Who /hopeless/ here?
>try playing vidya, but it just doesn't give me a thrill anymore
>try reading, but I'm too depressed to follow what's going on
>try watching something, but it makes me feel lifeless
>try drawing, but it turns out so bad that I feel even worse than before
>try writing, but all I can write anymore is scat porn
Is there anything else I can do?!
Before I start any hobby activity it feels like a chore but once I do it, it can be fun anyway.
I just force myself every time.
Reading is fun if you choose the right topic, but you do have to force yourself in the beginning
Get some medication.
>>28126995
I've been forcing myself to do what I've listed so far, as well as learning different languages and exercise. I need something to look forward to again.
>>28126959
You write scat porn?
>>28127025
Well, I don't know how that works either.
I look forward to a certain movie or album once in a while but I don't get hyped. I just feel good knowing that it will come out.
>>28126959
spend time on 4chan
it is:
- the best game ever made
- the most unpredictable story over written
- the height of avant-garde cinema
- the culmination of all art
- the most noble literary pursuit of these times
once we take pride in our work here the world will be remade however we desire
>>28127036
Not just scat porn. Beastiality scat porn.
>>28126959
Listen to audiobooks or podcasts.
>>28127104
I kinda do that with YouTube videos. I've been watching GradeAUnderA and ExtraHistory, but they're just not doing it for me right now. I just feel like my life has no purpose anymore. (Inb4 then give it a purpose)
>>28127096
W-w-will you write us something, anon-senpai.
>>28126959
You sound quite 1:1 identical to me OP, means of contact?
I find it helps talking to people.
>>28126959
ethics for amador
http://fp.reverso.net/tustareasdesociales-over-blog/6225/en/pages/etica-para-amador-4867607.html
try this and then please tell us
we know that you can read
>>28127307
I have no means of contact. No Skype, no throwaway email, no nothing. Heck, I don't even own a laptop or desktop.
>>28127333
Who wrote this? Can they even English?
>>28127360
What are you posting from? I don't want to let this opportunity slip through my fingers.
>>28127394
I'm on a phone, my only means of accessing the outside world.
>>28127444
Would you mind making a Skype or an email?
>>28127391
>Who wrote this?
Fernando savater is the author. he is spanish and he wrote that book for his son
>Can they even English?
yes. i find the english version for you anon-kun
>>28127464
I dunno. I'm starting to think I've got ASPD. If this were still Gaia Online I'd consider it, but right now, I just don't know if I want to make any online friends.
>>28127539
Y-you're not willing to try it? I realize I'm coming on strong, but it's because finding people so much like me is rare. I implore you to reconsider.
This is 100% because your porn addiction blew your brain out and it effects your ability to find pleasure from anything else.
remove porn completely for a few weeks and you'll find the rest fun again
>>28127607
And you think you would enjoy talking to someone like you? I don't even know what to talk about right now, let alone carrying on an ongoing conversation.
>>28127655
This is not true. I am not OP, but I have tried that, I still have these problems.
>>28127657
It's nice talking to people to relate to.
We could talk about that sort of thing, lewd things, too.
Find the nearest state park and go on a hike. Being inside for too long drives you crazy no matter what you are doing.
>>28127678
What kind of lewd things?
>>28126959
You posted Hotaru, youre alright in my book, keep it up anon.
>>28127719
I fugging hate hiking, but hold on. Let me put some shoes on and I'll go for a walk while talking to you guys.
>>28127723Scat, obviously.
Almost everything I do is a chore. I go to the gym because at this poi I feel like I have to when in reality I don't want to anymore. I play league but only because the only people I talk to are the people I play league with so if I don't play anymore I'll have no one to talk to when I hate league now. I go to school but hate it. Because I lift I force myself to eat a lot even when I'm full which I hate. The only thing I enjoy are new shows until I get bored and then I only continue watching because I'm bored and have nothing else to do. I very rarely find new video games to play that keep my interest for a significant amount, I'm too cynical to enjoy almost every video game nowadays. The only thing I enjoy is just laying down and closing my eyes or staring at the ceiling.
>>28127607
anon, this is 4chan
pretty much 50% of the userbase shares the same problems as OP
>>28126959
I'm in exactly the same place op.
