Post your personal feels guys
Rage
Mental pain
>>28029028
>wanna go outside and do stuff
>too nervous to get dressed and walk out because my mom will ask me where I'm going
>stay indoors refreshing r9k for the last five hours
>>28029289
>tfw same story :(
I'm so well off there is nothing i can do with my money, so i'm not motivated to work or get off my ass in any way
I'm educated to no end but i don't feel like contributing to society because i hate every other people passionately and i don't feel like putting up with their shit in any way shape or form
I just linger in this world without purpose
Sometimes when the weather is nice i apply to some easy as hell no training required shitty job and when they hire me i ignore them because by then my mood is not as good
i live in my own place and the thought of going back to my parents, sharing the place with someone or actually having gf makes me feel physically ill
Sometimes i feel like pouring soda all over myself for no fucking reason whatsoever
I would blast myself in the head but i always find i vidya i want to try so i don't, currently it's overwatch
I fucking hate this world and society and all that shit, they tell you you can be anything but in the end what ever you do you end up with some shitty 9 to 5 bullshit for ~45 years straight, fuck that
I know... boring and first world problem but it feels good to write it down
>>28029637
if I suck your dick would you give me some steam games?
>>28029816
post your steam pathetic sissy poorfag
>>28030019
funkyassbeat
i haven't logged for years, sorry for wasting your time
Fuck you I'm posting impersonal feels
>tfw metal
>tfw when grew up with mother who was probably narcissistic or histrionic and now have emotional issues
I want to have a relationship with a women who truly loves me but every time there is an opportunity I just find an excuse to avoid it or fuck it up somehow by being unable to read womens' social cues.
>Found the perfect partner
>She didn't
>want to die on the daily
>can't contribute to society in a meaningful way
>haven't practiced guitar in months so I can't even play like I used to
>tried rekindling old friendship just to find that everyone is dating eachother
>my ex also hangs with them now
>can't have anything nice and it's all my fault
The most I could do is get my car running and like, drive it off a cliff or something. I do love the ocean.
>>28032623
Then go, you beautiful faggot, drive off a cliff and die in the ocean. Either that or come here and get a hug.
>>28029028
I wasted two years of my life doing nothing worthwhile. I passed my classes for my degree, but I have nothing but the faintest memories of what I did. Nor from middle school. I only remember 2 years of highschool as hype, then 1st and 4th and 5th year of my degree, and there's this hole in the middle where I didn't accomplish anything.
I could've learned a language, picked up a martial art, done something worthwhile. I wasted my time, and the clock is ticking.
And i am afraid.
>>28032656
I'd like a hug, very much so.
>captcha: pick all the bodies of water
>>28032500
This is like one of those "write the saddest thing you can think of in under 10 words"
i know the feeling all too well and i'm sorry for you man, all i can tell you is that there is no such thing as a perfect partner, you'll meet lots of girls who you'll feel like this about and once you're over this girl you'll wonder why you considered her the perfect princess you do now
good luck brother, hope you have nothing but good days for the rest of your life
>>28032713
I swear to god sometimes it physically hurts to not be able to hug you anons..
>>28032765
thanks /b/ro. I know there will be others but right now it hurts really fucking bad because right now she seems so perfect. Guess I'll have to wait this one out eh?
>>28029637
pls buy me synthesizers
>tfw dumb
>tfw boring
>tfw lazy
>tfw ugly
>tfw just a piece of shit
>>28029637
Kinda same here.
Everything I need in life can be pirated.
My life works like this
>plow through game/movie/album
>move on to the next
Without knowing that I have to get a minimum wagie job I could keep doing this forever.
>>28032828
I wish that GIF held a couple frames longer of them actually hugging, I can sort of feel it if I try.
>>28032888
hello robot my old friend
your feels are the same as this man's
because it never gets better
>decently funny and likeable in person
>0 ability at humor in text-based communication
>messaging girls on OKC and Tinder and can only come up with some gay question about their profile
>wish I could come up with the spontaneous I-don't-give-a-fuck sort of messages that girls will actually respond to
It's fucking unfair that I've spend so much time on this website and still suck at banter.
