twigs as battlecruisers, trees and rocks as massive cities
> imagine school as massive louse fortress
> whos are basically humans, lice are basically grey-skinned clones
> in 5th grade, whos finally blow up louse fortress, and flee to my middle school
> same thing
> after middle school, i imagine whos defending tree outside my house
> imagine snowfall as invasion of thousands of louse ships
> vacations become quests by the whos to discover ancient secrets
> lots of characters live and die, story stretches over 40 years
> i am almost 21 now, and I still imagine this story sometimes, when I go for walks late at night
> about a year ago I was walking through a college I was volunteering at, and imagined a battle I'd been building up to for months
> started writing story
> 300,000 words after a year of writing
> huge outline and blog
> way more detail than I can express in one post
> one of the only things left from my childhood
It's really autistic but it's one of the few things I have, I have some other creative pursuits but this is the most weird of them. I've never told anyone IRL about it. I considered telling a qt I was friends with but I've since stopped talking to her.
>>28150229
That's pretty mild dude. Just do what you wanna do. Bet there are some fags who would assume stuff about you though.
There used to be this guy who lived near me who would have his nails done like he went to a stylist. Like fake nails and painted. Always used to creep me out. Probably an alright guy though.
>>28150556
>>28150556
fuck dude thats some real ass shit
>>28150556
sounds neat to be honest
i wish i had something I was super autistic about, the most I have is buying weird old vhs tapes,it's my ONLY hobby
>>28150556
Thats super autistic but it's kinda cute that you're so attached to it
The fact that I have a 4 nearly 5 foot tall anime girls statue of Saber in my room. I got high as fuck one day and was cruising around the web when I found out an anime merch store was closing and having a liquidation sale. I bought it for a steal of a price of $115 and forgot about it til like two weeks later when it arrived at my house. By then the store had closed so a return was not possible. Was thinking of flipping it because other statues I've seen have sold for 200 and they were in worse shape.
>>28150556
Own it anon, you should write a comfy science fiction book about it and get published. Have you ever taken writing classes?
>>28150673
d-...
do you fuck it?
>>28148094
My gf was getting really pissed off that I was watching too much porn, so she ordered a vibrator to try and make me jealous. When it arrived she changed her mind and didn't want it anymore, told me to get a refund. So I did what any normal person would do. Wore her clothes, make up and a wig, stuck it up my ass and wanked. Then sent it back and got a full refund.
>>28150791
Is she too retarded to return it herself?
>>28149873
you can jerk me off anon
>>28150905
I could never actually do it, knowing I did something so gay would eat me up inside because I'm very concerned with masculinity and being a man.
But goddamn even since I was a teenager I just wanted to jerk a huge load out of a dick.
I lost my virginity to an old man I met on craigslist out of desperation. It was extremely degrading and I wish I hadn't done it
>>28148094
Mark my words. I'll be back later.
>>28148094
I caused a girl to try and kill herself twice. Im sorry.
>>28148094
I'm obsessed with a girl for over 6 years and I only talked to her twice. One time was a "Hi" and another time was "Is this seat taken?". I still check her Instagram, Facebook and Twitter almost daily. And I know all the highlights of her life (even the ones before the time I met her). Sometimes I fantasize about us together, but I'm well aware of how much of a creep I am. Strangely enough I barely had any erotic fantasies though.
>>28150556
Get it published. Why the fuck not? If the writing is shoddy, go through and edit it or get someone else to
>>28150935
I got a friend drunk who was also gay and kind of slutty and that was my first kiss.
>>28150688
>Have you ever taken writing classes?
Nah but I won a competition once, I often get annoyed at "real" writers' prose for having what I consider bad writing. I know that makes me sound super fedora but the point is I can write above 7th-grade-level at least. I guess I could post some of it and you could decide for yourself.
>>28150599
>>28150662
>>28150671
>>28151027
Thanks for the good wishes. My hope is to finish it (though like I said I've only finished 5% of the story in writing despite having 500 pages) and leave it behind when I die along with the hundreds of drawings I've done. Kind of like Henry Darger, if you read about him on Wikipedia. Other than possibly being semi-pedo he's a pretty cool guy, I think he'd have fit in here if he was alive.
And there is nothing wrong with collecting VHS tapes. I collect weirder stuff.
>>28150965
Story?
>>28150896
No as part of my "punishment" for wanking too much I had to buy it for her. Got my money back so it was all good. She's just one of those frigid people who won't even buy condoms themselves.
>>28150931
If you are so concerned about masculinity and being a man that means your insecurities about being gay are so strong. Just admit you are gay and live your life.
I've said this in the past two threads, so I'll do it again.
I go to rummage sales, buy little girl clothing and then only keep the panties when I get home.
I use them to fap.
>>28151176
I saw the image you posted last thread, you must cum like a horse.
I'm bi and have had more male sexual partners than females.
And the females were two escorts and a FTM.
>>28151202
>you must cum like a horse.
wat?
>>28148094
I'm obsessed with a kpop girl
>>28151138
If you want to leave it behind rather than say make money, you could just upload it all into an ebook and self publish on Amazon or something for people to find.
Fuck it, may as well do it one day. Self publish it, post it on here, see if anyone buys it, set it at like a dollar, make a little bit of money, see if anyone likes it. Or go the legit route and actually get it published. Multi-book epic.
>>28148292
You might not be schizophrenic, but you got something wrong with you. Cough* sociopath *cough
>>28151176
That is genuinely and sincerely the creepiest thing I've read here in a long time, and you should definitely consider therapy. I don't mean that as an insult either, I mean you should seriously see a therapist
>>28151138
Holy shit his book name is stupidly long that its amazing. But I guess if he had no intention of publishing it (given the content he put in) he can call it whatever he wants.
