We are open lads, this is slavkeep. I will be monitoring this thread for the next 6 hours or so.
Share what's troubling you. Oh, also get shitfaced.
>>27997742
>slavkeep
Znachit li eto chto ya mohu pisat zdes' po-russki?
>>27997762
You can write in russian, I understand 70% of it, enough to understand. I'm serbian though.
I'm actually surprisingly at ease. I'll just have a mojito.
I want water.
My feels like someone threw acid on my face
>>27997780
Sure.
>>27997790
Well we seem to be dealing with some suprisingly light stuff today.
*pic related stumbles in drunk* WOAH DUDE THIS BAR IS DEAD. YOU SURE WE WANT TO DRINK HERE?
Meant to nap. Woke up 10hrs later... I'll take a coffee
>>27997885
I hate when that happens. Wasted time.
>>27997855
Fucking hell that is the most obnoxious attire I've ever seen
Jack and coke please bartender Girl literally stopped replying /hitting me up after we spoke about dating. Don't know what the fuck I did but now I'm more insecure and lonely then ever before.*lights up joint*
>>27997940
At least you know now where you stand. Fuck her anon, plenty of more fish in the sea.
I just hung out with my normie coworkers over the weekend and when I got back we didn't acknowledge it.
Nothing weird happened, but I felt really embarrassed because I really had fun but I didn't feel like I should talk about it because they're practically strangers to me and maybe they regretted showing their drunk side to me.
My dad told me I was being socially retarded and that I made it awkward by refusing to say thanks for the other night. However, that same night I told them I wouldn't mention it because we were complete embarrassments, so I wasn't going to mention it in the office, but maybe I should have said something.
I wanted them to think about me again in the future if they want an extra person, but I don't think they will since I came off as standoffish. Did I really fuck up?
Can i have a can of fanta wojak. Sorry lad am only 18.
I just in school browering /r9k/ out of bordom. I dont want to consider myself as a robot because of silly competition of figuring out who is the biggest loser here.
> haha teacher wanted to take my phone.
I killed off my depression by playing some kingdom hearts 2.
>The black fembot i liked just hugged tyrone right before my eyes.
>a black fembot that am taking to the prom is too shy to talk to me. Any conversation i start with an her, she replies with one or two words. Rarely does she reply with a full sentence.
>>27998123
Yep you did indeed fuck up anon. Try having a conversation with them and may be they will do some cool things with you again. Try not to sound like a autist and remind them of the night you had with them.
>>27998290
Can you tell me why I fucked up? I was just following their lead.
>10 year high school anniversary in a month
>fat and balding
This is gonna be fun.
>>27998200
That Yuffie cosplay tho. Props for KH2. go play a real FF like IX
Things are seemingly going right for me, yet I still feel nothing. Does it get any better lads?
>>27999407
Gotta be more specific fempai
420 and no grass lying about
>>27997742
ffs atleast post a good version of it, took like a day to make this wojak
>>27999884
Its good enough. I am posting from my laptop, using my mobile phone data which is dial up tier.
I'll take a rum on ice please.
Not a huge gripe but I want to discuss Columbine really bad but I don't want to bring it up and be branded as a potential school shooter. Good thing there are a shit ton of Columbine threads. Beside that it's just the same old feeling of uselessness.
Don't really know how to write this without sounding like a huge babby child, but I'll risk it.
My boyfriend and I got into a huge spat last night because of how self-loathing I've become. I attribute it to the way I grew up, and whenever I mention my circumstance he makes me feel guilty and kind've discredits how I feel because I grew up with both my parents and they were fairly well off and he didn't have that, which is understandable but it's not really a rational point is it?
>>27997742
Man, I am a serial killer. Can't get over it. I just do it. First person I killed by accident during hiking trip. At that moment when she felt from the rock, I felt nothing. First 15-20 seconds I felt nothing. Then I just realized some sort of divine energy flowing through my body. I felt inspired, happy, alive and satisfied. Ever since I can't stop doing it. I work as police medic saving lifes and then I take them in a free time. Can't stop.