>>28029028
>tfw if I had enough money I could solve most of my problems
>tfw the best friends I have irl are robots and basically incompetent
>tfw the cool friends I have irl I no longer speak with and they're having funtimes at big name universities
Life is shit tbqh. I have normalfag potential, but even if i reach that level i wont ever be happy. I know its retarded but im in love with someone i havent met and can never be with. It gets progressively and exponentially worse every day to the point that all i can think of is her.
I've got a whole host at the minute, it's brilliant.
I somehow managed to get into literally the best university in my country (we're talking top 3 in the world, which probably makes it obvious where I'm talking about), and I'm currently pissing it up the wall. I'm missing deadlines, classes and lectures because I feel like shit nearly 24 hours a day. I want to get better but at the same time I can't sum up the effort to go to counselling and, even though the doctor wants me on them, anti-depressants scare the shit out of me. But at the same time I'm getting really scared that it doesn't get any better from here. I started cutting again and last night I pretty much completely lost control and now I can barely move my arms. I can't see anybody partly because of the cuts all over my body, and partly because my anxiety is getting to the point where even seeing my friends makes me think I'm going to die (palpitations are a bitch).
On top of that, I've got a crazy slow heart rate which apparently is really concerning my cardiologist, so I spend at least half of the day checking my pulse because, even though I think about killing myself on a pretty regular basis, the thought of dying suddenly without being able to say/do the last things that I want fucking terrifies me.
The friends I do have here have basically just cut me off. When you get depression you realise that people don't value you for your worth as a person, they value you on how you make them feel. So if you're not upbeat all the time like they are, then they'll just steadily ostracise you.
It's fun. Honestly, even if you only gloss over this, thanks for giving me somewhere to vent all this shit because I really don't have anywhere else.
>>28032960
I swear to god it physically hurts.. I know how you feel I just wish I could do anything about it.
>>28029028
>feeling empathetic for my robots
fuck the world
tee eff double ewe no gee eff
>>28032841
no worries man!
she seems it, but i guarantee if you were to end up with her she'd soon fall from perfection in your eyes. some things are better left as "could've been"s. ultimately you just have to live through the sadness and look forward to that morning where you wake up and can finally say you're over her. i know you'll make it.
>>28033037
I know how you feel. I come to these threads because I can feel for others but not for myself.
>>28033113
You're right. Thing is these "could've been" are the things that constantly keep me awake at night, but there is nothing anyone can do about that.
I'm physically tired.
I need to go to the dentist but I'm postponing it because I don't feel like more suffering at the moment.
I need to go to a dermatologist for some problems.
I want friends, a gf and a job so I can feel like I'm somewhat adequate at life.
The last three are on my mind virtually every day. Pretty mentally draining. I can't remember the last time I was just lazing around without a care in the world.
>>28033170
true true, but that's true for most people. even people in happy relationships will think back and be haunted by "could've been"s, just gotta suck it up unfortunately.
all you can do is distance yourself and wait for your heart to heal itself.
I'm just one bad day away from doing it.
>>28033428
That's the problem I always had and probably always will have, but I've gotten over it before and I will now. Thanks again /b/ro, I'll go and sleep now. I wish you the best.
>>28033524
sleep is in itself a good thing, instead of staying up late at night, since that's when negative thoughts often reach their fever pitch.
best to you too man!
>>28029289
I know this feel. I almost never leave so when I do she makes it into a big scene.
i can't stand not shaving if i have a moustache because i look like a dipshit with one and I finally shaved my face so hard out of my own obsession-compulsion that I have purple razor rash on both sides of my upper lip. so now i look like i have a beaner stache from across a room and it hurts as if to say i'll always look like shit no matter how hard i try.