>>28151300
Why? I'm not hurting anyone. It doesn't have a negative impact on my or anyone else's life. In fact people actually get money, so I'm having a small, but positive effect on my local economy.
Better than looking at CP or something.
>>28151176
S'pose it's better than doing it to actual girls.
>>28151164
I'm not gay though. Bi at worst.
>>28151365
I literally find panties to be hotter than sex. Panty shot hentai is literally the hottest thing I can think of.
>>28151272
Same here. Who exactly?
>>28151213
The image of panties that you came on had a ton of cum on them.
>>28151138
Well. Alright.
I moved around a lot as a kid. My parents had trouble holding down a place and paying rent. The struggle man. I never really had a good friend. Anyway my dad got a better job and we ended up staying in the same school district till I graduated. I made a girl that was a friend the first day of 4th grade in the new schooling district. She taught me how to open up and stuff. We did everything together. We stayed this way till 7th grade when I got a girlfriend and she started distancing herself from me. We broke a while later, and the girl came back like we were always best friends. I didn't care desu. She was my best friend. I didn't care. 9th grade I decided she was wife material and wanted her. She accepted and we dated. 10th grade summer I found out she had a xanie problem and I broke up with her on the spot. This destroyed her and she attempted suicide the first time. Her parents got her help and she was clean. I came back to her kept it a friend thing. She kept trying to hint about getting with me. And it hurt but I couldn't. She ended up relapsing and trying to kill herself again after coming to me a drug infused rage. I haven't talked to her sense and its been about 4 years. It tears me apart. But I'm bad for her.
The sexual thoughts that get me off with the most satisfying orgasms are fantasies about me being a sissy slave cockslut.
I want to kill myself because of it.
I've considered picking a place on my body to stab/cut viciously or getting a tazer to punish myself for fapping to gay shit in hopes that it would eventually cause my brain to associate faggot thoughts with severe pain and not have them anymore.
>>28151418
I-it's because I was really excited.I was bullying another anon at the time and I told him I was fapping into little girl panties. He's a lolicon and he asked if he could see a photo of my cum in them, which was a super hot request. I-I usually don't cum THAT much...
>>28151406
Do you know Tzuyu?
And who is you obsession?
>>28151472
Scandi?
Why doesn't he post here anymore?
Why do you only bully pedos and him now?
>>28148749
Yea the answer is pretty simple.
You're gay.
>>28150965
>feeling sorry for woman
Kek
Mentioned this before, but I can't get even turned on by anything other than the idea of performing oral sex on a girl.
I don't know why. End me.
>>28151302
> But I guess if he had no intention of publishing it (given the content he put in) he can call it whatever he wants.
True. It's part of why I haven't done much effort to explain the "whos" part. Although it kind of fit in because the people don't know "who" they were or really any of their history because so much of it was destroyed.
A lot of their later journeys were to 80,000 year old ruins trying to find some clues of where they came from.
Eventually I ran out of deeper truths to reveal and it kind of became redundant so I stopped doing it as much. Now it's just a back and forth war with them trying to take over some louse super-fortresses (like my college) to use as outposts to better defend Sarengarth.
I am nearing completion of another story arc, I already know how it's going to end but I am waiting for term to be over, I am probably quitting college so it will be a good time for that superfortress to "fall" and thus end that storyline. Several major characters will likely get BTFO.
>>28151523
Eh like I care what some fag on r9k has to say.
>>28151518
Scandi isn't a lolicon or a pedo and I don't bully him often actually. I want to do it more often though.
>Why do you only bully pedos and him now?
Because it's hard for me to get off to anything else, bullyingwise.
He's basically my boyfriend.
>Why doesn't he post here anymore?
I don't know.
>>28151390
You sound just like me 6 months ago. It's a long hard road but the sooner you just accept that you might be a little bi and worrying about masculinity or coming across as "gay" and that being a bad thing the sooner you will feel better about yourself.
>>28151552
>Scandi isn't a lolicon or a pedo
I know, hence "pedos and him", they are not in the same category.
>>28151085
Bruh that was my first everything
>>28151472
Post pic pls
The robot was a mistake
>>28151581
S-sorry, I'm really high
>>28148573
Shit man, you ever see a shrink for that?
>>28151277
Self-publishing is extremely easy to do. There's really no reason not to if you just want it out there. Getting noticed though will take some degree of self-marketing. You can use their program where it's free for five days, and they promote it as free, which could get it some attention, but it will generally fall back to obscurity afterward.
>>28151473
Yes tzuyu a fucking cute.
I really like seolhyun and irene
>>28151445
Man that really sucks. I've been through bad toxic friendships with qts that ended badly even though they were nice people. But nothing like that. I hope both of you end up okay.
>>28151277
I don't know what I am going to do, honestly.
Myron is the only OG character left, because he took longevity-enhancing drugs. Everyone else either died or disappeared. Because the story takes place over multiple generations and there are multiple time skips; one in middle school of 20 years while the whos laid siege to macalavay, one after Orion's death when the Omnicide fallout forced them to stay underground for seven years, then one after Trielle and Brie died and the war kind of calmed down because the whos won a massive victory and crushed most of the louse fleet, which had already been weakened by the omnicide.
All of this happened in my head, I swear to god. It's so weird but I get feels from it, especially when listening to metal or battle music, I get a rush imagining these tiny battles, the flashes of light in the distance, the huge structures.
But anyway I plan for when I die, or get close, for the whos to finally win, or lose, and Myron to finally die at peace. He has a daughter now though so that's kind of weird since he might out live her.
