Who /boring/ here?
Literally, completely, 100% boring. I don't have a personality. I don't expression my own opinions because I don't have any. I don't contribute to the conversation because I've got nothing to say.
I just sit there and laugh if something is funny, or say nothing at all.
My "friends" can't talk to me because they don't know what to say.
I can't talk because I don't know what to say. I literally can't just.....talk.Weed thought ahead that I had a while back, and has stuck with meThink of your personality as a flat plane, or like a piece of paperthe plane or paper rises or sinks depending on your attitude, likes, dislikes, etc.the plane/paper can shift over time, as your interests changeMine is just flat. Nothing. Nada
Does anyone get me?
What do you recommend?
tfw when even you're too fucked up for r9k
I feel you, I'm the same
I been there m8 until I actually started to question existence itself and the deeper meaning of everything and all world religions because I wanted nothing to do with the world and had to find if there was any truth out there. Try it, it'll change your life.
OP irl
That's just called autism, OP.
Our opinions and personalities were smothered out of us as we tried to be whatever anyone wanted us to be. We desperately hoped to somehow fit into society despite knowing we never would. Now we've lost a world we never had a chance at keeping, and worse, lost ourselves in the process. But we still don't even really attempt to reclaim who we are. Because we can't manage to stop clinging to the idea that we can find somebody to belong with, and that to do that, we have to fit some imaginary criteria rather than be our true selves.
>>28096686
What do you do?
>>28096704
That doesn't help. but thanks
>>28096807
i wish it was, at least then i'd have an excuse
Honestly, I think it has something to do with coming here when i was younger. eroded what little personality i had/have.
>>28096642
Fucking this. It's too much too handle
>>28096090
Read a book or something, faggot. Stop saying shit you heard from other people.
Is it autism if I feel like there are no words that would accurately describe myself or is this just a special snowflake delusion?
I feel as though even if I teleported to an alien planet and back Chad would be able to say more about his trip to the gym that day.
>>28096090
You are the closest to enlightenment, to the principle of actionless action, Wu Wei, Zen, and the perception of the metaphysical thing-in-itself.
You should dedicate yourself to quietly observing your own emptiness until you lose your sense of self and merge with the universe at large.
I think it should come more easily to you than most others, who have passions, biases, beliefs and aspirations that hold them down to their earthly shells.
I recently won millions of dollars on a scratch off ticket. After doing what your supposed to do with it.(savings, investing and what not) I was left off with the fact that i had no clue what to do with it.
maybe you should find a hobby or something to be passionate about. I'm considering doing the same but mostly because I'm bored a lot.
I'm thinking of learning an instrument or something.
>>28096921
my mind would either be apathetic or afraid if I was on an alien planet. unless there was an alien qt who was friendly with me.
>>28097015
hobbies are good, if not outright necessary to survive a lonely existence. also helps give you something to say when others ask what you do with your free time.
>>28096920
That's the true nature of language. You're asking the right questions, but you need to forget about finding answers.
Same, I honestly believe I have ASPD
>>28096742
Came here to post this 2 be h
>make a "friend" online
>talk to them for a while, they're interesting and fun
>run out of things to talk about
>can't let them find out I'm such a shallow boring person
>don't want to delete them because they're so nice
>instead just dodge them whenever I see them online
Sounds like OP is just not asking himself the right questions
op here againI just feel lifeless insidethis shit is pretty fucking depressingand i can't even voice itop signing off
>>28097454
I know this feel.
>met a girl in a forum about social anxiety
>I can express myself a lot because all I have to do is comment on other's people comment
>she finds me interesting
>add her on msn
>one-on-one talk
>I'm boring as fuck and most of the conversations end after "I'm fine"
>she just gave up on me
>>28097457
what do you mean friend?
>>28096090
iktf
i don't have friends. on the rare occasion someone talks to me, i'll end up on the side when someone else inevitably enters the conversation and that's the end of it. i just never have anything to say.
>>28097954
I know friend.
I've have a friend that I've known for almost 10 years, and it seems like the last 3 i haven't properly spoken to him.
I remember him drunkely telling me that he never knows what to say to me. I don't know if he still thinks that way, but I remember it, and it sticks with me everytime we meet up.
fuck man i wish i could just speak.