>>28029028
I'm going to community college right now, about to go into my 3rd year of a 2 year degree because I had to drop classes
Working a shitty part time job
While all my friends and siblings have direction in their lives at 4 year universities and bfs/gfs
And I'm living at home and I feel like I'm hurting my parents
All I have is my vidja, a 1987 Toyota mr2, and a bunch of guns
And I wish I could just stop feeling for a while, itd be nice
>>28029289
I sort of know that feel. Just say you're going out for a walk or to get lunch. If you keep doing it then she won't question you anymore
>>28029028
Double cucked
>oneita asks out a beta even after an even bigger beta, though talented, loser turns her down
>i'm at least her third choice
>current bf set up his even bigger beta friend, and this guy is just ridiculously beta, with a girl i asked out but got rejected by after the first date
>i've got a practice gf who really doesnt care about me, hasnt kissed me in two months
>mfw i'm going to prom with all these people and have to pretend to be happy
J U ST
>can't handle change
>fuck up everything
I was given a job, hundreds applied for and in a fit of rage I screamed at my manager and quit over the phone. Also ghosted any friends who still bothered to care about me after highschool. Slowly eating my way into a heart attack, don't contact anyone. I fucked it up so much and I want it all back, but I know if I do get it back, i'll ruin it again.
I love my old friends but I haven't messaged them in years, I ignored all their calls, told them to never contact me. Parents still think i'm going to be a late bloomer and give them grandkids. only child, so it's really bad for them
I don't know how to do better at life and even if I try it doesn't feel genuine it just feels extremely forced and unnatural. I guess forcing myself to do things is kinda the point but I don't know how to explain it better.
I don't have a specific goal in mind when it comes to my future so nothing I do seems to matter and because of that I just feel even more depressed and end up failing at everything.
I will never understand those who have a clear goal set in mind so early in life. And not only that but they actually do those things the absolute madmen.
>tl;dr I don't know how to live.
>>28029028
boredom, then anxiety, then some guilt and self-loathing mixed in
>>28033278
Same here, just canceled a root canal. I have fourteen cavities. It doesn't get better. Take it from me, a fucking normalfag, who just dumped his girlfriend because I don't deserve to be happy. Things don't get better, women don't make you happy. Save yourself.
>Been shot in the face. It's healed but I have permanent nerve damage which makes my skin extremely ticklish and sensitive.
>Shaving is torture because of this
>$250,000 in debt to the hospital
Probably going to end up homeless because I'm a do-nothing NEET.
Talking to a qt I met online and who has no interest in me doesn't help
>people constantly laugh at my posts on 4chan
>everyone thinks I'm boring in real life
>>28035832
oh god the feels are too real with that
Honestly surprised I haven't shown all the stress that's built up in me.
>>28029028
girl at work is super into me, despite her being a 7/10 and me being a 2-3/10. She's super freaky and weird, and keeps making passes at me, but I am too afraid to turn her down lest she decide to file some kind of sexual harassment suit against me. I do not genuinely believe she will but I am paranoid as hell after the last time this happened to me.
The intro to Steven Universe gives me feels, despite never having watched the show.
I am doing extremely well at work and receive a steady amount of praise for my work and I have no idea how to handle it. I always pictured myself as some fat loser kid but I have a lot going for me and all I can do is sperg out on 4chan.