>>28150556
I remember you, Anon. I've read some of your stuff a while back. You were not forgotten. I hope your life is going well.
>>28151545
Are characters based off real people?
>>28150163
u got any pics?
>>28150556
I remember you, I've seen you post about this before.
>>28151635
I used to be obsessed with Irene too.
But Tzuyu is the one that I'm always watching, I'll probably have around 300 images and gifs of her.
>>28151632
I dunno. I am trying to promote my music and stuff (separate interest) as well as some other projects I hope to make money on. But this... I'll share it with /r9k/ because /r9k/ isn't "real". I'll share it on tumblr because it's a good place to collect all the content. But I feel like if I published it, it would ruin it. Already sometimes it feels a bit lesser because I've opened up about it online. Like this was a small autistic habit from childhood that I legitimized and turned into more and more of a plot. It used to just be something I imagined most of the time, without any real structure to it, save for the overarching plot. Even now I will sometimes imagine battles without direction, since the war is taking place all over. I'll visit some made up characters who will exist for just a few days until they all die in an epic last stand. Sometimes they get incorporated into the main story.
My favorite thing is still the Icridium; it's a drug that kills you after 9 hours but makes you superhumanly agile and alert until then. So you basically become a supersoldier until you die, but if you're going to die anyway cause you're surrounded, why not shoot it in your arm and take as many of them with you as you can?
>>28150389
This may be the only meaningfuul thing I will ever do in my life and I can't tell anybody about it
thanks anon
>>28148094
I killed 37 people.
They never caught me and now I'm running for Potus.
>>28151762
Hillary is that you?
>>28151713
Shes so autistic and cute. Do you only keep up with the idols? I like some actors as well.
>>28149873
Do you understand what you said? Read it out to yourself.
>>28151784
Just the idols
>>28150562
Yeah like I said it's minor. It's just a bit awkward to be open about it. Don't need strangers staring at me nor do I feel like continually explaining it to people I know.
>>28151676
>>28151657
I'm glad I am remembered. My life going okay, as well as any robot's I guess.
And yeah I've posted about this a lot... I just like to talk about it because it's the best way I can explain it, is explaining it to other anons. I try to save my posts in a doc to accompany the story so people understand where it came from once I am gone. I'm gonna have to get a fireproof safe for this stuff. Thank god i have tons of online back ups.
>>28151668
Kind of. The story's always been a catharsis for me. When I was little and the teacher took away my pencil pieces, it was the fleet being ambushed and destroyed. Later when I had failings with women it was reprsented by one of Orion's girlfriends, or some other character, dying.
I try to match up character deaths with some significant emotional event in my life. It helps, and it helps me write the grief parts.
But then, some stuff, like Peter and Emily dying, was just the end of an era. I was leaving middle school to be homeschooled. I thought I was leaving the story of the whos behind, so them escaping Macalavay was almost the conclusion.
And then sometimes characters die for real story reasons. I like both because sometimes people just die for no reason, like in a real war, it's just sick and sad and makes no sense. But one girl will likely die in a metal-as-fuck way (bailing out of her fighter jet to escape a dogfight with the main villain, only for him to turn around and shoot her to bits while she's hanging from her parachute) because it contributes to Leo's (Orion's son) character development. Right now he is young and headstrong young admiral. He is about to get a dose of reality.
>>28150556
I would like to read it. I am really fascinated by stuff like this. Do you have a link?
I sexually groomed my 3 years younger cousin when I was 18 and slept with her one new years eve after I let her drink at the bar I worked at.
Her parents thanked me the next day for 'taking care' of their precious daughter and I was a good cousin and role model.
I slept with her a couple more times after that. Only sexual experience I had in my life. With a 15 year old female relative.
>>28150556
I've seen something like this post before.
Did you already talk about this?
>>28151912
I shouldn't find this arousing
>>28148094
I fap to futa.
Not too bad
>>28151852
What are some of your favorite songs? I'm listening to cheer up right now
>>28151900
Sure.
http://thestoryofthewhos.tumblr.com/resources
It'll take you to google drive where I have the manuscript as a PDF. Plus an outline that actually contains a summary of the whole story. Plus appendices with more info, and a ton of drawings.
>>28151973
Have you realized you are gay yet?
>>28151921
Yeah like 30 dozen times over the last two years.
I have a few other /r9k/-worthy stories but this one has been liked by some people so I share it whenever I see a "deep dark secrets" or "autistic things from your childhood" thread.
>>28149873
That's a bit odd. I have a friend who wished he had a vagina because he wanted to feel a dick inside of it... I guess it's not that weird to want to feel sex as a woman.
>>28151912
Honestly that's pretty messed up but if she turns out without mental scars who cares I guess. She probably is going to have issues later on in life though.
>>28151748
Yeah, I get what you mean. Publishing a story, or even just showing others, makes the story feel solidified. But you can always just add characters to your world and play with them... or play with the main characters. That's what I do. I might go through several versions of the current plot and until it's written down it's not set in stone.
Anyways, you're drawings are very cool and I love your passion.
I don't have anything that would be "deepest darkest" by /r9k/ standards. Obviously I'd never tell normies about my terrible AGP that dominates my imagination, or any other intrusive gay thoughts, but that sort of thing is practically par for the course here anyway. Besides I'm sure that would go away if I got laid some day right
My secret is that I actually have a insanely hairy ass and my new bf is really into anal.. this should be intresting
>>28151983
Crayon pop - FM
This is the one that I like more.
TWICE I'm always listening.
I haven't really searched more, I listen what the youtube recommendations suggest.
And what are the songs that you like more?