I'm in school and work part time, but there isn't a day that goes by without me wishing I could just abandon everything and become a NEET
>>28127655
Bullshit, it's because of depression or what I like to call post-depression apathy where even if you get over depression the pointless/meaningless/cynical view of the world you developed during depression remains. If you ever become truly depressed you can never be truly happy again except through other people.
>>28127748Scat actually disgusts me. I write it specifically because it's easy.
OK. I'm outside. Hopefully my life gains meaning now.
>>28127805
How many people here are that sexually degenerate?Almost none.That's the one thing people tend to draw the line at.
>>28127830
I see, sorry.
>>28127842
I can link you a story I wrote, if that'd make you feel better. Spoiler alert:It's about mlp.
>>28127737
I came to say this to OP
>>28127951
It's a shame the show only lasted like 12 episodes.
>>28127892
I'm tempted to but not if it's that.
Have anything else?
>>28128035
Humanized pone?
>>28128066
Here ya go.
http://www.fimfiction.net/story/166313/the-most-disgusting-clop-you-will-ever-read
Honestly, try to make your life more difficult. If you do shit you don't want to do all day (job, volunteer), then you will always have vidya to come back to.
If you are still bored of them, don't force yourself to play.
>>28128113
But what about when I'm done with work and don't feel like playing vidya?
>>28126959
>did some pretty bad shit in my time and got away with it
>nothing else ever worked for me
>trying to figure out what it all means
Just tell me there's a point to being good. That there's a shred of decency left in me, or that this whole thing isn't all for nothing.
Also, I think I'm done walking. I kinda just wanna go home now.
>>28128253
Life is about how many risks you wanna take. If you know you can screw people and get away with it, there's no logical reason not to.
>>28128171
If you don't feel like playing vidya, don't play it. In fact, if ANY media feels like a chore, just don't consume it.
Without knowing much about you, I can guess a few factors why you are struggling. I likely experienced the same and I'm drawing this out of experience.
The nuclear bomb method that would help almost anyone is to do a straight media fast.
>>28128395
You mean like binge watching a show would help me get out of this depression?
>>28127992
Its a shame that the ending has the plot of a filler episode kek.
>>28128479
Ehh. It's the same as Shimoneta.
>tfw 50 replies in and still depressed af
I guess that's it. Just... Let it run its course, I guess.
>>28128516
I dont know that one, is it good, whats it about?
>>28126959
Try writing something that's not that
>>28128668
Dirty joke terrorists. It's as good as Dagashi Kashi imho.
>>28128677
Before this depression hit, I'd write everything from comedy to horror. I want to write, but nothing comes to mind anymore.
>>28128687
>Dirty joke terrorists.
What does that mean, they go to people, make dirty jokes and bail?
>>28128744
And if they get caught, they go to prison.
>>28128709
Write about a character with depression
>>28128780
Ehh. I did that already. I don't think I could do it again, though. I've tried pushing my way through writer's block before (even as recently as yesterday), but it always makes me feel worse.
>>28128441
Exact opposite. A fast from media, meaning no internet, tv, netflix, games, etc.
>>28128616
You can't expect others to make you not depressed.
>>28128819
I've thought about it, and I want to do that, but I'm literally laying on my floor trying to think of something that would distract me from the depression.
>>28127810
That's not the same position at all, you normal fuck. People like you really think they belong here, it's pathetic. YOU'RE A FUCKING NORMIE!!!! GET THE FUCK OFF OUR BOARD!!!!!
>>28128616
mother focker read a book nigga
this book
>>28127534
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h27X-wADkik
and thats why you u suck
>>28128864
That includes 4ch.
I've been there before. Honestly, if you wait the boredom out your body will take you somewhere.
>>28128847
You guys are more helpful than Google, though. I legit looked up every single hobby on Wikipedia's hobby list, but I just don't feel like any of them would help.
>>28128899
I know, including 4chan. You know where the bordeom took me? Outside. I walked two miles but still feel horrible. I'm honestly starting to think there's nothing I can physically do to stop the depression. I've done everything I'm remotely interested in.
>>28128903
Same poster, also same as media fast poster.
Not being judgemental, are you a neet?
>>28128947
No, but work doesn't exactly make me feel much better. The whole time I'm at work I'm wishing I could come back home.
>>28128975
What kind of job do you do?