>Hey anon, how was your weekend?
>Oh, y'know... just kinda... hung around...
>Again?
I'm boring and I don't have much to say nor any friends. Like the other people have said: it's probably best to find a hobby. I want to start playing guitar and Chess again, but I don't have much motivation for it. I also want to get into creative writing. I'm also trying to cut down on the amount of video games I play since I'm not accomplishing anything, and all I get out of them is instant gratification. We can't always control what happens to us, but we can control how we interpret it: so stay positive and find things you can value that you can also achieve.
>tfw lack personality this much that I copy other people's personalities sometimes without noticing and sporadically change them
Real autism
>>28096090
>tfw void
I accepted it desu
>>28098077
>tfw you realize you just repeat phrases other people use because you don't know what else to say
>>28096090
Same, probably worse but i dont know
Didnt talk to anyone in highschool and nobody bothered talking to me, if they did i just gave the shortest most vague answer and make them know i got nothing to say.
After highschool nothing changed, got into college for 3 months didnt talk to anyone and dropped out for this reason, just felt like a statue and started to feel how everyone from colleague and professors knew that i was a weirdo, and couldnt bare to stand another 4 years in that state.
Im a NEET looser for 2 years now who doesent say more than goodmorning and goodnight to my parents.
Feels like i even forget how to talk sometimes, like my mouth feels heavy when i open it, could be just me being a lazy fuck for not doing anything other than playing CS and dota all day for so long.
Im so scared to talk that i didnt even buy a microphone even thou everyone uses one in CS, and even when playing with russians 2000 km away from me i cant say a word and i can feel my online buddies figuring out im an autistic cretin.
But im not sure what the reason behind my fear to talk might be, im not sure if im actually autistic, im good looking, i read alot so i know how to put together a few words to make some shitty mundane phrase about the weather or whatever the fuck people talk about.
I personally blame my parents who have allways been and still are stupidly strict and used to repeat countless times when i was a child that you should only talk when spoken to, and never let me do preety much anything social because i should be home learning for school on weekends.
>>28096090
Hey its another INFP thread :^)
>>28096090
>Nada
yo whus good manigga
>>28098077
>>28098153
Everyone does this without thinking about it. The problem is when you only come into contact with very few people regularly. Everyone is just a conglomerate of all the other people they've interacted with, just try to meet more people and stop worrying.
this is pretty much the thing that makes me know I'll never be in a relationship
not my ugliness
not my height
not my dick size
not my salary
none of that
just the fact that I'm so timid and uninteresting that being in a relationship with somebody would fucking be a chore
>even my online tag is based off a friends one
>>28098254
That makes a lot of sense. I feel a little better now. Thanks, anon.
>>28098254
Normies don't do that, they have their own special personalities. You probably don't even fucking know what I'm talking about in the first place since you're a normie
>>28098336
Lol failed normie pleb
>>28096090
You should try reading some books. You'll be working with basic language so improvement is granted. You should also go outside, to the park, see how other people talk. It's not rocket science. Humans just talk because they want to express what they are feeling like, many times with the only purpose of sharing the experience with other humans of society. Perhaps you are afraid of this contact, that they are not going to understand what you are talking about (you seem to have a strange way of writing, do you always communicate like that?) If that's the case then you should be worried less about what other people think of your speech and more about your own interests.
>>28098077
There's a mockumentary from Woody Allen about this.
It's pretty funny. Have you ever watched it?
It's called Zelig.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fsjt-lNtSfg
Why do robots just bitch all day and refuse to improve themselves at all? Christ this board is fucking pathetic, I usually just come to laugh at your ineptitude at doing anything social but sometimes it's just too cringey, I'm out
>>28096849
What do I do?
I'm a loser, working retail when my parents are getting depressed that I still haven't bothered to go further in community college because I have no motivation or drive for anything
Every night I go to bed and wake up I pray that I get killed in an accident.
You have to make up one and stick to it, it'll take hard work though
>>28097014 give it to me anon.