>>28151557
I do appreciate the advice anon, I'm sorry I didn't respond sooner.
>>28151844
The odd thing is I was raised in an extremely liberal home. Literally nobody in my family, even extended family, would bat an eye at the idea of me being gay, but for some reason I feel great shame at having the thought that I would like to jerk a penis off (besides my own I mean).
>>28152052
Probably fucked more bitches than you
I'm transgender.
But i'll never tell anyone and die with no one ever knowing.
>>28151748
Right, I get you. Like if you open up about this and share the content, all of a sudden it has to be 'quality content' while if you keep it to yourself, it can have as much inconsistencies as you want because it's for your enjoyment and as long as you enjoy it, it's fine.
You can follow a specific character that only you like, they don't have to be a well rounded protagonist etc. You can kill characters off before their arc is complete just because you don't like them, you can give your favourite characters plot armour and so forth. You don't have to consider the reader.
I'm writing a story, like a legit one and I'm still trying to get over the fear of showing it to others. I've done a lot for it but in order to edit it correctly I have to show it to others.
>>28152178
>Trying to defend himself because he jacks off to penises and was called out on it
>>28152122
Uh I have a whole playlist which I dont really want to post here. Do you have a throwaway email or something? Its cool finding people whos interested in kpoop
>>28152070
That's ... kind of it. It's more like I feel like I am doing it for the wrong reasons if I share it too much. Or that people are watching it. Or that I am raping it for what small attention whoring value it has.
It's like I am posting it on Reddit for upvotes (which I did, not for upvotes but because I didn't know anywhere else at the time), it devalues it. It is no longer a pure meaningful thing to me.
It still is and I feel so happy when I get lost in the story for an hour on a long walk. I went to volunteer at a college campus for an event and just took a walk around the campus at night, with my ipod playing "epic music" imagining a battle I'd been building up to for months.
The cold night air, the music, imagining ships swarming around me going into battle... it's this feel I can't describe, it's like "life" or "elation" but it's like a piece of my childhood is still with me, the warm summer days and that feeling of ultimate freedom.
I really can't describe the feelings in words.
> Anyways, you're drawings are very cool and I love your passion.
Thanks anon. That really truly means a lot to me.
>>28152107
What is AGP? All I am getting from google is accelerated graphics port....? Figuring it's a gay thing but I don't know what it stands for.
>>28151524
Just oral or fingering while giving oral? Would you lick your own nut out of a girl?
>>28152257
Autogynephilia. I have all sorts of trap fantasies that I'd rather not have
I masturbate to things/thoughts of things which I really, really shouldn't.
>>28151893
When did you start writing? That's a lot of memories you gotta dig into.
>>28152311
Like what anon? Be more detailed pham
>>28152257
Is it a world of tiny people or an alternate reality where they're the same size as us? Basically when you say the college is a fortress do they take over the college or is it giant, including the grass outside as some sort of forest?
>>28151993
Cool! Have you ever played tabletop RPGs? That's how I created imaginary worlds as a kid, and as an adult.
The problem now is that I no longer feel comfy pretending together with others, maybe I should try to write novels or something, but I don't have that focus.
>>28152201
That's also part of it. The first time I shared it I expected people to call it ridiculously autistc and tell me to kill myself. A couple people did but a few liked it, so I shared it again. Then I started to feel weird, like it was leaking into the real world, so I stopped for a while because I was worried I was going to ruin it. Then it subsided and I share it from time to time now.
> You can follow a specific character that only you like, they don't have to be a well rounded protagonist etc. You can kill characters off before their arc is complete just because you don't like them, you can give your favourite characters plot armour and so forth. You don't have to consider the reader.
Very true. Though, that's something I hate in Walking Dead... sometimes it is really obvious or contrived that some one is going to die. Whereas I felt the whole point of a zombie apocalypse was that people would get killed off at random.
A lot of the characters die unresolved or unfulfilled. If I did publish the story I wouldn't change that; I want it to feel like war is brutal and not every death means something. Some of the deaths I really truly regretted later; like Trielle or even Orion, but it had 'happened" and I had to live with that, just like the characters did.
> I'm writing a story, like a legit one and I'm still trying to get over the fear of showing it to others. I've done a lot for it but in order to edit it correctly I have to show it to others.
I know how you feel. I wish you luck in publishing. I know /lit/ has decent critique threads, often if you critique someone else they will return the favor.
>>28152294
Ah. Well, if you enjoy them, I don't see an issue with it.
i used to pee in bed until i was 15
I used to be a catfish before it was really a term. I was struggling with things IRL and I founded friends online, as a female character, so I pretended I was a girl like a dumbo.
This lasted from 2005 - 2008. I also catfished from 2011 - 2013 partially, not as the same 'person'
>>28152252
Sorry, I don't have.
Do you go to /hr/?
On /hr/ there's a kpop thread everytime, when something new comes out, we post there.
>>28152376
Well I guess I don't really mind it but it is definitely something I would never tell anyone. Hence it being posted in this thread
>>28152315
I wrote a ton when I was little, I wrote literally 100 pages about small people a half inch tall escaping a lab when I was 9 or so. It was really bad, of course.
The story of the whos I started writing something like 6 years ago when I was 16 or so. I had an earlier draft that I deleted (originally the story had lasers and hula-hoop lightsabers but that was such a horrible star wars ripoff I replaced them with regular guns and knives) but it was only about 1,000 words.
Honestly, the story has been so important to me that I had no issue remembering it. Some stuff I have had to retcon (like I remember imaginging in my head an "octillion" louse soldiers in elementary school, before realizing that that did not make any sense). I also changed Emily's name, which was originally amanda, because I don't like the name Amanda anymore.. I made it her middle name instead.
