> the depression starts coming back
>>28005358
>the depression never goes away
> His depression fades from time to time and isn't there every fucking day
Lucky bastard.
>when you get back from working out and the depression is completely gone for five minutes
>feel like I'm going to go back on a manic vibe, hopefully for a few weeks
>crash the very next day into a worse depression than I was in
>when you have just woken up and have no idea what's going on and the depression is gone for a few bliss moments
>the existential thoughts keep coming
>>28005358
How did you even get rid of it
>>28005439
>Lucky bastard.
Not OP, but I think I know his feel. Honestly, I'd just stay depressed instead. Going back feels worse every time and the times in between feel less and less "good" (if it can even be called that) and the coming back of depression hits harder ever so slightly as you realize that you failed once more and fell for the hope meme. It nudges you closer and closer to the edge every time.
>gained all the weight back, started smoking again and haven't left the house in 6 months
I was doing good for a while
highs and lows is what it's always going to be.
>>28005358
DEPRESSION'S GOT A HOLD OF ME
DEPRESSION, GOTTA BREAK FREE
DEPRESSION'S GOT A HOLD OF ME
DEPRESSION'S GONNA KILL ME
I AIN'T GOT NO FRIENDS TO CALL MY OWN
I JUST SIT HERE ALL ALONE
THERE'S NO GIRLS WHO WANT TO TOUCH ME
I DON'T NEED YOUR GOD DAMN SYMPATHY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bOoj4nkEif0
>>28005358
>your excuses and self diagnosis starts coming back
240mg dxm cures me (taken as needed, but not more than once weekly)
>the suicidal urges flare up again
Every few weeks it'll get REALLY bad for a few more weeks
>depression hits hard and you have a tough day
>"whatever i'll double dose on my medication"
>turn into a sweaty, twitching wreck all day who can't speak when spoken to
>it's ok though because I don't have emotions on a double dose so I sort of don't care
t-thanks zoloft
>>28005542
Sometimes I will forget about my problems and get lost in thought
>The depression phases are getting progressively worse
>depressed
>finally look into uni shit that you should have done years ago
>heart starts racing like crazy, almost vomit
>mfw i realize that i have to send several emails to settle everything
I honestly feel like dying.
>your autism is flaring up again
>>28005911
Why does this happen to us?
>Vidya and jewtube keeps me sane
>Dad takes PC away, tellsnme to get my shit together
>Lie in bed in all my free time driving myself deeper into depression every passing hour
>See myself happy with my crush in my dreams
>Start sleeping 16+ hours a day just so I can be with her again
How fucked up am I?
>tired all day because no sleep and depression
>go to bed at 3am after hours of successfully procrastinating uni work
>lie in bed, unable to fall asleep
>fantasize, "day"dream
>realize i've been lying in my bed, escaping into a live i can never have
>want to cry, but no tears come out
>want to kill myself
da capo
>>28005358
I know. its such a terrible feeling
I try and work so hard to maintain grades and also get a grasp on my depression, that its so exhausting to see it re-emerge
i just want it to go away
i feel you, robot
>tfw you've literally been feeling depressive symptoms since 5 years old and it's progressively gotten worse and shows no signs of stopping
>>28006199
>useless father who failed to raise you takes your entertainment away, thinking it'll make you into a normie and not depressed anymore
>end up becoming even more depressed and suicidal
>"hurrdurr you're just a spoiled little shit that doesn't want to try!"
Dads, huh?
>>28005518
>start thinking about death and non existance before going to sleep
>have technically died before so ive been to the void
>remember it
>died right in front of my dad
>woke up to him shaking me and freaking out
>the thought of knowing that we're all going to die one day hits me hard
>rise out of my bed freaking out for a split second and my heart is racing
>pop a valium so I can sleep with out these thoughts bothering me