>>28001024
maybe you both should stop being whiny bitches but maybe thats a part of why you're both compatible
>>28001053
That's pretty silly, everyone has their weak spots. It's okay to feel hurt sometimes, bud.
What are your plans for today lads?
>>28001064
>saving pictures of little girls on your phone
That's pathetic, anon.
>>28001064
It's just what I think, you're sharin your problems and im tellin you how I feel. Thicker skin wouldn't hurt you to.
>>28001046
cool, go somewhere else sonny
>tfw dad bought me tickets to see my favorite band tomorrow
>haven't left the house in a month, anxiety through the roof
>never even been to the venue before
>scared of crowds
>but still want to see my favorite band
>drive is an hour south
>will have to park in a parking garage and walk through the city streets at night
>will have to be in a crowd of 1000+ people
Get me something strong barkeep. Really strong. I need to be bold if I'm going to do this.
>>28001242
I'm sure a lot more weird people have done worse.
I'll have some Laphroaig, neat.
I've got this issue that's a bit difficult to explain but hear me out. So I've been seeing this OCD specialist for a couple of months now. Really good guy, professional, been helping me a lot. A couple of weeks ago we started exposure and response prevention therapy. It's brutal. I have to go over situations that provoke my anxiety the most over and over again, put myself in situations that I'd normally do everything to avoid. See, my OCD manifests itself as intrusive thoughts about stalking, torture, murder and necrophilia. It would be bearable but the thoughts are accompanied by the almost overwhelming urge to act on the thoughts.
I've had it under control for years, and I keep myself in check by constantly going over the potential consequences of those actions in my head. Here's the issue:
My psychologist has been telling me for a week that in order to work on reducing and eliminating the compulsion and obsession, I need to take full account of the thoughts, and tell myself, "yes, I am going to kill those people," or, "yes, I am going to dig up and fuck that body." The key being that I do not indulge in my compulsion to counter the thoughts, stay with them to heighten my exposure to them, and NOT actually act on my thoughts.
How the fuck am I supposed to constantly tell myself I'm going to act on my urges and not snap? Is my psychologist an absolute madman?
>>28001252
Having thicker skin isn't the issue, I have it when it counts. I like being able to be vulnerable around the person I love and when he discredits me because >muh childhood was worse it's a little shitty.
>>27997742
>Heavily drank for 3 weeks straight
>One morning wake up projectile vomiting and can't stop puking every 20 mins or so
>Even when nothing left in stomach still some thick orange paste comes out after wretching
>Thought I was gonna have to go to hospital because of dehydration
>Toughed it out tho
And I will never drink again. Except I'll probably do the same exact thing in 2 months. But man, that was my first real health scare due to drinking. Still not sure if I didn't just coincidentally have food poisoning because I've never puked more than a couple times after a night of overindulgence until that day.
>>28001306
You'll be totally alone there.
Been there done that. At least you'll have your dad with you since he apparently cares.
>>28001306
As someone who goes to see bands on the regular and someone who actually plays live shows - don't worry.
Nothing to stress about. Nobody will talk to you, nobody will give you any amount of shit. A lot of people go alone. Go early if you want to be in the front. Have fun. Absolutely nothing to be anxious about.
>>28001306
I believe in you friend! You can do it!
I just took 1.5mg of Xanax so I can't drink any alcohol
I felt like I was getting better and didn't really need xanax more than once a week, but yesterday and today have been really shit days
I am now scared that the doctors will take away my Xanax because I took so much of it over the last two days
Before that I only needed it once a week and then like 0.5mg
I don't want to lose it it's the only thing that helps me feel normal
>>28001414
if you have good doctors, and explain to them how yesterday and today were so bad for you that you needed the xanax, they should be understanding. they might monitor your usage more closely just as a preventive measure, but they shouldn't take it away.