It's like remembering your own life, like you could tell the story from memory.
I'm attracted to my own mother. My friends know of my tendencies towards animals and children, but I think that if they knew I would be willing to have sex with my mom they would probably urge me to seek psychiatric evaluation. I occasionally masturbate to the thought of her, but I no longer feel guilt for it.
>>28152376
A bit like ASOIAF. George R. R. Martin will just kill off characters if he deems there's no way out and if it makes sense, even if their character arc is incomplete, even if it's 'unfair', even if he's dedicated a bunch of books to that character's viewpoint. Only difference is you actually write your shit rather than taking forever I guess. I wonder if Westeros was originally GRRM's autistic world for years.
Meanwhile, The Walking Dead has the same 'anyone can die' vibe but the plot armour is insane. Remember Tyreese fighting off a crowd of walkers around him with a hatchet? Then he dies two seasons later by one walker bite. Rick has insane plot armour too. Take this season for example! All the Glenn almost deaths, the episode that was all of Alexandria vs Hundreds of Walkers, no main character casualties.
>>28148631
Anal things?
>>28149069
Did he wreck your bp, before you sucked him off?
>>28152351
The second one, kind of.
It's an alternate earth much bigger than our own, with huge fortresses on it. A lot of the world I conveniently ignore, including buildings that are too "smooth"... but brick buildings have space for like tiny fortifications so they can be fortresses. I like detail; rocky fields with moss are my favorite to imagine battles in. Or yellowstone, where we went on vacation. I had an entire arc imagining yellowstone as the nuclear wasteland of the ancient who empire capital, where Orion went to learn about the origins of the war.
But it is a separate universe. The real world is just a canvas, in a way, and a shoddy one at that.
>>28152353
I play unhealthy amounts of TTRPGs. I've actually statted a lot of my whos characters in the Savage Worlds system.
I've considered making a wargame to "resolve" some of the battles but that would be a bit too weird. I might write a wargame for it just for fun, and to explain the ship combat some more. Something very minimalist without many rules.
> The problem now is that I no longer feel comfy pretending together with others, maybe I should try to write novels or something, but I don't have that focus.
Is it like the social anxiety of it? I used to have a hard time roleplaying because it felt weird to do in front of others. Even now I can't do voices without feeling like an autist, so it's just my endless droning. My players love it though.
Pic related, one of my few drawings of Orion that came out somewhat well.
Do "future" secrets count?
By the end of this week I should have the materials necessary to start recording myself fucking my fleshlight from the inside. I have to keep myself from thinking about it at work or else I'll get hard.
I'm "not gay" but sometimes fap to videos of guys fucking fleshlights and other pocket pussies, especially when it's internal and I don't have to see the dude, just the dick. Probably has something to do with my love of internal cumshots and x-ray hentai.
>>28152488
>George R. R. Martin will just kill off characters if he deems there's no way out and if it makes sense
I know this feel. Sometimes I go into a battle and I really feel like I don't know what will happen. And then a character will get into trouble and it won't make sense that even with all their abilities they will make it out. I have a weird sort of logic in my head, that there is only so much plot armor bullshit a character can get away with. And sometimes I realize they are going to die and I feel like they are trapped in dying. That happened with a lot of characters, mostly minor ones. I'd realize "oh there's no way he's getting out of this."
One example was Brie. She was one of Orion's pilots, and after he died she was part of the who victory that really crushed the louse fleet. We were walking someplace on vacation visiting my extended relatives, it was night time, some kind of outdoor museum. Brie got more and more overwhelmed trying to deliver a nuke to the louse flagship, her fighter got damaged, and she couldn't launch it. So I had the idea she would sacrifice herself and just set the nuke off once she got close enough. And that "made sense" so I had to go with it. I miss her now, she was an insanely reckless pilot who was also a bit of a slut because she was messed up in the head a bit.
Sorry I type so much, soemtimes I get started talking about this and don't know where to stop. There is just so much of it.
I put on my sister's used clothes and masturbated when I was younger. Underwear, bra, skirts, the whole nine yards.
Note that the used part actually had nothing to do with it, used clothes were just much easier to acquire than clean ones and naturally, nobody is going to notice any changes in them since they're going to be washed anways.
>>28150556
I was thinking "write a book" as I read this but you already started. Keep the plot, use different characters/things/settings though (whos and lice make it sound autistic) and get it published
>>28150547
Can you share some pepes?
>>28152488
Anyway, I got so caught up ranting on that I forgot to respond to your post.
> I wonder if Westeros was originally GRRM's autistic world for years.
I hope it was. I hope the same thing about Middle Earth. I'll never really comparable to those guys but it still feels good to know I am not alone, and that people who are like me are famous.
> walking dead plot armor
I agree on all points. I understood the "point" of Tyreese dying but I felt it needed to be more drawn out, having them fight a ton of zombies and have him really be worn down before losing and getting bit.
The episode where Glenn "died" excited me because it shocked me. I was sad the qt got eaten though, I was hoping she'd become a main character.
>>28152474
Yeah dude you should seek help for that. I hate to be the moralfag but that's worse than animals or pedophilia in my opinion, at least in terms of the thoughts.
>>28152713
>nobody is going to notice any changes in them since they're going to be washed anways.
Sometimes that doesn't work. Be careful anon, although I guess you don't do it anymore so it doesn't matter.