[email protected]
I am dead inside, at some days i can laugh a bit but most of the time everything is completely senseless and boring
>>28098402
>Humans just talk because they want to express what they are feeling like
>Humans
>they want to express what they are feeling
>want to express what they are feeling like
>express what they are feeling
>feeling
Just fucking kill me, i dont feel anything anymore. Im not even trying to be a fedora tipper, im being serious.
If this is truly what humans do then by definition, im not a human.
What have i done do deserve this? Did my mind set up mental barriers to permanently protect me from the harmful effects of human interaction?
My boring personality kills almost everything i do. Even trying to find a job.
>>28098484
your life can't be too fulfilling if you have to resort to making fun of retards for entertainment
>>28098608
You need someone to open up to anon, more than other fellow robots, after you tell someone all the shit thats on your chest you feel 100x times better for some reason.
If you dont have anyone to do that with, im actually serious, pay an escort for an hour finish fast and spend the remaining time cuddling and talking about your shitty existence.
Sounds pathetic as fuck but it seriously fixes you.
>>28098471
Nice trailer, but I don't see how it's about this even remotely
>>28098732
>pay an escort for an hour finish fast and spend the remaining time cuddling and talking about your shitty existence
what the fuck
I would legitimately rather commit suicide than do this
>>28098732
desu that might be it.
I don't talk a lot about myself, and my friends know im closed off.
I'll try that. Thanks.
I just sit at the table with others who then talk about various topics.
I have no idea about 90% they're talking about because I don't know many people and have no idea what's happening socially but when I know something about a topic I try to add to the conversation.
With time my talking skills have improven.
I still have the problem that there is no objective truth but only subjective truth. I don't know which to pick.
>>28098732
Its tough because when i get the rare chance to actually be around people, i have to fake it. So much so that i barely pass as normal. It takes alot of energy for me to pull this off and alot of thinking.
But it doesnt feel right. It feels like im lying to them no matter what i say or whatever tone of voice i use.
>>28098732
I cant talk to anyone, I am so fucking anxious.
I got even massages where normies actually care about me but I don't know how to answer
>>28098870
For me its all fine if i get a little drunk, otherwise is the same anxiety.
Try as an experiment getting a little drunk, when in a social situation and see the results.
Alcohol fucks up the gland in your brain responsible for fear and naturally social anxiety, if you can talk much more easier drunk that means is just normal anxiety, if is the same than is something else
>>28098756
Well, it's not about autism, I guess.
It's a mockery about how people pretend to be something they aren't just to be accepted by everyone.
>>28098608
You still feel, friend. You just feel sadness now. Feelings are a major construct of being human though. Personally I'm not sure intelligent life can even exist without some form of feelings.
You seem boring because you have no motivation to express and/or fear expressing your opinions due to your chronic sadness.
The solution isn't to keep trying like it's a super complex maths equation you'll eventually solve. What you need to do is let it solve itself. It will come naturally if you remove your chronic sadness. How you do that would depend on what's making you so sad.
I'd highly suggest getting into meditation and alternative nutrition.
>>28098973
Getting drunk....Yea, ill give this a try. Even though i dont like alcohol.
Ill have to have someone record my actions during that time because i dont think ill remember any of it when i wake up. Im planning on getting as drunk as possible.
>>28098017
>tfw did this the past 7 years
I have no friends since 7 years
>>28098608
Boring is an attribute made up by humans. You should stop labeling yourself like that. You are not a product, and most people have it worse than you out there. Kids in africa starving to death. People eating each other after a blizzard. You think your life is hard. But you got an opportunity to change, so make your life worth it, if that's what you want. You just have to believe, and don't let the crippling thoughts convince you otherwise. Suffering, boring, hard, bad. These are all ideas. The cage is in your mind. Free yourself.
>>28098992
Jesus christ you fucking normie, that's not at all what i meant with "copying" others personalities
>>28098870
I know this feel. It's not that you feel like you're lying to them, it's that you're worried they'll detect that you're not "living up to your story", and that you may also be low on energy and too unhappy (see >>28099025) to express yourself properly.
If someone acts out of character in any way it causes discomfort for others. Probably evolutionary. But expressing yourself is natural. People like us are holding a metaphorical inflatable ball underwater; it's constant painful work. Expressing yourself is freeing because it's the body's natural way of expelling pent-up energy in a creative, passionate, understandable way.