i bought a porn subscription
1 month for $29.95
it's been a good decision so far
>Called down to office in the morning
>Given a note and told to come back at 7:50, 40ish minutes later
>Think people saw me watching a video about Columbine or they got into my school issued iPad and saw my history and pics
>Nervous as fuck
>7:50, quickly get up out of my seat in the middle and try to walk like I'm not nervous or anything walking past people sitting down, surprised no one made a comment about me smelling like shit
>Get down to office, 4 kids all sitting in chairs talking to one of the office people
>Think they're here to testify as witnesses against me
>No seats so just stand in the corner of the room near the window
>Other guy near there, he moves away probably because I smelt like shit
>Principal walks out, congratulates us on being the Student of the Quarter
>Reads off our awards and why we got them
>Have to walk up to him, feel bad because I smell like ass and was near him and everyone sitting down, they were probably thinking something like "wow this kid smells like shit what a loser how did he even get this"
>Have to shake his hand, just put mine around his
>Tells us to go to a room to get our pictures taken so they can be put up in the commons
>We all follow 1 guy, I'm trailing in the back
>Stacy holds the door open, everyone says thanks so I quietly say thanks
>Go and sit down and wait
>Everyone is a Chad or Stacy, except me and a skinny short kid
>They're all talking about there AP classes
>Meanwhile I'm not taking any AP classes and I'm failing science, have a C in landscaping and failing history
>Wait to go last to take my picture
>Only one in room while the other person is taking a picture, try and wipe dandruff off shoulders without it turning into powder and being impossible to get off, already pretty hard to get off
>Looked like utter shit, worse than normal, giant red bump on nose, hair was a mess
>Fix hair
>Stacy walks out, says congratulations and good job, say you to
Cont
>>28036412
>Go in, have to walk past photographer, hopefully he magically doesn't smell me somehow
>Sit down, turn head slightly so bump isn't as easily visible
>He takes pic, it comes up on flat screen
>Not smiling, pale skin, somewhat visible blue rings around my eyes, look like a serial killer
>Start walking out, he says thanks and I say you to, realize that I shouldn't have said that because it made me sound like a fucking idiot
>Stacy is walking the shortest route back to my class
>Go the other way all around the school back to my class
My "girlfriend" is pulling this let's take a break shit. In her defense it's probably good for our son. She's mad because I messaged an ex on facebook (she found out by logging into my facebook.) Funny thing was I just wanted to catch up with her and my girlfriend flipped her shit.
Weird this is I'm getting a feeling this is it like we are not getting back together. It's really hard because we moved to a different state 2 years ago together had a kid and are raising him. My mom is taking her side too saying if need be her and my son cam move to az to live with her.
Like really my own mom taking my son away and backing my girlfriend over me. I want to be in my son's life for every and its killing me that he might be taken away...
These past weeks have felt like a dream I just don't care and sit in a useless heap till I go to work.
Life is hard.
Help please.
>Pretty much had depression for my whole life.
>Never sought help.
>Suicidal thoughts since I was in middle school
>Suicide attempts in high school.
>Finally diagnosed with depression a couple weeks ago after I checked into the ER.
>Dropped out of uni, they got me started with a psychologist.
>Go into hospital today for my weekly appointment with her.
>Start talking.
>Blah blah blah, yes I'm still having thoughts of suicide, blah blah blah.
>All of a sudden she stops me, looking concerned.
>Tells me I should seriously check myself into the ER again, right now, and talk to a psychiatrist because I simply haven't been improving at all.
>Fuck.
>Agree but explicitly state that I'm not staying overnight here.
>Head down to emerg with her, get checked in.
>After the fucking long ass wait time (something like four or five fucking hours) I finally see a psychiatrist.
>Talk to him, pretty alright guy, seems to understand.
>Tell him pretty much my whole life story up to this point, all suicide attempts, all the close calls.
>All of a sudden he starts "nudge nudge wink wink" "suggesting" I shouldn't get a job till I'm more stable.
>And outright says I should maybe consider living on my own, away from my mom and step dad.
>Subtly mentioned that I can grab a form from the community center around here that he can fill out to get me disability benefits.
>Says it'd be enough for an apartment, food, the works.
Should I take it /r9k/? I just want to live and feel well for once in my life, but I'm scared that it'll just make me feel more worthless than I already am. I don't think my mother will agree at all. Don't give a fuck about step dad, he can go fuck himself. My dad will support pretty much any decision I make, he's cool like that. But even he has his limits, and he doesn't like wellfare. Neither do I for that matter.
Sorry for the long post. Feel free to ignore me.