>>28152067
Talked to her last month, she's a slut and asked did I want to "relive old times" I think I brokered herI said yes and she laughed at me and said maybe another time
>>28151470
The more you find something a taboo, the more you'll get sexually aroused by it
You can either accept the fetish, or selfdestruct
>>28152775
>Talked to her last month, she's a slut and asked did I want to "relive old times" I think I brokered her
Sounds fun.
> I said yes and she laughed at me and said maybe another time
Oh....
Sorry anon.
>>28152737
>Keep the plot, use different characters/things/settings though (whos and lice make it sound autistic) and get it published
I dunno if I want to publish it, as I said above. I am trying to change the names, though. I tried "nits" for the whos and left lice as is. Honestly the names are so ingrained in my mind I don't think i can change them.
>>28151655
Late reply. But thank you kind anon. I hope you have a nice rest of the day.
>>28152763
I've been to a therapist for other things, if you aren't hurting yourself or others they can't really help you. It doesn't make me dysfunctional either, it's not like I express it to people or feel guilt for it. It's just a strange part of me that I accept as a psychological quirk.
>>28148094
I'm a necrophile, but almost all of my friends know that
>>28152857
You too.
>>28152807
>The more you find something a taboo, the more you'll get sexually aroused by it
Sad but true.
>>28152861
Ah well. Well if it doesnt hurt anyone else I guess it's okay. Like I said, I should stop being a moralfag.
>>28152283
Either or.
I would not probably though. Have never had sex though so I dunno.
>>28152817
Literally all I have to do to get laid is invite her to a club. Any club, but it feels cheap and shit.
She definitely looks better now than she did then, trouble is she knows it, she's not the innocent girl I fed vodka and teased until she couldn't say no anymore
>>28152849
Maybe have some strange alien spelling for the same words?
>>28151470
just fucking stop repressing mate, embrace it, you can become a qt grill
I'm almost 20 and have never had a job.
I'm so ashamed
>>28152979
Are you in school?
I have Antisocial Personality Disorder (the name of the disorder that makes you a legitimate psychopatch/sociopath)
In class I always look at the hottest girl in class and daydream her in some fantasy shit I created and blank out for the whole entire class.
>>28148606
>I tried to reanimate him
Jesus style or Herbert West?
Sorry about your dad, dude.
I want to ride a loli's asshole restlessly until my dick breaks.
>>28152999
Not yet
Mute me roboto
I wore a pair of my mom's panties and one of her bras when I was home alone one day.
Not really sure why I did it but thinking about it always makes me feel a little ashamed.
>>28152849
Huh, you do you I guess. Definitely publish it though. With an editor, I'm sure you could write some great shit. If your life isn't looking up now, or if it is, being a published author gets you a lot of respect and is a great achievement/pastime. Go for it. Don't be afraid of being judged, I can tell you from personal experience that doing that will get you nowhere. Also, never get discouraged. I know I sound like a cliche faggot right now but it's true. Also, the only reason I suggested changing the premise was to appeal to adults, because it might limit you to an audience of kids (unless you want that). But you can totally still write a book that would have just as strong of an appeal to adults that on the outside could look very childish. I've seen some cool stuff done like that.
>>28153066
I stole my sister's clothes one time and wore them. I didn't even jack off in them, I just hung out and played video games for a few hours and put them back. It felt good
>>28152920
That's a possibility. I already gave the louse a "true name" of Dhomezi (and that's how some of the other nations of whos refer to them as) whereas "lice" is their "vulgar name"
I explain the names to some degree, and "whos" is very rarely brought up in the story as most of them belong to some faction or another (the Sarengarthians or the Enkarrans or the Pautarians or the Kamenians) most of which I invented in the last few years. So the name "whos" comes up very rarely in the story.
But I agree that is one barrier ... I've considered labeling all the whos the "Nyara" but even that feels like an unfitting name. The names are such ingrained parts of the story's identity it feels hard to remove them. Not that your point isn't legitimate, though, because it very much is.
Another weird thing is, I never actually named Macalavay and Woebarren til I started writing the novel. I never gave an actual name to those fortresses. Sarengarth had a name but that was a discarded name for my D&D world, so I used it for the tree city instead.
>>28152892
Good luck. Just try not to hurt her too much. I say that not as a white knight but just because I feel empathy for people with issues like that. Sometimes they depend on weird things and get set off by weird things because of their emotional problems. Just be careful to not really break this qt or make her hurt herself. She's a person, too.
>>28153072
I'm trying to work on another of my childhood stories, about little people hiding from humans, with all sorts of odd steampunk technology. (1) I might actually finish it and (2) I might be able to make it appeal to adults, it has themes of the inevitability of nature in it and stuff. I also am trying to write a story for Asimov science magazine.
For this story though I would rather remain faithful to it. I don't think it would have a huge amount of appeal anyways. It just needs to exist as is, how it "happened."
Thanks for the advice though.
>>28152807
That's the reason I bounce around between fetishes, because after a while they just seem normal.
>>28152571
Do you write the lewd stuff in your world? :3
>>28153256
A bit... there are some sex scenes, but usually only when important to the story. A good bit of the characters interaction is pillowtalk between the main characters. There are a decent number of couples so it makes sense. And that usually makes it into the novel, if I write that part in.
But there's really only like one or two explicit sex scenes in the entire thing. And people say "fuck" and "shit" once in a while, but not very much. The lewd stuff is more meant to support the story but admittedly it's a bit hard to not fantasize a little about some of the qt characters.
>>28152979
kek, I didn't get a job until I was 24.
>>28153072
To be honest tons of childish stuff gets an adult appeal. MLP, Transformers etc. Even childrens books like Harry Potter. I cant remember the name but some book agent said that Children's Novels are far more deep than adult novels these days. Adult novels deal mostly these days in issues like simple love or 'will I fit in' or lame attempts to be deep by having philosophical drawl out of nowhere. Childrens novels deal with it straight up. Prejudices, fear, life purpose.
