Who else don't kill themselves just because they don't wanna hurt their family?
>>27987010
There is so much I want to do, if only I didn't love my family so much.
>The day my parents die, I'm fucking starting a country, just watch me
>>27987010
Whenever I feel suicidal I think about my mother finding my dead body and see her crying, that usually keeps the thought of actually doing it out of my head. I barely have a relationship with her but I don't want to put her through that, this is also assuming she cares that much.
>>27987010
Yep. Mmaybe the antidepressants will help once i get them.
>>27987076
Fuck, the only reason that i'm not dead yet is because my family loves me so much. It's a blessing and a curse, i feel that i'm trapped in this reality.
>>27987076
>starting a country
what does this even mean
>>27987158
It means that the day my parents die I'm going Jefferson Davis and just start fucking everything up. My parents and sister are the only things stopping me from going apeshit on society (or at least trying)
>>27987145
Same here bro.
>>27987130
I feel like i should talk to someone but i don't want to get anyone involved in my problems.
I'm enough of a burden.
>>27987227
Exactly how i feel, i'm scared that when my parents die i will just go batshit crazy and fuck everything up.
Maybe i will stop feeling this way when that happens, i hope.
>>27987253
I know how it feels. But if you can bring yourself to do it, try to get a shrink or something like it.
They help. Even if it's just a little.
>>27987388
I've been thinking about it, maybe i'll do it
>>27987483
Seeya anon, gonna sleep.
Hope you do it. We might not be made for this world, but we can adapt. I believe in you.
>>27987648
I feel like anything anyone can say is going to manipulate me in some aspect, thats why I dont try to search for help, they are human beings like me. If anything they have more problems than me. So in The end I prefer to do my own mistakes than to follow another person who is going to mold me Into her liking.
>>27987010
>caring about your family
pleb
>>27987648
Thank you, good night anon
>>27987010
definitely me. it would ruin my entire family's life and destroy any mental well-being they still had. but all i can think about anymore is killing myself
the only thing keeping me alive is my legacy. I don't want to go out as a coward, I want to die in some freak accident so people can act as if I was an angel that was taken too soon meanwhile it feels like I wasn't taken soon enough B)
>>27987010
Too many people in my small family already dead, think they've hurt enough.
Makes me wish i could just cease to exist...no memories of me...no corpse.....just nothing.
>>27987010
This is the only thing that really keeps me alive
Knowing I'm stuck in this trap forever is a good source of motivation to not just sit down and let life pass me by for too long though