>>28128981
I stock shelves. It's the perfect /r9k/ job, and I work with some pretty decent people. I really do wish I was NEET, though.
>tfw a 4 minute video describes my whole life and probably most of /r9k/'s
https://youtu.be/ihSTGqCO52Q
>>28128945
Try checking yourself into a rehab center and staying there for awhile. I think that's the only way to cure these problems. Taking yourself out of your environment and resetting. I'm going to try it if I don't get this job I interviewed for, which I doubt I'll get. Normies can tell so easily that you're socially fucked and will never hire you, I hate it
>>28129009
Thank you, trying to establish some bio on you so I can give you better advice.
It sounds like a good job for you. Do you feel like it is taking you where you want to go? What are your life goals?
What particularly do you like about the neet fantasy? Loaded question. Don't you think it would bring only more of your same problem?
>>28129065
My life goal is to have a job I can be excited for, but I've seen given up the dream of being a musician or writer or athlete or anything like that, and I have no desire to go back to school. Honestly, I see my life as a dead end where I have nothing left to do but die.
NEET life may have boredom, but at least I don't have to worry about work. I'd rather be depressed than stressed out.
If you don't feel comfortable with answering that's fine.
>>28129152
Is your future dead out of probability or cicumstance?
>>28129205
What do you mean? Like do I have no future because of circumstance or probability? Well... I don't know. It is, kinda, but I'd prefer not going into that.
Mainly, any job I want is going to be competitive, moreso than the average job, and I don't have the confidence or perseverance to make anything happen with my life anymore.
>>28129036
also, https://youtu.be/350qUmbcAZU
>>28129269
You don't have to go there with me, but I will suggest that there are some things mentally unresolved there that are holding you back. There's plenty of fucked up things that can happen to you, but I like to think that we can become stronger from it. Bullying, rape, abuse, death.
Like to share a personal story, my best friend killed himself last summer. Them his sister and his mom attempted, or his mom killed his sister depending on how you view it.
What the fuck can I learn from this? Not much. But I can say that I survived half a year of laying on the floor and not eating. I feel stronger, as silly as that might be.
>>28129407
>tfw no mom to kill you
Why even live?
>>28126959
>in grad school earning welfare bucks for being a student and showing up to talk at seminars
>live with mom and dad who do everything
>work two hours a day
>spend the rest of it talking with friends or shitposting on 4chan
>will probably get a job in the federal civil service after graduation through connections
>lost my virginity popping the cherry of an insecure naruto cosplayer who was 9 years my junior
whenever I feel down I always come to /r9k/ to remind myself how good I have it
>>28129505
Thank you for that... Who was the chick cosplaying as?
>>28129541
Hinata, except she kept her hair brown
Before I put it in she got nervous and insisted on taking off her costume though
>>28129735
D-do you have any pictures of her?
>>28126959
>but all I can write anymore is scat porn
>>28129781
I think I'm pretty good at it, tbqh.
I'm the same. I feel as though there's nothing enjoyable left in life.
I just force myself to take walks and try new things but it isn't working. If I didn't have a way to listen to music I probably would've killed myself by now. I'm also at a point where I have to get a job fast or I'll end up homeless. I just can't see myself working. I ordered a guitar and I'm going to force myself to play it everyday. At least if I'm homeless I'll still have some music.
I hope something in me changes but I doubt it. I've been feeling this way for a long time and I just don't know if I can continue this way.
Also >>28129796 post one senpai
>>28129767
Unfortunately no. We talked for a few hours before I fucked her. I got her first name, she got mine. We never met afterwards.
>>28130138
>fugging someone after talking to her for a few hours
How did you even meet her?
>>28126959
The same happens to me OP. Nothing excites me not porn, not muh gf, not sex. The only thing that makes me feel alive is being in life-threatening situations. Being in combat is the only way that makes me feel something. Muh life is so fucking empty....
>>28130406
>Being in combat is the only way that makes me feel something.
S-Snake?
>>28129152
I don't usually offer help on these threads, in my experience most Robots aren't looking for help and resent unsolicited advice. But you sound like me last year and I want to help a lot.
All the recent research shows that instead of following your 'passion' you should just learn to be good at your job instead.