>>28153225
I notice you don't capitalize whos like you do other race names or faction names.
>>28153225
You sure seem to like little people hiding in our world.
>>28153436
>I cant remember the name but some book agent said that Children's Novels are far more deep than adult novels these days
Probably because they adhere more to the Heroes Journey type of story that appeals so much to people.
I wouldn't entirely agree with the statement, but it does have some merit. It really depends on the circumstances.
>>28153459
I guess cause it's almost a word to me... I do sometimes capitalize it but it's almost like "humans" to me... they are a separate species.
It also has taken a bit on its own definition because the whos don't know who they are. It's like when people on 4chan call someone unpopular or not famous a "literal who". Every time I see that it reminds me of this..... I didn't get the idea from here, it was when I was writing and Peter and Emily are still living the valley with no idea the war even exists, Emily says "That's why we're called whos, I guess. Because we don't know *who* we are."
There is an actual backstory to where the whos came from, that is very interesting and kind of fitting. It has been partly revealed in the story but not fully. I think if someone read the scenes where it comes up, they could figure out what's going on in their own head.
>>28149570
>that
>ruining your life
Wow you're really far from reality.
I have jerked off almost exclusicely to creep footsge of my little sister thr last few months
>>28153493
I do. That's a whole other can of worms. Used to make people out of twist ties, take them with me and imagine them fighting bugs or just trying to survive doing parkour jumps from one person to another.
I have been developing it better since then, but not nearly as much as the whos story. Hopefully I will work on it more soon. That story is far shorter, I could probably do it in 75,000 words. Outlined a rats-of-nimh-esque lab escape story, has some good memorable characters.
>>28153647
1) how old and (2) what kind of footage? Sad as it sounds it kinda depends.
>>28153730
She is 16 now but I have footage ranging. back to a year ago, its mostly her showering and changing, got one vid of her masturbating too but its such a bad angle unfortunately
>>28150556
>>28152353
I'm the same in that I'm an escapist, not just an escapist but a dreamer, so I get lost in a bunch of imaginary worlds.
As a kid I used to imagine all sorts of stuff going on around me, specifically in car rides and played pretend a ton. I think every kid does this though and it's a massive shame that this gets lost with a ton of people as they get older, especially these days with technology and early maturation.
These days I don't do that, I just imagine epic moments, big battles or sad stuff depending on what music I'm listening to. I think everyone secretly does this when alone, though.
I guess the big autistic thing that I do, that's also a secret, to keep with the thread, is that in order to go to sleep, I imagine I'm in another world and just living it. Usually it's not something too energetic or intense, it's just peaceful stuff. I used to have sleep issues but these solve it. The three worlds I use, depending on how I feel that night are:
>A fantasy world. It's kind of a typical fantasy world that has low magic, humans are the only big civilized race. Technology is around 1600/1700s though. Kind of a gothic world with a bunch of supernatural, haunting, monsters outside the cities. I am an Alchemist and I dream about doing experiments as I sleep. It used to be in a castle for a duke of some sort, but now my guy owns a cozy little store. This is the world I've tried writing but didn't get far. It's a bit of a stereotypical supernatural fantasy. Fable-esque and dark fantasy and stuff.
>The other world is our world but it's invaded by parasitic alien beings that have pretty much scorched the earth, humanity's went underground in some advanced tunnel/vault system similar to fallout. However, the alien's government has also collapsed. So while they're scattered on the surface, basically also living a post-apocalyptic life, humanity is also rebuilding below the surface. This is the one I sleep to the most.
>>28153373
>tfw you got to live the dream
>tfw my dad is an old man in construction so I have to help him
I don't think I'll ever advance past a helper for a couple more years. I don't mind, and I don't care.
>>28153791
Hey these are cooler than mine desu. I particularly like the second one, a bit like Metro. Post-apocalypse is so comfy to imagine, especially travelling with a qt. I sometimes imagine fall-out esque travels with a qt in faded color clothing and an AK-47, fighting weird cthulu mutants and stuff.
>These days I don't do that, I just imagine epic moments, big battles or sad stuff depending on what music I'm listening to.
Me too. Makes me feel great I'm not alone in this. Do you sometimes get these ASMR-like frisson tingles when you are realyl caught up in it? Sometimes I get a real rush.
> I think everyone secretly does this when alone, though.
I agree. I've caught my brother doing it years ago but he never did after a while. Dunno what it was, he just seemed to imagining something.
> I think every kid does this though and it's a massive shame that this gets lost with a ton of people as they get older, especially these days with technology and early maturation.
I agree. If I had kids I wouldn't let them have vidya til age 12 or so. Real playing is more important, and honestly way better than vidya at that age.
>>28153436
Fair point, but the examples attract adults who watch/read them because of/with their kids. Also, MLP is a terrible example, because the adults that watch it are gross sweaty neckbeards. When I say appeal to adults, I mean something an adult would pick up while browsing a book store or something like that
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>I have three roles in this world. The first is simply myself, infected with one of the alien parasites. However, I'm a rare occurance known as 'merged' where the parasite does not take over the body and mutate, but instead merges with the person. The fight of dominance between the two minds does not matter, instead they become one being. Seeing both sides of the coin, they then get to willingly choose a side, or maybe neither. I chose the human's side. I'm living under work and I do repair work of salvaged tech, due to my knowledge of alien tech. Although the merged are often judged, I've gained the respect of most of my crew. The other role is the vault's AI system, simply monitoring the crew, it can activate a floating drone that wanders around the tunnel. The third is a person who lives on the surface, used to be human, but has mutated due to alien viruses. He's slim and slender but a vicious, ugly, killer. He has retained his human mind but been driven to survival instinct. He lives in a techno cave and is pretty powerful. He's docile so long as you don't mess with him.