>>28001414
Stop now.
After only a year of regular prescribed useage my tolerance has grown from .5 mg being a godsend to 4mg needed for the same effect. I used to be able to only take it once a week, now I need to take it daily or I get shitty withdrawal symptoms worse than words can describe. No idea how I'm gonna be able to get off of this stuff. Quit now while your body is not physically dependent on it.
>tfw unable to enjoy video games unless I have a podcast in the background or some kind of movie/tv show on the laptop on the side
>at the very least have to monitor some threads
This is a really shit fucking feel. Its bad enough that I am dead inside, can I at least enjoy and get immersed into some kind of artificial atmosphere of media.
>>28001410
>>28001399
>>28001390
Thanks for the encouragement guys. I think it'll be fine once I get out and get into it. The anticipation is what's driving my anxiety here.
I started lifting and running, but I don't have any time or energy to study now
I'm not passing any exam, it's suffering
>>28001354
I dont know man but get rid of those embarrassing anime images on your phone
You know what, you bring up your childhood for a reason, and that's because of the self-loathing. He's lettin you know it coulda been worse, meanin that you could deff be better. Maybe he is bein an asshole though, seems to me you just want to talk and get things off your small chest, but the man makin it a contest isn't quite helpin, but brings me back to my other point of it could be worse.
>>28001583
Why aren't you fond of the anime pictures?
>>28001514
I took a lot of other meds, but benzos seem to be the only thing that actually helps with my anxiety
>>28001488
I already have to tell them every time I take it and they keep warning me about addiction
My use was steadily decreasing, but a bunch of stuff happened and now I am scared that they will tell me to stop using it
I just want to be able to function normally ;_;
Since it`s this glorious mans birthday, we should honour him by getting him the number 1 spot on this list.
http://www.ranker.com/crowdranked-list/people-we-wish-were-still-alive?page=3
>>28001631
you're in a pretty shitty position, then. benzos are bad news. extremely dependency-forming, very easy to get addicted to, develop tolerance to them very quickly... anyone who uses them should be trying to reduce their dose as much as possible, not because there's something bad with taking medication, but because benzos have such a high potential for seriously fucking you up for a long time. it's comparable to taking street drugs to help with your mental health. they may help the most in the short-term, but the effects they have on your body will leave you worse off than you started.
I'm sure you've heard all of this before but I figured explaining where your doctors (and the other posters) are coming from might help a little bit. It's okay to be scared that they'll take it away, but more importantly, you should be scared that they'll keep you on it.
have you tried buspirone?
>>28001694
They gave me Lyrica, Valerian, Promethazine, and none of them worked
Never heard of buspirone before
I will talk with my doctors tomorrow and maybe figure something out
>>28001777sick trips
it's not an SSRI or benzo, in a class of medication called azapirone, usually used to augment SSRI's when treating depression, but it's main use has become treating anxiety. its effects are comparable to benzos, very few side effects, not habit forming. the only downside is it takes several weeks for it to start working, so if you're going through a tough time right now you may want to wait it out before trying to start it.
good luck man
>>28001848
I am also taking california rocket fuel, but it doesn't really help
I will ask my doctors tomorrow about buspirone
Thanks Anon
>tfw OP abandoned his thread right around when you make your post
>tfw thread starts to die
one lonely, drunken bump for this thread
i'm drinking shitty fucking cider in the middle of the day because it's the only thing for sale at the shitty store nearby
i'm just about done with pretending i can live life like this, so i'm asking my addict friend to get me some opiates
i give up
I missed my 3rd speech for my class (my fault entirely) and the 2nd, but i was ready to do the makeup for 1/2 credit. The on the day of the makeup, my apartment shower tiles just completely fell apart, exposing black mold. The landlord told me and my roomates we could come back in a week. So not only did i miss the makeup but i missed about 2 weeks worth of speech class. I dont think i can show my face again, and im sure im going to fail bow. What should i do.