Most people wont become artists or writers or superstars, the best way to be happy is to learn to be good at a few different things that combine well and then put effort into your job. Even if your job seems boring to others you will look forward to it and enjoy it if you are good at it.
I suggest reading two books.
'How to Fail at Almost Everything and Still Win Big' by Scott Adams
'So Good They Can't Ignore You' by Cal Newport
You don't have to buy them, you can download them both as ebooks off mobilism. They changed my life.
>>28129796
>>28126959
>>28127096
Post some of it faggot.
>>28130425
Kept you waiting, huh?
Orinal
>>28127820
Fuck i wish i had someone else to be happy though
>>28130305
Matsuricon, we were sitting next to each other at a panel. I complimented her on her cosplay when one of her friends went to the bathroom. We talked for a bit after the panel ended and I invited her back to my hotel room. We had a few drinks, I told her she was really cute, she said she wanted to have some fun and we did.
>>28130455
The thing is, I'm interested in those fields because they're the ones I feel legitimately better than everyone else in. I could be a FAR better football analyst than Mel Kiper Jr., John Gruden or Mike Mayock. The only problem is, I'm not a professional quarterback! I can't do things like math, science or business. I've tried, but I just can't compete at the same caliber as some of the guys who are naturally talented at them.
>>28130887
You FUCKING Chad! Get off of my board!!
>>28127830
>Scat actually disgusts me. I write it specifically because it's easy.
What drove you to write about it in the first place, then?
>>28130955
My serious stories weren't getting noticed.
>>28130931
It's not that hard really. I was (abnormally) confident in my abilities that day and decided I wasn't going to hesitate or waffle about.
Most women pick up on that. Didn't hurt that she wasn't particularly remarkable and appeared to have some esteem issues.
>>28131248
Ehh. I only go to pone conventions anyway, and those are CRAWLING with dudes... Except for that one party where a stripper took off another girl's shirt and licked her tits, but that doesn't happen at every one.
>>28126959
>reading
literally not even once
reading is all about heavy concepts and bleak bullshit which the depressed do not need
>>28131326
All cons are crawling with men. I got lucky I guess.
>>28130425
Yes, I hear pets are good for helping people through depression. Even snakes and turtles
>>28128744
it's about a world where dirty jokes are banned, it's in the fucking title
>>28126959
You could use this.
>>28126959
YOU FORGOT MASTURBATE
>>28128744
Japan's burgeoning population of old people decided that ecchi things were the cause of low birth rate, and proceed to ban anything remotely ecchi.
The Funimation/HorribleSubs subs are fucking awful, use the Hiryuu subs instead.
>>28127751
Literally all this, especially with the gym
Christ.
Have an e-hug if it matters dude.
>>28126959
I bought a Vita as a last attempt to enjoy gaming.
I'm a 24 year old salary fag with a long train commute to work. When I'd get home from work I'd get sick of the game as soon as I got to the menu.
Now I can play muh Vita and look like a man child in a suit on my commute. Lots of fun. Put that bad boy on hold and put it in your pocket, turn it back on for 10 minutes and start exactly where you left off and do a quick right in soul sacrifice.
Awesome system. Money well spent. Never console or PC gaming again. I'm mobile now bitches.
>>28131796
>I'm mobile now bitches.
Until you come back full circle to console.
>>28126995
Same senpai. I force myself to write to at least get the feeling of doing something.
>>28131858
3DS fag here. Never gonna touch a console again.
>>28131924
3ds are consoles you dumb fuck
>>28126959
I understand you OP
>been NEET for 2 years and still going
>my country is shit, so no neetbux for me
>getting tired of living
>getting tired of what I used to enjoy
>getting tired of the whole situation but apparently still not tired enough to attempt to change it
>I just realize that I'm incapable of getting a job, my nerves won't let me
>apparently I can be good at anything non productive, but once it becomes productive in any way I automatically suck
>tfw no gf
>Still love my crush from HS, which I haven't seen or talked to for at least 4 years
>depression and negative thoughts are stronger each morning
I fear that one morning they will get me and finish me off, I can't keep like this.
>>28126959
The last 24 hours have been an absolute whirlwind of confusion
I hope I'm not losing my sanity
have you tried becoming a twisted fucking sociopath?
>constantly feel like i should be doing something productive
>don't actually want to be productive