>The third world is an asian inspired world, similar to Princess Mononoke. In a big tree like fort on the top of a hill, looking over a small village. Inside the tree fort is a god like being that people in the village and some outside of it worship. They visit to him to prayer, ask advice, and some go on pilgrimages to here. I am the guardian of the fort, usually floating around it. I look a little like Bard from LoL and can do all kinds of magical shit.
Yeah, I imagine one of these worlds when I go to sleep. Mega autistic but it's super comfy and relaxing and I go to sleep every night.
I also write. I want to be some sort of creator when it comes to a dream job. Writing books, video games, tv shows, movies, comic books. I just wanna be a story teller of some sort. Mostly books and comics. However, every time I try to write I come to a blank and I take forever to write something.
>>28153225
I feel bad and blame myself for how she turned out. I've told her if she wants to talk about anything I'm here to listen but she has yet to ask me
>>28153971
It's difficult to get a fully fleshed out story on paper with it making sense.
Finally, (holy shit three posts. I claim I take forever to write yet I gush over this stuff. It's easier to explain the world than write it) I roleplay a lot. Forums, MMOs, I've done it since 2008. Can be pretty fun but elitist.
So there you go. I guess from the sheer amount of stuff I've typed up for it, my big secret is I'm a creative autist.
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anon, just seeing these pictures is giving me feels. I can't imagine going through a story for twenty years and witnessing all the triumph, heartbreak, happy, sad, and everything else you put into your story. I dont care if its autistic, thats some deep shit
>death of trielle
>trielle linara handgun
i dont need these fucking feels anon. how many times have you cried yourself to sleep over a character that has died in your story?
If i was able to form words to tell you about it, then it wouldnt be my deepest darkest secret
Those things are locked pretty deep, OP. They guide my motivations and fears from a very nonconscious level.
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>2nd grade
>school is holding a summer break celebration party or whatever
>have fun playing around in the playground
>have sudden urge to shit
>hold it in
>teacher is having some speech and some kids sing and shit
>2 hours have passed
>have to fart
>go to playground to do it with no one around
>try not to squeeze too hard
>pants get heavier
>realize I shit myself
>been standing on the playground too long now, people might be suspicous or just wondering what I'm doing
>decide to slide down the slide to act "normal"
>shit gets squished and colors my underwear completely brown
>party still hasn't ended
>asks mom and dad if we can leave
>"No anon, we will leave once it's over"
>friend comes over to ask if we can play after the party
>panic.png
>"eehh sure"
>go to friends house and play
>about 4 - 5 hours later I leave
>ass starts itching as fuck
>gets home and run to the shower
>underwear and pants are completely brown in the back
From that day I've never shit my pants ever again and I hope I never will ever again. That was one of my most embarrassing moments in my life.
>>28153971
>However, every time I try to write I come to a blank and I take forever to write something.
My only advice is to try a different medium. Stickman comics on notebook paper/ index cards? A screenplay?
I just feel sad that so many people have great ideas but get caught behind writers block.
I like the idea of three main characters. I think if you did one chapter for each and jumped between each story, give each characters an initial conflict, maybe the parasite guy is trying to fit into society, hit on some qts or just be accepted, the AI guy is watching him for some reason cause he might be a threat and having weird discussions with other AIs about what he might turn into, and the third guy might end up being a villain but later a good guy, assumign he doesn't actually kill anyone or do anything irredeemable.
Just pick a scene in media res from your nighttime fantasies as start writing. Don't try to embellish it too much. Write like Hemingway. Show don't tell, pepper with a few strong adjectives but mostly just say what happens. I have experience with writing way too much detail and end up cutting most of it out.
Or use it for an RPG setting. Yours sounds like it has real potential.
That's the only advice I have. I hope it helps a bit. Honestly you will probably delete your first scenes but they will get you going and you will lose maybe 1,000 words worth of really bad writing, maybe more, but it will be worth it. I have a few textfiles of bad scense I cut out because I hated them.
>>28153983
You might have to talk to her first, anon.
>>28153889
Yes, Fallout 4 allowed me to travel with QTs. Brings up another thing, I fully roleplay my roleplaying games, considering plot points and my character and stuff as if it's an actual story being told and my character is the canon one. I know most people do this but it can feel awkward to me, because it's more than just 'What would my character do?' and then clicking the most fitting dialogue options. In the Fallout games I had my guy shower and everything.
It just feels a little autistic if you're not telling the story to someone, like if you're not lets playing it. a Lets Roleplay series seems fine, but if it's to nobody, then taking a game that seriously seems weird to me.
Oh and also sometimes I'll pretend I'm LPing when playing a game. In my head at least, I don't speak out loud.
I JUST LIKE STORIES, MAN
>>28154049
I've never cried over it but sometimes I've felt deep despair over both real world things and in-story things. Most of the deaths are based on real world feels.
Like Trielle's death was the result of me screwing up a friendship, and the guilt I felt afterward. I felt like I'd killed her, just like I'd killed the friendship. There's a weird disconnect there, but that's kind of what happened. Same thing happened with many of the other deaths. One was because my cat died, honestly. It felt kinda dumb to honor her with a dead character but it was just part of how I felt I guess.
Trielle at least died bad-ass, getting shot a dozen times and still fighting, making sure the bomb went off and the skygun went down, so her children might have a future.