>>28029028
>been lifting a while
>miss my skinny boy arms and body
>>28036684
Go for it famalam
>>28036684
oh shit DEFINITELY do it anon. dont worry about your mom, you're your own person and she should be able to understand that. also if you do even a TINY bit of productive shit (lookin for job, pursuing a creative hobby, hell even just play some good vidya off your long-ass backlog) while you're on your own, it might make you feel better
>>28035832
>>28035895
more than 50% of comedy is delivery.
I recommend studying the delivery of your favorite stand-ups.
It ended up really helping me.
>>28036684
I did it. It is worth it Anon.
>>28029028
>kissed for the first time this month
>made out once more with this girl
>girl came out as a bisexual to me
>she was a lesbian before meeting me
>I was used as a conversion therapy
>be me
>go poopoo
>sitting in bathroom
>go to wipe
>notp.jpg
>look under Cabinet
>there's none there???
>wtf where's tp
>mfw it's all in the other bathroom
>>28036874
>>28036909
>>28037334
Alright, I'll go for it.
>>28037369
Dude that's awesome, you were attractive enough to turn a dyke into a half dyke. Maybe you can fuck the rest of it out of her.
>i fell for the waifu meme again
>i want out but i don't want it to end at the same time
>found a girl that makes life worth living
>fucked it up literally 20 minutes ago
>told me she doesn't want to talk to me for an indefinite amount of time
>can already feel the suicidal tendencies slipping back
>Ex friend requests me on Kikebook.
>Accept because weak-minded beta who wants to see her page (she has most of her shit hidden to non-friends).
>She has a new boyfriend who looks taller than me (I'm 6', he looks like he must be 6'4 at least based on pictures of them together).
>She has a new boyfriend who is more physically attractive than me.
>She has a ton of friends.
>She has a job that she is passionate for.
>I'm tfwngf, friendless, have some shitty accounting job I hate.
Why do women do this? Did she just want to thinly-veil brag about how much better her life is than mine?
I really want to break up with my girlfriend and live the comfy single life.
But she's loyal and I get pussy on a fairly regular basis..so I dunno if I want to give that up. Also doesn't help that it would devastate her if I dumped her and my family would be really sad about the whole thing.
What the fuck do I do?
>>28038225
how long you been dating her anon? im in a similar situation, only been 5 months though so i could still get out before it gets too serious. but i dont want to hurt her and am starting to get kind of comfy.
>>28037725
>6'
Kek manlet
>>28038333
It's been 5 months for me too! It's gotten fairly serious though. I'm not getting comfy, actually feeling a little trapped.
>22 years old
>way in over my head at Uni
>literally just study 7-8 hours a day apart from classes then sit down in front of the computer for 2 hours as an exhausted mess
>everyone my age has graduated or is at least way closer to graduating than me
>3 failed subjects on my transcript too
I feel like a robot, all I do is work in my prime years - no friends or gf of course
>>28038225
Do it
I was in your position for a year and it ended when she cheated on me and all I wished was that I ended it earlier
Freedom has no price friend
>>28038438
the last time i felt trapped in a relationship, i eventually started to feel so bad (anxious, depressed) about it that i had no choice but to end it and break her heart. maybe the same thing will happen to you.
for now its probably okay to just give it time.
I went to the gym for the first time ever today. I wanted to use the barbells but they were occupied by Chads for the entire time, so I just ran on the treadmill and used some machines. I'm too intimidated by other people to ever stick with this shit. Even if the freeweights weren't occupied, I would probably have made a fool of myself somehow. Fuck this, I'm destined to be a skinnyfat kv forever. Calorie counting is too hard for my flabby ass anyways.
>want a child
>chemotherapy fried my ovaries at age 22
>every fucking girl I've tried to make her my gf abandons me
>have bad grades in school
>economic problems in my family
>I need to be better at school
>I fucking can't cause I'm an idiot
>have anxiety attacks
>anxiety makes me useless
>lately being contemplating suicide really often
I want to fucking die, fellas, I am a failure
>>28038576
>>28038582
Alright, then how do I let her down gently?
This is going to destroy her, I know it.