>tfw my only feeling is sadness and loneliness
>sometimes it goes up but I am never more happy than 1 hour a day
>if nothing change it will goes downhill till I am completely a robot without feels
My main problem is anxiety and perfectionism. I can quickly be overcome by thoughts of worry and self-consciousness that shutdown any expression until I can get my mind off it. This includes talking and art. The ideas don't flow because im thinking about trying to make them flow. That, or I just dont feel like talking because im sad.
It's an ecstacy to hold an entire conversation or attend a gathering without a thought of 'oh hey you suck at talking shut up try harder' showing up.
>>28096090
Your name is michael and you live in holland, and you study philosophy right?
>>28099611
Nope, but I am in Europe.
>>28099068
don't get too drunk man but alcohol in general really helps it makes you worry less and makes socialization because everyone is dumbed down
>>28099398
Looking at myself and most of the people on /r9k/ i see how anxiety allways has the same root wich is indeed perfectionism, our problem is indeed just an inferiority complex.
If you observe the shit people talk about you realize how vapid it is, maybe we just have much greater expectations of what is expected of us to say in a simple conversation, most people just keep recycling the same phrases they heard 1000 times before, ussualy about nothing of importance that sound too mediocre to think of bothering adding again.
But thats it, maybe we expect our answers and questions that we add to a conversaion to be meaningful and orginal, but there is no need for them so we choose to be the quiet socrate instead of the talky idiot.
>>28099633
too bad, this would have been funny as hell.
>>28099139
why do people think that these "motivational pep talks" have any effect?
don't you realize that if something simple as a pep talk would solve his problems, he wouldn't have problems like this in the first place?
if you're not bait, please respond and tell me why you do this. I'm genuinely curious to what your answer is.
>>28099805
This exactly. For me it's gotten bad enough to the point where I can't really carry a conversation without taking some sort of crazy direction that has nothing to do with what's socially acceptable or interesting. Like at parties where the majority of the conversations are always something sports or some dumb reality tv show or a shallow celebrity's life. Even when politics comes up which i find pretty interesting, its always some bullshit trump-hitler comparison or bernie's economic plan destined to fail even though these people don't know jack shit about economics. Luckily I have a friend who is on a similar page as me and we can have some pretty engaging conversations, especially on drugs. But I've lost so many friends lately because I find them all boring and they all feel similarly about me. It's not easy
That's exactly my problem, that's why socializing is nearly impossible for me.
>>28098139
what do you with your life? how do you avoid inadequacy destroying your sense of self-worth?
>>28098226
your goddamn right.
>>28098226
>INTP
but same shit
>>28098226
He's right, because INFP's are rampant perfectionists who have a really hard time connecting with most people because they put too much pressure on themselves to make conversation meaningful or special in some way.
>>28100309
>what do you with your life? how do you avoid inadequacy destroying your sense of self-worth?
Helping others tbqh; lose myself through others. I am pursuing a medical related field. I assist in elementary schools. I am in the process of becoming a volunteer at a low-kill animal shelter.
>>28098552
fuck off normie, you will never understand how I feel.
>tfw no interests
>tfw unoriginal
>>28096090
Well, at least you aknowledge you're boring. Most people are, myself included. Of course, we can be better talking with other boring people, but in the end we just haven't anything really important, not even interesting, to say, neither to hear.
But hey, you at least know that about yourself, so you're kind of wise and you aren't as boring as you thing you are.
>>28100538
>normie
>depressed kissless virgin NEET with social anxiety
>>28096090
i know that feel OP. Some times i feel like i'm just trying to suck up to people because i'm so fucking lonely, thinking that's the way to do it. Turns out it has the complete opposite effect. Oh, and i hate conflict, so i usually just agree with what people say, because i can't be bothered to begin arguing. That and i'm pretty shit at arguing with thinking about what i'm saying first. Feelsbadman
>>28100132
As long as your mind and senses haven't ceased to exist you are still alive. So there's no point to not making whatever the hell you want to enjoy life. Don't let the spiritual stagnation win you over, or your existence may very well enter in a conflict and that's something that doesn't need to happen - in the end we are all alive for the same reason. Chemical reactions happened and here we are.
