Hey guys how are you doing?
I'm doing not so good. Suicidal thoughts. Just thought it might be a good idea to post here for some reason.
>>28056918
I've been there, hope things start looking up for you pal
>>28056993
Thank you anon. I hope things are better for you now.
>>28057086
No problem, things are alright for me I can't really complain
>>28057277
That's good. I'm down here but I'll pull myself up eventually. Right now I'm just trying to keep going.
>>28056918
Wasn't the worst idea, given the situation. Anything specific weighing you down?
>>28057311
Yeah I know that feeling, sometimes you just gotta sludge through shit and hope that things will get better soon
same here op
been doing no fap for 50 days, haven't smoked weed in 30+ days, nothing has changed, still want to kill myself
oh and I met a qt who is into me yet now I want nothing to do with her after being with her a couple times
then i get on fb and all my old childhood friends are successful as fuck with incredibly hot girlfriends and it makes me want to kill myself even more
im defunct and should be discarded, sometimes I wish I would just get hit by a car or something 'unlucky' so I could go in peace
>>28056918
I know that feel op i feel like i shouldn't be alive
i want my opiate withdrawal to piss off
>>28057341
There is some specifics but I don't want to share them because it can't be said briefly and I don't want to make an ass of myself posting a wall of text that no one will read.
>>28057463
Tell us the nature of your grievances, OP. We are listening
>>28057463
Seems like that's what you made the thread and we're all anonymous here but I pretty much get the gist. Just life in general. Maybe the lack of it, more aptly? I think most people have to deal with this for pretty much all of their adult lives.
>>28056918
Thanks for asking man.
My best friend's dad just died and I got to go to the funeral tomorrow. I don't know what to do around crying people. Anyone got funeral tips?
>>28057463
I'll read it, and help out if I can.
>>28057527
Oh whoops, sorry about the name. Was on /his/ earlier
Also this
>>28057497
>>28057527
Keep your head down and don't smile. Don't make eye contact if it's not necessary. Also don't laugh when you hear how weird some people cry.
>>28057527
Stay quiet and respectful, that's about all you can do.
>>28057463
Sucks seeing people in pain while you're unable to help, the least we can do is read it. Sometimes it helps to get it all out, I always feel a little better writing it out. It doesn't do much to erase the problem though.
>>28056918
Yeah I just decided to lay in bed, I don't have the drive to do anything, not even play video games, my barber fucked my haircut, I really liked how my hair was and now it'll take months to grow it back, I found a qt model that reminds me alot of a girl I liked, now I just want her again
I'm also poor, and the lady at the supermarket gave me backhanded comments for it yesterday. I just want to shop in peace, why does she have to direct her hatred toward poor people, as if my life isn't hard enough already, I'm so fucking sorry I get government assistance that takes away from your precious check, sorry for being born fucking christ just try to be a human for once
I haven't hit rock bottom yet, things will probably get better, but I'm not happy..
>>28056918
dont let these thoughts become a prison for you.
>>28057497
My dad doesn't care about me and hasn't contacted my family in years.
My mother, deep down, is completely unimpressed with me and doesn't care about me but pretends she does.
My closest friend is my uncle who is an alcoholic.
I am completely friendless. I haven't come close to making a new friend or talking to an old one in 2 years. I'm losing hope in the medication that my doctor keeps giving me. It is doing nothing but killing my sex drive and making my will to socialise with women disappear.
My brother is losing himself to anxiety, is succumbing to panic attacks, only thing I can do is watch.
I'm completely losing hope in God, who seems to do nothing but tease me in my dreams/nightmares. I'm pretty sure he died a long time ago.
>>28057643
Sounds pretty not-so-great but life isn't perfect for anyone. You're on a board full of people whose lot in life is every bit as bleak and worse. The older you get the harder things get and then you die from some bullshit. I know it's hard to not wallow in self pity and you can always hope for things to get better but, in the mean time, all you can do is make the best of the situation. You can find a surprising amount of purpose in the most unlikely of activities. Through whatever outlet you find, this can totally lead you out of the rut of negativity. Like I found out that I like animals and now I manage a pet shop and I interact with a lot of other cool pet-loving whales.
>>28057643
Yep your life is a god damn disaster, OP. You're in good company though and remember, it could be worse.
Pic semi-related
Any other depressed students here?
I'm stuck in a major I'm pretty indifferent about, but going down a specialty that I absolutely hate. Basically I worked on a group project last week just to be told by my teammate how much I suck at doing the work and how hes better off doing it himself. I'm worried as fuck about my job prospects because I feel like I'll just get fired going down the route I've picked for myself. I have hardly anyone to talk to and the lack of human stimulation is crippling me. The only thing that keeps me going is the thought that 10 years from now I will hopefully look back on my life and be content that everything worked out in the end.
>>28057862
Why don't you switch majors to something you actually enjoy then?
> tell my psychiatrist that I've been down so long I'm scared to get back up
> she tells me that life can't be black or white and that I just have to learn to cope
I don't even want off this ride because I know it's not possible. I just wish I could live normally and it doesn't help that regular folks don't understand my depression.
>>28057439
I feel like my soul would be of better use in some other place.
>>28057366
Nofap is cool and it maybe has potential but I think it is for a certain type of person, and maybe down the line I could try it again but I don't think it has
anything for me right now.
And yeah getting hit by a car would be really good because then your family wouldn't be ridden with guilt. You would be free but it wouldn't be suicide. It is probably the best way to kill yourself.
>>28057610
It's okay to be unhappy.
>>28057774
I have my garden, my greenhouse. I look after my plants. Really, it is slow and uninteresting to the core but there's something in it for me that fulfils a certain need or atleast i pretend it does.
>>28057840
It definitely could be worse but right now I don't know what that means. Thanks for posting that pic.
Thanks for reading my thread and being there for each other. This is good.
>>28057995
Thanks for making the thread
>>28057940
This is what puts me off going to counseling, reading stuff like this. It could be good it could be like this.
>>28057898
I want a job. My mom told me to major in it. I'm a semester away from graduating.
The worst part about depression is that it seems to clog up your mind. I used to pride myself on my spelling and now I am not so great. Just average. It's not some lack of practice, I'm on the internet every day.
But I'm finding it hard to spell some things. A skill that I was good at is now dissipating and I have lost the will to reverse it.
>>28057598
>>28057573
Thanks m8s
Hope your dads live long if you still have them