>>28038683
hahahahaha 1 less mixed child
fuckin roastie
>>28029028
I honestly believe the Puritans had the right ideas about sex. I believe women should wear hijabs and long skirts outdoors as well. Here are some more:
>the following need to immediately be beheaded (wasting bullets on them makes no sense): homosexuals, sluts, niggers (not blacks), and other degenerates
>a return of a theocratic monarchy
>culture and social values before shekels
>etc.
I have my guns and I am ready to give my life up for these values once the day comes.
>failing university course
>exams soon
>too lazy to change
>haven't been to lectures or seminars in months
>feel like it's too late
>don't want to disappoint parents
>will probably kill myself this year
>>28029028
>balding
>balding
>balding
>>28038755
Free yourself.
>tfw all of my dreams are memories that I can't place to a time or a face but my body knows of the ribbons and bows that I once was tied in in my mother's skin
I realized I'm not actually over my ex, so I have to break up with my current gf tomorrow
Hopefully I can go over to a friends house tomorrow night to vape and relieve my stress
>LOSING MY MIND AT AN ALARMING RATE
Is it mood swings? Is it full-blown bipolar? Have I gone full omega? IDEK ANYMORE FAMBOTZ BUT I'M READY TOBE PURGED FROM EXISTENCEFAMZ
1.
>don't know if I should thin my hair, cut my hair, shave, trim, or some combination of two
>extremely indecisive - don't know if I'd look best with long hair no facial hair, long hair and facial hair, or short hair and facial hair
>need someone else to decide for me since all I care about is what's most attractive
2.
>can't tell if oneitis has feelings for me/finds me attractive
>she's somewhat sexually repressed and doesn't ever seem to open up
>is practically a child, romantically speaking
>seems to dodge all flirting efforts
I can't tell if she's not interested in me, or not interested in anyone. I don't think she's had anything close to a bf since her high school prom date.
3.
>don't feel if I feel mentally well enough to go back to college
>took semester off for acute anxiety and depression
>feel pretty normal now, but don't want to risk having a panic attack on the 8 hour drive back, and being stuck in generalized panic mode for an unknown amount of time/until I decide to drop out and return home
I'm logical and relaxed enough to not be worried about much, but when I can't decide things because I don't have all the information I need, I get anxious because I want that information.
>>28039559
>sounds like 14yo problems
>>28029028
>pulling yet another all nighter(after a week of sleeping 3hr/night)to finish my project which is due tomorrow by 4pm
>PIC FUCKING RELATED
I always tell myself Ill start on time and this happens.
>>28039770
>due tomorrow
I mean due today, in like 15 hours
>>28029028
>24 and never had a gf
>Finally get a LDR mommy gf on /r9k/
>Promised she'd never abandoned me and kept asking me if I trust her 100%, to which I kept hesitating because I didn't want to get hurt and she knew that
>Finally trust her 100%
>Months later and she decides to break up
>>28037659
who is your waifu anon? I won't judge.
>tfw failed all GCSE
>tfw doing shity course in last year of sixth form college
>tfw joining army to be cannon fodder
I want my oneitis to fail out of school, so she'll appreciate my intelligence more. I know this is incredibly autistic, but that's just how I feel.
>one week I think I'd make the best fucking boyfriend in the whole god damned world and that any girl willing to put up with my bullshit would always have a reason to smile because I'd never let her forget she's the most beautiful woman in my world
>most of the time I just see myself as a bipolar mess with anxiety and depression issues that couldn't hold together a relationship for more than a few minutes
>luckily I will never find out which because I push away every nice girl in my life
>working non stop so I can avoid having to take out loans for college
>get no sleep
>no time for anything but work and an hour or two at night to relax and catch up on news/etc
>no end in sight
>Interested in a few girls but I'm just not like them and I could never truly get along with them and I'd just be going through the motions doing the same superficial shit
>realize at some point I'm either going to give up and drop everything or go beyond the point of social interaction outside of work and never talk to anyone again
>don't really care either way and just want one to happen