>>28098305
Hey faggot, change your name to the first thing that pops into your head right now. I don't give a shit how stupid it sounds. Like fuck, look at my steam name, how could it possibly be more stupid than that?
>>28100738
I don't think you get it. there are people out there that don't enjoy anything.
>in the end we are all alive for the same reason.
what would this reason be?
I know OP, have you ever tried to become interesting? It makes things even worse.
>People at work basically ignore me on breaks and stuff
>One day realise it is because I am so tedious, have nothing to talk about and am generally horrible company
>realise I need a hobby
>try to think of things I like
>Decide to start building Lego sets
>Go out and buy a couple of small Lego sets
>It is quite enjoyable
>decide this will give me discussion points
>take a picture of the Lego set I built (it was a Lego City firestation)
>Decide to make it even more interesting
>Sit up for 4 hours until 3am, making slight alterations to the firestation (removing bricks, adding different color bricks etc) and taking pictures
>On my phone create a 'spot the difference' folder
>Go to work again the next day as usual
>on my break, co-workers ignoring me
>I ask them if they woould like to play a game
>they react well to this, and ask to play
>I take my phone and start scrolling through the Lego firestations
>ask them to spot the difference between every 2 pictures
>they do not seem responsive
>make excuses to do something else
>heard them talking about 'I knew he was off but that was SO creepy'
I will not ever have anything interesting to say. So I say nothing and do nothing.
>>28096090
You're either incredibly dumb or intelligent. You tell me, op.
>>28101338
Probably dumb. Extremely average at best.
>>28101292
sorry anon. I know that feel too. I hold everything back because if I don't than it hurts more when I'm ignored or mocked. it destroys a person to feel unable to express themselves.
>>28096090
I'm the opposite of you OP. I'm great at talking and can talk to almost anyone for a long time while carrying the convo however I'm boring as fuck to be around because I don't do anything. Everything is in my head
>>28101083
Read my words again. You'll find the keys of your mind and light for your eyes but only if you want to.
>>28101442
kek to the loony bin with you
>>28101427
Also I'm unattractive
>>28101359
Yeah, I'm dumb too and I perfectly know how you feel. All you can do is training, to keep trying at throwing inputs into conversation. If you are an introspective person who is afraid to speak because he knows he may end up saying bullshit, you're already halfway done.
>>28097607
What forum?
Originiluendo desu
>>28098033
Quite sad, how positive posts get no replies, while negative are surrounded by "lonlieness circlejerk". I don't think /r9k/ should be a place for online pityfucking each other...
try inducing mania
stupid drugs help. bath salts, MD binges
living hell might as well be funny
>>28100446
Don't stop if you're good at it. If you quit for too long you may lose your social skills that allow you to help others.
>want to have meaningful relationships with other people
>realize I have nothing to offer
>have no motivation to become more interesting for other people
I'll die alone.
>>28096090
>woke up at around 11:00
>ate a bowl of cereal and a sandwhich a bit later
>somehow 4:30 now
>realize I spent my entire day on 4chan
oh fuck me what the hell how could it possibly be 4:30 already
>>28101292
Is there a LUG in your area? People are generally nice and members get a discount from the LEGO store.
>>28101292
>tfw this is the saddest story ive heard on /r9k/
>tfw ive been here for years
>>28096642
>>28096878
2016 /r9k/ is full of fucking normalfags from r eddit.
>tfw you were invited to game tournament party but you don't want to go because your autistic (genuinely) and dont know what to say to people or even where to stand when in situations like that
>tfw if you go you'll probably just stand around like a freak and not saying and look at your feet or peoples chest the whole time
>>28101818
A Brazilian one in Orkut (I don't even know if Orkut was popular outside my country).
It was a "community", in fact.
>>28096090
All I do is smoke weed and watch cartoons.
That's pretty much it.
>>28096090
I laughed when you clarified with "nada". See? It would have never occur to me, you have a more vivid personality than me! Isn't that motivational?
>>28096921
That was a funny comment! It wouldn't have come to my mind either! You are just complaining, I, on the other hand, don't have anything to say, nothing relevant, nothing that would make the girl who rejected me in high school 6 years ago laugh. She still has the same kitty. I checked, from the shadows to her facebook.
